It's raining.

Stone stood at the entrance of his commissary and took a deep breath of air.

Stone's original name was Shi Yongquan, and when he was very young, his parents were separated because of daily quarrels, and Stone followed his grumpy but strong mother. Of course, in those years of struggling to become an adult, he also inherited his mother's irritable temper, from which the stiff title "stone" derived.

In his memory, whenever he fought with others when he was a child, it was his mother who scolded him the most fiercely in the world, but it was also his mother who helped him stand out when he was bullied by other children, and when he was angry, he protected him behind him. But when the adult stone appeared, I don't know when it started, and my mother changed. She is no longer aggressive, she treats everyone kindly every day, and once she is sick or encounters difficulties, her mother will sigh thoughtfully:

It's retribution......

Whenever this happens, the stone is confused. The words came out of my mother's mouth as if she had done something bad. The mother is a fierce-mouthed, but actually soft-hearted woman, and as a son, he knows this best. Shi has seen countless families who have quarreled and divorced, and both parents are eager to shake off the burden of their children so that they can start a new life, but the mother has never abandoned him, even if the money she once earned is not even enough to support herself.

Now that they have finally survived to the point that they can support their family, the mother and son opened this commissary with the little savings they have, and every morning they go to replenish the stock at less than five o'clock in the morning, and come back at half past six to open the door on time, until twelve o'clock in the evening. Although he didn't know if he was well-off, Shi felt that he was at least less afraid of having no food tomorrow than when he was a child.

The rain was getting heavier, and the stone closed his eyes, and the cold smell of the air crept into his nose. When he opened his eyes, he saw a man standing across the street: a young woman of small stature who seemed to be very ordinary.

But a kind of anxiety burned in his heart: this woman is here again!

The woman stared straight at him, letting the rain fall overhead, and holding an umbrella, as if she didn't feel anything.

The stone spat on the ground hatefully, this was not the first time this neurotic stared at his shop like this, he was going to cross the road to meet the woman head-on, what the hell was going to be.

Suddenly, an umbrella appeared above the woman's head, and a tall man shielded her from the rain, frowning and muttering beside her for a while. This made the stone suddenly a little embarrassed, maybe she wasn't here to find fault? Maybe it's just a coincidence to stand there with bad intentions?

The answer to this question was quick. Across the road, the two approached the commissary, but the man's steps stopped outside the door. The woman walked in, her eyes fixed on the door behind the stone—the door that led to the inner room of the stone's house, and through the narrow kitchen, where he and his mother shared a bedroom.

"What are you going to buy?" The stone couldn't hold his breath and opened his mouth first.

"I'm looking for your mother." The woman said.

The stone rubbed the fire again, and glanced at the man outside the door, who was slowly lighting a cigarette, as if he didn't care about the things in the store. In recent years, Shi Shi has been following his mother's admonition, to be calm in doing things, and to be patient in business.

He took a deep breath, "Miss, if you want to buy something, buy it, don't curse." ”

"I'm looking for your mother, Fu Jinpei."

This time, it was the stone's turn to be stunned, "You're really here to find my mother...... Oh, what are you looking for her? ”

"Something she probably doesn't want you to know." The stone finally noticed that the woman's eyes had been fixed on the door leading to the inner room, and had not looked at him the whole time.

"What the hell is wrong with you, there is something wrong with you!" Finally, Stone's temper was exposed from the cracks of repression.

"Stone!" Fu Jinpei, who was dressed in thick clothes, walked out of the door, "You can't talk to guests like this. ”

"Mom, don't worry about here, you can sleep well if you have a cold." The stone stood in front of her mother, trying to persuade her to go back.

"Eh, don't push me......" Fu Jinpei couldn't stand his son's strength, so he had to turn around and prepare to go back to the house.

"In 1997, you and your husband divorced, and your son Shi Yongquan was raised by you." As soon as the woman's voice sounded, Fu Jinpei's footsteps stopped, and it was a premonition from her heart that made her stop......

"Just hit by the wave of layoffs, you have no job, in order to support your son, you choose to drive a truck for the construction site, tired and hard, there are few jobs that men can endure, you endure."

Stone looked at the strange woman, looked at the mother, and always felt that something was not right.

"Because you have a son to raise, and if you can't bear it, the child will go hungry. Therefore, you have endured the hardships that ordinary people can't bear, and you earn hard-earned money that men are not happy to earn. So...... When your car crashed into my sister, your car kept running away. ”

Quiescence.

No one spoke, and the stone couldn't say anything even though his mouth was wide open. He turned to look at his mother, only to hear the stiff sound of his own neck snapping.

Xun Keran's indifferent eyes only had Fu Jinpei with her head down, and her silence seemed to freeze time.

Fu Jinpei bit his lip and didn't say a word, but his face was a little white. Before everyone could react, her knees, which were over half a hundred years old, bent and slammed on the ground with a heavy sound, and her heavy shoulders sank, "I know...... There will be this day......"

"Mom!! Mom, get up—" The stone squeezed his mother up, "Mom, don't pay attention to her, she's insane—do you hear?" Get out! Get out of here!! The stone tried to pull his mother, and at the same time tried to free his hands to fight with Coco, and the chaos was unbearable.

Coco feels like she is in a ridiculous TV series, ethics, family affection, and crying farce. She suddenly realized that in the eyes of others, her crossing the pain of life and death might just be a farce.

My sister's body rising in the air was, in their eyes, nothing more than a farce.

But even so.

"I won't forgive you."

Even if you are so old, even if you had countless reasons at the time, even if your white head is so conspicuous by life.

When my sister died, it was the same sweltering summer as it is now. But in my memory, it was as cold as winter snow every day.

The corners of Xun Keran's mouth curled, and he didn't know why he smiled, "I'd rather believe that it will snow in the summer than that I will forgive you one day." ”

I just want to convey to you what it means to experience eternal pain that you cannot break free.

That's all, turn and leave.

He passed by Zhou Daxuan at the door and continued to move forward without stopping. The summer sun is just beginning to bloom, and after walking through the long street, everything is starting to heat up, but at the bottom of my heart, there is an endless chill.

I saw the man who killed you, sister, but so what, nothing can change, nothing can be changed......

Under the sunny sky, the cicadas sounded the first screams of summer.

No one really understands whose pain and no one can really forgive whose hurt.

Everything goes on and on, one summer, and then another.

(End of chapter)