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The TV was playing a sports program -- the American Professional Basketball Tournament. The chandelier on the ceiling www.biquge.info changed color once, from white to pale blue.

The beams between the balcony and the vestibule are polished, and not long ago they were hung with ornaments sent by Dake.

From the direction of the balcony, the occasional sound of traffic on the street outside can be heard.

Zhong Xian collapsed on the couch in a trance. Dake tried to come up and help him, but he raised his hand to stop him.

"It's noisy, go close the balcony door."

Dake stood up and walked away from him. Zhong Xian felt as if the ceiling above his head had sunk into a piece, and a large oval hole appeared. Through the hole, he saw strange images.

Am I dreaming? Am I asleep?

But his eyes were clearly open.

The hole in the ceiling is getting bigger and bigger, and the image on the other side is getting clearer. It was the opposite side of the world that Zhong Sin was in—it was a sunny day.

A boy with a guitar on his back stands by the window. Zhong Xian once thought that the young man was himself. It soon became clear that it was not. The boy's hair covered his eyes, his skin was pale, and his expression was a little melancholy and a little wooden—the one who often appeared in his dreams!

After standing in front of the window for a long time, the boy picked up the telescope in his hand and looked eagerly out of the window. The music of the eighth set of radio gymnastics came from a distance.

"Idiot, you're so stupid. I've been hiding under your piano for half an hour, what are you looking for out the window?"

Zhong Xian was startled by the sound. for the voice came out of his own mouth.

The boy with the guitar on his back looked up and looked at him through the ceiling, his gaze half-hidden by his hair looking inscrutable. Then the boy smiled at him, and the smile grew brighter and brighter, revealing a few white teeth......

"Deng Yi!" Zhong Xian fell off the couch. Dake grabbed him.

"Are you having an adverse reaction?" Dake touched Zhong Xian's forehead, "You're sweating." ”

Zhong Xian pondered, "Could it be that what I see is memory?" He turned excited. "It's not an adverse reaction, I think my memory is recovering."

"I don't think so." Dake looked at him worriedly. "You look more like a madman now, you were talking to yourself. Still swearing. Dake took the black drink from his bag. Drink it. ”

"If you drink it, the effect of the medicine will disappear."

"I don't know."

Zhong Xian shook his head. "Don't drink yet. Keep watching TV. Isn't this the kind of blue ball you like?"

They stare at the TV together. A black star throws a three-pointer, and Big Branch shouts hello.

Zhong Xian felt that his limbs were heavy, he wanted to drink water, turned his head, and suddenly found that Dake was not by his side, he had already stood at the wine cabinet, and looked down and rummaged through something in the drawer of the wine cabinet.

"What are you looking for?" Zhong Xian asked suspiciously.

"Why is it gone? Where the hell are they hiding?" Dake muttered with his back to him.

"What are you looking for? What the hell are you messing around in my house? ”

"That's it. Your tool to kill Xiao Zhu. ”

Zhong Xian was stunned. I didn't dare to move. "I didn't hear what you said."

"Didn't you use this to kill Xiao Zhu?" Dake turned. In his hand he was holding a silver steel keel, which was still stained with crimson blood.

"What nonsense are you talking about? Who killed whom? Why are you pointing at me, and what does it have to do with me?"

"It doesn't matter, you know it in your heart." Dake raised the keel in his hand and knocked on the marble bar next to the wine cabinet, and the bar was shattered, falling stone chips.

"Stop!" Bell String roared.

Dake knocked on the wall with the keel, and the wall also fell off, revealing the splicing of inferior gypsum board and cement board inside. He continued to tap on the ground, and the tiles made a hollow sound. "Because...... Because...... Because it's all fake, because you do anything for money. Because he is the one who blackmails you......"

Zhong Xian jumped up from the couch, and in his panic he tried to escape. He didn't want to face this terrible sight again.

Then he found him pressed to death on the couch. "Wake up, wake up." Daco was shaking him and trying to pour the black drink into his mouth. Zhong Xian stared at it, and the wine cabinet and bar counter were intact, and it was another hallucination just now. But he couldn't alleviate the panic, and he didn't know if the big science in front of him was still hallucinating.

"You, haven't you been on the couch all the time?" He confirmed with Dake.

"Of course. You scared me to death. What are the side effects of this medicine, I thought it was a sweat and a rash or something. Dake looked even more frightened than him, "It's scary to scream and jump again, drink this." ”

Zhong Sin took a big sip of the black potion. He looked at Dake. Still with an expression of disbelief.

Dake looked at him in confusion. "You've been shouting to stop, what's going on?"

"I ...... See you, smash my house...... Smash the bar, and the wall. ”

Dake glanced back in the direction of the bar. "I'm hallucinating. No wonder. Don't take this medicine in the future. It's just going to be crazy. ”

"You're holding a keel, a steel keel." Zhong Xian felt that he could not breathe, only to realize that Dake's hand was pressing on his chest. "Don't, don't press me, I'm fine."

"You go on and you see me holding ...... Keel?"

"Yes, and said that this was the murder weapon that killed Xiao Zhu. You let go. I'm out of breath when you're pressing. "Zhong Xin tried hard to get rid of Dake. only to find that the latter pounced on him again.

"What did you say?" Dake stared at him deadly. "What the hell are you talking about?"

"Don't hold me down. What are you doing. ”

"You said Xiao Zhu...... You saw Xiao Zhu die in your hallucination?"

"Let go of me. Are you crazy too? Are you trying to strangle me?"

"You make it clear all at once. You see ......"

"I see you, standing over there. Holding the bloody keel, he said that this was a tool to kill Xiao Zhu. Is this still an illusion? Why are you looking at me like that? Is it okay to let go, you still say that Xiao Zhu was killed by me......"

"Take another sip." Zhong Xian was poured another mouthful of black liquid by Dake. The heaviness on Zhong Xian's body was reduced, and he no longer had trouble breathing. The hallucinations did not reappear for a while. He gradually understood that he was not choked by Dake, who was just holding him carefully.

"I look crazy." Zhong Xin was frustrated. "I can't tell the difference between illusion and reality." He looked in the direction of the balcony and wanted to run over it and end it all. He didn't want to really be a madman.

"This medicine is not good. Don't eat it in the future. "Dake is in a state of shock." You actually said that you killed Xiao Zhu. It's so scary, what can the police do when they hear this?"

Zhong Xian closed his eyes tiredly.

"In the drawer of the wine cabinet, there are sleeping pills, take a few for me. I want to get a good night's sleep. Go back. ”

"I've got to stay with you. Can I go like this?"

"You go." Zhong Xian was very sad. "Leave me alone. It's not a bad thing for people like me to die. ”

"Why do you say that?"

"I've been lonely since I was a child. Constantly taking damage. I also want others to feel this kind of harm, and I am all harmful to others and society. Life hurts me, I hurt others, and I do everything I can to sow hurt. I'll never get what I want, I deserve it, but am I really not worthy? Even if it's just one chance...... What's the meaning of such a life? ”

"You are feeling depressed right now, it is the negative effect of the medicine. You're depressed. ”

"Even if it's depression. That's how I really feel. ”

"It's not that no one cares about you. It's that you can't feel it. Dake took his hand. I've been waiting for you to ask me. Ask me why I have so many pinhole cameras in your room. You don't ask. Why not ask. ”

"You finally said it. Okay, okay...... Actually, I'm afraid to hear the truth. I don't want to lose you as a partner. ”

"There is nothing that needs to be the truth you are afraid of. I installed the camera out of concern. Your mental state, I don't worry, I'm just worried about you. Who knows that Deng Yi that guy, misleading you, making you distrust me, he separated us, this is his trick, he wants to kill us. ”

Zhong Xian's head was in chaos. He looked at Dake and didn't know how to answer: "What you said is true?" Are you just because you care? You can see me every day, and you have to keep an eye on me? Do you want to grow on me?"

"It's because I care too much. I'm of the same mind as you. Dake said sincerely. In this crowded and icy city, who really cares if you live or die. It's just me. And I, so do I. I finally found someone I could rely on and trust, and that was you. It doesn't matter if you're friends or whatever. I can do anything to keep you. If you weren't confused by Deng Yi, I wouldn't be so worried and make you suspect that I have ulterior motives. If you're just starting to like looking for excitement just because of a change of taste. I don't mind sacrificing something, just make you happy. ”

"Fuck off." Zhong Xin pushed away Dake. "Go home and go to sleep. I'm going to get some sleep too. ”

"I'm definitely not leaving tonight."

"Can't you speak well, do you have to say it like a confession? Isn't it disgusting?"

"Maybe I'm not doing it the right way. So tell me, how Deng Yi made you comfortable. I learned from him. ”

"Enough. Fuck off. ”

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When he woke up the next morning, Zhong Xian was furious. Especially seeing Dako in his room.

This kind of qi gradually changed to Deng Yi. He was angry with Deng Yi.

On that day, he was working normally in the company. Sitting in the office and not going anywhere. I can't lift up any spirits.

In the evening, at the request of Mr. Hong, Zhong Xian rushed to the seafood restaurant to accompany the customers with Mr. Hong. After arriving at the restaurant, he found Mr. Gao's Mercedes-Benz parked in front of the restaurant, and he couldn't help but be a little surprised. Sure enough, one of the big customers that Mr. Hong entertained tonight was Mr. Gao.

Since signing a big deal for the last project, he hasn't seen Mr. Gao much. Because Mr. Gao went abroad to take charge of a new project. This time he met Mr. Gao suddenly, and he knew that he had to make a newlywed appearance after a long absence.

Zhong Xian took a few antidepressant pills in the car, adjusted his state to be extremely excited, and then got out of the car and walked into the restaurant. During the banquet, he cooperated with Mr. Hong, and entertained the customers very happily.

As he expected, after three rounds of drinking, he and Mr. Gao were pushed into the corner by Mr. Hong, intentionally or unintentionally, to sit together. Mr. Gao pinched his thigh under the table. These were to be expected. And what he wants to show is both forbearance and longing. This flirtatious ability, he had honed in the devastation a few years ago.

In the years he had been raised by a rich woman, he had found a way to get in touch with anything he didn't feel - and that was to have a rich imagination. Use your imagination to find excitement and dilute the reality in front of you.

But now, every time Mr. Gao pinched him, the shadow of Deng Yi would appear in his mind. But he didn't want to really imagine Mr. Gao as Deng Yi. Just like he didn't want to think of Dake as Deng Yi last night.

He found it difficult to feign joy.

He began to hate Deng Yi again.

The teeth of hatred itch.

"Why are you cold? I have a new lover. Mr. Gao said with a smile. The tone made Zhong Xian uneasy.

"I haven't exercised for too long, and I'm rusty." Zhong Xian smiled and quipped, raised his wine glass, his eyes fluttered, and Mr. Gao began to pinch his thighs hard again.

"That's it. At such a young age, not a minute should be wasted. ”

Zhong Xian drained the liquor from the glass in one go, and used the alcohol to stimulate his excitement.

In the VIP parking lot after midnight, Mr. Gao got up from him, turned on the lights in the car, and wiped the sweat on his face.

Zhong Xian hid in the shadows, motionless. "Uh, I forgot to mention just now, I opened a room in the imperial court......"

Mr. Gao fastened the twist button of his shirt and sighed: "Hey! I'm the same if you're not happy, but my wife is pregnant with a second child. I have to go home in the evening. ”

"Uh...... Old man. Zhong Xian hung his head in a frustrated manner.

"My wife is young. Sixteen years younger than me. However, I am going to Hangzhou next month to attend a conference, so you can go with me. I have asked for instructions for you and Mr. Hong, and Mr. Hong promised to send you to the meeting, and in a week's time, Ihehe, I finally have the opportunity to teach you something new. This time I feel like you're becoming more and more like an innocent student, but I like ......."

"A week? I'll have to look at the itinerary. What meeting?"

"Real Estate Layout Policy Research Association. Several large landowners of SZ went. ”

"How many are they?"

"Excellence, Royalty, HQC all participated. I'm going on behalf of the YT board. I will introduce them to you, and if you get one of their projects, you will be prosperous. What else does this opportunity look at? What's more important?"

117

Zhong Xian and Mr. Hong took a day off.

Before the trip to Hangzhou, he needed to get Deng Yi's affairs done. Otherwise, he felt that he might never get any more chances - that he would never get what he wanted even once in his life.

He walked into the HQC Group building and never asked if Deng Yi would come today. Just when he was hesitating about how to proceed next, Deng Yi actually called him with his original number. Let him meet him at the restaurant next door.

The restaurant is very splendid. It doesn't look like a restaurant that's open to the public. He was ushered into a private room by the waiter. After waiting for about twenty minutes, Deng Yi appeared.

is a famous brand with a lot of magnanimity, and his expression is cold and relaxed. It seems that he is no longer too lazy to perform any small roles in front of Zhong Xian.

Deng Yi sat down and asked Zhong Xin to order. The bell string said it didn't matter. Deng Yi asked the waiter to come as usual.

The word convention makes the bell strings uncomfortable. It seems that he is just one of the many guests that Deng Yi entertains. They sat on opposite sides of a huge round table, looking across from each other in a spectacular decoration of flowers.

"This restaurant is membership-based. It is arranged according to the ideas of the brothers, and it is not open to the public. Deng Yi gave a brief introduction. You'll get a taste that you can't get in restaurants outside. ”

"My tongue can't taste anything." Zhong Xian said lazily.

"What are you doing in the group?" Deng Yi got straight to the point. "I can't underestimate you. It's no accident that you're where you are today, you're a ruthless character," he smiled, "so persevering. There is the spirit of Yugong moving mountains. ”

"You mean - I'm stupid enough to know you're not going to give me a chance. I don't know where to go yet. Don't die, don't you. Zhong Xian blinked, he didn't see Deng Yi's collar on the diamond buckle he gave him. Maybe Deng Yi didn't want to take it at all, maybe as he instructed, he hid in the dark. The bell strings couldn't tell which case it was.

"Since you have something to say to me. Go ahead. I happen to be in a good mood today. Deng Yi sat comfortably in his chair.

Zhong Xian found that he could no longer feel Deng Yi, even though the person was right in front of him. As if he had put too much thought into the other party, the image of this person was no longer concrete, scattered into fragments, and floated evenly around him. You don't need to think about it, it's always around him.

What the hell is a relationship?

Why is it connected to the senses and even the body? Bell String could feel it connected to his own blood. You can communicate between breaths. Language is but one of the weakest of the mediums of communication. But he can only rely on words to try to convince the other party.

"I remembered that story." Zhong Xian spoke, "I've been crazy about taking a lot of medicine in the past few days. I thought it would eat bad brains. But it does see the shadow of the past. No matter how much I remember, at least what I see can prove that it exists. It's true. That's enough to make me happy. ”

"Happy? Rejoice for what. ”

"I know you for me."

"Really? So sure. Then tell the story from your memory. ”

"I gave the story a name -- a story of the good guys and the bad guys." The bell strings began to speak in style. "When a bad guy was a teenager, he was a bad boy. The bad reason is that no one really treats him well. Some people like his cuteness, and some people like his cleverness. But, no one really loved him. Without a loved one, a bad boy becomes a bad person. And a good person, since he was a child, his family is complete, his parents love each other, his brothers and sisters respect and love each other, he does not lack love, he knows how to give and give, so he has become a good person. Do you find the story boring when I tell me that?"

"Let's go on."

"But the good guys and the bad guys are the two sides of the moon. They have worlds that they don't have each other, and when they are together, they are a complete planet. So it's inconceivable that they are strongly attracted to each other when they seem to others to be intolerable differences. I want to be a whole. ”

"Are you reciting prose poems? Is it okay to tell the truth?"

"At least the bad guys are attracted to the good guys. Can't help yourself. It's a fact. Attracted from the start. But in his youth, when he was a bad boy, he didn't understand what this intense attraction was, and this feeling frightened him, like a great enemy, and he desperately wanted to get rid of this thing that could easily make him miserable. He did something stupid. He stupidly wanted to get rid of his feelings by hurting the other person. It turned out that he was in more pain and could not be relieved. Then ......"

"And then what?"

"He jumped off the building. Some say he committed suicide. In fact, he just wanted to cover up another with a more painful feeling. He did something wrong, and it was irreparably wrong. He hurt his significant other. If he had a chance, he would do it the right way. ”

"And then?"

"That's it."

Deng Yi stared at Zhong Xian for a long time. "What is this? Are you kidding me?"

"That's the root of the story."

"Isn't there a specific time, place, event, and person?"

"Whatever happened, the root cause was this – the difference."

"Not this one. You don't think of anything. ”

"I remember."

"You didn't even open the guitar I gave you. And keep saying that you care. Deng Yi raised his voice. The waiter brought the food up. It is dish crab meat.

"You can eat." Deng Yi said and wanted to get up.

"If you go like this. I'll make you regret it. Zhong Xian said.

Deng Yi looked at him suspiciously. "You threaten me?"

"You forced me."

"What did I force me? Did I force you the idea that there are two sides of the moon?"

"Yes. You're the one who provokes me. ”

"There are too many people who provoke you." Deng Yi smiled contemptuously.

"Yes. That's right. ”

"The difference between me and them may be that I didn't really get along with you."

"That's right, too. It seems that you know everything. "Zhong Xian is desperate in his heart. They looked at each other for several seconds. Zhong Xin still insisted. "I will do what I say, I belong to you, but you don't have to respond. I'm just asking you, just give me a minute. ”

"What are you doing for a minute?"

Zhong Xian pondered for a long time, but had to shake his head. "I don't know. Let me get it once. Even if it's lost forever. ”

"Is it going to bed?"

Zhong Xian shook his head. "Also, there's no need for that." He covered his eyes with his hands to prevent the tears from being seen by the other party. The shadows of many people flew in his mind - Mr. Gao, the rich woman, Zhao Qi, Yang Shanshan, Dake and all the people who were unclear with him, who had not forgotten. "I know...... It's too late. ”

"Then what are you going to do in a minute?"

"One time...... A minute is good, and I can have no regrets in my life. ”

"There is no lack of shock...... After that, are you going to continue jumping off the building? Threaten me with this?"

"No, it won't."

Deng Yi turned the disc and turned the crab roe in front of Zhong Xian, and the waiter brought other dishes again. Deng Yi stood up, and it seemed that he was still planning to leave. Zhong Xian didn't say anything more, just looked at him with his eyes. His heart was overwhelmed with despair.

Deng Yi walked to the door of the private room and stopped, turned his back to Zhong Xian and said. "Why are you doing it this way - pushing too hard is counterproductive."

Zhong Xian nodded. "I know."

"You're supposed to be a master flirtatious. What about your routine. ”

"With your status, you will meet many masters in your life who are much more skilled than me. But I don't know how many opportunities you have to see a person's true face. Maybe after I'm completely dead, I'll have a way to get you. ”

Deng Yi turned around and walked back and sat on the chair next to Zhong Xian. "Eat. These dishes are great, and it's a big sin not to eat them in one bite. He picked up his chopsticks.