I didn't stop him, not because I was interested in it, but because I felt that this must be the first time he opened his mouth to try to tell someone. Not long ago, the doctor also said that he should talk more, and although he talks a lot, he never touches on the important points related to himself, so he is actually an introvert. Refusing to talk about his troubles is also one of the reasons for aggravating his condition.

"She did give me a baby." Before saying this, he was silent for a long, long time: "But the child is already dead. ”

I didn't dare to speak, for fear of alarming him.

"The reason why I reacted so much to Nian Nian was because ...... Their situation is exactly the same. He said it with great difficulty: "I don't remember what happened, how it was. Only Amelie told me that I strangled her. ”

"Did you see the body at that time?" This is also something that Father Fan's father has never understood.

"I don't remember, but I think I definitely saw it." "During that time, my mind was always confused, and there was always a force that was disturbing all my senses. My mind often fell into a broken chain, I woke up all at once, passed out all at once, and even for a period of time I don't know how long, it was a complete trance. I knew I must have done something crazy in that trance, but I didn't know what I did. ”

His description is very similar to that of the other day.

"Later, when my condition was temporarily stable, I talked to Amelie about it again, and I wanted to see the child's body and give her a funeral." There would be a long pause in each of his sentences, apparently with great difficulty: "But she told me ......"

He fell silent suddenly.

I hurriedly groped around his waist because I felt his body trembling violently.

He didn't continue for a long time, and then I said, "Don't think about it if you're uncomfortable, you ......."

"Don't talk." He commanded softly, "Let me finish." ”

I had to be silent.

After a long time, he spoke again: "She said that after I strangled the child to death, I dismembered her. Because it was so horrible that my dad burned the body. I wanted to ask my dad, but ...... I'm afraid she's telling the truth. I struggled with it for a long time after that......"

I was shocked.

If it had been before I saw that scene with my own eyes, I would have no hesitation in thinking that Amelie was lying. But I actually saw him dismember the body.

"I could hear crying every day, and sometimes I would suddenly see her crawling towards me, stitched all over her body, and blood dripping from her joints. She also called me daddy, and when she grinned, her jaw would drop. His voice was soft, and his tone was unusually trance-like: "I feel very distressed and scared, I ......"

His body began to tremble violently, and I hugged him tightly and said, "Don't think about it, Yinyin, you really don't ......"

"It's not that I want to." His voice also began to tremble: "It's it that has started to appear again recently, I forgot about it, I ......"

"I'm sorry." I wanted to know his expression now, but I couldn't see it, and it made me feel anxious, and I wanted him to say it, but I was afraid that his spirit would be more painful. I couldn't do anything but keep stroking his back, hoping that he would feel better.

I even wondered, why did we suddenly start talking about this kind of topic? What were we talking about? I was so flustered that my mind was so confused that I couldn't think of anything.

He hadn't spoken for a long time, and I could feel his heart beating in an unusually violent rhythm. He must have been very scared, I imagined that picture, and replaced the child with Niannian, it must have been not only scared, but also remorseful, distressed, and frightened...... Wait a minute.

After a long time, his heartbeat finally leveled off, and he didn't say anything, just pulled my arm away, took my hand, and I heard him light a cigarette again.

I'm going to change the topic of happiness: "Miss her recent ......"

"I know." He said, "Don't go on, I know." ”

"So don't be afraid, I'm sorry I lied to you so much before." So the reason why he was so angry was just because he was afraid that we would lie to him, afraid that he would kill Nian Nian himself and dismember her? Still afraid that we will lie to him? I really don't understand him sometimes, so why do I have to know if I'm so afraid?

"It's fine." He said, "I don't want to blame you for this, but I think that since you want me to communicate with him, then I should tell you more." Is there anything else you'd like to ask? ”

"I ......"

I have, but I don't dare ask.

He was silent for a while before pulling me to the nearest bench, sitting down, and after a while said, "Amelie was strangled to death by me, too." ”

"Do you remember that for yourself?"

"Her dad said that." He said: "Her father is a very good person and will not easily button me up like this. ”

"Maybe it's the second personality."

"I don't know, maybe it's me." He whispered, "I also felt in a trance, neither asleep nor awake. When she was completely awake, she found that she had been tied up, and she was dead. ”

"Oh." I said, "I have a problem, but I'm afraid you'll call me naïve." ”

"Say it."

"She's gone, you're sad, are you because you love her, or because you feel sorry for her?"

"It's naïve." His voice seemed to be a little more relaxed than it had just been.

"If you don't want to answer, forget it."

"Her family is just ordinary people, and her parents are office workers. If it weren't for me, her life would have been the same as her parents, very ordinary, married to an ordinary person, but he must be healthy. But she stayed with me, a psychopath, and gave birth to me, but instead of marrying her, I killed her child and killed her. He said, "Maybe I don't love her very much, but I don't think I can live up to her." ”

I'll admit that I'm more concerned than the big things: "If you could turn back time, would you have a fight with your dad and marry her?" ”

"Yes."

"Oh." I was a little disappointed: "Then why didn't you marry her at that time?" ”

"Because I didn't know she was going to die."

My disappointment turned to fear.

He asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"Did you not stop him from marrying me because you knew I was going to die?"

"Didn't I tell you a long time ago?" His tone was quite relaxed: "I want to kill you." ”

"Just to let him break down?"

"Or else?" "He killed my women, he killed my children, and I did almost break down," he said. I think he is younger than me and must not be as strong as me, so I also killed his wife and killed his children. Even if I hadn't made him disappear because of this, I would have at least taken revenge. ”

"But I'm innocent."

"Who let your brain get into the water, don't stay at home obediently, wait for your father to introduce Pu Lan to you, and go to this kind of place to find an idiot who has no ability, no money, and is stupid to live?" He said disdainfully: "Is marriage child's play? You didn't even see his parents before you got married, and if my father was someone like my third uncle, you wouldn't be able to sleep with your own father-in-law. ”

"But he's been nice to me." I said, "It's you who is not good. ”

He laughed.

"What's wrong?"

"It's really good to you, how can you be willing to be with you when you know I won't tolerate you? How can you be willing to put the woman you love the most in such a situation that is destined to die? His tone was slightly cold: "Lingling, maybe this kind of words will look disgusting when they come out of my mouth." But the truth is that when you really love someone, you will try to keep her away from risks, keep her safe, and keep her from harm. If it is a risk brought by herself, then you should let her go in time, and don't force her into her own dangerous life. This is the most basic, and only by being able to do this can we be qualified to pursue a higher level of 'being good to her'. ”

I didn't speak.

He was silent as well.

It took me a long time to make up my mind, hold his hand and ask, "Have you ever thought about keeping me out of danger and keeping me safe and out of harm?" ”

He was silent.

"Once, didn't you?" When I wanted to commit suicide, I said that I had left all the money. I didn't think anything was going to happen at the time, but when I heard him say that today, I suddenly felt a little moved.

"I just said that." He said, "You didn't listen carefully. ”

"You have to be more careful."

He pulled out the hand I was holding and began to light a cigarette again: "In my heart, lovers and wives are completely different. ”

"It's different in everyone's heart."

"The woman I marry, whether I love her or not, I have a contract with her, and after having a child, I have a responsibility for her and for the child. It's not like a lover, I just have to be responsible for the child, not for her. He said: "Because my wife is my family member, exactly like my parents and children, not just **, the object of relaxation." I'll admit that there are many places where I don't feel like a husband with you. But that's how I see my wife's identity. Therefore, I need my wife to think the same as me, if I die, my parents are old, and the children have not grown up, she must have the consciousness and ability to take on the family. So, the division of the inheritance is not based on my feelings, but according to your identity. ”

"Don't you think I don't have that ability?"

"That can't be helped." He said, "It's too late to marry another. ”

"Then you should have thought about it in the first place, and he was not allowed to marry me." I just wanted to poke him out.

"I was going to kill when I got tired of playing." He said: "There is no suitable marriage partner anyway. ”

"Then why am I still sitting here?"

"I have a child, and the child is still better with my mother." He coped with it very naturally.

"Originally, I didn't want to give birth, but you didn't allow me to take medicine." I said, "Now it's like an unwanted pregnancy." ”

He laughed and put his arm around my shoulder: "Children, it's not a good habit to get to the bottom of it, it's rare to be confused." ”