I set off from home to find Xin Yi the next day, and my parents were willing to stay, soft and quiet. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

I felt my parents' desire to say what I was doing, and I don't know when my son had become a mystery in their eyes, and they no longer knew where I was, and even began to understand me.

I read that their eyes were not angry about it, only deeply worried. At home, I was half drunk, took their hands, and told them in the gentlest and firmest tone that because of my childhood experience, I had learned some things that ordinary people could not touch, so I also had to take some responsibilities and do things that ordinary people could not do.

"But, rest assured, I'm safe and there will be absolutely no danger. It's just that there are some things to keep secret. I smiled peacefully, and as I said this, I shook my parents' hands vigorously.

I can only do this, and I realize that sometimes deception turns out to be a helpless thing. You love someone, you don't deceive him (her), but sometimes you love someone, you have to deceive him (her), I suddenly understand Uncle Xin's mood.

"Can't even your parents say it?" At this time, my mother asked, although she was much more relieved, the worry in her eyes had not dissipated.

I looked at her face, so many years have passed, she is no longer young, the fine lines at the corners of her eyes, and the skin that has sagged a lot, I feel distressed for a while. couldn't help but let go, gently sent her mother's slightly messy forehead to her neatly, and then pretended to be casual and grabbed her, saying, "If I can say, what reason do I have to hide from you and my father?" ”

"That..." Mom wanted to ask a few questions, but was interrupted by my dad: "Since my son's affairs are to be kept secret, what have you been asking?" Don't drag your son back. ”

I glanced at my dad gratefully, if he hadn't let me out in time, I really don't know how to say it. Who says lying to your closest ones isn't a painful thing?

It's just that my dad didn't want to say anything after saying this, I looked at him inquiringly, then picked up the cigarette on the table, lit it for him and handed it to him, and naturally handed the tea to him.

Dad's eyes are full of relief, but my sadness is hidden here, aren't these things that a natural son should do? But I did too little for them.

After taking a puff of cigarette, Dad was a little more natural, and then he said to me: "I know that you work hard, and you keep it secret." Dad is no problem, mainly your mother, you know, a woman's family, love to talk. We don't have much either, just your son. So, can you, can you..."

"Old man, why are you pushing me? Usually, you don't talk much? You don't want a son? Dad was a little embarrassed when he said this, and Mom began to complain about him at this time.

It was a very ordinary quarrel, a very strong love, and I realized how hateful it was for me to escape because of the knot in my heart, and that guilt spread to every cell of me, making me feel pain even in my body. However, I could only endure this emotion, and I didn't even dare to change my expression, so I hugged the second elder and hurriedly said: "I was too busy before, and now I will go home to accompany you as soon as I am free." When I'm done with these things, I'll be by your side. ”

It was night, I was alone in the quilt quietly weeping, tidy room, how many times have I come back to live? They are also prepared for me, cleaning a layer is not stained, and all kinds of sadness in my heart can only be quietly released at this time, but I don't dare to make a sound at all.

But I didn't want my mother to enter the room at this time, so I quickly wiped away my tears and pretended to turn over, only to feel that she had straightened the quilt for me, and said with disgust but doting: "This child, so old, sleeping is still so churning." He touched my head again and left satisfied.

Always come in the middle of the night to see how I slept and after so many years of absence, my mother's habit has not changed, and I have already bitten my hand and cried very much. In this life, if I owe anything, it must be to my parents. I never imagined that one day I would cry so much.

As much as I wanted to be with them, I left in the morning. Mom was very relieved that I could stay for breakfast, she made it for me, she thought I didn't have time for breakfast, and Dad kept saying don't hold me back.

Walking in the morning breeze, my eyes were still very sour, but I didn't dare to look back, I was afraid to look back and see them standing on the balcony watching my departing back.

After sorting out my mood, I went to the familiar factory and mining area, and went straight to the unit building where Aunt Xin lived.

Once, the yard of the bungalow where we lived has long been demolished, and the things you once thought would never change, the place where they will always exist, will actually disappear faster than you think, so fast that there may not be time for you to take another look.

As I passed by the place where I had lived, I stopped a little, and I had too many memories to find the familiarity. I was a little stunned, came back to my senses, lit a cigarette, looked at the unit building built on the original address, took a puff of cigarette as if nothing happened, and left in a hurry.

When I knocked on Aunt Xin's door, I waited a long time for Aunt Xin to open the door, and Aunt Xin was wearing a casual and very old dress, her hair was somewhat messy, and she looked up at my face, much older than my mother.

My throat rolled, and my heart was sad. Aunt Xin used to be so beautiful, even if she has been under a lot of pressure in life, she has no heart to dress up, but she will tidy herself up, whenever I go to her house when I was a child, she is always beautiful and clean and tidy.

It's like now, it seems that he has no intention of taking care of himself. Is it because Xin Yi hasn't come back for so long? Was it because she was already feeling something? I didn't dare to think about it, I was inexplicably a little weak-hearted. Over the years, Xin Yi has almost all the sustenance in her heart, but Xin Yi is in the current situation, I can only hide it from her, even if the truth is to be revealed, I have no way to face Aunt Xin confidently, let alone her like this? I could only look at Aunt Xin, smiled reluctantly, and called her.

And Aunt Xin seemed to be in a trance, and it wasn't until I called her that she suddenly came back to her senses, but the first action was to hold my hand all of a sudden, and she called me in a whisper that was excited and incredulous: "It's Zhengling, Zhengling, have you come to see me?" ”

I took Aunt Xin's hand, and I didn't know what to say except nodding? Xin Yi and I grew up together, and the two families lived close to each other, and the relationship was also close. Coupled with my intimacy with Xin Yi, Aunt Xin in front of me almost regarded me as a son.

Over the years, although I have been making up news about Xin Yi for her, she has never been able to take a look at Xin Yi, and even I haven't been able to see her often because of many things, how can she not be excited to see me?

"Come in, come in." After a brief conversation, Aunt Xin noticed that I was standing outside the door and quickly pulled me in. She pulled me to sit down, and at the same time was busy trying to gather me some food and drink, and at the same time wanted to clean up, and she seemed a little at a loss for a while.

I simply pulled her and sat down, and just as I was about to say something, she stood up again, and said a little embarrassedly: "Look at me like this, thinking about cleaning up at home, I haven't cleaned up." This sloppy appearance is too impolite. ”

I casually glanced at the house, in fact, it couldn't be more tidy, but the mop in the corner of the house proved that Aunt Xin was really cleaning, so I said: "Auntie, this house is also quite clean, what else is it cleaning?" Come and sit down, don't be so particular in front of me. ”

At this time, Aunt Xin had already combed her hair and came out, looked at me and said with a smile: "Isn't it okay for me to do?" On weekends, if you don't go to work, just clean up. ”

I was silent, smiling reluctantly at the corner of my mouth, but I seemed to be able to see Aunt Xin, who had been worried and lonely, cleaning over and over again, keeping herself busy, but when I didn't know what to say, she asked me a little cautiously: "Zhengling, you came to see me this time, is there any news from Xin Yi?" When will she come back to see me? It's nothing, you don't talk to her too much, I'm fine, the important thing is that she can't be burdened. ”

Xin Yi was worried, and at the same time explained, desperately pretending that nothing happened, and looking at me expectantly, hoping that I could tell her more about Xin Yi in the next moment.

She never told me that she wanted Xin Yi to go back to see her, she must have missed her very much this time, right? Why do parents always say similar things? And what is it about the past that we often ignore? I have done too little, in fact, I should replace Xin Yi to fulfill my filial piety, but I also have things that I must bear. If I sacrifice these and want to complete my own protection, can God give me a result that is not tragic?

I was a little stunned, but Aunt Xin called me cautiously and worriedly, and couldn't help asking: "Zhengling, Xin Yi, Xin Yi, is there something wrong with her?" ”

I came back to my senses, quickly smiled, and said, "It's okay." "But then, what am I going to say? I can't say that Uncle Xin wants to see her, and I don't dare to say anything about Xin Yi's situation, I thought about what to say all the way, and at this time, I really faced it, but I didn't know how to speak.

However, I still have to say what I should say, I can only say as easily as possible: "Xin Yi is really fine, and this time I am here to pick you up, pick you up and take you to see Xin Yi." ”

That's the best thing I can think of, and I'm still hiding it, but I can't help it.

I thought that Aunt Xin would be very happy, and then asked questions, and I was ready to deal with it, but I didn't expect that she was stunned in the room with a trace of sadness after listening to it.

This is, what happened?