I'm a little unaccustomed to it, but the page is still Britney.

His tone was much calmer, and he wrote:

I thought no one would bully me anymore.

But last week when the exam results came in, my dad was very angry and he asked me how I did so badly. He slapped me in the face. I was upset and pushed him, and he said I was the other way around and locked me up.

I sneaked out to see Amelie, and she laughed at me, and she respected me the other day and kissed me, saying that she thought she was in love with me.

I'm starting to want to eat again.

I feel so bad, but I'm going to stick to it, I don't need that guy. He's so bad, he's murdered my dad, he's raped Amelie, but ......

Why does everyone else respect him?

One page is very long:

Today at noon, I met my mother.

She had been abroad and would occasionally talk to me on the phone.

I miss her so much, and it's a pleasure to see her.

This morning, a guy spilled hot coffee on my head, staining my shirt.

Amelie and the others laughed next to me and I was in a hurry because my mom was coming to pick me up at noon and I didn't have a spare shirt.

Then Amelie came up to me, dried me with a handkerchief, kissed me on the forehead, and told me not to be angry, she loved me.

I love her too, but what about my shirt?

Luckily, my mom didn't get angry and asked me why Amelie wasn't there. She brought Amelie a gift, which was a perfume.

When I asked her about her sister during dinner, she still didn't want to say more, and when I asked when I could see her, she diverted from the conversation.

She asked me if I had helped my dad with things, and I did, but his things were difficult, some of which I could do well, and some of which I couldn't, always made him angry.

She also asked me if I had been bullied and I said no.

Also asked me if Amelie was nice to me, and I said fine.

Asked me if my dad had hit me, and I said no.

She smiled and touched my head with her hand like a puppy that provoked her sympathy.

I couldn't help but ask her, can you show me a picture of my little sister?

She said she didn't bring it, so she had a chance.

Actually, my mom is no longer my mom, and now she's someone else's mom. A few years ago my dad said he could help me get my mom back, and he thought I would be happy that way.

I was happy, but my mom wasn't happy at all.

It's not a delusion on my part, because she's been happy for years.

I've said more than once that I want to see what my little sister looks like, but she's always reluctant.

My dad used to tell me that once my mom gave birth to a little sister, she would definitely leave, because the little sister's father was not him, and they would become a new family. My dad was right, and now I feel that she and Uncle Han and my little sister are the same family, and they don't even plan to take me to meet them. She was so careful to protect them that she didn't even dare to show me their pictures.

I know that she loves me very much, doesn't hit me, doesn't scold me, and cares about me. However, she is someone else's mother, and she doesn't have a place for me in her family, and she won't be like Amelie, who will become a family with me in the future.

So when I think about it, I understand how hard Amelie and my dad are doing. Even though Amelie demanded a lot from me, she never abandoned me. My dad always beat me, but he just wanted me to get better.

After dinner, my mom asked me if I wanted to go shopping with her, and she bought me a new shirt.

I said I had something else to do, and she seemed a little disappointed.

Before leaving that day, she said that she would definitely show me a picture of her little sister next time. But I said it didn't matter, I didn't really want to see her, I just didn't want my mom to think I hated her all the time.

Obviously, this is an important event for Britney, so he describes it in detail.

Seeing this, I somewhat understood why Xiao Tiantian didn't remember Mrs. Han later, because Old Man Fan's words made him feel that he was abandoned by his mother, and although his stepmother abused him, she did not "abandon" him.

Then came some trivia, roughly that he was bullied more severely.

Until this day, he wrote:

Am I doing something wrong?

Why is everyone bullying me?

Obviously, they didn't bully me a few days ago, why did they start bullying me again?

Amelie was with someone else, and the man said that if I dared to find her again, he would break my legs.

Amelie told me it was better not to tell my dad because the reason she didn't love me was that I wasn't a man.

I didn't dare tell my dad that he would always want to kill Amelie.

Why is everyone bullying me?

What exactly am I doing wrong?

On this page, there are traces of wetness.

Maybe tears, right?

I think as long as you are a normal person, you will understand when you see this that Britney in this diary has not done anything wrong.

If there's anything wrong with him, it's that he's too weak and too easily tolerant, especially with Amelie.

There is a progression in the diary's description, after the first personality disappears, the bullying of others increases step by step. This must be because the first personality is too strong, even if it is arrogant, but it suppresses this group of people. And after Britney came back, she began to be honest again, so people began to bully him again.

I was trembling with rage, and I really wanted to go into this diary, hug him, and tell him not to be so weak anymore.

Let them die.

It's not like you don't have that ability.

It's extreme, I know.

But that's what I thought.

One page, the paper actually has a dark red color.

It seems to have rubbed it on unintentionally.

I sniffed it carefully, it was too long ago to smell it.

There are only two words written on it: I hope ......

The red color penetrates one page, so the words are re-written every other page.

is the font of the first personality:

Come out, idiot, don't kill yourself again, your hand hurts when you hit someone.

My rival lost three of his teeth, and I promise to hit him once I see him.

Please tell me if you have something.

I listen to you.

It's quite angry, but the first personality seems to have returned to its previous state of no self-awareness, and it feels more mechanical.

The next few pages there was no conflict between the two.

Britney wrote some requests for the test and so on, and the first personality replied very well.

It seems that Britney originally made the first personality disappear, but because he couldn't handle his own life, he pulled the first person out again.

On the next page, Britney writes more:

You've been really well-behaved lately, so I'm willing to give you two days a week to be free.

I hope you can behave well.

Don't hit my dad and Amelie, you have to love them unconditionally, I'm sure I'm the last time to stress it.

You have to listen to me.

The first personality replied with one word: received.

It's true that there is no self-consciousness anymore.

Next, it was mainly Britney who gave orders to this personality, and judging from the conversation between the two of them, the first personality was well completed.

Judging from the timeline of their conversation, it seems that another few months have passed, and Britney writes:

Amelie says she's figured out our relationship, but she doesn't like me, and she's in love with you because you're attractive. Do you love her?

The first personality's reply was crisp: love.

Britney replied in person, looking like a chat log: Do you think she's yours?

The first personality is really like an obedient soldier: no, she's yours.

Britney replied: Very good, go and make it clear to her.

One article, still Britney:

My dad was always upset with me and he asked me why I couldn't get things done every time. I explained to him that it was not me who did the good work, but the younger brother I created. My dad said I was sick.

My brother went to explain it to Amelie, but she didn't believe it, she said I was crazy.

I'm not crazy, he's really just my brother. He's grumpy, but he's great at exams, and he has everything I don't have, but he's got to listen to me.

I'm so distressed that I don't know how to make these people understand.

They both liked my brother and didn't like me.

Is......

At the very beginning, the first personality should have returned, but he didn't.

Then it's all trivial, nothing to mention. The first personality cooperates with him tacitly and helps him overcome obstacles, so Britney is very used to it. Later, he made the first personality do more and more, and the first personality was always well-behaved.

It wasn't until the last page of the diary that blood stains reappeared.

Britney wrote:

Recently, my mom has been coming to see me and she says I'm too emotional, sometimes violent, sometimes very well-behaved. I explained to her that it was because I had a younger brother and she looked at me strangely.

Last week she said she wanted to take me to the doctor, and my dad agreed.

Today we saw the doctor and he asked me a lot of weird questions.

On the way back, my mom said I couldn't go to class anymore and was going to take a leave of absence.

I overheard her talking to my dad on the phone, and she said I was mentally ill, and that was the psychiatrist during the day, and he said I had to see a psychiatrist.

They were arguing on the phone.

My dad said that if it weren't for her leaving, I wouldn't have become a madman.

She said, if it weren't for him teaching me to frame her in court for abusing me, how could she have lost custody?

My dad also said it was because she told me to be a son to another man.

She also said that the reason why he tricked her into having a child was because he wanted to cheat her out of money and let me inherit it, so that he could cheat it.

They quarreled for a long time.

I understand, and they're not wrong.

Of course, it's me who is at fault.

I shouldn't have come into this world.

I just called Amelie and told her that my parents thought I was crazy. She said she felt the same way and suggested that I die.

Brother, I'm going to say I'm sorry because I don't want to live anymore.

But there is one more thing I can't give up, which is what will you do if I die?

Although you are sometimes not well-behaved, in fact, I understand that you are the person who loves me the most in this world. You are a person who can live well and not be bullied.

I'll find a way to keep you alive.

Hold your horses.