Chapter 46: Not a Hero
I've forgotten the last time I was on a plane.
Go down the mountain as fast as you can and get to the nearby big city! Buying a ticket in the most hurried way was the fastest I could think of.
In fact, Tina's proposal was not too much, and it did not affect any of my plans to rest for a night and then leave, but I refused. The reason I can't tell Tina and Su Ling is that I can't bear this thought anymore.
Maybe no one can understand it, right? When the plane took off and was already above the clouds, I looked at the sea of clouds below, and the corners of my mouth couldn't help but hook up a smile, which was to remember Xin Yi's stupid appearance, with a clear and moving face, but he couldn't make too many expressions, and occasionally smiled like a hundred flowers blooming.
But now, I know why. I was so happy with it that I couldn't help but want to laugh. If Xin Yi could be by my side now, I would tell her, look, I know you a little bit better, I know everything about you.
This kind of emotion is pleasant, and what I miss is that she is obviously asleep in Wangxian Village, I can return in the dust, see her for the first time, talk to her, hold her hand, can look at her sleeping face silently, and keep it quietly, but I still miss it.
I miss her eyes, the eyes that fall on me. I miss her smile, which can dissolve my deepest sadness and most anxious uneasiness, I miss her voice the most, whether it is her who was once sluggish or she who is somewhat eccentric after the fox transformation, I hope that as soon as I look back, I can see her smiling, and call me 'uncle' in that familiar and gentle and dependent tone.
This kind of longing is too tormenting, it is engraved in my heart and soul, how can I wait? No one can understand, even Xin Yi doesn't know how much I miss her? There is nothing wrong with the night, but for me, every minute and every second is so difficult, when I know the situation of Xinyi, when the hope of waking up is in front of my eyes, these conditions are simply boiling this thought.
So, I seem 'ignorant', right? Almost without much thought, he rejected the normal offer of Tina and Su Ling, and was very resolute, but I couldn't explain it. Thinking of this, I leaned against the window of the plane a little tired, not completely relieved, at least not that feeling of dizziness now. In any case, for the sake of the peace of mind of the people around me, I still slept peacefully for a few hours and made some arrangements before going down the mountain.
I just remembered the reluctance of that guy when I found the Tong Emperor, and I touched my face a little embarrassed, because through Tina's investigation, I learned that all the demon hunters in this sacrifice had the same feelings and changes as me, and the weaker the strength, the more obvious the improvement, and the stronger the feeling of the essence of that soul power.
If it were a weekday, it wouldn't matter if Emperor Tong and I weren't in the village. As long as there are a few high-level commands to assign tasks, after all, the meaning of demon hunters is to hunt demons, and they also need training.
However, when it comes to this kind of improvement, I think we should give them a good condition and a relatively quiet and safe environment, so that they can quietly understand, and it is better for someone to give more guidance. Therefore, at such a time, it is necessary for me and Emperor Tong to stay in the village. Otherwise, Ah Da in the dungeon, and a few elite demon hunters in the dungeon whose strength is not far from me and the Tong Emperor can also do it. However, these top-level dungeon demon hunters are not in Wangxian Village, and I... Just let me be selfish this time. I've never been a hero, I've had a lot of love for my children, I have my own emotions, and I can't put aside my hard work to be great. Therefore, when Emperor Tong snorted coldly and rejected me, I didn't care about him at all, just said that you can do these young demon hunters, and forcibly left.
It's very irresponsible, that's why I'm embarrassed. But there is really a way to have some feelings and thoughts, maybe I am not a human being, and I will become a fairy. I've already seen through it, so why bother with it.
And the appearance when you are obsessed must be very unbearable in the eyes of the gods, right? Not only is there no enlightened heart, but it is also very intoxicated, sweet, self-satisfied, and willing.
What is the final comprehension that can be realized in this life?
My mind was cranky, but for the plane, I was not far to the destination, and before I knew it, the plane had landed.
I almost couldn't wait and couldn't wait, so I directly chartered a car and drove directly to where Xinyi's mother was.
Over the years, she has actually been living in the factory and mining area. And the former factory and mining area has long since decayed, and the scene of groups of people going to work as soon as music is played is long gone. Even in the old residential buildings, only some old people are still living there, and the rest have long since moved to the city. Even my parents have already moved to the city, but Xinyi's mother has been living in the old factory and mining area.
I used to wonder why Aunt Xin would have the ability to let Xin Yi study abroad? Later, I wondered if she hadn't moved to the city and saved all that money? These things used to be not too important to me, so I have always believed in this explanation.
Now that the relationship with Xin Yi is clear, all the things that used to make me sensitive have made me sensitive. Even then, you can't afford to go abroad, right? And Xin Yi's grades are good, and he can go to school in China, why do you have to send him abroad?
Did I think too much about it? I couldn't help but frown in the car, and found out that everyone actually has some secrets, right? Including Aunt Xin, who I thought had always been ordinary.
As for the factory and mining area, my expression was a little cold, and I couldn't forget the night I almost died, that is, in the factory and mining area, the place that had left me a psychological shadow for a long time! Later, it became a warehouse, and there were many inexplicable people, and it was on that night that Chen Zhong almost killed me.
It was on that night that my fate changed completely, and I saw a different world. It must be their territory, remembering what happened in my childhood, the mysterious cave, I actually have every reason to believe that they are there under the guise of a warehouse, and then have a secret.
However, I am completely different from me back then, I have the strength to break in in a big way, and then kill one back and forth and come out. But this time I'm going to pick up Aunt Xin, and I don't want to cause trouble. And when I think about it, everything is like a delicate balance, from where my fate began to turn, and I never touched that place! Maybe it's because it's in the factory and mine, where I grew up, and I don't want to leave blood here. Or perhaps, the shadow of childhood is too deep for me to touch for a while. Perhaps, it is related to Chen Chong... In the end, is it because the memories I don't want to stay here are shattered?
I rubbed my brow, I couldn't give myself an answer, I just didn't think about it anymore, the only thing I was sure of was that even if I passed by this time, I still wouldn't touch that place until one day I couldn't run away anymore.
The car quickly crossed the highway to the city where my hometown was. It's also a city full of memories, where I once met friends like Amu and spent a few years here as the owner of an antique shop. Looking at this city that has changed a little over the years, I don't know whether to cry or laugh.
The car passed through the most central urban area, drove for a while, and came to another urban area of the city, I was a little distracted, and I couldn't help but ask the driver to stop.
In front of me is a community that has been renovated for several years, and in this community, my parents live here. Previously, they lived in another city due to job transfers. Later, when I retired, I returned to the city, and I returned to live in a house that I had bought a long time ago, but had been there for many years.
I am actually very unfilial, I rarely go to see them, especially after my life has changed, many times I arrange for Tina to help me 'cope' with them, as long as they know that I am safe, what they are doing, and they have no worries about food and clothing.
I know I have a reason, and that is when I know that in a sense I am not their true son, and that there is another soul living in my body, I am even more evasive and unable to face them? I kept telling myself that I was their son, but no matter how much I tried to suggest myself, this psychological trace could not be completely erased.
But now, when I passed by here, I realized that I was in a hurry to pick up Aunt Xin, and I didn't even think of them? I couldn't help but ask the driver to stop, and when I stopped here, I found that all the excuses were so clumsy, I could not fulfill my filial piety for the time being because of the responsibility I carried, but I couldn't escape their thoughts and concerns, have I asked them about their emotions? Or do you just continue to believe that they say don't worry, we're all right?
I stood here sad and wanted to cry, so I quickly turned around and ran to the nearest mall almost at a fast speed, bought cigarettes and alcohol for my father, my mother's thermal underwear and a bracelet, and then pretended to go home calmly.
I'm actually so sad, maybe the people in this world who care about you the most, the most selfless to you, are just put in a position that you can't think of, although I have also gone home to visit them over the years. Over the years, I also think about my childhood, when I was a teenager, and occasionally miss them. But this time the state of mind was so different, I don't know what happened to me? Maybe it was because I saw Uncle Xin that I began to really untie my heart knot and face my parents?
I don't know why, this sudden realization also made my soul inexplicably fluctuate, but I didn't care. I just hurried my steps, pretended to be happy, and rushed into my parents' neighborhood.
This time, I really recognized that I was Ye Zhengling, their son, because the blood in my body, hair and skin came from them, and my appearance and demeanor and habits all had some shadows of them.
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