Feng Yuan became excited: "Do you think what I want is your words?" You show your arrogance in the army, such a lowly and perfectionist person is not worthy of being my son. www.biquge.info I did adopt you, but your life is my own, not to anyone else! ”

Brother Chuan lowered his head slightly and said, "Mom, I don't care about the rest, as long as you don't abandon me, I don't want to be abandoned a second time." I do not disobey you not because I am low and cowardly in my heart, but because I respect you.

Growing up, you were very strict with us, asking us to go to the best school and receive the best education, but you never asked us if we really wanted to. You asked me to join the army and go to graduate school, and I never refused. It's not because I'm willing, it's because I'm afraid you'll abandon us again if I go against your will, so I force myself to do it.

Our special missions are very dangerous, and others are afraid of death, so are we. I'm not King Kong, I'm not afraid of anything, we're also flesh and blood, and we'll be afraid. There were eight months before and after this mission, and I didn't sleep a single day during these eight months, for fear of being killed. I can't say I did my best, but I must have done my best to fit your heart. ”

Feng Yuan was stunned on the spot, she had been with these two children for more than 20 years, and she always thought that she had given them the best life and the best education, and for the first time, she knew the true thoughts in the children's hearts.

Feng Yuan didn't know what to say, Brother Chuan continued: "Mom, please believe me, I don't want you to be proud of my every action, but every choice I make will not make you feel ashamed. If you really feel that I have disgraced you, I can only apologize to you. But I hope that for the sake of more than 20 years, I will not be deprived of my right to call you mother. ”

Feng Yuan, who had been strong for nine days, finally cried out and said, "It's me who was negligent, it's me who forgot your feelings." You have suffered. ”

Brother Chuan wiped Feng Yuan's tears and said, "Mom, I will never feel bitter with you." I'm fine, I'm fine, don't cry. ”

Feng Yuan wiped her tears and said, "My son, the best soldier of the Republic, will always be my pride. ”

Brother Chuan said lightly: "My mother will always be my sky." ”

Feng Yuan asked, "Will you blame me?" ”

Brother Chuan shook his head and said, "Never." ”

Feng Yuan nodded, touched Brother Chuan's hair, and said, "You must take care of yourself in the future, no matter when, you must have hope of survival." ”

Brother Chuan looked out the window and said, "This is not the first time I have wandered on the verge of death, but this time, the most dangerous one, I feel unusually lonely and lonely. My whole life seems to be living for others, everything is for others, and I have never lived for myself. Mom, do you know what it's like? ”

There is no doubt that Feng Yuan does not know. Feng Yuan has been providing technical support in the periphery for so long, but he has never been a special agent, how could Feng Yuan experience these things?

Brother Chuan seemed to say to himself: "Mom, you must not know what I thought in my heart when Brother Lei's bullet was fired. I was thinking, I'm free, I don't have to worry about being killed anymore. ”

Feng Yuan burst into tears again, Brother Chuan raised the corners of his mouth slightly, and said, "Mom, don't worry, I will definitely continue to do it, because I still have you!" ”

Feng Yuan wiped her tears and said, "Child, listen well, you have to live for yourself." I gave you a good environment so that you can live well. I can only feel happy if you live well. ”

Brother Chuan nodded obediently and said, "I know." ”

The identity of the adopted son made these two people grow up rapidly, so that Feng Yuan gradually forgot that they still had the identity of a child. Thinking about it carefully, Feng Yuan couldn't remember what the two children looked like when they were coquettish.

After Brother Chuan's serious illness this time, it was like a different person. I don't talk much, I don't like to laugh anymore, and I am a little similar to Brother Qiao. Guan Zheng took a large bouquet of flowers to the ward to see Brother Chuan, who sat in a wheelchair and looked out the window, just staring blankly, not knowing what he was looking at.

Guan Zheng put the flowers aside and said, "Brother Chuan, what are you doing?" ”

Brother Chuan turned around and said, "You're here!" ”

Guan Zheng felt abnormal, and pretended to be relaxed and said: "The special operations response of the armed police is so slow? Is it because the doctor's level is not good and he has not been cured? ”

Brother Chuan shook his head and said, "No, the doctors are very powerful." ”

Guan Zheng sat down and said, "I came here to thank you." ”

Brother Chuan smiled and said, "You can pull you down, and thank me for it, do you think I'm saving you?" I'm on a mission, right? ”

Guan Zheng nodded: "Okay." But thank you anyway. ”

Brother Chuan waved his hand and said, "If you talk about this again, I'll be in a hurry." ”

Guan Zheng looked at Brother Chuan, and Brother Chuan said, "What's wrong?" Looking at me like this, it's like looking at a big girl. ”

Guan Zheng said: "I think you are different. ”

Brother Chuan's face was always sad and sentimental: "People, they will always change." I've been on the brink of death for so many years, and I've never been afraid. But this time, I really felt dead. ”

Guan Zheng asked, "Scared?" ”

Brother Chuan shook his head and said, "I'm not afraid, I haven't thought about being scared since the day I put on the military uniform." Comparatively, I was more afraid of mission failure. ”

Guan Zheng patted Brother Chuan on the shoulder and said, "You're too nervous, aren't you?" ”

Brother Chuan smiled bitterly and said: "I have been doing special affairs since I joined the army, and I have never known what it means to be relaxed. Only when I'm unconscious can I have nothing to think about, and only during my time in the hospital will I relax my brain and think about my own business. ”

Guan Zheng comforted: "You also know, I studied criminal psychology, you, it's just too much pressure." Speaking of which, this is the first time I have been a special agent, and the previous mission of our criminal police was also very dangerous, but it did not test a person's psychological quality so much. The difficulty of special emotions is not only a contest of IQ and physical strength, but also a psychological struggle. A mission doesn't have to be a complete success, and sometimes failure is a success. ”

Brother Chuan suddenly said: "I want to retire from the army, I want to go home." ”

Guan Zheng nodded, and asked instead, "Have you thought about it?" If you think about it, then I ask, would you really do it? ”

Brother Chuan fell into deep thought, have you thought about it? Do you want to do it? Such two simple questions, Brother Chuan has no way to answer. Brother Chuan has lived for more than 20 years, when did he make his own decision?