I suddenly remembered the spell my father had given me in his hospital bed more than 20 days ago, the love and worry in his eyes when he looked at me, and the tears in his eyes when he hugged my head and said sorry.

I also remember taking out a necklace from an openwork book on my father's bookshelf and putting it around my neck, but I can't remember how I bought it or why I hid it in the book. The memory is so clear, as if it has never been lost.

I also remember my father saying, "I was going to tell you this before I died, but this illness made me realize that I don't necessarily know when I will die, so I'll tell you first." ”

After that, I dreamed of her almost every night, and she always called me a night wanderer. Sometimes they talk to me, sometimes they just rest on my lap without saying a word, and I've never felt fear in my dreams.

A few days later, my father was discharged from the hospital, the family was happy, and life was back on track. But my situation is getting worse and worse.

I often couldn't sleep all night and was prone to dreaming once I did. Although I was not afraid of her, I began to fear the night. I was also worried about hallucinating again, so I became anxious. Thankfully, she didn't appear again when I was awake, and it was a blessing to see her only in my dreams. The worst thing is that my memory deteriorates severely, and I often forget things and forget them cleanly, but sometimes I can remember it again when I sleep well.

The most amazing thing is that one day when I woke up, I actually remembered that I used to look through the books on my father's shelf, and I had never been interested in cryptography semiotics, but now I have a relevant memory, so I can even discuss it with my father, and my father did not show great surprise.

Half a month after I was discharged from the hospital, my father talked to me again, and he decided that I had a mental problem and could no longer escape, and he wanted to find a doctor for treatment immediately. As for the condition, the two of us also agreed not to spread the word, and even my mother didn't tell me. "Don't let anyone know that you've been cured of this kind of disease, including your mother," he said, "or you'll fall to the bottom of the chain of contempt." ”

Dr. Meng showed up three days later, and she gave me an all-encompassing round of tests, even on sexual orientation, and finally diagnosed me with anxiety depression. I questioned the conclusion two or three times, and Dr. Meng changed the diagnosis to paranoid anxiety and depression, and I didn't dare to question it anymore. She said she needed to take medication and give me counseling once a week, and I came to her house to do the counseling.

"Is it to go to her residence in Xianyue Community to do psychological counseling?" Jiang He asked.

I nodded: "Next to that community is Xianyue Hospital, the largest psychiatric hospital in Xiamen, so I take it for granted that she is the doctor there." ”

"What details are you hiding from her?"

"Things like necklaces, spells, etc., my father didn't let me tell anyone, of course I didn't say anything, and I didn't tell the truth about the content of my dreams every night, but I just admitted that I once hallucinated that a girl was chatting with me, and then I often dreamed of her."

"Show me that necklace."

I opened the bookcase, pulled out a hardcover DVD of The Lord of the Rings, and pulled out the necklace inside.

Jiang He said: "You put the necklace in here, I feel that we may be hunted down along the way." ”

I asked, "Are we going out?" ”

Jiang He studied the necklace without raising his head: "Yes, go to Shanghai immediately, you go and pack up and set off later." I haven't seen this necklace before, I didn't give it to me, and I brought all the medicine you took. ”

"In such a hurry?"

"You don't want me to stay here with you to rent out the house across the street before leaving, do you?"

Half an hour later, we walked out of the house, and when we passed by the agent, I handed Xiao Wu the key to the rental house.

Jiang He smiled: "I'm quite good at living." ”

"I can't just leave and never come back, can I? How unlucky. ”

In the evening, we arrived at Shanghai Hongqiao Airport, took the maglev train for a few minutes into the city, and then took a taxi for an hour to Jiang He's house, and I was dozing off all the time. I lack the desire to get close to a megacity like Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou, and I feel that I am a little ant trapped in the vast sea of ants, and I have no sense of existence.

"Let's just kill back and catch my dad off guard." Jiang He said murderously on the plane.

I originally thought that their family would live in a villa area, after all, their pharmaceutical company is well-known in the domestic industry, and the big boss is embarrassed to say that he doesn't live in a villa. In fact, I live in a high-end apartment in the city center, five-star hotel-level management, and the environment is quite good.

I reminded Jiang He: "Go home with a better attitude, don't embarrass me." ”

Jiang He reminded me: "Don't intervene in anything, look at my eyes." ”

The independent elevator directly to the door requires the authorization of the resident to start, and it was Jiang Feng who opened the door, and he looked happy: "Haha, my daughter and son are back together, come in quickly!" ”

Jiang Feng gave me a warm hug, and when he turned around to hug Jiang He, Jiang He had already run into the house and hugged Jiang's mother.

Mother Jiang was very happy, came over and hugged me, and said, "You are a tall and strong man." ”

Jiang's house is very large, the layout of the building is probably four or five hundred square meters, and it is not like many rich people who decorate it brilliantly according to the Palace of Versailles, and the decoration is in the American modern classicist baroque style, the tone is restrained, and the materials are very exquisite.

There is a nanny at home who has started serving food in the restaurant.

Jiang He looked at her mother and said, "Looks like she knows I'm coming back today." ”

Jiang's mother said: "Your father said in the afternoon that you would come back in the evening, and the phone was turned off, I think it should be on the plane." ”

Jiang He found Dr. Meng yesterday, of course she will report to the top, Jiang Feng understands his daughter's character, and of course he can guess what her next step will be. Jiang Feng put one arm around me, and wanted to hug Jiang He with one arm, Jiang He dodged it, Jiang Feng didn't mind, and said with the same breath as more than ten years ago: "You come and sit with me first, let's give some things to the bottom, don't wait for someone to break the plate and bowl to make trouble when you eat." ”

We sat down in the living room, the nanny was about to make tea, Jiang Feng waved her hand and let her leave. Jiang Feng looked at us one by one for a while, and I smiled.

"First of all, I want to declare," Jiang Feng got straight to the point, stared at Jiang He and said, "Your brother Dayu's illness will definitely be cured, it must be cured, there is no doubt about it!" ”

"Someone suspects me of procrastination," Jiang Feng glanced at Jiang's mother: "This is also not right, when to start treatment, the decision is up to Lou Anguo, he doesn't let me start, can I start?" ”

"Then there was a misfortune that your father died," Jiang Feng looked at me and said, "We met at the funeral, and it was not appropriate to talk about this at that time." It stands to reason that I should have communicated with your mother as necessary, but your father had already told him before his death, and there is no need to tell your mother about the outcome of this matter, because he does not want her to be involved. I think your father's considerations are also reasonable. ”

"In this way, how to do things and when to start doing them, the relevant people are all here today, and the decision is up to the four of us." Jiang Feng spread out his hands and took turns to look at us again.

Jiang's mother said: "No matter what we do after the diagnosis, safety comes first, we must be responsible for the heavy rain, and we must also be worthy of Anguo." ”

Jiang Feng nodded slowly, then looked at Jiang's mother and said meaningfully: "I have a deeper affection for Anguo, you can rest assured of this, as for the heavy rain" Jiang Feng turned to Jiang He: "I treat him as my own son." In fact, the preliminary conclusion of the condition has already come out," Jiang Feng turned to me again: "It is indeed in need of treatment." ”

"Meng Ying told me yesterday that he was not diagnosed." Jiang He interjected.

"Well, my baby girl is finally talking to me! I've been ignoring this for two or three years. The sharpness in Jiang Feng's eyes flashed, he shook his head with a wry smile, and then his face turned pale: "I asked her to say that." Meng Ying made a diagnosis soon after arriving in Xiamen, and for the sake of insurance, we also did genetic testing, and the test report was also shown to your father at that time, and systematic treatment was indeed needed. He had been taking the medicine he needed to take for more than a month, and when he was discussing the treatment plan, he had an accident. ”

"Since systemic treatment is needed, what does it mean to be inactive for the next two months? Lou's mother and Brother Da Yu have never known the real condition, so are they waiting to die? "Jiang He is aggressive, because he is coming out for me, I feel a little inappropriate.

"I'm also taking medicine for the past two months, which is very helpful for later treatment and can reduce a lot of pain, but Heavy Rain thinks it's just an antidepressant. But there are other considerations in this, but it's not a proposition that tests my conscience, after all, your mother is supervising, and I'm just taking the time to test your patience. ”

"Actually, I already understood, and when my mother can't bear it anymore, she will tell me the situation, you are using Brother Dayu to fish me back to China, right?" Jiang He glanced at her father.

"Look at these little eyes!" Jiang Feng replied quite simply: "You are right, because some people's words don't count, and they try to stay in Japan after graduation." I'm just going to test you by the way, if you don't come back in half a month, we won't be able to wait for ourselves to start. He leaned his body towards Jiang He: "Isn't that good?" If you don't go back to China, can you see your Brother Dayu? Don't you want to be a part of his treatment? ”

Jiang He had nothing to say, turned his head and ignored him.

"The point is that I didn't judge wrong, and I really got it back." Jiang Feng grinned at me and actually blinked.

His personality is becoming more and more different from that of my father, who is getting older and more serious, and he seems to have maintained the same momentum as he did fifteen years ago. I thought to myself that with my father's personality, he would cheat, and this guy would probably be even better.

"Daddy Jiang, can I ask what the disease is, I'm still confused." Jiang Feng said that the four of them could sit down and settle the matter, but I, the person concerned, didn't know the situation yet, what is this called.

"A little bit of a problem!" Jiang Feng sighed and shook his head: "It's all to blame me and your father for being ignorant when we were young and messing up some problems, don't worry, your Jiang father will definitely cure you." We will talk about the specific problems tomorrow in the company. ”

"Now that the matter has come out, let's deal with it one by one, proceed in an orderly manner, and everyone will work together to stop suspecting each other! Okay, now it's time to eat. Jiang Feng waved his hand and took the lead in getting up.

Jiang He came over and asked me, "Is your dad also so virtuous?" ”

I shook my head: "He's quiet now. While your dad is still alive, don't be awkward with him. ”

Jiang He squinted at me and didn't speak.

Jiang Feng was very excited during the meal, and he talked a lot, Jiang He's attitude eased a lot, and Jiang's mother's whole face glowed. After the meal, Jiang He said that he would take me around to see the familiar environment, and I happily obeyed. To be honest, I have a lot of worries in my stomach, and I can't stand Jiang Feng's enthusiasm for a long time.