"Even if you have a life full of misfortune and sorrow, you still choose to keep it in your heart, or you want to hold that painful memory in your hands. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ”

Scarlet rose from her chair.

"Even so... Rather than not happening, I still hope to be able to meet, to be able to experience, to be able to experience that kind of thing, to be able to meet such a person... Even if you know what difficulties are waiting for you, you still choose to move on. ”

"But you'll regret it."

The doctor's deep voice accentuated the words.

"That's not a touching thing, you're going to regret your choice, you're going to be more miserable... And then you'll come here again and do the same thing. ”

"Didn't you persevere? Doctor. Scarlet walked over to the doctor, "Why are you stopping me like this?" ”

"Life is not a new life, whether it is a family member, a friend, a lover, no matter how important a person is. What is lost, it is impossible to get it back. Recreating your life is no joke, after that, you will inevitably become a different person, no matter how hard you try, it is useless. Human beings are such indifferent things, even if they are not the same in appearance. You will no longer be who you used to be. ”

“......”

"At that time, you will regret it, you will desperately want to pursue your past self, thinking about why you should give up that past."

I, for example, is the best example.

The doctor was stopping her.

"Expecting only hurts. Do you think the life you have given up will be a good and fulfilling life? ”

The doctor sneered. She laughed at her face because of the pain and sorrow, and wanted to start her life again. Faced with the figure that still had the innocent imagination of a child, the doctor was furious.

"It's not a beautiful life. You'll be greeted with nothing but endless regrets. ”

It is useless to say more.

The doctor waved his hand, stopping Scarlet from continuing.

"Let's get into the nitty-gritty."

Let's get into the nitty-gritty.

After the doctor said this, he swept away his previous depressed appearance, as if the expression on the sad face that Scarlet Ye had seen before was an illusion. The doctor opened the notebook with bright yellow fruits printed on it and began to ask:

"So, there's still a lot of time, so think about other things, like, do you want to 'cry'?"

"What's that line?" Scarlet tilted her head and straightened her bow tie.

In other words, do you need the "crying" feature?" The doctor looked up, still smiling.

"Is there even such an option?" Scarlet Leaf was a little surprised.

"Yes, there are quite a few customers who have chosen this option here, after all, tears are not a necessity for human beings, and I don't think much of this is needed, in fact, 99% of people who have done "reinventing their lives" have chosen to give up this function so far. Even if you don't have it, it doesn't matter. ”

The doctor answered Scarlet's doubts in detail.

"That's really nonsense," Scarlet sighed, "I still want to be one percent." ”

"Although your choice did not surprise me... But can you tell me why? The doctor hung his head in resignation.

"Yes... I've never been able to be that kind of person. ”

“......”

"I'm weak, timid and willful, I'll never be that kind of strong person, and I don't want to... I don't want to be able to smile all the time, I want to "cry", I want to be coquettish, I want to be able to cry, I want to be able to stand up and move on even if I am in tears. ”

"That's amazing, Scarlet."

The doctor exclaimed.

"I might just wish I could be so weak, in that case... I can be myself. ”

Looking at the empty teacups, scarlet leaves, and closing your eyes.

"Maybe I'm thankful for this name now, maybe it's because of this name that I'm able to have that irritating past. Doctor, how many times has this "reinvented my life"? I've so far... How many times did you "reinvent your life"? ”

"It's... Amazing, Scarlet Leaf. The doctor smiled wryly and flipped to the first page of the notebook, "You, you have always been able to perceive more keenly than anyone else that this is... For the fourth time. ”

"Really? So it's better to end it all at once this time. ”

Scarlet said meaningfully.

She looked at the doctor's side face again, and stopped talking.

"Probably, it's going to be over soon, right?"

"So, can you cooperate with us to deal with this defect of recreating life?" The doctor made his own request, "If everybody remembers the past, there will be more and more trouble, as one of the exceptions... Can you help? Of course, in return, this time we will make the most complete reinvention for you for free. ”

"Ah, yes."

Scarlet replied absentmindedly.

"So, how did you feel when you saw the boy in the photo?" The doctor asked.

What's the mood?

"What's the mood...?"

"Yes, you, how do you feel if you look at it now?"

The doctor smiled. So what kind of mood is it? Some of them can't remember, and they find it hard to let go.

“... I always feel that as long as we are together, I feel very open, and I show myself clumsily, but I am afraid that I will be alienated, and I am afraid that my relationship will be close to each other. I want to forget the dreamy feeling... But I can't forget it. ”

What is it? Why am I like this?

"It irritates me, doctor, you know what? What kind of feelings is this? ”

"If you don't know, I won't know," the doctor pressed his heart, "because I'm too... It's so confusing, and it's so nostalgic. ”

“......”

Scarlet Leaf watched the doctor's movements, and suddenly felt a pang of unease, and reached out to press his chest.

"What's wrong? Where is it uncomfortable? The doctor looked up and asked.

"No, nothing."

Scarlet Leaf shook her head.

"Well, then, let's talk about organs," the doctor said, holding up his notebook, "is it okay to be like a normal person?" ”

“.... No, it's different," Scarlet said a little distractedly, "I'm different... My heart is on the right side, I'm different. Our hearts can be held together. ”

“... Want... Is it so unique? The doctor turned his head a little reluctantly.

"No... I've been like this since the beginning," Scarlet Leaf pressed against her right chest, feeling the pulse of her heart, "I've always been... That's who I am, I remember, I'm not like normal people. ”

"Well, then."

"Doctor, you know, I forgot something." Scarlet looked at the doctor, her gaze wandering, "All... It's all documented, it's all in your lab. What memories did I throw away when I first "reinvented my life"? And why did I leave a 'trace of memory'? ”

“... I said, I can't reveal more about you. ”

The doctor shook his head.

"I know him, the purple-haired boy... Is it called a heart leaf? Scarlet looked up.

The doctor's pupils shrank.

"Me and that person are like mirrors."

Scarlet said.

"I want to reach out and touch that side of myself, like the idea of an idiot princess in a fairy tale, I want to feel the heartbeat of myself on the other side of the mirror, I want to hug her, I want to have her, I want to be her. I know it's ridiculous, and that's why I'm here. I vaguely knew it was because of that person... The one I forgot about the first few times I "reinvented my life". I've been running, but now, I don't want to. ”

"Actually, what you're carrying is heavier than you think, Scarlet Leaf." The doctor stood up, took the notebook, walked over to Scarlet, and placed the notebook on the table in front of the blonde girl, "Because you forgot, you don't know the pain you're going to endure." ”

"It doesn't matter, I've already chosen it." Scarlet replied.

"So, let's talk about what kind of body you want."

The doctor clapped his hands and sat back in his seat.

"Beauty, health, you can get all this, what kind of body do you want?"

“... I said, I want to be myself. Scarlet Leaf emphasized again, "It's good to be like this now." I'll remember what I'm missing, and then at that time..."

"That's when you're going to come here again and choose to 'reinvent your life.'"

The doctor abruptly interrupted Scarlet.

"You've had three full surgeries, this will be the fourth, you've made the same choices the first few times, the same attitude, the same questions, the same answers, no difference, I used it four times to prove it, and I recorded everything in that notebook just now, and now, that notebook is useless."

"I'm sorry, Scarlet. You are repeating the mistakes of the past. ”

“......”

"No matter how many times you give up what you hold onto, come to me again, and choose the same thing again. I don't care at all, but is that really okay for you? Is it really necessary to repeat such meaningless things? ”

The doctor persuaded.

"You can remember what you've forgotten because you've only forgotten it temporarily, and you've left a glimmer of hope for your memory every time, and so every time you come here because you want to get rid of that glimmer of hope, and you repeat the same mistakes because of that glimmer of hope. Everything you do, it's useless. That kind of thing, it doesn't make sense at all, forget it, Scarlet Leaf, it's better for you. ”

"Forget about that teenager, and then you will have your own life, and you will become a new version of yourself."

"But then I'm not 'this scarlet leaf' anymore, am I?"

Scarlet asked rhetorically.

The doctor was speechless.

"In that case, the name doesn't belong to me anymore, and I won't do that. With this choice, I will never be able to recover what I lost. Scarlet said indifferently, "It's okay to repeat the mistakes of the past, if there is really such a glimmer of hope, the fourth, fifth, and even the hundredth time, I will continue to return to you." ”

"In the identity of 'this scarlet leaf'."

"Tell me, doctor, who has also experienced it, what do you think of this "reinventing life"? If you give up your old self, do you really not regret it at all? You're really... Don't want to get back to your old self? Didn't you choose to keep your memories as well? ”

Scarlet looked at the notebook on the table, then flipped it open.

Then, she froze.

"yes, who wouldn't want that?" The doctor laughed, "Everyone wants to 'go back to the past', but recreating life can only make people 'start over', and the option of going back to the past, no matter how advanced the technology is, is 'non-existent'." No matter how close it is, change is change, and it is impossible to go back to the past, this is human beings, and this is the so-called convenience brought by the development of science and technology. ”

"Instead of facing such a world, I want to go back in time."

"Is such a world right? Even 'life' can be bought, so what is the meaning of your life now? If you are not satisfied, you can get anything as long as you have money? What is the value of such a world? ”

“... Even so, we are still alive. ”

Scarlet Leaf shook her head.

She smiled, walked up to the doctor, took the doctor's hand, and smiled warmly.

"We're still alive, aren't we?" Doctor Heartleaf", haven't we survived to this day? Didn't you persevere for that 'she' too? Still holding on to the sad memories and persevering to this day? ”

The warm purple color covered with hope and enthusiasm is also the color of this scarlet leaf.