Well, I don't believe in anything that is rare and confused, and I believe more that in his heart, I am not qualified to say such things.

But that's fine, if at this moment, he says he loves me and he wants to be with me, I really don't think I'll believe it.

Taking advantage of today's good atmosphere, of course I want to ask more: "Mr. Han said that he felt that it was the second personality who beat me on the day of the shooting range. ”

Fanyin seemed a little surprised: "Why did he say that?" ”

"He said that you have a clear distinction between public and private, and you will not do anything with Ah Chang for this kind of thing." I said sourly, "I wish I was the male one." ”

"Next life." He said: "Uncle Han always thinks of me very well. ”

"He must be a good man." After all, it's a philanthropist.

"Almost, he always imagined my bad things in a second personality, and my mother was influenced by him and felt the same way."

"So that's you?"

He was silent.

I said, "I remember two times before when you didn't remember what you were done." Not a coincidence, right? ”

He still didn't speak.

"Some people just said they wanted me to know all the truth."

"None of this has anything to do with curing."

"But I should have the right to know who wants to kill me, right?" I said, "Right now I feel like my brain is messed up." ”

"That's it." He said, "Both want to kill you." ”

"Can't you just talk a little more normally?" Annoy me!

"I'm normal, but you have to ask questions I don't want to answer." His tone began to become unfriendly: "Now I don't know which one is the real Fanyin between me and him." I always felt that I only had the same name and the same DNA as him, but mentally I was completely two people with him, but no one recognized this, and they all said that I had to understand and accept that he and I were the same person. In that case, who will shoot you or not? Isn't that all me? What's more, he's become more and more like me, and when I know he's done it, I'm scared myself. Because in the days I've been locked up, I've had the idea of using it this way. ”

He had already answered my question, but he didn't answer it directly: "Then you tell me, before pulling me to the shooting range, is that you?" ”

He didn't speak.

"Say, that's the only way I'll be sure you're you!"

He let out a strange laugh.

"You're right?"

"Hmm."

"Dead pervert."

"I knew you would say that." He's still laughing: "It's the only way I can prove that I'm who I am." ”

"Dead pervert."

"I won't scold you anymore."

"I wanted to ask......" I bit my lip and asked, "What were you going to do?" ”

"Do. Love. His voice lowered, "It's all over there." ”

"And what do you think in your heart?"

"It's already counted." He started smoking again.

"How do you know for sure?"

"Just look at your face." He said: "After all, he is a child, and that little trick can't escape the eyes of adults." ”

Dead old man.

I became uneasy: "So, he really wanted to kill me." ”

"I could feel that he was angry, but maybe it was just jealousy." "It's not out of control like it was before, it's just anger," he said. And he chose the method I wanted to use before, he wanted me to carry the black pot. ”

"Oh."

I'm really numb, Britney, Britney, I don't know what to say.

After being silent for a long time, Fanyin suddenly said, "I also ask you a question." ”

"Just ask."

"Do you believe what I just said?"

"I believe it, but I hope it's not true."

He didn't speak.

"I'm the one who wants to do bad things?"

"Hmm." I said, "I'm sorry, that's the truth. ”

He was silent again.

I remembered what Daddy Fan said to me yesterday, so I asked, "You don't explain this every time because you think I won't believe it?" ”

"I wouldn't believe it if I were replaced."

I don't think I'm overly sensitive: "Why do you feel this way?" Something like this has happened before? ”

Fanyin stopped talking again.

I felt a wave of discomfort in my heart: "Hey, is what you just said to me true?" ”

"It's all objective facts."

"What about your subjectivity?" I said, "What are your subjective 'facts' that are different?" ”

"Nope." He replied crisply.

"Hey!" I was really annoyed with him: "Can you stop being so awkward and just say what you want to say?" ”

He remained silent.

I thought he was struggling, so I didn't bother him.

After a while, he took out his cigarette and stood up, pulled my arm, and said, "Let's go, let's go back." ”

I couldn't hold on: "You make it clear first, are you lying to me when you say so much?" ”

"I didn't lie to you, those are the objective facts." His voice was calm: "I admit that I have concealed some subjective content, but that does not affect the situation at all. ”

"I'll know if it affects until you're done."

"I'm thirty years old, and I don't even have the power to make that judgment." He said, "Get up, I'm going back to cooking." Think about what we're going to eat at night. ”

"Don't."

"Get up." He lost patience and urged, "Otherwise, I'll hit you." ”

"Don't get up!" I said, "Speak clearly, or I'll be lying here." ”

He stood for a moment, then let go and walked away.

I didn't lie here, but I sat where I was, ready to die. If he comes back, I will continue to pester him, and if he leaves, then someone will naturally call me back later.

I sat for a long time, and I couldn't see the time, but I could only estimate that it felt like at least an hour had passed. The sun made me sweat all over my head, and I was still a little angry. I finally expected him to tell me a few words of black history that might help me study the disease, and he even lied to me!

It's not sincere!

was angry, and suddenly a figure walked in front of him, and the shape of the silhouette looked like a complex sound.

Sure enough, his figure walked up to me, and the smell of smoke wafted in.

I didn't say anything, waiting for him to speak. He may have had the same mentality, so it took a long time for him to speak: "I didn't do the shooting range thing. ”

"What else?"

"I didn't do it the second time I forced you to have an abortion."

"What else?"

"You said you asked me, and I agreed before I let you go to Pu Lan. That's not what I promised. ”

"And?"

"I do the rest." "Including shooting at you," he said. ”

"I know." He always talks about this kind of annoying thing: "Say something else." ”

"Anything else......" he paused, "I didn't kill the child, I didn't strangle Amelie, and I didn't push her father down the stairs......"

I couldn't help but interrupt him: "What's going on with her dad?" ”

"That's when you went to the hospital." "Her dad died shortly after," he said. ”

I still didn't understand: "I know it's not you, didn't you just say it, it was the second personality who did it?" ”

"The point is, I'm not the same person as him." His voice was distressed: "I know you all think that he did it, but in your hearts, he is my other half, but I am not. This is my subjective opinion. But ......"

I didn't stop him, but he stopped himself, and after a while he said, "I don't know how to go on, so be it, you let me go." ”

After Fanyin left, he didn't bring me food as promised, but Fan's father brought pork liver.

Although it was unpalatable, I seemed to have gotten used to his dark dishes and didn't find it hard to swallow.

Fan's father said that Fanyin didn't go back to him, but went back to his own house, called him and said that he was a little tired and wanted to take a break, so that Fan's father could help deliver food.

Of course, the old man was very enthusiastic and asked me what they were talking about, and I learned everything about it.

Father Fan was so angry that he gritted his teeth: "She really lied to him like this!" ”

"Could that be a dismemberment?"

"I don't know, but the child is definitely not killed by Yinyin." He said: "At that time, Yinyin liked the child very much, and he hugged and coaxed him all day long, and he was very close. How could it be so coincidental that as soon as I asked her to kill, Yinyin would kill immediately? ”

"Oh." I asked, "Did you dig a grave?" ”

"Digging."

"Broken bones?"

"Hmm." Fan's father said: "Her mother and other relatives have also been arrested, and the remaining people are still looking for them, and they are still missing." ”

"Oh."

"Think Dad is a bit vicious?"

"It's not." I said, "I want to ask you, what about the child's body?" ”

"She'll take care of it herself." Father Fan said, "I don't know. ”

I hurriedly said, "Yinyin said, she said you disposed of it." ”

"Silly you? I deal with those, don't I know what's going on with that kid? Father Fan said, "I didn't even know that the body was dismembered. Yin didn't remember it at all, it seems that it was because we lied to him about Niannian that reminded him of this. ”

Apparently because of this.

That night, I lay in bed and couldn't sleep for a long time, my mind full of the last words of the complicated voice.

In fact, it has been written in the case of Fanyin for a long time, and Fanyin's attitude towards the second personality is completely "he is him, I am me", and his expectation has always been not to fuse, but to hope that the second personality will disappear, and he feels that the second personality is an intruder.

But doctors and family members have always told him that the second personality is a part of him, and he should face it squarely, and only then can he be cured.

He is now rationally facing it, but he still can't accept it emotionally.

I try to imagine him as myself at this moment, and if I suddenly find out that my body is doing JN while I'm asleep and pregnant and having a baby, what would I think of her? Think of her as a part of me?

If Fanyin and Niannian blame me for this and treat me as a patient, they have to make me accept myself as JN and insist that she is also a part of me. But my mind is very clear, my bottom line is that I will never do JN, so what do I think?

Thinking about it, I felt like I was going crazy too.