183 For I am determined to do my own thing
I saw the sixth sister very rarely, but I always like to stare at these things to see if they are real, so I was a little embarrassed and said, "I'm sorry." ”
"Daddy doesn't like you like this." Her voice was so low that it was like it was a secret that couldn't be told: "He wants you to be smart and ambitious." ”
I don't think it's a good thing to advertise yourself as "simple" and "innocent", but in my eyes, "skill" and "ambition" should be people like Fanyin, which is not something that can be obtained by fantasy, but has to have intelligence. My IQ is a bit difficult to even calculate my own questions, so these two words are completely out of line with me......
But after all, Sister Shanshan was telling me about my adoptive father, and I hurriedly asked, "Does that father think that I don't work hard, so I don't like me?" ”
She looked at me at first and didn't speak, and then said for a long time: "Dad didn't want you to learn to fly, but after all, you chose it yourself, and it is easier to do it yourself, so he didn't have an organization." But you haven't finished your university until now, and people your age can at least get a diploma, and the smarter ones can finish their master's exams. Now that you have children, you won't be able to study and work without distractions in the future. I think the reason why Dad is so angry is not because you don't tell your family, he doesn't object to making his own decisions, but he thinks that when you are young, you should think about your future first, and you are completely ruining your future by doing this. ”
If that's all there is to it, why didn't you ignore me when you were a kid? If I don't have time to tell me in person, I can ask the aunt who took care of me to convey it, as long as it is his request, I will try to complete it. I can study whatever he wants me to study. I will do my best to score as many points as I want to score.
So I don't think her words have solved the doubts in my heart, but her words are right. Even Fanyin felt that I didn't work hard enough, and I couldn't get my academic qualifications. But my life was so turbulent that I didn't even have time to take care of my children, so I didn't have time to study.
Talking about this, Sister Shanshan didn't say anything more.
Soon, a nurse came out inside and said, "Sir, please Miss Lingyu to come in." ”
I hurriedly wanted to follow up, but I was pulled by Sister Shanshan again: "Button." ”
The first button on my collar was still open, because it was more comfortable to breathe, so I quickly thanked her and fastened it. She said as I buttoned it: "Be careful to behave smartly when you go in, Dad has been unwell lately, don't make him angry again." ”
"Okay." It seems that Su Yi is right, Sister Shanshan is indeed a good person with a cold face and a warm heart: "Thank you, Sister Shanshan." ”
She nodded and opened the door.
I followed the nurse all the way to the inner door, took a deep breath, and pushed the door open.
There were only two people inside, my adoptive father and Fanyin, who was kneeling on the ground, and my adoptive father was still sitting on the single sofa from last time.
I couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and found that my adoptive father had already looked at it, and hurriedly said, "Dad." ”
My adoptive father nodded, and Fanyin also looked at it, and his tone was very gentle: "Come here." ”
I hurriedly walked over to him, and he tugged at my trouser leg with his hand, and I willingly knelt beside him.
Fanyin's expression relaxed a little and said to me, "I'm apologizing to your dad for getting married without his consent, without a wedding, and for having children in a hurry. ”
Belch......
I didn't understand what kind of medicine he was selling in his gourd, and I was a little confused.
Fanyin looked at my adoptive father again, and his expression was very sincere: "I knew that the second personality was with Lingling at the beginning, but I didn't stop it out of selfishness, and I hid my illness from her, and I ...... about this I'm sorry. ”
The adoptive father did not speak.
"Because of my illness, I had a lot of new psychological problems, and I often felt a lot of pressure and fell into paranoia, so I did a lot of very excessive things to her, and Lingling has always tried to tolerate me, help me, and never leave me." He hung his head and whispered, "I always had suicidal thoughts, and until not long ago, when I contacted you for your help, I was planning to kill myself. That's why I want Lingling to give me a few children. Because in my opinion, she is a resilient, strong, optimistic and powerful woman, and I want my children to be like that. The probability of inheritance of split personality is very small, and I think that if it is a child who is taken care of by Lingling, he will be very healthy and will not suffer from this disease again. ”
My adoptive father still had no expression on his face, just silently picked up his teacup.
"My father and my mother and the rest of the family were very fond of Lingling and have fully accepted her as part of our family. I also have a child who has never met her mother and is willing to let Lingling be her mother. This is the result of Lingling's personality charm and her own efforts, and it is also because she has been helping me to heal and take care of my family, which has delayed her academic future, so those things that make you feel sad are not caused by Lingling and me, but because I am bent on doing my own thing, so that she is implicated and victimized. ”
Fan Yin was silent for a moment when he said this, and then said, "I know that the damage I have caused to Lingling and the Su family is irreparable, but I still hope that you can give me a little more time." I guarantee that the spirit will be completely safe during this time and will not suffer any physical harm. If my illness can be cured, I will prepare a dowry and give her the most beautiful wedding possible. If there is no cure, then there will be no hope of curing my illness, and I told you last time that all my inheritance of seeing light has been given to her, and my children will only recognize her as a mother, and all this I have will eventually be left to her. At that time, my relatives will also take good care of Lingling and the children, and will not affect her choice again, let alone let her suffer the slightest grievance. ”
A few days ago, Father Fan asked him to write a letter of guarantee, and Mrs. Han wanted to make me public, so I thought he didn't plan to divorce me. I don't know if these words came to him suddenly, or if they were the result of thinking about it. But I think that the dialogue with someone of my adoptive father's level should not be the result of impulse, and his every word must be loud and clear, not in vain, and responsible.
Fanyin's words were finished, but my adoptive father still didn't speak, just holding a teacup and sipping silently.
I knelt down and my legs were a little numb, and my adoptive father suddenly looked at me and asked, "Do you agree?" ”
"I ......" was said so suddenly, I don't know whether to agree or not. But my adoptive father's gaze at me gave me an invisible urge and pressure, so I was stunned for a moment and said, "Until now, the doctor has not been able to communicate with his second personality, but I can." We've also found some clues that may shed light on the cause of his illness. I think he'll be cured soon. ”
My adoptive father didn't speak, but lowered his head and gently scraped the tea leaves in the tea bowl with the lid of the teacup.
I knew my answer didn't match his question because I wanted to get away with it. But Fanyin didn't speak, my adoptive father didn't ask any more questions, and everyone was waiting for me.
I had to be entangled again, and seemed to understand in my heart what kind of answer my adoptive father liked, but I couldn't say anything, and after thinking about it for a long time, I still told my own truth: "Dad, even if his illness can't be cured, I don't want him to die, not to mention that his father and his mother are very good to me, and they don't want their only son to be gone." As long as his two personalities can be safe, I can take the child to my side, after all...... Fanyin has offended many people, if the child does not have a father, it will be more detrimental to her growth, but if I take the child and am deceived, he finds out that the child is Fanyin, what should I do if I hurt her? If his two personalities are constantly at odds, then we can divorce first and then slowly seek other treatments...... I think there's always a way. Even if there is no way, he is not completely crazy, most of the time he can think, and like normal people, the second personality is also. ”
Fanyin looked at me, and I quickly lowered my head, avoiding his gaze.
My adoptive father still didn't speak, and his expression seemed to be considering.
I said, "Dad, I was all wrong before, but things have become the way they are, and for all reasons, I still ......" My adoptive father must be angry.
I also know that as long as you are not stupid, you will feel that it is the right solution to escape from Fanyin's side as soon as possible. Maybe my adoptive father wants me to say that I don't agree with Fanyin's idea because I want to divorce him now.
But I would never promise that I can't leave now, at least I have to help him heal. Things have come to this point, and I have already learned to do my best and obey the destiny of God. I'm sure I won't die during this time, but even if I get beaten a few more times, or injured or disabled, then at least I tried, anyway, it hurts me, and I bear it.
It was a long time before my adoptive father said, "Get up." ”
Fan Yin stood up, and then helped me to my feet.
"Spiritual Rain." This was the first time my adoptive father called me by my name: "I want you to divorce him now and bring the child back." Would you like to? ”
Sure enough: "I'm sorry, Dad." ”
"I see." He looked at me with a helpless look: "I always thought you were not assertive, but now it seems that you are assertive." Since you want to, so be it. ”
"I'm sorry...... "My adoptive father rarely cared about me, but I let him down so much.
"Mr. Fan, let's go out first." The adoptive father said, "I'll talk to her alone." ”
Fanyin went out, and when the door was closed, there was no one else in the room. My adoptive father sat me down, and seemed to struggle for a while before asking, "Did they threaten you?" ”
"Nope." I know he's asking about it.
He nodded, his expression relaxed slightly, and said, "There is only one life, and everything must be carefully considered before making a decision." His illness has nothing to do with you, and you don't need to pay for it. ”
The old king next door