It's snowing again, and the winter in Jiangcheng is very cold this year. I got up from bed and walked to the refrigerator to see a note on the door of the refrigerator: porridge is hot in the rice cooker, your favorite xiaolongbao is in the microwave, and you can heat it up while you eat.

When I opened the fridge, it was full of food, and I didn't really have much of an appetite. When I walked into the bathroom, I saw that the toothbrush was already crowded with toothpaste, the tooth jar contained half a glass of water, and a note was posted on the mirror: how cold the water is, mix it with some hot water and brush your teeth.

I feel like a brain-dead and limb-disabled person who can't take care of himself at all in Zhang Teng's eyes!

I picked up the phone and called him: "Zhang Teng, do you think I'm disabled?" Wrote so many notes telling me this and that! ”

"Xiao Lu, I know you can take care of yourself, but I just feel very happy to do this for you. I have two things that I regret very much, the first is that I couldn't be with my mother when she left, and the other is that I didn't leave you in Jiangcheng but let you go back to Tingnan, which hurt you so much. Now that I have been given this opportunity to take care of you, I am so happy that I want to take care of you all the time. ”

My heart was like a thick layer of snow had been pressed.

"Zhang Teng, but, I think I still love him, I still hate him, I still miss him, and I hate him."

He was silent for a long time and said: "It's okay, when you grow up, you will find that after time passes, time will turn it into it doesn't matter if you love him, you hate him, you miss him, and you hate him." ”

I hung up the phone and looked out the window at the snow falling, thinking that if I survived this winter, next spring might be really beautiful.

When Zhang Teng got off work, I was rummaging through boxes and cabinets at his house, looking for things.

As soon as he entered the door, his face was full of surprise: "There is a thief in the house?" ”

I reacted calmly to his fuss, "No, I want to find something I'm interested in, it's too boring to be home alone." ”

"Your waist is not well yet, and the doctor said that you will not be allowed to lift heavy objects for half a year, don't you know?" He yelled at me angrily.

I gave him a blank look, "You didn't know me for the first day, I can't be idle!" ”

"Go back to bed and lie down."

He scolded me like an order, and I had no choice but to obey. When I walked into the bedroom and sat on the bed, I secretly observed Zhang Teng's expression, and saw that his expression eased slightly, so I said carefully: "I want to quit Ting Nan's job and find a job in Beijing." ”

He didn't say anything, just looked at me stupidly, then walked over to the edge of the bed and sat down.

I lowered my head to avoid his gaze and continued: "I figured it out, since I was in high school, I have never thought about what I want for so many years, to take the university entrance examination, to take the civil service examination, I just want to be closer to Shaoyang, he occupies my entire youth, so I don't have time to think about what kind of person I want to become." Now that it's no longer possible for me to be with him, I think it's time to plan for myself. I didn't want to go back to Tingnan, and I didn't like that job as a civil servant, so I thought I should start over. ”

Zhang Teng's eyes were all tender, and he smiled and said, "I'll take you in." ”

"I don't go to your décor design company, I'm not interested in that."

He smiled and reached out to touch my head, "I didn't say that I would take you to work in my company, you will cause me a lot of mess and let me pay you a salary." What I'm saying is, I'm taking you in from now on. From now on, I will accompany you, take care of you, do whatever you want to depend on you, and we will all become old men and old ladies with you. ”

A warm current welled up in my heart, like a wind blowing from the South Pacific.

I think he stuck out his tongue, "I'm hungry." ”

He got up, "Okay, let's cook!" Just a few steps out of the bedroom, he turned his head and said, "Don't look for a job first, your waist is not good, if you are really bored, go learn to paint with Guoguo." ”

After Zhang Teng walked into the kitchen, I was lying on the bed, the bedroom door was open, and I just saw his busy back in the kitchen.

Sometimes, you choose to give up a restaurant, a cinema, a mall, or even a city because you want to give up a person.

The next day, Guoguo came to Zhang Teng's house with an easel, a drawing board, a pencil and an oil paint, and taught me painting in a serious and respectful manner. Thinking that my dignified F high-achieving student Lu Xiaolu was actually pointed at by a yellow-haired girl, it was really a shame.

After studying for a while, I was even less interested.

"Guoguo, you go buy me a guitar, if you really don't have it, you can buy a harmonica." I commanded her.

"What?" She was very unhappy.

"My sister will show you my skills."

"Are you going to sing it to me for a thousand years?" She laughed and teased me.

"I don't have to sing, let you listen to my guitar."

"Because you're singing out of tune! Brother Zhang Teng told me! She laughed as she spoke. This young face is very good-looking, very good-looking.

I slapped her lightly, "Go!" ”

"Alright! For the sake of you're a patient, I'll run an errand for you, but you'll have to charge for the errand! ”

She smiled and picked up her schoolbag and ran out of the house.

I walked into Zhang Teng's study, turned on the computer, and wanted to use the printer to type a few sheet music. As soon as I turned on the computer, I was attracted by a folder with Shao Yang's name written on the desktop, and opened the folder curiously. What appeared in front of my eyes were scanned images of some documents. The content of the scanned document is a series of details about Sun Yingke's father's fall and suicide, each image is clearly printed with the red word "secret", and the name "Zhao Muxiong" is inscribed on the approval number on the last page, Zhao Muxiong is Guoguo's father.

Many faces instantly shook in my mind, Dad, Sun Yingke's father, Zhang Teng, Zhao Muxiong, Shao Yang, and me. I suddenly remembered the only time I met Zhao Muxiong, and he told me something about my father. As I connected it all, a huge sense of dread came over me. Zhang Teng! Zhang Teng "planned" the separation of me and Shaoyang! Zhao Muxiong once served in Ting Nan, although Zhao Muxiong has now been transferred to Jiangcheng, Zhang Teng can still use such a relationship to get the file from him, and then disclose all the secret documents in front of Shaoyang.

I printed out the files, grabbed them, ran out of the room like crazy, got into a taxi, and ran to Zhang Teng's company. Shaoyang. All of my thoughts are Shaoyang. Tears kept pouring out. The driver kept looking at me through the rearview mirror, until he finally asked me with concern: "Little girl, what's wrong with being so sad?" ”

I couldn't say a complete sentence anymore, but I felt more and more aggrieved and cried louder and louder. Seeing this, the driver stepped on the accelerator sharply, and the car sped out quickly.

Zhang Teng's company is not very large. The little girl who was standing at the front desk and answering the phone saw me rushing in and ran up to stop me. I ran in and looked around, but when I didn't see Zhang Teng, I rushed into the general manager's office, but I still didn't see him, so I stood in the middle of the hall and shouted his name in anger. At this time, I am like a shrew scolding the street, but I can't care about it so much. The octopus ran up and grabbed me and kept calling me, and I asked him where Zhang Teng was. When he finally told me that Zhang Teng was having a meeting in the conference room, I didn't care about everything and rushed into the conference room again.

All eyes in the conference room were on me, and I was walking towards him, as if I was doing a goodbye, a farewell to the relationship of more than ten years. I never thought that one day, Zhang Teng and I would somehow break with each other, and then the well water would not interfere with the river water.

I was still crying, but the tears were no longer for me, but for the sadness of this kind of farewell.

"Zhang Teng, I've known you for so many years, but I didn't know that you had a kind of ability."

He glanced at the file that I had slammed on the table, then looked up to tell the others to leave the room.

I kept crying, and I couldn't stop crying. He approached me, but I tried to back away.

"Before I showed Shao Yang this, he was already trying to figure it out on his own, he was already deliberately alienating you, only you were so stupid that you didn't find anything. I gave him this just to make him think about whether he loves you or not. If he really loves you, do you think he would care about that? He doesn't love you as much as you think, Xiao Lu. ”

In the face of everything Zhang Teng said is all true, but I am still stubbornly deceiving myself.

"Do you know how much my heart hurts when I know you agreed to his proposal? I feel bad, but I'm more scared, afraid that you'll be hurt. Instead of letting you go through it after you marry him, it's better to let you know now that he really doesn't love you that much. ”

"I don't need him to love Sun Yingke like that, I don't need to compare with a person who has died, how can I compare?" I crouched down in vain, feeling my self-esteem being cut off inch by inch.

Zhang Teng also squatted down with me and wrapped his arms around me, "Xiao Lu, after you left Jiangcheng and returned to Tingnan, I regretted letting you go all the time, I blamed myself all the time, I didn't tell you I love you for so many years." If we can be together in the past few years when Shaoyang disappeared, will you not want to be with him even if you see him again. I've already lost you once, I can't lose you again, you tell me what to do, you tell me to do whatever I want. I want to see you happy with the same Xiao Lu as before. ”

I cried so tired, as if I had lost all my strength, I had to try to squeeze out a few words: "Give me back my phone." ”

"I can't give it to you."

"Give it back!" I pushed him away, but I let myself fall to the ground.

He got up and walked out of the conference room and handed me his phone when he returned. I grabbed my phone and fled the conference room, Zhang Teng's company, and Jiangcheng.