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The leaves in the dream are black. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Shake on the same black branches. The sky was indistinctly colored, and the clouds were rolling with dusk and gray gray.

Zhong Xian knew he was dreaming. But he couldn't wake up.

The streets are full of fallen leaves, and the leaves are like the sky, sinking into the dark gray background, such a world is suffocating.

The road ahead was also unclear, and he pulled the car to a halt and clinged to the gray sidewalk.

He was frustrated.

He refused to look back at the person sitting in the back seat of the car. Anyway, he wouldn't know who it was. That man, in his dreams, seemed to be trying to tell him something in this way, but he never really understood it.

Now, his life is like a kite hanging in the air, ready to fall, and his dreams seem to be collapsing. The painful sensation seeped down from the sky, from the leaves, and slowly dripped down the streets.

He wanted to close his eyes and lean behind the wheel. Can he stop looking at the world, can he say goodbye?

Light shone from behind him, gradually illuminating the dashboard, and he saw the light on the fuel gauge flickering. Looking for the direction of the light, he slowly turned back, and the boy in the back seat was still playing with a silver lighter, but in this gray world, the young man's face was happier than ever.

"You promised me to teach me how to play the guitar. If you can't speak, it doesn't count. The boy stared at the lighter, his eyes seeming to be pierced by the light. Zhong Xian remembered Deng Yi. He carefully looked at the young man's face, trying to find the difference between him and Deng Yi.

"I haven't played in years...... I can teach you. But you have to tell me your name first. ”

"I know you don't care about us." The teenager said. "You forgot about me. It's also a good thing. Just forget about it completely. ”

"Tell me your name and I'll teach you guitar and make you a master."

"You lied to me. Always cheating. "The boy continued to fiddle with the lighter, it looked dangerous, and the only light in the whole world was in his hands." I was reluctant to leave. You said we're going to travel the world...... It will never be possible. ”

Zhong Xian's heart seemed to be pierced by thousands of fine needles, and he suddenly burst into tears. "Are you...... Anton. ”

A ray of light shone through the window from the back of the car, illuminating his eyes so that he could see nothing. "You ......"

The boy stopped playing with the lighter. He slowly extinguished the flames. And then like a leaf, it hairdresses. "Let me go."

The light from the rear of the car grew stronger and stronger, turning the young man's figure into a black shadow with his head hanging and weeping. Zhong Xian stretched out his hand to block out the light, but the light became more and more dazzling, and a faint image of a giant truck appeared in the light.

Zhong Xian held out his hand. "Don't!"

Zhong Xian woke up suddenly. He jumped up from the bed, stepped into the air, and fell out of bed.

The floor-to-ceiling window next to the bed was curtained, and a strong light shone through the gap in the curtain, and Zhong Xian looked at the light and gasped for breath. Gradually, I came back to my senses.

A moment later, Deng Yi's face appeared in front of him.

"What's going on? Can you fall out of bed and sleepwalk when you sleep?"

Zhong Xian looked at Deng Yi's face in a daze, and saw his eyes and nose clearly, he couldn't come back to his senses. "Anton ......"

Deng Yi was stunned for a moment and looked at Zhong Xian silently.

"I ...... Come to think of it. Zhong Xian got up from the floor and dragged his tired body back to the bed, sweating profusely. He felt very uncomfortable and ached, and then found that he had not changed into his pajamas and was still wearing the shirt he had worn when he had left the house yesterday. I gradually remembered that he had fallen asleep on a chair on the balcony last night, and he had no memory since then. What a dark day.

Zhong Xian noticed that Deng Yi was wearing a dark blue pajamas, and his hair was also washed and dried, and he wanted to see that this guy could be orderly at all times.

Deng Yi also returned to bed with Zhong Xian. Half leaning on the head of the bed, looking at the latter, both of them had bloodshot eyes. It can be seen that I only slept for a short time just now.

"I think of something." Deng Yi asked looking for Zhong Xian's words just now.

"The man in the dream...... name. ”

"I'm dreaming again. I thought I woke you up. I just carried you out of the recliner to the bed. Thought the technique was light enough. Deng Yi's tone was humorous.

"I didn't sleep all night. Daytime doesn't look like daytime either. It's a weekend. Day. Zhong Xian scribbled out the thoughts in his head, and suddenly sat up from the bed again and began to undress. Ignoring Deng Yi's surprised gaze, he stripped off his clothes, ran into the bathroom, and took ten minutes to take a shower and brush his teeth. Put on your pajamas and get back into the covers. "Sleep well. That's life. Learn from you. ”

"Don't you want to talk about it? The people you remember. Deng Yi approached Zhong Xian.

"Sleep. I fell asleep to see him. ”

"Well, there really is."

"Your curiosity is truly abominable." Zhong Xian turned his back to Deng Yi. It was quiet for a while. Zhong Xian asked suddenly. "You said you investigated my past clearly, is it true?"

Deng Yi replied behind him. "How?"

"What about my school days? Also investigated. ”

"Hmm."

"Then did you find such a person in your investigation, it may be my classmate, he is probably named Anton."

"The name is not very impressive. The surname is An Mingdong, and I didn't notice this person. I know all the people in your band in middle school, and they don't have that name. ”

"I'm not sure. It could also be the foreign name Antonio. You know, when we started learning a foreign language in elementary school, our teachers would give us English names. Most people will carry it over to college, or even for the rest of their lives. My instinct told me it was his English name. ”

"If it's an English name, then it's time to investigate it."

Zhong Xian recalled his classmates from middle school to university. There doesn't seem to be a single person's English name that is the same or similar to this one.

"Remembered his name. Didn't you think of anything else at the same time?" Deng Yi asked.

"Nope."

"Really? Even a single detail. Let's talk about it. ”

Zhong Xian really didn't want to recall the gloomy environment and oppressive atmosphere in the dream, so he told about it succinctly. The most impressive thing is the moment when the young man's eyes are illuminated by the lighter, which is very similar to Deng Yi, so that Zhong Xian mixed him and Deng Yi together at that moment. He gave the details of this.

"Do you remember what happened to him?"

"Travel the world together."

"What?"

"He said, 'Let's travel the world together.'" Probably a wish. I wasn't a human being before or now. "Zhong String laughs at himself." I make a lot of friends and play tricks on a lot of people. I probably can't even remember. But I'm not really going to put it into it, maybe some people put their minds to it. ”

"It's weird that I don't remember it at all."

The bell strings were silent. He wasn't impressed. He felt that sooner or later, he would slowly see the outline of that person and remember many things about that person. But an indescribable extreme fear, accompanied by the memory of awakening, invaded his nerves. A gut told him that he couldn't remember. That could be the end of the world. He will be overwhelmed by pain.

"Maybe it's someone I killed."

He muttered to himself. Barely realizing that he was saying this.

Until he felt Deng Yi's hand on his shoulder. He turned his head slowly, their faces were so close to each other, and Deng Yi was looking at him with a strange look.

Zhong Xian slowly turned over to face Deng Yi, and Deng Yi's eyes carried a kind of light, which made his heart begin to surge. "Sleep." He lowered his eyes and ducked, slowly closing his eyes.

"You think you killed him?"

"I don't know. If he is still alive, why is there no imprint of this person. Zhong Xian opened his eyes again and saw Deng Yi's gaze again. If I really killed someone. How do you do that?"

"Let's make sure it's your brain."

"Don't run away from this question. What would you do?"

"I don't know." Deng Yi replied truthfully. "I don't believe what's going on in your head in the first place. You want to kill yourself, but you always make yourself believe that you have killed someone else. Alas, I don't know what I'm talking about, it's a mess of logic. ”

"Don't run away, answer me well. What if I'm really a murderer? Are you going to give me to the police?"

Deng Yi did not answer.

Zhong Xian closed his eyes again. "We always like to believe what others say to us, and we always love to believe in promises. You said I could trust you. Although I know that every promise is a product of the atmosphere of the time and cannot be taken seriously. I'm still ...... I think I want to take it seriously. ”

"I'm not going to give you to the police." Deng Yi said. "If you do do something like that. I will...... Let you choose. ”

Zhong Xian opened his eyes. "I want to believe it once."

It's okay once.

How painful it is to stay awake.

Zhong Xian let himself look into Deng Yi's eyes and the light in those eyes. For a moment he forgot anything else, or everything faded in the light.

"Don't you really dare?" Zhong Xian asked softly. "Still, I don't have any idea at all."

Deng Yi was silent.

"Are you really afraid of paying the price?" Zhong Xian couldn't help but ask.

"I've always wanted to ask you, what price will I pay." Deng Yi pondered for a moment and then asked rhetorically.

"What else can it cost? Some money only. Zhong String laughed self-deprecatingly.

"Nothing else?"

"Yes. It's just some other money. Zhong Xian smiled and turned his back to Deng Yi again, but after laughing, he couldn't hold back his tears. If a person doesn't believe you, then your sincerity is a big joke.

"The man in my dream, when I saw him sad, for a moment, it was as if he had been stabbed through the heart. If I hadn't been sorry for him, I wouldn't have felt irreparable despair. My instincts are also a reminder not to allow myself to remember. I must have forgotten it to protect myself. Zhong Xian said these many words to the curtain, I don't know how many words are clear and can be understood by Deng Yi.

He felt like he was so defeated. What he pursued, he didn't get pleasure in. Instead, it pushed him in the opposite direction. He almost lost all his zest for life, like all the light in the world.

"Is it just some money?"

Deng Yi asked in a murmur behind him.

"What?"

"The price I'm going to pay."

"Ugh. A rotten person like me, unless it's for money, what else can I want. Are you afraid that I will take away your heir's place? ”

"You can't take it away. I'm not an heir either. ”

"There's no way you can't understand your father's intentions."

Deng Yi sighed. "Why do you always remind others and yourself that you are a rotten person for profit."

"I am."

"People who are really like that, on the contrary, will not say. You just want to be like that. But you can't. ”

"I've done it."

"You can't do it."

Zhong Xian turned back to look at Deng Yi in a daze. That guy had a lot of words.

"Everyone around you may think that you are such a person, and no one will really dare to be sincere to you. But if there was a second person who could investigate your history as I did. You should know. You're just trying to escape the hurt that began again and again in your childhood. Your father is missing; Your mother fell ill and died after you were ten years old; When you were in high school, you had an open girlfriend who went abroad in her junior year of high school and broke up with you on the all-school broadcast; You were caught stealing and almost went to jail, and after my investigation, I determined that you were framed; You sell your first time to a rich woman; Your best friend ...... in your freshman year of college"

"Shut up." Zhong Xin rolled over and stood up, "What are you going to do?"

Deng Yi expressed his opinion: "You are running away from pain, you think you can be a bad person." The result is a vicious circle. ”

Zhong Xian opened his mouth wide to refute something, but found that he had lost his voice. He bent down and fell forward, and Deng Yi hurriedly hugged him. "Who are you?" It took a while for the bell strings to sound. "Who the hell are you?"

"Let's go around the world." Deng Yi muttered.

Zhong Xian looked up at Deng Yi in surprise, almost frightened.