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However, when she came to the intersection of liberation and perseverance, she finally chose to live strongly.

Because my mother said this softly before closing her eyes forever.

"Mom, I will always stay by Xi'er's side, I will watch Xi'er grow up, as long as Xi'er is healthy and happy, my mother will not disappear, my mother will, always, always, always live in Xi'er's heart. ”

Ah, if Xi'er died.

Mom is gone.

So, she can't die!

Can't die!

Can't die yet!

She wants to overcome loneliness, she wants to live!

The four-and-a-half-year-old girl was the enemy of loneliness, and she began to talk to herself.

To the silent trees, to the silent stones, to the squeaky birds, she poured out all the words in her heart, her grievances, her pain, her sorrows, her mother, her little happiness, what she did today, what she did yesterday, what she had done, what she wanted to do in the future, what she would have done if she left the island, she ......

She poured out all the words she could think of, and she uttered all the sounds she wanted to make.

She kept talking, but she was destined to never get a response.

But, but it doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter, so... That's enough.

As long as she confides, even if she talks to herself, even if she doesn't respond, but as long as she can talk, she won't be so lonely, and she will be able to get a little bit, even if it's just a little bit, the courage to live!

In the end, the little girl defeated loneliness, narrowly won, won miserably, and almost lost.

Because she was rescued, after three years, she was finally found by her family, rescued the island, and finally returned to the world, if another year, no, another month, a week, or even a day, she is likely to collapse.

But she was so lucky that she wasn't knocked down by loneliness.

Ha, ha... Ha, lucky......

Well, she survived, her mother is still by her side, and her mother hasn't disappeared yet, isn't she lucky?

Even after returning to the human world, she has lost her expression, lost her feelings, and is even unable to communicate with humans normally, she is lucky, right?

But this vicious battle with loneliness as the enemy has left sequelae after all.

She can't communicate with humans normally, it's not that she's autistic or can't speak, on the contrary, she can still talk to strangers in front of her, and she can even talk for a long time.

But she couldn't hear the sound.

I can't hear the other person's response.

Or rather, she subconsciously thinks of the humans on the other side as trees, rocks, and birds!

This is a disease, a heart disease, and an incurable disease that only she can treat.

She hadn't been able to heal herself after all, and she didn't feel the need to heal herself, because she had gotten used to it, used to her confiding not being answered, to the cold silence.

Even though she could still talk to other people, for her, it was a self-question, because in that isolated island, she talked to herself countless times, and of course often asked and answered herself.

There's no way to make an expression, and you can't force a smile.

Unable to experience normal human feelings, the negative emotions of anger, sadness and hatred have long been swallowed up by the emptiness of loneliness, and the positive emotions of joy, excitement and excitement have long been completely forgotten in countless killings for food.

She has been expressionless in women's clothes, she is naturally not popular with boys, and her strong strength is destined to no one to reject and bully her, her handsome appearance has attracted a lot of, but none of them can stand her talking to herself, and there is no other party's way of communicating in her eyes.

She still has no friends in the world, and she is still alone.

But she has long been accustomed to being alone, used to being accompanied by loneliness.

She can't change it, and she doesn't need to change.

And because of the habit of talking to herself, even in the face of the false God King (Li Wuyu), she still patiently answered his questions, did not rush to kill him, and spoke extremely nagging, which was completely inconsistent with her expressionless image of being close to people.

But in fact, she was not communicating with Li Wuyu, she was just asking and answering herself, because Li Wuyu's questions and answers had long been formed in her mind, and she didn't need to hear the voice, she didn't need to get a response, and she could complete this communication by herself.

Facing Shi Xiaobai at the beginning, the same was true.

She treated Shi Xiaobai as a cold stone, although that confession surprised her a little, but in fact, various possibilities had been formed in her mind, and she could completely rely on herself to complete this conversation.

But she took the trouble to talk to Shi Xiaobai, answer his questions, and ask him questions, all just to talk to herself.

However, however, when Shi Xiaobai said the sentence "This king even knows that there is a red mole under your right armpit", her world suddenly changed from black and white to brilliant color, and she finally!

Finally heard the "voice"!

Ah, his voice, heard.

I really want to listen to it, his voice.

Ah, what's going on with this fundamentally unexpected dialogue?

Why, why can't you think of what he will say next, but, but I want to know what he will say next?

For the first time since she was six years old, she stopped talking to herself.

She couldn't wait to ask him questions and couldn't wait to get a response from him.

Curious?Want to solve a puzzle?Don't want to leave a puzzle behind?

Not really.

It's all an excuse!

It's just that I'm obsessed with communicating with him, and I can't extricate myself from his voice and response.

I just hope that this conversation can go on forever, all the time, all the time!

The boy did not disappoint her, peeling back layer by layer the puzzles that had been left behind, and again and again to her surprise, his voice became clearer and clearer...... Authentic!

I want to continue to hear from him!

Don't want to kill him!

Don't want to kill him!

I really don't want to kill him!

He's, he's the one I managed to find again-

It's real!