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Yongxiu lowered her head and whispered, "I said that your method is useless to me. ”

I scolded two more sentences indignantly, but she didn't say anything more.

Shen Shuang walked up to me and whispered close to my ear, "You two sit aside and rest for a while, and I'll persuade you to try." ”

I couldn't think of a better way to get her to speak, so I sat down stupidly.

The red flames burned, stretching Shen Shuang's figure very long, she took out a wet tissue from her bag and gently wiped her wound. But Yongxiu didn't appreciate it at all, and still said coldly: "Don't treat me so pretendiously, I won't remember your goodness." Don't even think to take a word out of me. ”

At this moment, I have to calm my emotions, and when dealing with such people, I must definitely keep my mind calm. I tried to calm my mood, and suddenly remembered that the book I had in my bag and silently opened it, only to see a small note in the middle.

[I am in pain, I want to die, but I am not willing to give up on you. Berkeley said: To be is to be perceived, but I have never been perceived by you. I know you love me, but you have to pretend to be cold on the surface. I've always been in your life, and I don't have a sense of presence. I know you're complaining about me for changing my surname and breaking off with my grandfather who raised me. But I really can't control my raw emotions, and I really can't control the truth that you are my mother. Did you know? How I want to be aware of you, again and again against your original intentions, but you only have the organization in your head. 】

This is a note sandwiched in the middle of the book, full of tear spots, I don't know if it is Yongxiu's tears or Yongxi's teardrops.

I understand this psychology of Yongxi: from the perspective of Emotionally Focused Therapy (EFT), this is a typical anxious attachment. Yongxi has lived with Fang Jun, who is very different from him since he was a child, and it is naturally easy to feel that he has been ignored for a long time. When he knows that his mother exists, as long as he shows a little care for him, he is prone to anxious attachment. This pain of gain and loss is far more painful than physical torture.

I sighed helplessly and put it back in the book. I didn't expect Yongxiu and Yongxi to have this kind of relationship. Suddenly, a bright light flashed in my head; Maybe I can use this to try to get her to speak.

But I don't know what happened between them. It seems that you can only guess and imagine on your own. Yongxiu can keep this note all the time, which is likely to show that she still loves Yongxi deeply and can't forget her son's death.

Thinking of this, I stuffed the book back into my bag, took out a bottle of water, squatted in front of her, and said, "Are you thirsty?" Drink some water! ”

Yongxiu sneered: "You think I am a three-year-old? ”

"If you don't drink it, forget it." I put water on the ground. "I want to have a good chat with you."

"I don't want to talk to you." Yongxiu said categorically.

"Alright then!" I sighed and continued, "Then I'll tell you a story." ”

Yongxiu looked at me with disdain and said, "Do you think that little chicken soup story will work for me?" ”

"Don't worry, I'm talking about whether it's useful or not." I coughed twice, and my brain began to spin rapidly. It is not easy to guess the story between them based on that note.

"As early as more than 20 years, there was a woman, her name was Wang Xiu. She gave birth to a son. I paused, and while observing her expression, I said, "You can tell me that in addition to the surname, not only the name, but also the head is exactly the same as you." ”

Yongxiu snorted coldly and did not speak.

"But she deliberately gave her son to a person named Fang Jun for the sake of the organization." This is my guess, and I suddenly found that Yongxiu's face became extremely pale and her mouth was open.

I smiled slightly, "Do you say that this woman is crazy, she doesn't even want her own son." "For some reason, when I said this, I felt a pang of sadness and the idea of crying out loud.

"There are all kinds of people in the world who abandon their children, but they are all because of all kinds of unspeakable secrets. But this mother has no difficulty, she just wants to get the attention of her superiors, because she knows that this man named Fang Jun is inextricably linked with the agent. Do you say there is such a ruthless mother in the world? Is such a mother worthy of motherhood?! "The more I talked, the more angry I became, I couldn't control my emotions at all.

Yongxiu was shocked, and her eyes widened with a huge "Who are you?" How do you know this? ”

"Ha~ha~ Good question, how do I know this!" I looked up to the sky and smiled, but tears slipped silently, "Who am I?" Who am I? "My heart hurts inexplicably.

"You're not Qiu Ci! You are Yongxi! Yongxiu yelled in fear.

"Ha~ha~! I'm dead, and you still won't call me son. Growing up, you've been taking advantage of me. After every school, you asked me to come to you to report on Fang Jun's situation. Do you know how much I hate this life, how much I feel like I am cared for by you? I don't want to betray my grandfather, but I'm even more afraid of losing you. ”

"I live every day in a life of gains and losses, and when you are happy, you are especially gentle with me; One day you're not happy, just as if I didn't exist. For so many years, I was nothing more than your tool, a tool to spy on them. "I became indignant, and the more I talked, the more agitated I became, and I hid my face with my hands in my hands as I spoke.

"Son......... Child......... ......" Yongxiu's mouth opened for a long time, but finally she didn't say that word.

I cried, my heart was full of discouragement, and a voice suddenly came to my mind: "It turns out that everything is my own passion, I have seen countless people in my short life of more than 20 years, and I have seen through many things. But why can't you see through it when it comes to yourself? ”