Endless loneliness, endless darkness, leaving only a trace of reluctant consciousness, knowing that he is still alive.

Gradually, in this suffocating depression, memories began to scatter, and the spirit was close to collapse.

At this time, a seal appeared.

It's okay this way, all memories are blocked, and you won't feel miserable and lonely.

Time is endless, but in the midst of slumber, where is the concept of time? I don't know what happened in the outside world.

I only know that at a certain moment, another seal was added to seal the surging soul power in the soul that had already recovered most of it.

Next, there is slumber again.

Until one day, the soul was finally awakened in a daze, and was confronted with a dead child, to be exact, a child whose heart had just stopped.

The soul was invested in his body, it was so compatible, but at that moment, the only trace of self-consciousness also disappeared, no, it should be asleep from now on, a qiē past life, a qiē grievance, a qiē emotion, never meet again.

Just because in this world, what distance is far away from time? That's a qiē that can no longer be crossed.

I opened my eyes, surrounded by unfamiliar faces, and I began to cry, and in a blur, I knew that I was a child named Ye Han.

Yiqiē's memories began to flip again.

Time is like a yellowed photograph that appears everywhere in my mind.

Father, mother, Chen Chong, Zhou Zheng first met Xin Yi on the night of thunder, followed by Master and Brother Zhengchuan

"Ahh I hugged my brain, and the intertwined memories made me confused, sometimes I saw the blue sky when I was fifteen years old, and sometimes I saw the sunset when Chen Chong and Zhou were sitting next to me when I was six years old.

From time to time, I saw that morning, with the cool eyes of the bowls, and took out a paper bag, which contained sweet wheat cakes.

From time to time, I saw a figure behind me, 'unyieldingly' following me, and when I turned around, it was her somewhat dull eyes

"Who am I?" I couldn't help but scream, the wind and snow outside the small cave, my fingers were deep in the hard soil, blood was flowing from the cracks of my fingernails, but I didn't feel pain, a kind of self-identity confusion, made me even more painful! I can't find the direction, am I Nie Yan or Ye Zhengling?

I gasped for breath and began to have a sense of confusion, and a large amount of sweat was dense on my forehead, and even in an instant the sweat soaked my inner clothes.

It was so uncomfortable that I couldn't help but hit the walls of this cave again and again.

At this time, eager footsteps sounded outside the cave, and a figure rushed into the cave and hugged me: "The third, the third!" Is that you? Are you awake? ”

I looked back in agony, and saw a handsome but haggard face, and for a moment I felt so unfamiliar with this face, I couldn't help but push him away, I was not used to a stranger being so close to me.

I don't know why, I shot with great strength, and I actually pushed him three or four meters away, and when I reached the edge of this cave, I hit the cave wall hard before I stopped.

Such an impact was nothing in the first place? But I saw his hurt eyes, and a hint of hidden despair.

Such a look actually made my heart throb a little.

"Nie Nie Yan?" He stood up and tried to call me like that.

Nie Yan? I was stunned for a moment, and a cordial feeling surged in my heart, yes, am I not Nie Yan?

No, it's not! Scenes of the past that did not belong to Nie Yan squeezed into my mind again, making me even more confused, I looked at the person in front of me, and suddenly remembered who he was, the intimacy in my heart lingered, and I almost unconsciously shouted: "Brother Zhengchuan? ”

Unexpectedly, it was just such a soft call, but an expression of ecstasy swelled in his eyes, and he cautiously approached me and said, "The third child? Zhengling? Do you remember? ”

What do I remember? It was the pain of confusion again, and it was incomparably complicated, and the completely unrelated and intertwined past squeezed into my brain, making my brain swell and ache, and I couldn't help but hit the cave wall frantically again.

Brother Zhengchuan rushed over again and hugged me tightly! But how did he struggle with me?

In the small cave, we were like fighting, and he tried to stop me again and again, but I was pushed away again and again.

The last time, he was thrown away by me again, and fell heavily to the ground, gasping for breath, and for a while he was unable to get up again.

And I had a feeling of pleasure, and no one stopped me from venting my pain with pleasure, and I banged my brain wildly until a deep depression had been knocked out of the cave wall, and the dirt was rolling down, and my forehead was covered with blood.

Brother Masakawa got up again, trying to stop me and cracked under the sunken soil, revealing a hard boulder.

I gritted my teeth and looked at the boulder, and once again, without hesitation, I hit it hard!

Let me die, there is nothing more painful than this confusion and difficulty in identifying with yourself, and when in this world, you feel that you are no longer yourself, it is an unbearable psychological burden.

I was willing to die to get rid of this pain, and I even knew that if I hadn't died, I would have gone completely insane.

There was a huge impact on the cold stone, and my brain was suddenly dizzy, and this vertigo turned out to be a pleasure at this time, because then I could think of nothing.

Brother Zhengchuan rushed in front of me again, and held me up, where did I still have half a trace of strength in the dizziness, just looked at him in confusion, that strange and familiar feeling, I can't describe it at all.

I slowly closed my eyes and felt a small flower swaying gently in my soul, what was that? Isn't that the Flower of Ten Thousand Souls? What is the Ten Thousand Souls Flower? Compassion? My memory was still in confusion, but in this moment of madness, I felt a strong will suddenly appear in the Ten Thousand Souls Flower, and suddenly rushed into my brain.

Like a heavy boulder, it pressed against the turbulent current that erupted everywhere, and finally had the effect of gradually stabilizing it.

"Don't think about anything, go to sleep." A majestic voice with an irresistible will echoed in my mind repeatedly, as if forcibly helping me enter the blank state of contemplation in my brain, and I really gradually followed this voice, slowly getting rid of a messy memory, and fell asleep.

Sleep is sweet, like curling up in a mother's arms.

In his sleep, it was pure white, and only one voice echoed repeatedly: "Reincarnation is only the appearance, and the essence is the same." Just like the different flowers of flowers, the different leaves of trees, and the different faces of all things, stripped of a qiē appearance, the essence is the same. ”

Idea? I couldn't help frowning in my sleep, as if I had an understanding, but I didn't seem to be able to grasp the key.

But the voice echoed repeatedly, and I seemed to see the seeds break through the ground and sprout in a pure white, and then evolve into a sea of flowers, in which the flowers are different, but in the end there is only one word left in my mind - flowers.

It was as if I saw a forest, with all kinds of trees, tall, short, thick, and thin, growing together, and finally there was only one word left in my mind - tree.

I saw all kinds of people in the red dust, beautiful, ugly, old, small, aren't they all human?

After I saw a qiē, the voice finally changed, and I said again, "Do you see the essence clearly?" Change is the inevitable result of different environments, just as the height of a tree is only to adapt to the environment in which it lives, and the beauty and ugliness of a person come from the inheritance of parents, and every qiē is an external cause. External causes cannot change the essence, the tree is still a tree, and the person is still a person. ”

I kind of get it.

And at this time, whether it was the memory of Nie Yan or the memory of Ye Zhengling, it appeared in my mind again, and I was no longer deeply immersed in it, but I was watching as a bystander, and there was no longer that sense of chaos in my mind.

But I'm still confused, what should my identity be defined? Nie Yan or Ye Zhengling?

"Idiot, don't wake up yet? No matter how deep the affection is, the experience is re-entered into the heart, that is also a qiē of your essence! You still don't understand, no matter what you go through or who you meet, you are still you! Consistently, the only you! Whether it's Nie Yan or Ye Zhengling, it's just you. ”

In the end, the voice struck in my head like a flood of bells, and I suddenly realized that it was just me!!

"Hold on to a heart and find where your heart is. Gradually, the voice gradually faded away, and the past that had calmed down in my mind began to churn in my mind one by one again.

I hold a heart of all and look at a qiē.

But with a heart that I don't move, to experience a qiē.

Slowly, the soul began to become clear, and all the past events began to follow a timeline, gradually becoming clear from Nie Yan's birth, to Nie Yan's death, from Ye Zhengling's birth, to Ye Zhengling's present.

It's just my experience, just accept it calmly.

That messy feeling finally disappeared, and a qiē became distinct and clear again.

The will that forced into my mind finally gradually blurred, and disappeared in the moment before it dispersed, but I saw a figure who seemed to be crazy, walked into the darkness, and bowed down deeply in front of a magnificent tomb: "I deserve this calamity, and I hope that the tomb owner will wake up the fool at a critical moment." Otherwise, he will be too affectionate in every life, sinking into it, and I am afraid that it will be difficult to wake up. Mu Yanzhi bowed three times and bowed nine times here, carried out the greatest gift, and made a great wish to thank here. ”

As I spoke, I saw the figure kowtow again and again.

For some reason, I couldn't stop the fever in my eyes in my dreams.

Master, you and I have been a master and apprentice for more than a thousand years, and only now do I know that your name is Mu Yanfu?