"It's been a long time since he's slept so soundly." Zhuang Jing's voice came from behind me.

The dim light can always bring people a little inner warmth, because it is the original color of home in people's hearts.

I didn't look back, I habitually stood in front of the window, looked out at the dark night, and whispered, "Then let him sleep." ”

"Why do you always like to stand here? I haven't touched much since I came back? Zhuang Jing finally walked up to my side and asked softly.

From meeting Brother Zhengchuan to now, her attitude towards me is inexplicably good, at least in my memory, Zhuang Jing has not been so gentle to me.

Why do I like to stand here? I don't know the reason myself, but I don't know if the city in my eyes is finally tired at this time, and with a certain household in the building opposite, the lights are also turned off, and it is a pale darkness in my eyes.

In addition to the lights of the street lights.

I think of a figure who used to stand here, whose side face seemed to light and made me look up to him without a trace, who always seemed to have a very heavy heart, surrounded by a mass of sorrow, but standing very high.

That person is Chen Chengyi, he said, I have a similar fate to him.

I don't know anything else, but I don't know when I've gotten used to standing where he stood that day.

Looking at the whole city, thinking about one's own heart is also at this time, it will be infinitely small if it is a personal matter.

Because from this point of view, it can be regarded as a large number of sentient beings.

But even if it is small, the love is huge.

"Master, he went to a place. A place we will never go to in this life. Brother Zhengchuan's words are still lingering in my ears.

"What kind of place is that?" Actually, he and I were already drunk and hazy at that time, but I felt that I was sober, more sober than ever.

"The last sealed place is also the final place where the people of our mountain gate belong." Brother Zhengchuan's words were tossing and turning in his throat, and they seemed to be so unclear, but they were so clear word by word.

"The Last Sealed Land? What is sealed? "I rubbed my face, my heart hurt at that time, I didn't even know that such a mountain gate was secret.

However, I won't misunderstand that Brother Zhengchuan and Master didn't treat me as their own, they protected me too well.

"Sealed with a dusty history, a world that once was." Brother Masakawa seemed to have become a little more sober when he talked about this at that moment.

"Dusty history, once the world? What kind of place is that? I couldn't imagine it, so I asked again: "Will you go too?" ”

"I said before, don't ask me about it. Naturally, I wanted to go, but right now, no circumstances allow me to go. Brother Zhengchuan's eyebrows were bitter at the corners of his eyes.

"Let's go find Master, I miss him." At this time, I was finally completely drunk.

"No, it can't be. We can't get there, and if it's not at the right time, we'll never get there. Brother Zhengchuan lay on the ground.

This is our last conversation, and then Brother Zhengchuan is already unconscious and I am hungover, but I still remember to help him and slowly walk towards Huo Nie's house.

We drank for hours from the restaurant to the river, and I said so many things that might take a month to say in the mountain gate, and I was tired and sad from my heart and body, but I couldn't go numb.

Zhuang Jing always followed behind us, kept a certain distance, and did not listen to our conversation.

The wind on the way back, I gradually sobered up, vomited twice, and after washing my face, I was much better, and I carried Brother Zhengchuan on my back, and I walked all the way back to Huo Nie's house like this.

I like it, like when I was a kid, he used to carry me on his back.

When he got to my room, he slept all the way, and stopped talking nonsense that he had been talking about.

I don't know if it's my delusion, but from the nonsense he mutters, I always feel like I've heard a name that I'm familiar with, but now, I've had enough on my mind that I don't have time to think about it anymore.

It was Zhuang Jing who said that he hadn't slept so peacefully for a long time, which interrupted my thoughts.

At this time, Zhuang Jing was standing next to me very quietly, and she was also facing the dark city with me, and she suddenly asked me an inexplicable question: "Do you remember our previous dispute?" You have said that your life is not smooth, and if someone behaves like this to you, you will have to fight for your life. ”

"How?" I narrowed my eyes, a little tired.

I really don't want to get entangled in such trivial issues until now.

"Does that mean that some people, even if they do such a thing to you, you will not fight for your life? Don't even resist? If there is such a relationship, is that person very important? Zhuang Jing stared at the night in front of her, and said this sentence in a somewhat sparse tone.

"Well, even if someone stabs me in the chest with a knife, I don't think I know how to resist." My tone also became low, and I remembered a few people who I didn't know how to resist if they did.

Because that kind of sadness is enough to destroy me, how can I resist? I didn't think about it specifically, who could it be?

But I finally understood that Zhuang Jing was definitely not included in this, and I was slightly surprised in my heart.

"Then she must be very unusual to him, maybe" Zhuang Jing seemed to say something to herself, her voice getting lower and lower, and before she finished speaking, a tear rolled down from her eyes.

I didn't understand it at first, but then I thought about it carefully, and I didn't understand it very well, originally I was full of worries, and I was really curious about these things, but Zhuang Jing's tears fell into my heart like a desolate feeling, and I subconsciously asked: "She?" He? ”

Zhuang Jing wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, clasped her hands to her chest, and whispered: "Not long ago, there was such a woman, her nails pierced Brother Zhengchuan's chest raw. I looked at his chest, and there were five blood stains, but Brother Zhengchuan scolded me and told me not to go over. Then, turning his head, he looked at the woman, just a gentle smile. ”

I looked at Zhuang Jing silently, and there was another layer of mist in my eyes.

Subconsciously touched a cigarette and came out.

Brother Zhengchuan didn't talk about these to me just because, Brother Zhengchuan said, don't talk about him, if I don't want to embarrass him, don't ask about him.

The smoke was filled, and Zhuang Jing's voice continued: "He told her, if you kill me and can unravel the grudge in your heart, you can do it." I look at you like this, I won't resist or die, even though I still have a thousand regrets in my life, I won't regret it. ”

"Ye Zhengling, can you answer me anything?" After saying this, Zhuang Jing turned her head blankly, already looking at me with tears streaming down her face.

My heart was heavy, and my feeling was sour, and I was silent for a long time before I said, "I think that if you love someone, if you get a response, it must be the best thing." If you don't get a response, it's just your own business after all, if it's really love, when it becomes your own thing, you also have to think about not being a burden to others. ”

Zhuang Jing wiped away her tears, and her voice choked: "How to do it?" ”

"Don't ask why, it's the best. Because that's his business. I turned my head to look out the window again.

Actually, I have doubts in my heart, but at this time, I can't touch Zhuang Jing's wounds, can I use my nails to pierce people's chests, is it still a normal person?

What has Brother Zhengchuan given birth to over the years? It's so decadent that if it's entangled with a demon, there is a bitterness in my heart, and the bitterness has spread to the corners of my mouth and lips, and I can't get rid of it.

I still want to drink again.

So, I went to the wine cabinet, took two glasses, put in some ice cubes, and poured two glasses of wine, and this time I didn't stand in front of the window, but leaned back on the couch a little tired.

Zhuang Jing naturally sat down next to her, and I handed her a glass of wine.

She took the silent drink, and went to pour another glass herself, perhaps not enough to simply carry the whole bottle.

I took a sip of my wine and said, "It's not good to be drunk." ”

"If you're drunk, you don't have to feel bad." Zhuang Jing's eyes were hazy with tears.

"Love hurts, but it's when you want to respond, and the return will be so painful. Wouldn't it be good if you learned to be self-satisfied? The mood is also sublimated, and the pain is relieved. I laughed.

"Ye Zhengling, you're quite good at. But it's easier said than done, and you don't have to try to convince me with reason. Zhuang Jing took another drink.

I threw my neck back and drank the wine from my glass.

He said, "Who will comfort you?" If I don't think about some crooked reasoning, I can't even comfort myself. ”

Zhuang Jing looked at me and said, "Could it be that you also love it?" ”

"Who has the air to dream about that? Zhuang Jing, do you think I'm a human or a ghost? "I smiled and said it very lightly, and the room was filled with the 'whoosh' sound of my wine.

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