He probably understood what I meant, fell silent, and after a while said, "But you have to go back, without you you can't declare the heir." ”

I knew I had to go back.

I wanted to see how he was doing, but I didn't want to go back, so I hung in the middle.

He probably thought that I was silent because I wanted to refuse, and then admonished: "Since he said that he is your biological father, then he must have a reason for doing this to you for your good." In the past, you didn't know about this relationship, and it was normal to complain about him in your heart, but now that you know it, it is necessary to try to understand. ”

I looked at him, I wanted to say something, but I felt that with his thoughts, he would only think that I was extreme, and then persuade me with words that made me feel even more kidnapped.

So I asked, "When are we leaving?" ”

"Since you didn't sleep yesterday, rest for another day." He said softly, "I'll leave tomorrow." ”

Okay, I said, "Then I'll go to sleep." ”

"Hmm."

He let go, and I said, "I can go to bed by myself, you go and get busy." ”

He was still sitting where he was, looking at me with sympathy, "I saw Niannian and Yinyin." ”

I asked, "Is Yin Yin able to climb?" ”

"Yes." He laughed: "But she doesn't like to climb, she is very well-behaved, and she likes to sit in her own place and play with toys." The housekeeper over there said that you were like this when you were a child, very well-behaved, not noisy or noisy. ”

I said, "She has always been very well-behaved and timid, and I always thought it was because I was frightened on the day I was born." ”

The smile on his face was embarrassed, and he said, "I'm sorry......"

I didn't speak.

He paused for a few seconds and thought of a new topic: "Miss her and ask ......"

"I'm going to wash my face." I interrupted him, "You're busy. ”

He stared into my eyes, looking a little displeased, "What do you mean by that?" ”

I didn't want to argue with him, so I didn't speak.

But he didn't follow and said, "I can understand everything else, but you'd better not make a face to Niannian, she misses you very much." What's more, you did it yourself, Niannian just told me about it, because she trusted me in her heart. ”

I said, "Then don't let her meet with me." ”

He frowned, as if he was about to get angry.

I said, "Say sorry to her for me." ”

With an irritated expression, he pulled out his cigarette. I said, "Don't smoke in my room." ”

He gave me a blank look and found that the lighter had lit it.

The smell of smoke came and I felt a headache, and I had to shut up.

He smoked me for a while and said, "Lingling, you hate me, hate your father, these are all understandable, you can mess with me, you can beat me, I can tolerate it." But you can't bully a child, she doesn't understand anything and doesn't lie. ”

I said, "I didn't want to see her because I wanted to avoid bullying her." ”

"She knew you were going."

I looked at him, "You told her?" ”

He nodded and said, "She keeps asking you." ”

I couldn't help but laugh.

He looked at me as if he was perverted, frowning, "What are you nervous about all of a sudden?" ”

"You know that I don't want to see her, but you don't want to lie to her, but you just run to force me to be her mother, and just keep saying that I am your last thing?" I thought it was funny, "She too, she knows I don't want her to learn from you, but she still learns from you, yes, she doesn't lie, but she lies to me with you." Fanyin, she is your good daughter. ”

He laughed and asked, "Why do you even want to eat this vinegar?" Besides, that's what I taught her. ”

"Because I'm unbalanced. I've done so much more for her than you, but she only loves you. I looked him in the eye and said, "I feel like she's going to be the white-eyed wolf of my life after all, just like your mom and do." ”

He immediately looked irritated, avoided my gaze and said, "How old is she?" That's how you describe her? ”

"Yes, how old is she? I've learned to stand in line, I've learned to bully me with you, I've said so many times and told her to leave it alone, but she still tells you in her heart. I said, "She just needs her mother, but she never thinks about me, if she doesn't think about anyone, but she thinks about you." I'm telling you, it's not that she doesn't know that you beat me, Sister Shanshan told her, she just doesn't believe it. ”

He frowned: "Why did she say such things?" ”

"Oh?" I didn't expect to be able to return to him so quickly: "You did things yourself, and you are still afraid of what others will say?" ”

He obviously wanted to speak, but he glared at me anyway and said, "She doesn't like you because you weren't home when she came back, and you didn't spend much time with her after that." What's more, if you look at yourself, you haven't even had friends for so many years, and all your interpersonal relationships are messed up, it used to be fine, but now your personality is more and more like a resentful woman, complaining and complaining about that all day long, yes, everyone is sorry for you! But you stand in front of her all day with such a resentful face, how do you want her to love you? How do you think she is going to understand you? Don't you feel ashamed that you are her mother, and you think about your child so viciously? How did you manage to open such a mouth? ”

I didn't answer.

Because he's right.

All right.

After he finished speaking, he took out his cigarette, was silent for a while, and then looked at me and said, "I'm sorry, my words are a bit heavy, but I think your current thoughts are too extreme and you shouldn't miss them like this." ”

I said, "Let's go over there." ”

He grabbed my hand and said, "You said before that you shouldn't miss divorce, I still think that she just thinks that her surname is my surname and you can follow me, but I didn't expect you to have this mentality." I don't deny your dedication to her, and when she grows up, I will tell her that she will understand you. It's just that it's so vicious that it's wrong to think that she's yours, I want you to reflect on it, and we'll leave when you figure it out. Nian Nian is actually very sensitive, probably because you asked her not to tell me, so she has been very uneasy, afraid that you will be angry with her. If you make a face at her, then she will definitely be upset. ”

I said, "You are truly righteous." ”

He could hear me sarcastically mocking him, stood up and said, "I don't want to quarrel with you, you're being unreasonable anymore." You think slowly, think about it, and call me. ”

I said, "No matter how long I think about it, I don't want to see her." ”

He frowned, "Are you insisting on a fight?" ”

"I don't want to see her." I repeated, "I can't disguise my mood, yes, you're right, you're all right, you're all right, you're saying it well, but don't forget that you're not me." If I'm crazy, don't force me to meet her. ”

He asked, "Are you going to see her never?" Don't want her anymore? ”

"I don't know." I said, "But I don't want to see her right now." ”

He got a little angry, bent down and pinched my shoulder, and asked, "What the hell is going on with you?" It's just that you mess with me, isn't this too much for the child? ”

"Is it because you promised her that you would let me go to see her, so you keep forcing me?" I asked, "Can't I assess my state and say I don't want to meet her and make both of us unhappy?" ”

He frowned, extremely dissatisfied.

That's right, he does a good job and never takes the problem out of the child, because it's enough for him to be angry with me, it's enough for him to have a punching bag.

I said, "I don't want to hear you kidnap me with those words, that's right, you are successful, you have many friends, your relatives love you, I don't succeed, I am a failure, I have nothing." This is the reason why you feel that you miss and love you, but you seem to have forgotten that the reason why she loves you is because I have been helping you lie to her, helping you beautify you in her heart, even if the wound is on my head, I am also desperately trying to say good things for you, not only me, everyone is helping you do this. But Fanyin, you didn't do that to me. I don't expect the so-called love of my mouth from your mouth except for sex. What else can you want, but you don't even have the basic morality of being a father. You have not defended me in front of her, and all the words that come out of her mouth that hurt me represent your attitude. ”

He immediately said, "I didn't teach her to say such things." ”

"Then this kid is not mine." I said, "You started scolding me at such a young age, are you going to beat me when you grow up?" What's wrong with me saying she's a white-eyed wolf? ”

He must have felt that he had fallen into a trap and glared at me in displeasure, but did not speak.

From this you can judge, he still didn't understand what I meant, but I didn't expect him to do. If he can understand me, if he will understand me, he will know my love, he will know my tenderness, he will know my fear, how can he hurt me again and again?

As soon as he didn't speak, I said, "I can tell you that I don't want to see her, no matter how long I think about it." If you want to drag, then drag, I've already said it, I don't care about the heir at all, I don't want to know at all. I don't even want to know if he is my biological father. You can drag it, I'm okay. ”

Naturally, he could see my firmness, was silent for a while, and said, "Then you should rest for at least one day." ”

"No need." I said, "I feel in good spirits." ”

He looked at me for a long time, nodded and said, "Then let's go now." ”

With nothing to clean up, Shimin helped me to my wheelchair and pushed me to the dresser. For so many years, I have long been accustomed to wearing makeup when I go out, so I picked up a bottle of foundation, but looked at myself in the mirror, and looked closely, my face was still swollen and my eyes were bruised. So I put it down and said, "I don't want to put on makeup today." ”

He was standing behind me in the mirror, frowning and puzzled.

I said, "I don't like makeup in the first place, you forced me to say that this is your rule, and if you want to be your wife, you have to do it." Then I don't want to do it now, so I have to slowly get rid of this habit. ”

"I didn't say a word, that's all you say." He sneered, as if he looked down on me, and while holding my hair, he said, "If you don't make it, don't you need me to help you with your hair?" ”

That's right, I'm still too wordy.

I pressed his hand and said, "No, as soon as you grab my hair, I think you're going to slap me." ”