Jiang He looked at me helplessly: "It should be that your parents have reached a consensus and plan to hide it from you completely." My mother said that the two fathers must have discussed the test tube, otherwise how could there be such a coincidence? And they kept their respective wives a secret, so much so that everyone thought we were pregnant naturally. What are the odds that two friends will need IVF at the same time? And the sneaky attitude was even more suspicious, and my mother realized there was something big wrong with it that night. ”

"Your mother told you all about it?"

"Yes, that's what my mom told me when I got sick, and there's something even more unbelievable."

"The difference between the two of us is more than a month, just because our mother's ovulation date is different, and you are a few days earlier than the due date, I postponed it a few days, and the time is forked, and it is really possible to be born on the same day, the same month, the same year, and the same day if you want to deliberately arrange. Both families were very happy after they became pregnant, and the two women naturally made an appointment to go together for physical examinations and pregnancy tests. Your second aunt happened to be working in the hospital, and not long after she was pregnant, she violated the regulations and secretly helped them take blood for a test to give birth to a boy and a girl, in fact, it was to satisfy curiosity, but the test results were very unexpected, and both women were pregnant with twins. ”

"Twins? We were both born twins? "It's really refreshing my outlook on life, I didn't expect that there are so many things hidden from me at home.

Jiang He shook his head: "My mother said that the blame is here, and then when I was a month old, I did B ultrasound and found that they were not twins, so I was overjoyed." ”

"Do you think you would use the same man's ...... for the test tube" I shook my hand like Michael Jackson did, like I was going to shake something off.

"Do you think the two of them are crazy?" Jiang He glared at me and continued: "My mother said that she felt very bad when she detected the twins, which made her think of the three monkeys who looked the same, but that suspicion belonged to a kind of trance and uneasiness, and it soon passed. ”

"What does mistesting of twins have to do with animal experimentation? Of course, humans look at monkeys and feel that they all look the same, and monkeys look at people the same, which is too suspicious. ”

"Humans are basically singletons, with less than one percent of twins, so what is the chance of two friends having twins at the same time? And the twins are not superior in physical strength and intelligence, they are basically premature babies, and the pregnancy is more dangerous for the mother, not to mention the advanced maternal age, which was also mixed at the time. So out of prudence, I immediately did another test, but the result was still the same. My mom said she told my dad after the blood test showed the twins, and he was pretending to be surprised. Pregnant women are very sensitive to men's behavior, and my mom said that at the time, she thought my father was actually surprised why my mother decided to go for a blood test at that time. ”

"Later, when I was five months pregnant, the ultrasound found that it was a misdiagnosis, and there were no twins at all. Although there were some regrets, the two families also accepted it indifferently. No one wants to delve into the reasons for the two misdiagnoses, let alone how likely it is that two families were misdiagnosed as twins at the same time, which is a numbing attitude. Of course, perhaps because someone needs to avoid this problem, once such a topic arises, it will be stopped without a trace. ”

"Let's continue to jump back to the last night and say that the development of things often has its own internal motivation, which is the so-called fate, and it is especially easy to communicate at the moment of separation, and the exchange of hearts may bring many hearts. Your mother's casual remark that night and the sudden quarrel between my fathers afterwards, in just a few words, my mother felt that she had figured out a lot of things, and many of her past doubts slowly became clear like developing a photo. ”

"I was pregnant at the same time, the same twins, and now I found out that they were all IVF, so my mother seriously suspected that they continued to do human experiments after ending animal experiments, and the experiments directly led to the infertility of the two men!"

Jiang He's narration was too imaginative, and this jump scared me again. This kind of judgment is simply incredible, and a conclusion suddenly pops up without logic, and there is a sense of unreality of the temperament of the middle two. It's hard for me to imagine someone like my father experimenting with himself, and what temptation would be worth the risk. Especially my father, who is an old dutiful son, makes it especially difficult for me to relate these messy things to him: "What kind of logic is this, you wrote your graduation thesis like this?" If they are barren, then who are we? ”

"It's that I'm not rigorous enough, I should say, it's not possible to conceive by natural means. It may be that the experiment caused their physiology to change, such as a change in the physical and chemical indicators of body fluids, resulting in biological rejection. ”

"You mean the experiment made it difficult for them to conceive naturally, but is there any evidence? And can the word biological rejection be used between humans? It seems that this term can only be used between species, right? "These words make me uncomfortable, and I can't help but remind them.

"Of course, it can be used between humans, and blood transfusions between people with different blood types can lead to biological rejection. If the antigen of the body fluid is altered, it can also lead to biological rejection, which is called reproductive isolation across species. What we are discussing is a general meaning, the expression may not be rigorous, and I am not a medical student, so you can understand it generally. And these have always been speculations, and even now, my father has firmly denied that human experiments have been conducted. ”

Of course he must deny it, this is nothing, even speculation is too unconvincing, the key logic is not rigorous will make the whole thing look ridiculous, your mother will not be so arbitrary, right? Does she have any other basis? ”

"Of course there are, they live together, and many small changes in the details of life can be felt, and this feeling will accumulate, and then change quantitatively to qualitatively, but when it comes to specific summarization, the details stated are too fragmented and difficult to connect, so that they are not convincing. Therefore, it is difficult to give specific indicator evidence, but I can only say that my father's whole person has changed during the period after the end of the test, not only in terms of thinking, but also in physical strength, especially when he suddenly showed a huge interest in childbearing, and there were signs of indulgence in his personal style. ”

"Your mother is really literal Zou Zou, what can this mean, mental work consumes the mind, and the sudden idleness of a busy man also means the recovery of energy, and he may start to think about family problems, fertility problems, and so on. And when you reach a certain age, you have a crisis of years, which can also lead to a wave of men indulging themselves, which was the case with my father back then. ”

"You put it simply, is my mother the kind of person who thinks about her husband when she is suspicious? Moreover, my mother said that more than once I found traces of iodine wine on my father's body and then found needle-like skin lesions, and when my father was questioned by my mother, he prevaricated that he was not feeling well with acupuncture, and the doctor could not do it. After that, there were no more iodine marks, but by chance my mother still found a few more needle-like skin lesions on my father's thighs, and my father insisted that it was folliculitis. My father has changed a little, and my mother is also vague and stops talking, I think it may not be appropriate to talk to me. Another thing that impressed my mother was that before going to the test tube, my father half-jokingly said that the skill level of those doctors was also worthy of his shoes. You can imagine where my father's self-confidence came from, and of course my mother had some associations about it, whether it was over-interpreted or not, once such details of life were taken out and carefully weighed, they could have different meanings. ”

I still couldn't believe it, I said, "When Dr. Meng gave me psychological counseling before, because of a problem, I once said that there is a branch of psychology called narrative psychology. The name is very mysterious, in fact, it means that although people's life experiences are complex, they are all looking for a clear theme and telling a story of their own. When people talk about something, they will consciously or unconsciously guide the direction according to their own wishes, that is to say, even if we encounter a very sudden event, we will immediately have a pre-existing position when we encounter it, which in itself will affect how we narrate and explain a thing. ”

"You're just trying to say I'm persecuting delusions. You just said that Meng Ying will give you psychological counseling? ”

"yes, once a week."

Jiang He was silent for a while, snorted in his nose, and said: "Although Meng Ying studied medicine, none of her bachelor's, master's and doctor's degrees were in psychology, so she was so mysterious. If you are really depressed, she should recommend finding a professional doctor, and if you are not depressed, the two of you have a weekly date to talk about something. ”

I was just about to defend Jiang He when I stopped, and said expressionlessly: "Fenghua Xueyue won't waste time to say, I will continue to introduce the situation, believe it or not." ”

"When our family returned to Zhejiang and settled down, my parents began to quarrel endlessly. I didn't bother to pay attention to them because I didn't adapt to the environment, I was depressed, and they were arguing a lot, so I never understood why they were arguing, and in the end, I felt that they might quarrel as long as they heard each other's breathing. So my mother took me to Japan, not only to save my marriage, but also to change the environment for me to study hard. That's what she said, anyway. ”

"If you go to junior high school in Japan as a child who doesn't know Japanese, it's not like you're falling behind everywhere, which undermines your confidence."

"Negative parental behavior is as unreasonable as a child's. But I'm okay, I don't like the oppressive atmosphere in Japan, and I enjoy myself as long as I'm used to being alone. But three years later, the situation changed, and I said at breakfast that I was sick, and my parents did not hesitate to bring me back to China for treatment. ”

"I also asked just now why I have to go back to my country for treatment, and the level of medical care in Japan is not bad."