"Thirteen, what are you going to do?!" Qiu Shasha said as she put down the things she was holding and hurriedly walked towards me who was about to get out of bed.

"I'm panicking and want to go out alone." I said as I put my shoes on and got up from the bed.

"Why don't I go out with Sister Zhao Man to go out with you?" Qiu Shasha asked me with some concern.

I shook my head:

"I'll be on my own, and I'll be back in a while, right, what about the fat man? You okay? "I found that the fat man was not in the ward, so I asked Qiu Shasha and Zhao Man.

"When Sister Zhao Man and I went downstairs just now, the fat man was still in the house, but now he is gone, I guess he went to the toilet." Qiu Shasha said to me.

"By the way, you broke the feng shui death situation last night?" I looked at Qiu Shasha and Zhao Man and asked.

Qiu Shasha shook her head:

"It's not broken, I don't know why I'm willing, since Sister Rushuang and the male ghost named Tang Yanlan left, the feng shui death situation itself was broken, and Xia Linxuan had already escaped, I haven't been able to figure out what it is, what is their purpose this time, and why Tang Yanlan's ghost is with Xia Linxuan, these are all questions that we can't figure out, and the whole thing is very strange, and there are many loopholes."

I nodded, and I understood what Qiu Shasha said, but I didn't bother to think about it now, I didn't want to think about anything now, I just wanted to go outside alone.

Walking towards the outside of the ward, when I walked to Qiu Shasha's side, she seemed to be about to say something to me, and Zhao Man, who was standing next to her, persuaded her.

Indeed, I really need to be alone now, Zhao Man knows this, so he persuaded Qiu Shasha. Now I don't even have the strength to walk, and when I walked out of the ward alone, I walked down the corridor and into the elevator.

After going downstairs and leaving the hospital, I walked alone in the noisy streets, and since Rushuang was gone, I felt as if I was dead, and even if I was alive, I was a walking corpse.

My feelings for her are too deep, but I also understand that her feelings for Tang Yanlan are definitely not comparable to me, but I am really heartbroken, very unwilling, and even a little hated Tang Yanlan.

But I don't blame anyone, if I want to blame the creation in this world, let Rushuang find the wrong person, and love the wrong person.

……

In this way, I walked aimlessly on this not bustling street, but I kept thinking about the scenes I used to be with Rushuang, and now, I clearly realized that I couldn't leave her, but I had to leave her, and there was nothing more sad and helpless in the world than ......

I love her, but I can't be with her.

As I walked forward, I suddenly saw an old fortune teller with a stall on the side of the street, and when he saw that I was alone, he immediately stood up from the stall, beckoned to me, and shouted:

"Hey, young man, do you want to count the trigram? I see that your eyebrows are shining, the heavenly pavilion is rich, and the fortune of the Lord is rich. However, there is a slight inappropriate aura under your eyes, flooding the heavens, seeking the light of help, and spreading the jade sea. Come on, come on, plead for eight characters, and the old decay will make a little diagnosis for it. ”

When I heard the words of the old fortune teller, I stopped my steps, looked at him and asked:

"Old man, I don't know if you are married?" Although my heart is dead now, I still want to hear what he has to say, even if it is to deceive me into being happy.

When the old man saw that there was a play, he got up from the bench, looked at me, and said:

"Count, lad, take out your left hand and show me first."

I stretched out my left hand, and the old man hurriedly took out a pair of reading glasses from his pocket and put them on, took my hand, and looked at it seriously.

He didn't say a word, stared at my left hand for a few moments, then let go of my hand and shook his head to signal me to withdraw it.

"How's it going, old sir?" I looked at him and asked.

The old man looked down and pinched his fingers, looked at me and said with a smile:

"Young man, the marriage line in the palm of your left hand is good, the line is deep and thin, and there are feather twills on the head and palm, indicating that you have a lot of peach blossom luck, and you will definitely have a marriage this year, at most in autumn, you can get married......"

After hearing the old man's words, I smiled and shook my head, although I knew that he was lying to me, but I felt a little comforted in my heart, looked at him and asked:

"Sir, how much do you count? I'll give you the money. ”

The old man smiled and said:

"Twenty, if you continue to count, career, five elements, eight characters, and numerology, I will charge you another ten yuan."

I shook my head, took the twenty dollars out of my pocket, handed it over, and turned to leave.

A cold wind blew, but I didn't feel the cold at all, looking at the cold passers-by on the street, my longing for Rufrost became stronger and stronger.

I know that I am just sinking into the relationship with Rushuang and unable to extricate myself, and I don't want to pull it out, and I use the palmistry that the old man showed me just now to explain, and blindly anesthetize myself, fantasizing that the miracle of a lover's final marriage will befall me.

But I know very well that miracles will never befall me again, and the road of my life will continue to walk, but without the company of frost.

Now that she and Tang Yanlan are together, she must have a lot to say to each other, right? There must be, just like the reunion ...... after I parted ways with Rushuang.

At this time, I suddenly wanted to drink, I wanted to get drunk, I wanted to let alcohol anesthetize myself. Stop thinking about those things and let yourself forget about them completely.

In this city of steel forests, there is no story of Snow White and the Prince, fairy tales are fairy tales, and they can never become reality, but I live in reality. Fast-paced life, hurried figures, numb eyes, false smiles, I am being assimilated......

Walking into a store, I bought myself several cans of beer, sat down on a nearby clearing, and drank by myself as I watched the cars pass up and down the street.

The more I drink, the more uncomfortable I feel in my heart, who would say that I can use alcohol to kill my sorrows?! Whenever I think of the back of Rushuang who turned around and walked away with Tang Yanlan, my heart felt as if it was about to explode and crack, and as I drank it, I finally vomited uncomfortably.

I now understand one thing, if the pain is unbearable, people will collapse......

Rising from the ground, I threw the can in my hand to the ground in hatred, threw my head up and shouted to the sky.

I can't find any outlet at all now, so that I can vent the pain left by Rushuang leaving me, and whenever I think of the words that Rushuang once said to me, I feel as uncomfortable as death!

"Ah~!!" I raised my head again and shouted, gathered my yang energy on my feet, and quickly swept out in one direction ahead, I raised my speed to the limit, and now I need to vent, otherwise I will really go crazy.

What is the situation in the world? Straight Christians promise life and death. When I was a child, I didn't believe in this sentence at all, but now I really understand the meaning of this sentence.

I don't know how long I ran all the way, until the yang energy and physical strength in my body were all exhausted, I stopped, and found that I had now run out of the city and came to the outskirts south of Dongdian.

I sat staggered on a grassy ground, but I couldn't calm down.

"Ann Rushuang! I love you!!! I raised my head and shouted loudly to the sky, shouting out the words that had been pressing in my heart, at this time, my tears were also uncontrollable, I flowed down, I continued to raise my head to prevent the tears in the corners of my eyes from continuing to flow down, but there was an overwhelming feeling of pain in my heart, I was powerless to love like frost, and I didn't even dare to think about it.

I think I will remember the back of her walking with Tang Yanlan for the rest of my life, I closed my eyes, folded my hands, and whispered in my mouth:

"Rushuang, I wish you happiness and happiness......" The tears finally couldn't be restrained anymore and slipped down......

It was not only my tears that fell to the ground and melted into the dirt, but also my soul.

I miss her, I love her, but I can't tell her.

Hehe...... Maybe it's all fate. How can I have such a perfect woman as Rushuang as my daughter-in-law? She's been by my side for ten years, and I'm supposed to be content.

Should be content......