I sat down on a stool beside her bed and said, "Since you don't want to sleep yet, I'll stay with you for a while." ”

She smiled, "You're so nice to me, but you'd better go to bed early and don't believe you can control your body." ”

I'm a person who is easily moved, and at this moment I suddenly felt that this little monster seemed like a familiar friend to me, and I nodded.

She whispered again: "My appearance is right and wrong. Why, away from all appearances? ”

I asked her, "This is also the scripture, isn't it?" What do you mean? ”

She stared at the ceiling for a moment, then said, "This is the Diamond Sutra, don't believe everything you see with your eyes, even if I'm not the real me, yesterday I'm old, tomorrow I don't know what it will be, now I'm just an empty shell, so ah, everything you see is not the truth." ”

These words she said undoubtedly made the most sense to her, and what could comfort her more than a negative?

I nodded vigorously and looked down at the name tag tied to the end of the bed by the light in the hallway, but it was strange that there was no name on it, could it be that the nurse was negligent?

Someone got up at night, kicked past the door and went to the bathroom.

I was very close to her, and I didn't smell the heavy body odor that the patient had been bedridden for a long time, I smelled a faint musk-like smell, maybe some kind of medicine, and more likely the smell of her severe endocrine disorder.

I tried to figure out what her life would be like in her spiritual world under the extreme weakness of her body. If it were a different one, I would expect that the spirit would be strong enough to generate the power to get rid of the body, and then go away like a ghost, without having to feel the torment from the body anymore.

The wind and rain were more raging, showing no signs of abating, and the lightning flashed one after the other, like God's flashing lights. I sat on the edge of the bed in a daze, and then watched the man who had risen at night wandering by the door in a daze like a ghost, and the sound of kicking footsteps faded away.

I broke the silence: "Shall I stew some fish soup for you tomorrow?" ”

She shook her head.

She kept looking at me, her eyes looking for and recording something like a camera, which gave me a sense of grabbing, but I didn't feel offended.

She suddenly reached out and began to unbutton her chest, and I was a little embarrassed, not knowing what she was going to do or whether to turn her back. She was so weak that her fingers were even a little shaky, and with great difficulty she unbuttoned two buttons, then reached in and took out an object, and said to me, "Help me untie it." ”

It was a necklace, the chain was actually quite long, there was no need to untie it, I took it off her head directly. Her neck was very thin and her body was very thin, and it stands to reason that the chain did not need to be so long, and the necklace pendant almost hung down to her heart.

The necklace is still a bit heavy, the chain is made of what metal, embellished with a few small pieces of broken jade, and the pendant is a red agate, the size of a chicken heart. It's hard to understand why she's so weak and why she's hanging such a heavy necklace, I think this thing can stop her heartbeat.

I couldn't help but laugh: "Is this your talisman?" That's a lot of weight. ”

Xiamen is the largest agate processing base in the country, and there are many large-scale agate processing factories opened by Taiwanese in the Dongfu Industrial Zone outside the island. This thing seems to foreigners to be beautiful stones, but the unique jade culture of the Chinese gives these stones extraordinary meaning, so they are imported into China in large quantities. In particular, in recent years, large-scale agate mines have been discovered in Madagascar, Africa, and the minerals produced have basically been covered by China. Not only the mines in Africa, but also in South America, almost 80% of the world's mines are concentrated in Xiamen, and then processed into various handicrafts and ornaments.

Red agate is one of the five treasures of Buddhism, and many people who believe in Buddhism like to wear red agate ornaments. As the saying goes, scarcity is precious, and in the past, the hats of Qing Dynasty officials were prescribed to use red agate. But now the world's agate is shipped to China, and the value of the amount will naturally plummet, but the pure red agate is still very valuable. Although the agate pendant of this necklace is quite red, I know that the red agate on the market is basically chemically dyed, and the real natural red agate is not so beautiful, and the red all over the body to this extent is basically not natural, and I estimate that this chain is worth one or two hundred yuan.

She smiled and said to me, "This chain is not valuable, but it means a lot to me, you are so good to me, I will give it to you." ”

I didn't know what to say when I held the necklace, and I refused directly for fear of hurting people, and it was obviously inappropriate to accept it. And she must have a family, what if she has a three-long and two-short tonight and I hold her things? Of course, I didn't believe that she was trying to trick me, so I went into her hospital room and sat on the edge of her bed, already holding her necklace in my hand, and there was a more direct way to trick me. She saw my suspicions, and the brilliance in her big eyes flickered, and then she whispered, "If you don't want it, can you keep it for me?" ”

I was a little embarrassed by this, so I agreed to keep it for her for two days. She was happy: "You can put it on now, don't take it off, don't let others know, okay?" ”

I happily agreed, and as I put it on, she nodded contentedly like a child. When I left, I walked to the door and remembered that I didn't know her name yet, and I seemed to be able to detect her smile in the dark: "Xiaolou listened to the spring rain overnight, and sold apricot blossoms in the deep alleys of the Ming Dynasty, and told you tomorrow night." ”

"You know my name?"

The girl smiled and said nothing.

My mother once said that she liked Lu You's poem very much, which she learned when she was in love with her father, so I named my name Lou Lanyu after I was born. Loulan is an ancient country name, the site is in Xinjiang, so Loulan is often used as a name in the local area, from time to time you can see Loulan barbecue, Loulan dried fruit or something on the street, I never liked this name before leaving Xinjiang.

When I returned to the bench, I downloaded a copy of the Diamond Sutra and found that I couldn't understand a single sentence except for the one that had been explained. I also checked the sentence "Po Shan Po Yan Di", and it is indeed the name of the god of the night, but it has nothing to do with the "Diamond Sutra", but from the "Huayan Sutra", which needs to be called seven times to be effective, and it can not dream of demons.

When it was almost dawn, I walked lightly to her door, and there was no sound inside, it was quiet and cold, I don't know if she is asleep, I hope she is not dead.

Later, I went back to my room and slept in a daze, and I didn't get up to eat breakfast. I didn't get up after nine o'clock when the doctor came to check on the ward. I was very tired from sleeping, and I felt a group of doctors come up to me, and someone asked, "What about this patient's medical records?" A female voice replied, "He's not a patient, he's a family member." Someone laughed and said, "The face is more ugly than the patient." ”

I slept until almost noon and didn't wake up until noon, and ate breakfast and lunch together. During the meal, I noticed that my father looked at me from time to time, and I thought he was not feeling well, so he waved his hand.

After the meal, my mother packed up the dishes and chopsticks and went home, and my father asked me to go downstairs with him. At lunchtime, there was basically no one in the small garden behind the building, and when we walked to an open area, my father pointed to my neck and said, "I remember that you gave this necklace back to someone, how did you get it back?" ”

I subconsciously touched the necklace on my chest and looked at him in surprise: "I'm giving it away?" How do you know I'm wearing a necklace? My father looked at me and frowned: "I saw it when you went to bed in the morning, didn't you give it away?" ”

"This chain is for someone else to keep, not mine, when have I ever had this kind of necklace?"

My father looked at me for half a minute, and I was furious by him, and then he approached me and asked, "Honestly, who have you seen these days!?" ”

The midday sun shrouded us, and the shadows of our father and son gathered into a strange mass on the ground. Looking at his stern eyes, I became agitated.

When I was a child, my father taught me directly not as much as my mother, but he was more controlling, and he had to scrutinize what kind of friends I contacted, especially with female classmates, and he degraded them to a mess without exception. There were a few times when I really wanted to taunt him, and I didn't see that all the girls he did were high-end goods. I even remember running into a female classmate in high school when I was talking to a girl on the side of the road and he approached me like this, "Don't you think it's a shame to pull and pull with such an ugly girl?" ”

Seeing that I didn't answer, my father impatiently urged, "Say! ”

"I promised others to keep it secret, don't you find it boring to inquire about this kind of thing? If it's okay, take care of your illness, how interesting it is for you to worry about this. "My father's attitude displeased me, and I decided to keep my promise, although the little monster cherished himself, but since I promised not to mention it to anyone, I could not easily break the contract.

My father looked at me in astonishment, grabbed me by the shoulders and asked in a deep voice, "What is being kept secret from me?" When did you meet Jiang He? ”

This time it was my turn to look at my father in surprise, why did I get involved with Jiang He, my father has avoided mentioning the Jiang family for so many years, why did seeing the necklace make him think of Jiang He? That little monster came to my mind, and it didn't have the slightest thing in common with Jiang He in every way.

"Dad, this chain was asked to be kept by a girl last night, why did you get to Xiaohe? It's completely impossible to hit the eight poles, are you not feeling well? ”

"Which girl was last night? What are you talking about? "My father's grip on me intensified, and I was in some pain.

I pulled my father's hand away: "It's the girl who lives in the single room next to the toilet at the end of the hallway!" ”

My father stared at me for a long time, and then said, "You mean that a girl who was hospitalized gave you this necklace in that little ward last night for you to keep?" ”

I nodded, a little discouraged at how I always compromised under coercion.

My father looked at me again for a moment and walked away silently, found a stool to sit down, and motioned for me to sit down too. Before I could get to the place, he waved again, "Now you go upstairs and ask the nurses' station who lived in that room last night." ”

I went upstairs alone and found a familiar nurse, and her words made me feel cold.