I sat there for I don't know how long. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info The little lewd thief has come back and has been with Yang Lan for almost a long time, and when he saw that I didn't speak, he couldn't ask for it, and he ignored me. They were talking passionately on one side, and I was deaf to me here, thinking completely in my own isolated world.

If Yang Lan doesn't mention this, maybe in a few months, a year or two, I will forget about May, right?

She hadn't reappeared for so long, and I'd considered the worst. The reason why there is still such a glimmer of expectation in my heart may be the common problem of men: what you can't get is the most precious. Is that what I think?

I discovered the saddest thing about human nature: it can't last. Feelings can be diluted, hatred can be forgotten. There seems to be no evidence of eternal existence in all of this. When Mr. Nagisa humiliated me, I hated him deeply, and I was determined to climb to a high position in the shortest possible time and go back in front of him. But now? I don't seem to remember the humiliation and hatred at all. I climbed very fast, but now it seems that I have lost my goal. What am I fighting for?

Why did I give up my relationship with Hanhan?

I couldn't find a convincing answer to any of these questions, so I had to push them aside one by one. After knowing May's identity, I no longer even had the courage to go out and fight like I did back then. After the Nagisa incident stimulated me, I gave it a go, and now I have a much higher position than my peers. But in other ways than status, I have gained nothing, and what I have lost has not come back, and it seems that I have lost more. Now, can I achieve more and fight to the status of "shaking the world" to save May, which was seized by the Demon King? Does May really want me to be like that, or can I wait until the day I become that?

If I had worked so far, I would have almost retired. In other words, if you have to get to the stage of sexual impotence to get back my princess, do I have the perseverance to do this?

If someone says I'm backing down, then please switch to my position and consider it?

In this half hour or so, my mind has gone through five years since college, which is a rare self-examination and deep reflection. Guo Guang finally realized that I was not right, and shook his palm in front of my eyes again and again to test whether I was dead. I just came to my senses at this time, shook his hand away and said, "I'm practicing qigong, so I don't have to disturb me." Guo Guang quickly left a few meters away and said: "It turns out that he is accumulating a fart, it's too insidious!" ”

I laughed. Pheasant Qigong has played a great role in adjusting my state of mind, and at this moment, I seem to have stepped out of the world where there was still a trace of fantasy and began to seriously consider the reality of the situation. Yang Lan burst out: "Are you finally sober?" I nodded and said, "It's kind of figured out, we are such a small human being, it is really insignificant in the torrent of the times." ”

Guo Guang naturally didn't understand what I was saying. He thought I was thinking about empty questions like "why do humans eat?" and laughed at me. Yang Lan still knew what was wrong at this time, and she didn't follow the deception to stimulate me. In fact, I had very little contact with May, and the blow this time was far less severe than that of the cold one, so I quickly adjusted my mood and joked with them. At this time, Ferrari came and called us, and we went to eat Japanese cuisine.

After all, most places are robbing people's houses, so many customs in Yangquan are close to Heguo, especially the more high-grade leisure and entertainment places. Ferrari took us to a place not only with the boss of the country, but also with many tourists and immigrants from other countries. The people of the He clan are all well-behaved before and after others, but when they go to the wine table, they completely tear off their disguises, and they don't consider the feelings of others when they make noise.

Yang Lan rolled her eyes at them so much that she couldn't help jumping up in protest, so she pulled Ferrari to stop. She told us outsiders: this is the flavor, ignore them, we just have to fight more than them. At this point, Guo Guang and I are quite experienced, after all, we have both been to Heguo. As the food continued to improve, we began to eat and drink noisily. After all, three of our bunches are all highly military-qualified, and they are full of confidence when they make noise, and they immediately overwhelm those people who are in harmony with the country.

Ferrari ordered everything very nice, but I felt so familiar with the atmosphere! After I passed the review of the Ministry of Supervision, such scenes often occurred during the time I spent with Ryuji and others at the Beiwai Branch. The screams in my ears and the Japanese cuisine on the table reminded me of the past when I was with Hanhan, Ryuuji, and Kyo Iga. The cold and the May shadows and experiences continue to overlap and reappear in front of my eyes, which makes me feel heartache. Yang Lan pretended to care about me very much, and said, "Look at you're in a bad mood, just drink less, and don't drink at all." "Where does Guo Guang pay attention to this, pulling me is simply pouring it into my stomach. Ferrari also made a lot of trouble after drinking, and kept pouring me wine.

Yang Lan's words are right, I'm in a bad mood. I thought I had completely adjusted my mood, but then I realized that the pleasant feeling just now was just a piece of paper pasted on the big hole in my heart, and the original form was revealed as soon as I tossed it. Mention this to them again, and it feels like a cold wind piercing through the front chest and through the back. The heart tightened uncontrollably, as if the blood was flowing rapidly throughout the body. I was sad for a while, and old tears were rampant. Damn, just drink it, we don't expect to get drunk to relieve a thousand sorrows, just drink it to death and pull it down!

I attacked Ferrari and Guo Guang separately with various defeat strategies, and after drinking for an unknown amount of time, Guo Guang finally fell to the side and couldn't move. When I turned her head to attack Ferrar, she was also impressed by me, who was known for her straightforward drinking, and actually made an excuse that she would have a small meeting tomorrow as a leader, and refused to drink with me again in order to maintain her image. This kind of nonsense is not convincing in front of the drunkard, and under the instigation of Guo Guang, who has lost his combat effectiveness, Yang Lan, who has been fanning the flames, and others, I simply rushed up like a self-destructed soldier to fight with Ferrari. At first three cups against two glasses, then two cups against one cup, three cups against one cup......

At this time, the eyelids, cheeks, and so on were drunk into wood. I shook my head as heavy as a stone and saw four empty boxes of beer piled up next to me, but I wasn't surprised at all. In the end, the shopkeeper finally came to intervene, saying that they were ready to close, and almost forcibly kicked us out.

I came out for Guo Guang. Walking outside, a cold wind blew, and I fell on the tree on the side of the road and vomited wildly for a while, and sat down in a depression, unable to stand up. Guo Guang and Ferrari also drank softly, and only Yang Lan was still sober. She ran out onto the road and waited for a while, then called a taxi. I was about to go ahead with Ferrari when Guo Guang and Yang Lan grabbed me by the arm. I couldn't really react to what they were trying to do, so I just slurred, "Aren't you afraid that I'll get in the way of you by being a light bulb?" It's stupid. The two didn't answer me, but casually talked to Ferrari and asked a taxi to take her away. I still want to chase after him, Guo Guang said something, "The high-rise building where she lives is closed early at night, and we must pay attention to the impact, we can be late." I sounded like it was reasonable, so I didn't fight anymore.

The South Island is such a thriving tourist destination that it is difficult to find a taxi at night. I squatted on the side of the road for a while, but I didn't see any cars coming. Yang Lan proposed: "Let's walk back together, at most half an hour." Anyway, there are many people, and they are not afraid. ”

So the three of them walked together, Guo Guang walked in the front and dangled, Yang Lan walked steadily in the middle, and I followed in the last zombie step. Yang Lan began to attack me at this time: "What kind of hero to punish, will it be over if you drink to death?" For the sake of the woman who has been lost and cannot be recovered, are you a man?! ”

Listening to such provocative language, I just want to pounce on her. But not to mention the body, now that even the brain is numb, how can I move smoothly? The mind and hands and feet could not cooperate and dexterity, and immediately fell to the ground. Guo Guang turned around and squatted down at this time. said sadly: "Rhubarb, you and Han Han have enough, don't torture yourself with this." ”

Ah, the little thief will be mistaken.

The rest of the conversation went on in a completely mistaken situation. But with the participation of a sober vixen and two drunks, two unrelated things were actually brought together. On this matter, Yang Lan and Guo Guang have the same opinion, asking me to quickly clean up my mood, give up the impossible things without nostalgia, and find my new life. I pulled my numb tongue and walked with them talking nonsense, and I don't know how long it took to get back to the door of the leisure house where we lived. Although it was late, it seemed that a lot of such things had happened today, and the security guards didn't bother us at all, so we let them go. I wanted to go back to sleep, but Yang Lan refused to let me go, and Guo Guang didn't let me go under her hints and guidance. They almost kidnapped me and dragged me to sit under a pavilion by the artificial lake. Yang Lan asked, "Lieutenant Colonel, you have to tell the truth about the question I asked you this time." We don't care about your previous emotional entanglements now, even if you can't forget it for a while, it will always fade away. But you have to base yourself on reality, don't keep thinking that you are going to those ethereal worlds, you are not from that world. Ask you, do you like Sister Zhao? ”

I was almost asleep sitting there, and I woke up a few times immediately when I gave her this sentence. Guo Guang also immediately participated in the ranks of the questioning and asked me to immediately and honestly explain. Originally, it was impossible for me to explain these things to Yang Lan, the vixen, but first, I was numb from drinking, and second, Guo Guang was pushing on the side drum. I muttered, "That's right, you guessed right." To tell you the truth, I know very well what you advised me, and I don't have any strength to drill the horns. I have long known that those previous feelings have passed, and they are basically unrealistic and impossible, and I am a realistic person, but I can't be sad?! ”

When Guo Guang and Yang Lan saw that I was relieved, they were immediately enthusiastic. To be able to dig up gossip from someone like me is a big gain. The two of them hurriedly reassured me, saying that sadness is always inevitable - and continued. I knew their intentions at this time, but I held them back for too long, and I wanted to talk about it, so I said in one breath: "I like Ferrari a lot, but I have many same concerns. I don't know what she thinks of me, and now I've faced so many failures that I simply don't have the confidence to accept another rejection experience in such a short period of time. And, as you know, her family is so rich, she's a few years older than me, and her rank is much higher. I've risen fast enough, what will outsiders think and think if I pursue her openly? I'll say I'm doing anything to upgrade! ”

After these words were vented in one breath, I finally felt more comfortable. Because he was too excited, he couldn't stop crying, and he couldn't stop gasping for breath. Yang Lan seemed to be more considerate of my thoughts, so she didn't press it any further. But since Guo Guang exists here, it is impossible for tonight to end in such a bland way that we all go back to sleep honestly. Guo Guang began to persuade me: "How come? Big brother, I know you better. If you don't chase such a good woman as your eldest sister, if you have other conditions that are much better than you, it will be too late to regret it. If you think about it, she is indeed facing the persecution of age, and although she has just turned twenty-seven, it is not too late, but it is unlikely that she will wait for another three or four years. You just want to wait until you're twenty-five, you're qualified enough, and you've made enough merit to be promoted to colonel, and then you can associate with her. But people have such good conditions, why are they waiting for you! Think about it, when the flowers can be broken, you need to fold, don't wait for the flowers to be empty and break the branches. ”

The little thief actually took out the famous quote of the flower thief to persuade me, but it still made sense. But the doubts in my heart are still difficult to dispel: "The gap is too far, really too far." Of course, I admit that I took the initiative to approach, to get closer, to chase after her, but not to the cold or anything. How so? It's a kind of fate, if you want to say that Hanhan is bad, you can't say it......" Guo Guang interrupted: "Now it's not allowed to mention Hanhan, talk about the eldest sister." I gritted my teeth and said, "I will work hard for another year, and if I can achieve some results, I will definitely propose to her when I can face her with a clear face." ”

As soon as he said this, the little thief and Yang Lan jumped up and accused me of making empty checks. I argued, "I'm serious, absolutely serious -- a year later, you testify -- a year from now, even if I don't achieve anything, I'll tell her what I think, how I feel." Don't be afraid even in the face of her rejection, wait another year! Yang Lan raised her eyebrows and shouted: "Do you know what a year means for a woman at this age? You are still young and can afford to spend it, why should people wait for you for a year? ”

That's right, if you don't say it, she doesn't have any obligation to wait for me.

I was still thinking about this, Guo Guang had already jumped up: "Damn! Rhubarb, Lao Tzu is wrong about you. And the eldest of our three brothers, twisting and pinching, like a girl! You tell me where my eldest sister lives, and I'll tell her! ”

A few high-level cadres such as Ferrari are specially located in the 12th and 13th high-level guest reception buildings for foreign guests in the leisure village. Because Guo Guang was busy chasing Yang Lan, I helped Ferrari bring everything with him, and they didn't know the specific location. I snorted and laughed: "Little whore, don't think about bad things for me, Lao Tzu won't tell you." Guo Guang jumped three feet high: "Rhubarb, you look at me." If you don't tell me, I won't be able to? There were so many people living in the tall building, so I knocked on the door one by one and asked. I waved my hand and said, "The guard room is guarded by armed police, so it is impossible to let you in and knock on the door casually." Guo Guanglang smiled: "That's not easy? I shouted downstairs: ferrari, ferrari, rhubarb and rhubarb love you like a mouse loves rice......"

Yang Lan thought it was funny and bent over with a smile. I have no intention of pursuing the problem of the fox spirit's laughter, because Guo Guang can definitely do this kind of bird thing. I squinted at him and threatened: "Little whore, you are going to do this kind of bird thing, and tomorrow I will wake up and break off my brotherly relationship with you!" The little thief drank too much wine, and he could rise up in front of me: "That's tomorrow." Anyway, if I don't get you done tonight, Lao Tzu is not surnamed Guo, but your surname is Huang, called Huang Guang! ”

"What do you want?" For the first time, I failed to threaten the petty thief, so I had to back down.

"Tell me Ferrari's house number, and I'll just whisper out her. Then I'll just say it for you. ”

"Fuck you, what nonsense are you trying to talk about?" I was alarmed.

The little lewd thief then coaxed me, and the fox spirit Yang Lan also joined in the fun. In the end, I didn't get tired of it, thinking that as long as I told him a wrong address, he knocked on the door of a big official in the past and was scolded, and then gave the armed police a fist and foot training, and naturally he would be honest. Ferrari is Block 1 of Thirteen Buildings A, and I will tell him the other way around. Tell Guo Guang: "No. 2, Block B, 12 buildings, I've slept so late, don't make trouble." ”

As a result, as soon as Guo Guang heard that I had reported the number of the door, he immediately jumped away. The action was so fast that I didn't even get ready to pull him. I was taken aback for a moment, thinking that he already had the strength to surpass a third-level god general like me. Yang Lan explained to me: "You just drank too much, too much." ”

"What about you? You are so enthusiastic about my affairs, have you considered your feelings? I asked her rhetorically.

"Isn't your brother chasing me?" Yang Lan asked rhetorically.

"You have a sad past, I can see it. I'm afraid that the matter is still very big, otherwise it is impossible that May will not be able to cover you, and you will be exiled to us in disguise. I guessed.

"That's a good guess, but please don't continue." Yang Lan said coldly.

The vixen gave me two words and kept silent, and the roots of my ears were finally cleared. It was very late, probably around three o'clock in the middle of the night. It's really unpleasant to be with the fox spirit in the middle of the night with a lonely man and a widow, just wait for the light to touch your nose and come back, so go back to sleep. I didn't know how to wait, and after ten minutes or so, I finally got impatient. Yang Lan said, "I'll take a look." He followed.

After waiting for another five or six minutes, there was no news of Yang Lan. It's only two minutes away from the high-rise building, are they being taken by wolves? I tried it, but my internal qi couldn't be lifted at all, and it seemed that I couldn't practice kung fu like drunken boxing and wine. After talking for so long, the wine has drained a lot, and my mind is clear, and I need to go and see what is going on. When I grabbed the railing along the road and grinded the flowers and trees down to the slope of the high-rise building, I just saw Yang Lan walking towards this side. I asked her, "What about the little whore?" Yang Lan hesitated for a moment and said, "He's down there, let's go over and help him together, I can't help him alone." ”

Just kidding, how much alcohol did I drink? And you're a god no matter what.

Yang Lan didn't pay attention to my questions at all, and only pushed me away from behind. I'm weak now, I can't fight, even a kindergarten can drive me away. rushed to the front of the high-rise building at the bottom of the slope and saw Guo Guang sitting on the mouth panting. I sat down and asked, "How's it going?" You've had enough of today, get me back. I order you in the name of my eldest brother, go back to me! ”

"No, rhubarb. I haven't shouted yet, I'll talk about it later. Guo Guang looked as if he was drunk and crazy.

"Have you ever thought about how bad it can be?" I said to him sharply: "If you still have the slightest respect for my identity as a big brother, don't make any more trouble with me!" ”

"What!" Guo Guang shouted: "You've reached this point, do you still want to retreat?" I despise you so much! ”

I'm holding back, and I'm sure I'm backing down. But then I felt that I had no choice but to back down. I had no choice but to say, "I'm so drunk today, it's to say anything, and people won't believe it." Tomorrow when the wine wakes up, I will definitely say, the turtle will not say! Guo Guang broke free of the control of my claws and shouted, "You can not admit it tomorrow, you think I don't know you!" I'm going to have to shout it out to you! Give you a minute's choice, either knock on her door yourself and call her out, or I'll call you! ”

"You ****** sober me up!" I burst into anger and grabbed the little thief by the neckline: "All the dignitaries and nobles live here, you call them out, where do you put people's faces?" If you really like someone, you should think more about her, not what you want to say and what effect you want to achieve. These depend on the occasion, do you understand? What if I like her? It's because I like her that you can't talk nonsense about a scene like this today, and what you say when you're drunk still counts?! You're getting calluses when you pick up girls, and you want me to teach you this? ”

Guo Guang Lao Di debunked it for me, and immediately explained to Yang Lan in panic: "Rhubarb is drunk and talking nonsense, he is definitely talking nonsense, I am still a virgin and a virgin." ”

He said it was funny, but I was so angry that I couldn't laugh at all. Just as he was about to teach him another lesson, he suddenly heard a burst of forced laughter from the flower grove on the left. My brain was buzzing, and I rubbed my eyes to see Ferrari, dressed in a white dress, come out of it and look at us with a smile. I sighed in my heart:

It's over, this time it's a big loss. (To be continued.) )