Saving people?

Saving yourself?

Which way am I going? Why can't I even figure it out myself??

Could it be that the evil lama is right?! I'm really just going to do it to satisfy my own desires!! Surely it won't be like this!!

Although the way of this world is dirty, there are many gentlemen and monks who are willing to take a good path to save people!!

If I choose to save others and force others to do good because of my own desires, what about them?

They don't always do the same, do they??

Some people cultivate good fruits in order to become immortals, and choose to save others, then what they really want is not to save others, but to save themselves.

Some people do good deeds and promote the Dharma to benefit all sentient beings in order to become a Buddha for enlightenment, but who is he really saving? Not himself yet?!!

"Is there anyone in this world who saves others but not himself?" I asked the evil lama.

At that time, my tone was already full of confusion, and probably I have never been so confused.

"Yes and no." The evil lama replied without hesitation.

"Is there really one?" I asked again, not paying attention to the three words after it.

The evil lama nodded, his eyes narrowed slightly, as if he was laughing: "Aren't you one?" ”

When I heard this, I didn't think that the evil lama was making fun of me.

I was stunned for a while, and finally shook my head very seriously and seriously.

"I'm not."

"Actually, you are, but you're not." The evil lama suddenly laughed: "I really didn't expect that in this world, there are still people like you, saving others and yourself, and saving yourself and others, but you can't figure out what you are, don't you think you're interesting?" ”

I didn't speak, and my eyes suddenly became more confused.

Save others and save yourself, and save yourself and save others.

"Trouble, what trouble."

As he spoke, the evil lama slowly stood up, walked back into the depths of the cave, and sat back where he had been sitting.

Since then.

In the cave, there was no sound of speech.

As if I didn't know how sleepy, I sat there in the same position as before, and sat there without saying a word, but my eyes had moved from the back of my hand to the bronze oil lamp next to me.

And the evil lama didn't mean to speak, he didn't make a sound when he recited the scriptures, he was fiddling with the Buddhist beads by himself, with his back to me, as if he didn't care what I was doing at all.

This strange situation didn't just last for a few hours, but for days.

It should be three days, right?

I think it should be.

On the first day, the day after I found the evil lama and stayed in the cave.

At about six or seven o'clock that morning, when I found that the sky outside was completely illuminated by the sun, I did not continue to sit cross-legged on the ground, but got up silently, walked to the entrance of the cave, and looked at the sunlight outside.

The evil lama must have noticed my movements, and the sound of playing with the beads was obviously confused, but it quickly returned to normal.

It didn't turn to look at me, and I didn't say anything to it.

After standing at the entrance of the cave for a while, I went back to the place where I had meditated, took out the blanket from my duffel bag, and then found a more comfortable corner to lie down.

As soon as the blanket was covered and my eyes were closed, I fell asleep.

It must have been a strange scene.

A person with flames all over his body actually slept with a blanket covered and had not yet burned the blanket, which is definitely something that many outsiders do not understand.

To be honest, I didn't fall asleep at all when I closed my eyes.

On the contrary, I was too awake at the time.

Even though when I first found this place, I was so sleepy that I wanted to sleep to death, but at that time, I was so awake that even I was a little scared.

I closed my eyes soberly, curled up in the corner of the cave very clearly, and then thought very clearly about what the evil lama had said to me.

This situation of appearing to be asleep but actually awake lasted until the next day.

That's right.

I didn't eat, I didn't go to the toilet, and strictly speaking, I didn't sleep.

But it was so easy to pass the day.

Not to mention the exhaustion, I didn't even have the most basic hunger at that time.

When I opened my eyes the next day, it was the evening of the day.

At that point, I was in a different state than I was on the first day.

I can also say that my mind is a little abnormal.

"Knock Knock"

With the sound of dull footsteps, I put my hands on my thighs, my head slightly buried, and I looked at the floor in front of my toes, walking without raising my head.

From the entrance of the cave, go to the deepest part and walk back to the cave from the other side.

It's like walking around the edge of the cave.

I didn't know what I was walking around, but after walking a few steps, I felt strangely comfortable, so I couldn't help but walk round and round.

When I walked in front of the evil lama for the sixty-seventh time, and touched it with my foot for the sixty-seventh time, the grandson finally had something else to do.

Well, it stood up, took a few steps back, and sat down again, clearly trying to make way for me.

Looks like they don't want me to kick it anymore

I went from late evening to late at night, and from late night to early the next morning.

Finally, when I saw the outside of the cave light up again, I threw myself on my head and fell to the ground.

Like a dead man, he lay on the ground in a large shape and never moved again.

This time, I didn't stay awake anymore, and as soon as I touched the ground, I fainted.

It can also be said that he died in the past.

I slept comfortably that night, and although I was unconscious and had fallen into a deep sleep, my physical body could still feel it

There is a lot of power in my body, all of which are constantly pouring out of the vein, and then rushing straight to the nine acupoints, and finally falling into the dantian, and then returning to the vein.

For three whole days, I didn't say a word, and the evil lama didn't make a single sound.

The atmosphere and situation in the cave are extremely strange.

But this "extreme" was finally broken by me.

It was early in the morning of the fourth day.

It was a sunny day

When I woke up, I rubbed my eyes, got up from the ground, sat down, and asked the evil lama.

"I think it's better to find something to eat, what do you say?"

"Okay, there are wild fruits at the bottom of the mountain, go pick them yourself." The evil lama turned around, looked at me, and said, "Just don't kill me here." ”

"Wild fruit?" I frowned and couldn't help muttering, "Is it poisonous or not?" ”

"It's not poisonous." The evil lama turned around, continued to play with the beads, and said, "Anyway, the poison won't kill me." ”

"What can poison you?" I said funny: "It's okay for you to drink dichlorvos as a drink, what are you afraid of?" ”

Hearing me say this, the evil lama also laughed, and there was a hint of anticipation in his voice.

"Got it?"

Hearing this, I didn't hesitate, nodded directly, and said, I figured it out.

"Some things are not as complicated as we think, saving others is actually saving ourselves, and saving ourselves is also saving others."

I scrambled to my feet, stretched comfortably, and then raised my right hand and glanced at it.

Seeing that the flames burning in my flesh were already showing signs of getting smaller, I couldn't help but laugh.

"I came to you not to learn how to get rid of those impurities, but how to face myself." I smiled: "Everyone has good, and naturally there is evil, and heaven and earth are divided into yin and yang, let alone the living?" ”

The evil lama didn't speak, just laughed vigorously, as if he was too happy to do it, and his body trembled with laughter.

"Hey, you just said no to me earlier, and went around in such a big circle with me." I smacked my lips, "Don't you think it's troublesome?" ”

"What's the trouble?" The evil lama laughed.

At this time, the flame burning on my body had become transparent, and I could clearly see the hairs on my body from the flames.

"What are you going to do in the future?" The evil lama asked me.

"I can't save this world, but I can save the person in front of me, as long as I see it, then I will help him save him, just like the original." I grinned and said, "Good people and good ghosts, just use degrees, bad people and bad ghosts, just "

"You don't seem to have changed much from the original." The evil lama was laughing.

"I don't think much has changed."

I smiled and pointed up at myself.

"But I seem to be more open than I used to be."