"I have a younger sister who is two years older than me. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info"

The doctor made two cups of tea, but Scarlet looked at the floating tea leaves in the teacup with a blank look, so the doctor asked.

"Don't like it? Tea. ”

"I don't like bitterness," he said, shaking his head, sniffing the aroma of tea, holding the teacup in both hands, "it is enough for me to smell the tea and feel the warmth." ”

"What an easy child to satisfy."

The doctor took a sip of tea.

"So, where are we?"

"Probably the story of Shakespeare and the Seven Dwarfs."

"What's that... New bad jokes? ”

"Don't like it? Shakespeare. ”

"It's not so much that I don't like it, but I don't like it at all," replied the doctor, "and you're interested in it?" In this case, even if we require a good knowledge of this area, we can do it. ”

"How could you possibly like it, this kind of thing, it's terrible."

It's filled with the same disgusting creamy smell as reality. Scarlet waved her hand in disgust, desperate to get rid of her relationship with 'that kind of thing'.

"Let's talk about you and your sister."

Scarlet said.

"So, let's talk about these boring things or something." "She loves music, especially singing. ”

"Although it's a younger sister, she doesn't look like a sister at all, she always looks high, and she is willful, I remember when I was in class, even the seniors were afraid of her."

The doctor said a few words.

"So, what do you like?"

"Why do you suddenly ask this?" The scarlet eyelids jumped.

"Well, after all, it's still your interview, or to decide your surgical plan." The doctor spread his hands.

"Music?"

"Why is it an interrogative sentence..."

"I'm not sure, it's irritating me," Scarlet moved her stool, "I'm not sure what I said about it, maybe it's the same purpose I came here for, something I desperately want to get rid of?" ”

"Maybe it's the opposite, think about it," the doctor smiled, "maybe it's something important, and I can't remember it in a hurry, so I feel irritable." ”

"Doctor, have I ever had a 'reinvent my life' surgery before?" Scarlet Leaf suddenly asked this question.

"How do you ask this?" Again, the doctor looked a little surprised.

"I think if I've had this experience before, then it's no accident that I've come here," Scarlet Leaf leaned on the table, the cold table kissed her cheek lightly, and grinned, "If there was one before... The reason why I came here again must be the same as before, because I wanted to escape from my own memories, and try to escape from the problems that plagued me as I am now. And, what will I forget ... It's not an accident. ”

"I don't think I should run out of this irritability again this time, and if I do, there will be no end to this road."

After Scarlet Leaf finished speaking, he stole a glance at the doctor's expression - his smile disappeared in an instant, and his brow furrowed again.

Scarlet leaves, eyes drooping.

Have I had any previous reconstructive surgeries?

The doctor did not answer the question, and silence came. Scarlet didn't say much, she held the teacup and waited quietly for the doctor to speak.

Tea, chilled out.

Scarlet touched the teacup that was still warm, sighed and shook her head.

She gently picked up the teacup and brought it to her lips, and then a faint bitter taste spread in her mouth. Scarlet frowned slightly and swallowed the tea into her stomach.

"If you don't like it, don't force it." The doctor couldn't stand it and spoke out to dissuade him

"If you don't like it, you don't need to, and I won't sit in front of you." Scarlet put down her teacup, "Doctor, I think you know this all too well. ”

“... Ah, perhaps. The doctor turned his face sideways.

"Okay, what's next?" Scarlet Leaf smiled gently, "Do you want to continue the discussion of your hobby just now?" What do I like or something? ”

"Ahh

"Music... Maybe it's good, no matter how sad it is, no matter how happy it is, no matter how happy it is, no matter how boring it is, as long as there is music, it seems that anything can be solved, if I can, let me start singing," Scarlet Leaf touched his neck, "As long as this is the case, I guess no matter what kind of difficulty, I can also cross the past, I think, the thing I have been avoiding will not be a problem." ”

"Really? That's good. ”

After listening to Scarlet Leaf's words, the doctor breathed a sigh of relief.

"I was, and was, looking at the same scenery as I had hoped," the doctor said, a little wistfully, "and with that man, on a stage that belonged only to the two of us. I will never forget that time, if only I could forget it, we are together. ”

"If it's such an important thing, why do you want to forget?"

"Because once we think about it, for us, it's just more sad."

The doctor exhaled.

"She may have forgotten about it, but I can't forget it. But it doesn't matter, if she forgets, I can assume that I have forgotten. She is no longer my sister, and I am no longer her relative. ”

“... It's too cruel for you, doctor. Scarlet Leaf shook her head slightly.

"Yes, but it's better than being cruel to both. One person is enough. The doctor also drank the tea.

“... So, did you ask her? ”

The scarlet leaf touches the teacup lightly, and the fingertips touch the water droplets remaining on the rim of the cup.

The doctor frowned.

"What?"

"Did you ask her if she would be willing to leave you alone?" Scarlet Leaf lifted her tea-stained, wet fingertips.

"No, of course I didn't," the doctor stared, "because she chose the exact opposite path of mine and me." At that time, she probably thought it didn't matter without me. She abandoned me, and she chose to undergo surgery to "rebuild my life". As you can see, I'm here now as an ordinary doctor, and she chose to forget about me, and I continued to carry the pain. ”

“......”

"Technology is so convenient now, it's so easy to forget a person, you just need to make a decision," the doctor laughed self-deprecatingly, "Is this development of human beings really right?" Scarlet leaves, you choose to recreate your life, have you ever thought about whether you are still yourself after the operation? A new body, a new memory, that kind of existence, is it still you? ”

"What do you think about that kind of question?" Scarlet took her fingertips into her mouth, "Do you think your 'she' is no longer her?" ”

The doctor, who obviously didn't expect Scarlet Leaf to ask himself this question in turn, stood on the spot.

"Would you just treat her as 'dead' and ignore her now?" Scarlet Leaf further asked, "Doctor, human feelings are more complicated than you and I thought, I don't know if I am still me after the operation, I don't even remember if I knew I had surgery before--is this me still the existence of this Scarlet Leaf'?" Or am I a different person? Another 'scarlet leaf'? ”

As she spoke, Scarlet looked at the photo that was thrown on the table.

"Doctor, you're showing me this picture to confirm something, right? Something like, 'Do I have any memories of the past,'" Scarlet stood up and stared at the purple-haired boy in the photo, "yes, it's like me... But I can't remember, I can always think of something. I'm sure I've had a reinvention surgery and... More than once. ”

“... That doesn't matter," the doctor shook his head, clutching the notebook firmly in his hand, "and now?" Do you wish to continue with this surgery? ”

"It doesn't matter, doctor," Scarlet Leaf stared at him, "I want to know what I was like before." ”

"Do you think it's still you?" The doctor exhaled, and then looked at Scarlet Ye seriously, "The person in the photo has nothing to do with you anymore, after all, it was something before you recreated your life, and I showed you the photo just to determine if our surgery is still flawed." It turns out - there are indeed certain flaws, at least you remember something about him. ”

"Who is he?" Scarlet asked.

"Knowing that you're going to have this surgery again?" The doctor said indifferently, "Are you sure you have the courage to face yourself who has been abandoned by yourself?" You should think about it, in the past, you chose to "recreate your life", then it means that it is a life that you have given up, a life that you are dissatisfied with, and even a life that is so miserable that it cannot be worse. Do you really have the courage to face that kind of life? Release all your feelings and accept all feelings without reservation. ”

“......”

Would you face that kind of life?

Faced with the doctor's questioning, Scarlet Leaf could only be silent.

"Can't answer? It is a matter of course that you can't answer. ”

The doctor, who relaxed, reached out to take the picture back, then opened the notebook.

"I've also had a life-rebuilding operation."

“......”

"I just wanted to escape, to escape from my past, but fortunately I didn't choose to forget about it."

“... Sorry, I can't tell you anything else. The doctor shook his head, "Don't think about it, forget it, it's better to forget, just like I chose, and be someone else." ”

“... Even if you say that, you don't choose to forget the past, doctor. Scarlet smiled slightly.

“......”

"You still chose to remember the past."