Until the last few days of meeting, he pressed her, and at a particularly pleasant moment, she suddenly opened her eyes, and then screamed in surprise. She pinched his shoulder and asked him to look up, and although the good thing was interrupted, at that moment, he was like a child who had done a good deed and was finally seen, and although he tried to remain calm and reserved, he was very proud in his heart.

Now she's gone, too, and the starry sky has turned into cheap scraps of paper again.

It's like his boring, empty, life, without any pursuit or meaning.

He pulled out the suicide note.

This time he bravely opened it, his heart still pounding.

The piece of paper was quite large, which gave Lin Zhunyi the illusion that the suicide note might be very long.

Who knows that there are only a few words on it:

Zhun Yi, I'm leaving, don't be sad. I love you and wish you happiness.

Star.

The handwriting is indeed hers.

The coldness, strangeness, and scribbling of the words made him doubt the authenticity of the thing.

He stared at it for a long time, as if he wanted to say a few more words.

Looking at it, he began to feel sleepy, and at about the same time, his stomach began to ache, at first he could bear it, but slowly the pain became so severe that he soon felt collapsed. The letter fell to the ground, and he tried to pick it up, but he was weak and fell.

His head hit the bedside table, it was also a sharp pain, accompanied by a slight dizziness, he didn't know if it was because the severe pain affected his senses, or if there was something wrong with his head, in short, his vision was blurry. Something had fallen off the bedside table and hit him, and he didn't know because it hurt so much.

Although there is a seemingly decent way to die, when death does come, it is always difficult to avoid ugliness.

Lin Zhunyi didn't think that he would be able to wake up at all.

The desire to survive made him open his eyes, because he didn't come here often, and it took him a while to realize that he was in the hospital.

There was no one in the ward, and he was a little restless, but when he heard a voice coming from the door, he fell silent again.

After a while, the door was gently pushed open, and he quickly closed his eyes, but then opened them again, wide open, and watched the figure come to him.

He could see it clearly, but he couldn't believe it.

The person who came stood by the bedside, and was startled when he woke up, looking a little embarrassed, and asked, "How do you feel?" ”

He still didn't come back to his senses.

She said, "I'll go get a doctor." ”

She was turning around when he took her hand again. His fingers didn't have the strength to hook her, but thankfully, she stopped.

"Star ......" Lin Zhunyi asked tentatively, "Is it you?" ”

She was silent for a moment before she said, "Well, it's me." He turned around again, took his hand, patted it gently, and said very gently, "I'll go and get a doctor first." ”

"That's not right." He shook his head and let go, "You're not. ”

She wondered.

"Who sent you?" His tone was not good.

She asked, "Why am I not?" ”

"You didn't emphasize that you are the eldest lady." He let go of his hand, closed his eyes again, and said, "Go out, I don't want to see you again." ”

"Did you take sleeping pills and eat your brain?" She grumbled, and went out. But soon the doctor came, did a check-up, and said that the condition was good.

Lin Zhunyi was more sober at this time, looking at her busy figure accompanying the doctor, and his heart was mixed.

After the doctor went out, Fanxing came back to him and sat down, not speaking, just looking at him.

Lin Zhunyi also looked at her carefully for a while, this doctor is very familiar with him, obviously this is the hospital of the Fan family, he calls her the eldest lady. It turned out that she was really alive.

Lin Zhunyi opened his mouth tentatively for a long time: "Are you still alive?" ”

She nodded, "Yes." ”

He nodded, "That's good." ”

After a while, Fanxing spoke again: "I discussed with my father, and he sent me to live elsewhere." ”

He was silent for a few more moments before asking, "What about me?" ”

"I thought you were just going to be depressed for a while." She said.

He felt empty in his heart, and he felt that he had become a joke.

After a long time, she called, "Zhun Yi." ”

He still didn't speak.

"I don't want you to betray the organization, you are the last person in your family, your brother has not been found yet, you have to live." She said: "I'm sorry, these words may be heavy, but I don't want to lie to you, whether you want to take me away or you are martyred like this, I don't like ......"

"It's good that you're alive." He interrupted her.

The stars stopped, and after a while, he said disheartenedly, "I won't pester you anymore." ”

She said, "I'm not saying you're pestering me. I just don't like your extreme approach, even if I'm sick and I'm going to die, your life is still yours, you shouldn't be so heavy for me......"

"It's that you don't understand feelings." "Helping my lover as much as I can when she needs it, being with her when she goes alone to a strange place, I don't know where it's extreme," he said. Because the woman I loved the most died, I could never start a family again in my life, and I had to do everything by myself, alone when I ate, when I slept, and when I went out on a trip...... I worked all my life, but I couldn't spend the money, so I had to throw it in the bank as waste paper, and when I got old, I took out some of it and hired a nurse to buy a cemetery, and after I died, I was buried alone in the grave, and I was also alone when I walked Huangquan Road. This is a life that has been waiting for death from the beginning, is it still my life? ”

His words were so shocking, not only the content, but he rarely spoke like that. This made Fanxing stunned for a long time, and then he opened his mouth a little crampedly: "But only by living can I meet a better woman......"

He became more and more displeased: "You probably don't understand the meaning of the word 'most'. ”

"I understand, but...... I mean, you're going to meet better people in the future who don't need that much from you, and you're going to feel like you loved me just because you didn't know much. Her voice grew lower: "I...... I don't like you like this, really...... No one has ever done this to me, and I can't afford it. ”

Lin Zhunyi said: "The person who has no insight is obviously you. ”

The stars were silent, and sat there looking at him.

Although he seemed to be justified and imposing when he argued just now, his heart was actually very weak, and this weakness stemmed from her attitude, he was actually hurt by her current attitude, he thought that she would be a little moved, after all, she can now believe that she is really more important than life in his heart. But her coldness made him understand that the stupidity was clearly himself, so he couldn't blame her, he could only digest it himself.

After a long time, he suddenly heard her stand up, and she was finally leaving. He thought that this time she was gone, he would not chase after him and entangle, he must be uncomfortable in his heart, but he was willing to break it off, lest she have to use such a thing as fake death to escape him.

As he thought about it, a warmth came from his neck, and the familiar fragrance made all his muscles stiffen. Before he could make any moves, a soft touch came from his forehead.

He could imagine the action by touch: she leaned over and grabbed him by the neck, she took his head into her arms, kissed him on the forehead, rubbed his cheek against his face like a little beast.

He didn't dare and didn't want it to be true. But he did not refuse, nor did he dare to open his eyes.

She hugged him like this for a long time, and he could clearly hear her vibrating heartbeat.

This regular rhythm calmed him down slowly, like a baby.

At this time, she opened her mouth: "You scared me to death."

It was rare for her to be so gentle, and her tone was trembling.

He couldn't help but clutch the sheets.

Whenever she was nicer to him, it was accompanied by calculations, which he didn't mind before, and he thought he could never mind.

"Zhun Yi ......" she hugged him tightly, her voice choked: "You scared me to death......"

He still couldn't relax.

She began to shed tears, warm tears running down his neck, and he shuddered.

He desperately resisted the urge to wipe away his tears for her, he didn't want to continue, he wanted to throw in the towel.

She cried like this for a long time, but Lin Zhunyi never opened her eyes, let alone spoke.

It wasn't until after an unknown time that she finally stopped her tears and let go of him.

The warmth finally withdrew, and he felt cold on his body, as did he felt when he was dying.

The voice of the stars came: "Actually, I ...... You'll be angry if you say it, but it looks like you're not going to love me anymore, so I'll tell you. In fact, depression is fake, I bought the doctor, the purpose was originally not to marry you, but your attitude is too intense, I dare not tell you. ”

Lin Zhunyi's eyes were still closed.

"I don't dare to let you take me away, because as long as you change to another doctor, you will immediately find out that I lied to you, and you will definitely be angry." "That's why I came up with this," she said.

Lin Zhunyi opened his eyes, looked at her and asked, "What proof do you have?"

"I knew you'd ask." Her eyes were still red, but she smiled reluctantly, took her bag, took out a document from it, and said, "Look, this is a case re-prescribed by the doctor."

Lin Zhunyi took it and flipped through it, his eyes resting on the signatures and seals below.

Fanxing urged, "Have you finished reading it?"

He handed it back to her and said, "I see."

Fanxing looked cramped: "Are you willing to forgive me?"

He didn't speak.

She began to cry again, lowered her head and wiped her eyes with her fingers, while saying, "I didn't expect you to be like this, I thought that you would be sad in a few days when I died...... If I had known that you would commit suicide, I would never have scared you like this......"

Lin Zhunyi turned his face and looked towards the window at the other end.