"Your answer is really not convincing."

Su Ruyu smiled slightly.

Lu An spread his hands and asked rhetorically, "Really?" However, human beings have pondered such a question for four or five thousand years, and it is still like a pot of porridge. Do you expect me, a kid in my twenties, to be able to think clearly? It's like where life comes from and where does death go? Why is there life and death? It's like the question you just said, I can't understand the contradictions and entanglements in your heart, how can I answer it? Not all questions in this world are answered. ”

"What a cunning boy."

Su Ruyu smiled and gave him a blank look.

Lu An rolled his eyes when he saw her, and continued to ask, "Otherwise?" It's not solving a math problem, it's not writing a program, you have so many questions that you don't understand, and I have a lot of questions that I don't understand. For example, if you are a doctor, can you tell me why people die? ”

"Hey, the immortal, is it still called a person? Maybe it should be called the so-called god that those people in prehistory believed in superstitionally, right? ”

Su Ruyu continued to roll her eyes and glared at Lu An, forgetting the sadness in her heart just now.

Lu An continued to retort: "Why does that person have to die? In addition to dying unexpectedly, why do people necessarily have endings such as old age, sickness and death? ”

"Oh, boy, do you think that studying medicine is like those scientific theorems, there is a cause and there must be an effect, and any problem can be deduced, reasoned, and deduced to get the result, right?"

"Isn't it?" Lu An raised his eyebrows slightly, and secretly suppressed the smugness in his heart.

"Where is medicine like physics and chemistry? What we study is not the ultimate truth of this universe, nor the ultimate law of this universe, nor is there any ultimate teleology, we only study human beings themselves. Do you laymen think that people are like a smart brain, capable of accurate calculations and quantitative analysis? Man is a complex system, counting from the origin of modern biology, for more than a thousand years, have you heard of any formulas and theorems found in people? Is there any constant parameter in a human being? Of course we care about why people die, but people just die, what can you do about this? It's like in billions of years, our universe will be destroyed, what can you do with this universe? Mathematics can indeed calculate all the possibilities in this universe, but what about it? A lot of times, knowing doesn't mean you can change anything. I just know I'm going to die, and I don't want to die, but can you make me immortal? ”

It may be that after drinking, Su Ruyu's spirit was a little excited, she said so much like a cannon, and then said unsatisfactorily: "So, sometimes I hate you engineers the most, and your head is as mechanical as a machine." ”

Seeing that she said such a big call so coherently, Lu An seemed to have really recovered his spirit, and felt that his original intention had finally been achieved, so he hurriedly raised his hand and surrendered: "I'm not an engineer, my head is not a machine, don't get me wrong." ”

In fact, at this time, he didn't really have so many questions, he just wanted this woman lying on his lap to talk to him, it was as simple as that.

For Lu An, the matter of "death" is like a shadow in his life, since he was ten years old, he has never stopped thinking, questioning, questioning, questioning, questioning ...... life and death, in short, all kinds of questions have never stopped.

At first, he didn't understand why his father died, but then he watched his mother grow emaciated and drained of her life on the sickbed, and experienced the sudden death of his brother like a knife, and the shadow of his sister Anna's death.

Since he was a child, he is a person who has witnessed all kinds of deaths, and if he didn't have his own understanding of life and death, he would not have been able to get to where he is today, and he might have fallen in the middle of the way.

Therefore, the reason why Lu An provoked this topic was only keenly aware of Su Ruyu's contradictory and tangled mentality when asking questions, and sure enough, Lu An's conjecture was not far from the facts, and with just a slight stab, the woman with black hair scattered like a cover in front of him spoke at length.

People who have just escaped from the brink of death tend to be emotionally volatile. Some are silent and speechless, others are furious, others are chattering for a listener, and still others are feeble for being heard.

Lu An had made great efforts to study these before, and from the two sentences that Su Ruyu had just woken up, he knew that he should act as the object of this woman's emotions and become her listener.

The secret smugness in his heart before was because he had successfully grasped the mind of this female military doctor and practiced his own cognition in people other than his sister Anna.

And Su Ruyu really wasn't really looking for any answers, she didn't even think about the question carefully, and as soon as Lu An guided her slightly, she overturned her previous question.

Yes, not all questions in this world should have answers, and she said it herself.

"You're not an engineer, so how can you be so proficient in all this web stuff? Still tirelessly trekking to and fro? ”

Lu An shrugged his shoulders and replied: "When people are cornered, they will always burst out with unimaginable motivation. ”

"Desperate?" Su Ruyu turned her face sideways, rubbed Lu An's thigh, and asked.

Lu An nodded and said, "You can't go two years without contact with the outside world, right?" I still have people waiting for me at home, and I might be able to sneak back to meet my family when I connect to the Internet......"

"Hey, it's not that maybe, I'm afraid you've already made a plan."

The corners of Lu An's mouth rose proudly, but he turned to say: "If I haven't been in touch for more than two years, my sister may think I'm dead, so I'm not in a hurry?" ”

Su Ruyu turned her face lightly and sighed: "Sister, ......, you are really happy." ”

Lu An raised his eyebrows and nodded, with a smile on his face.

And Su Ruyu rubbed again, her scattered hair covered her face, and only a faint voice came out: "That's why I struggled and didn't want to die, that's why I didn't want to die." Dead, lonely, ostracized, forgotten......"

Lu An's smile stopped abruptly, he said it well, why did he suddenly come back again?

"You know what? I passed by. What is death? Death is not dark, not unconscious, not quiet and peaceful. Death is when everyone else knows that you are dead, but you don't know it, it is the whole world that has abandoned you, and everyone knows your biggest secret, but you don't know it. Death is loneliness, eternal loneliness......"

Su Ruyu's voice flickered and flickered, and he said quietly, which made Lu An frown, but he didn't force his mouth to interrupt, and when Su Ruyu seemed to finish, he said dissatisfiedly: "Don't you have an answer to this?" You just asked me? I don't think you're teasing me! ”

After speaking, Lu An reached out to the back of Su Ruyu's neck and helped her up, and then picked up her legs and hugged her.

"What are you going to do?" Su Ruyu, who was immersed in her emotions, was taken aback.

"I'm not going to play with you." Lu An pursed his lips and said, "You just woke up, and you drank so much wine, so it's better to lie in bed early and rest well." ”

After taking two steps with her in his arms, Lu An realized that the woman's body in his hand was so light that he almost stumbled when he was already prepared.

"What? Am I heavy? You can't hold it. ”

Lu An said helplessly: "You are much lighter than I thought, and you almost overworked it." ”

"Really? Are you sure you're not lying? Take two steps and let me see. ”

Lu An easily carried her to the depths of the hall, while shaking his head and said, "My sister is a lot worse than you, and she is much heavier than you, and your condition is completely malnourished!" I guess, you must not eat well on weekdays, and you often drink heavily, no wonder you will go into shock and faint! ”

Su Ruyu was lying in Lu An's arms, staring at his complexion, and seeing that his cheekbones were not abnormal, she believed his words.

A person who exerts force in the upper limbs, if the force is reluctant, will involuntarily grit his teeth, and the movement of the cheekbones will be clearly visible at that time. As a "doctor", Su Ruyu knows this well.

Since Lu An was so relaxed, she unceremoniously relaxed and lay down, and retorted casually: "I want to eat well, but on this asteroid of yours, is it desolate like this, like a place where someone can cook?" ”

Lu An was speechless for a moment: "Can't cook?" Don't you know what it means to do it yourself and have enough food and clothing? Besides, please don't use yourself to represent all the people on this planet. ”

"Huh? Hey——, wouldn't you? ”

Lu An said in a contemptuous tone with a little pride: "Of course, otherwise why do you think I said that?" ”

Su Ruyu pursed her lips, knowing that this proud and contemptuous kid was waiting for her to beg him, she secretly snorted coldly, but kept silent.

Lu An took two steps, saw that she didn't respond, secretly tilted a glance down, and saw that she was tightly mouthed and refused to speak, so he was suddenly a little bored, and sped up his pace after scolding.

"Humph! An ignorant woman, who deserves no good mouth, is thin like this......"

As he spoke, Lu An passed the warehouse on the side of the hall and walked to the cabin in the depths.

He had just walked around the outside several times, and he had a clear understanding of the building structure in the main base, Su Ruyu would definitely not sleep in the warehouse, her living room must be in the cabin in the depths.

And sure enough, after walking inside, Lu An saw Su Ruyu's room at a glance. After all, among the several closed doors, Su Ruyu's room door was wide open, which was very conspicuous and abrupt.

Carrying Su Ruyu sideways into the door, Lu An raised his eyes and saw that there was nothing else in the empty room except the "bed". Even, the "bed" was so simple that it was unadorned, barely called a "bed".

However, thinking of the woman he was holding in the crook of his arm, who had been drunk all day, often fell asleep on the chair in the hall, and snored loudly. Then it is not at all surprising that this room is so basic.

Perhaps, for Su Ruyu, this room is not a place for her to rest at all.

So, he complained helplessly and said, "I seem to have gone wrong!" How do you feel like you're supposed to be resting in that chair? ”

"What are you referring to?" Su Ruyu replied angrily: "Just let me rest here, I'm not so squeamish." ”

"Well, as you wish."

Lu An hugged Su Ruyu and gently put her down.

He couldn't help but sigh again in his heart: This woman is too light!