After chatting for the day, I went back to my room.

Because I recently had to take medication and couldn't sit for a long time, I missed feeding my nursing mother's milk. Although the nurse was healthier than me, she was not used to it at first, and it took her to get used to crying for a few days, and after so many things, she began to feel insecure, and she usually had to stay by my side and look at me with her eyes when she was drinking.

I always thought that a four-month-old child should be a carefree little dough, and I was very worried. I have never been able to figure out whether the disease of fanyin is the same as schizophrenia, if it is, then it has the possibility of inheritance, if not, then it will not be inherited.

Therefore, having a child really can't rely on a momentary brain fever, whenever I see Niannian suffering, my heart is distressed and regretful, I feel that I brought her into this world, but failed to make her happy, how selfish, how ignorant and ignorant.

When the nurse had already told me for the seventh time that Shigeon's condition was stable, I decided to see him.

The day before I decided to go, I called Mrs. Han and asked her a few questions. I also asked Fan's father, and even called Mr. Fei and asked some questions.

The door of the ward was tightly guarded, but Ah Chang was not there, and I don't know if he was being dealt with because he injured me.

I sat on a chair in the doorway, looking at the figure of Fanyin inside the glass door. He was lying on the hospital bed, wrapped around his body with a special rope that became tighter and tighter as he struggled. Steel cuffs were placed on the ankles, and wrists were also fixed to the sides of the body. The mouth is tied with strips of cloth, and the head is stuck by the tool so that it cannot be turned at all, like an animal waiting to be slaughtered.

The bodyguard told me that I could go in, but that I had to be accompanied by a bodyguard and that I had to keep a distance of at least two meters from him.

So I went in and sat two meters away from his arm.

This distance allowed me to see his face, which was awake and looking at me with his eyes wide open, his eyes sliding to the corners of his eyes.

I said, "Complicated sounds? ”

Of course, he couldn't answer, and his eyes were fixed on me.

"I'd like to talk to you." I said, "If you're the first person, wink at me." ”

He froze for a long time before closing his eyes slightly.

"Are you going to bite your tongue and kill yourself?" I said, "If yes, you blink." ”

After another long time, he blinked.

Of course, Fanyin is a strong person, at least the first personality is absolutely. The most recent time was when I was taken to the hospital, when he had a wound on his tongue that required two stitches, and the nerves on his tongue were sensitive. I can be sure that the person who took me to the hospital was the first person, because he called me "Lingling".

But he wanted to commit suicide more than once.

The thought of this makes me feel sorry for him, no matter who he is.

"Your mother said you had killed yourself before." I asked, "Do you really not want to live anymore?" ”

He looked at the ceiling and didn't reply to me.

I've thought enough about it these days, life can't go on like this, it's already getting out of hand. While his parents are also working on it, I have to get involved and help them control the situation.

I certainly don't want Fanyin to go crazy, and I don't want him to die. But no matter how ambitious my ideals are, the reality is that I can't do anything.

I can only try to talk to him to do something in my small way: "Lately I've been wondering if there's something hidden about you treating me badly. Or is it just because of the disease that you can't control yourself? It's been so long since you got married, and you've never told me once what you think. Maybe it's because you think I'm stupid and there's no point in saying it. I also don't think I've been able to unravel your emotional intelligence, after all, so many psychiatrists have tried. But if you tell me, at least I'll be able to get you in less trouble. Whether your real purpose is to want me to go, me die, or to experience the pleasure of torturing me, at least be clear. Otherwise, if it goes on like this, unfortunately Niannian, your situation is definitely not entirely caused by yourself, there must be the factor of your parents, the star is already so big, although she still doesn't know your situation, but if it goes on like this, the impact on her is great. And Nian Nian is only so young, she is already very uneasy and scared every day, because she has no sense of security. I know you can't control yourself right now, so I hope I can act as a buffer to make life in this home seem a little calmer, or at least make the children less uneasy, so that they don't repeat your pain in the future. You can't talk to me right now, but I can ask you questions and blink if you want. ”

His eyes turned again, his gaze was full of helplessness, this kind of helplessness was completely different for Britney, not like a child, but a complete adult, the kind of battered, helpless, almost desperate, if there was a color to describe such a gaze, it must be bottomless, no color can change the black.

Although he quickly withdrew this gaze, the shock of this moment still lasted for a long time.

His eyes rolled back again, looking at the ceiling. I knew he was struggling, so I waited in silence.

As the minutes ticked by, my painkiller time was up, and my back started to ache. The bullet had an explosive effect in my body, and a lot of tissue was removed during debridement, so the wound was very large and naturally painful.

Pain is a feeling that makes people lose patience, but I don't. Because I think the reason why he's struggling is because he wants to blink, but because of some factor, he doesn't want to.

I pride myself on being a patient person, not to mention the fact that there is a high probability of this. So the pain only made me more conscious, and it reminded me sharply that this thing had to be decided this way, otherwise this shot would not be the end, but the beginning of chaos.

Finally, Fanyin's eyes slipped into the corners of her eyes again, looked at me, and blinked.

I breathed a sigh of relief, as if I had seen the light of day: "The next question I ask, if the answer is yes, you blink, if it's no, you don't move." If you don't hear clearly, just look left and right, and shake it. ”

He blinked and hooked the corners of his lips, as if to indicate that he still had a mouth to move.

"If you don't hear clearly, just smile." I emphasized: "You promise that everything you answer must be true, and if it is, it must be blinked." ”

In fact, this sentence doesn't make much sense, after all, he won't lose anything by lying to me, and I can only bet on trust.

He blinked.

I took a deep breath and began to ask, "Are you the first personality now?" ”

He blinked.

I took out a small notebook that recorded the contents of the previous phone call, and planned to rely on this to determine his identity at the moment as much as possible and reduce the probability of being deceived: "Mr. Fei likes to drink coffee very much. ”

He didn't move.

Mr. Fei said that he likes to drink English tea and almost does not touch coffee. And although he has met Britney, he has not discussed his preferences.

"Mr. Fei has used heroin."

He blinked.

This is what Mrs. Han said, she said that when Fanyin was ten years old, there was an accident at home, and Mr. Fei used some heroin himself in order to help them, but he did not touch it again. Only Mrs. Han and Fanyin knew about this matter, and even Fan's father didn't know very well. And at that time, Fanyin's memory of his biological mother and stepmother was normal, that is, he had not yet had a split personality. She thinks that only the first person knows about it.

Although Mrs. Han explained it this way, I really didn't expect that people like Mr. Fei would actually touch drugs. Because he is so rational and so smart, how can such a person do foolish things?

I wanted to know why, but I had to cherish the time when the sound was stable, so I asked the next one: "Your stepmother's family was killed by your father and your mother?" ”

I watched his expression, but there was no look on his face, just a calm wink.

Bacheng is the first personality, but I am still a little uneasy, so I temporarily added a new question: "Your mother, that is, Mrs. Han, used to beat you and abuse you. She reverses black and white, is self-serving, and very shameless. ”

Fanyin's gaze immediately shot at him like an arrow, and he even twisted his head, his fingers clenched the sheets, and his muscles popped out.

"Now I believe it." There is no reaction to the killing of his stepmother's entire family, and his reaction to the insult of his biological mother is very violent, and with the previous question, it can be judged that he is indeed the first personality. So I said, "Don't be angry, what I just said was just for testing." Although you promised, after all, the two of you can imitate each other in a fake way, so I said that on purpose, to see if you would be provoked. ”

Fanyin relaxed, but still glared at me with displeasure.

"Now let's get down to business." I asked, "Is it you who made Ah Chang shoot that day?" "I've already asked once, but I'd like to be sure.

He blinked.

"Did you think you wanted him to kill you?" Ah Chang's muzzle was indeed pointed at him, and the reason why I was shot was also because he pulled it over to block the bullet. It doesn't have to be that complicated to kill me.

He blinked.

"You want to stop him from hurting me this way?"

He looked at me, his eyes wide open, showing no sign of blinking.

It's hard to ask him something, because he's not sincere at all: "Is it because you've been tied up like that, you've lost your dignity, you've lost your freedom, you're hopeless, you want him to kill you?" ”

He blinked.

He committed suicide twice that day, biting his tongue before Ah Chang had time to close his mouth. Then he desperately ordered Ah Chang to shoot him. If he wanted to die, it was indeed his only chance.

"Are you the one who brought me to the hospital?"

He blinked.

"At that time, you said that you were all the ones who pinched me and let me go." I asked, "Now you answer again, is that all you?" ”