Chapter 150: Like Snow (Part II)
Ruxue obviously didn't expect me to make such a request, and the whole person was stunned for a moment, maybe in her heart, this relationship has become a taboo, she is such a stubborn girl, she thinks that continuing is just hurting, and she will force herself.
Thinking of this, I feel a little distressed, like snow, she always forced herself to guard the stockade like this, and in the end, how much did she endure while guarding the dragon tomb? No less than me.
If it had been in the past, according to my tangled character, like snow, I would have guarded myself not to cross the line, but now that I have less than three days left in my life, what else do I have to worry about.
So, looking at Ruxue in a daze, I suddenly laughed I no longer suppressed all my feelings and tenderness, just looked at Ruxue, and then sat on the rocks all of a sudden, patted my side, and said to Ruxue: "Our life is actually so short, there will be a life-and-death battle like snow in a month, Chen Chengyi may be gone when it will be gone, why should you be stingy with a song?" You can be my old friend, or my friend, please sing another song for me. ”
Ruxue looked at me deeply, and at that moment, it was her heartache that greeted my smile, she didn't speak, and sat next to me.
Many years ago, we used to sit side by side like this, and now, on this clear starry night, when she came close to me, I felt like a dream, I didn't want to care about anything anymore, so I naturally put my hand on her waist, and then with a slight force, I took her into my arms.
Ruxue's body stiffened instantly, and she whispered, "Chen Chengyi, have you forgotten our agreement?" ”
"Like snow, don't move, that's all." I didn't answer her anything, just looked at the water and sky in the distance, and it was difficult to distinguish the starry sky in the lake in the sky, and whispered this.
Ruxue's body was still stiff, but she didn't move subconsciously.
I didn't care what she was thinking at the moment, just whispered: "You may think I'm abrupt, maybe you'll think I've forgotten the agreement I just want to say that I haven't forgotten the agreement, and the reason why I haven't forgotten is just because I haven't forgotten you and haven't forgotten me."
Speaking of which, I can't say it anymore I've known Ruxue for so many years, and I've never said to her so bluntly that I love you, and I can't say it until now, but she should understand what I mean, because I feel her body trembling slightly.
Then I felt her struggle slightly, and then said to me: "Chengyi, forget and forget, the result is doomed, why should you?" ”
"Ruxue, what if Chen Chengyi is going to be gone? Are you still willing to insist on that? Why don't you let me have a dream at the end? I looked at Ruxue with a hint of sadness in my eyes I didn't say anything specifically, but I believe that she would understand my eyes.
"What nonsense are you talking about? A big war, you feel that you are destined to be "Ruxue has always been cold, but at this time she couldn't help but look at me with a little anger."
I smiled and said, "Whether it's a big war or not, no matter what makes me dream, I've forgotten it for a few years since you left, because I don't want to remember it, let alone say how I miss you." For so many years, I have hated and complained because you are so reluctant to see you, but in the end, I still love to celebrate me, to comfort me, are you really willing not to even give a dream? ”
Ruxue looked at me, suddenly stopped talking, and the next moment, she gently leaned on my shoulder, just like back then
"Chengyi, you won't have it, you won't" I didn't expect Ruxue to lean on my shoulder like this, and all kinds of emotions in my heart intersected at once, and before it subsided, Ruxue had gently held my hand and whispered.
The next moment, I still want to say something, she has gently covered my mouth with her hand, and then sang softly: "Half cold and half warm autumn ironing beside you, quietly watching the streamer flying in the wind pieces of red leaves"
Once again, the familiar singing voice lingered in my ears, and after so many years, the voice that I couldn't forget was finally heard in my throat again.
The night is very beautiful, the night breeze blows across the lake, the lake waves ripples, the starlight ripples with the lake, it is so beautiful that it is suffocating, if I can, I really want life to stay at this moment, don't have a future pity, time will stop because of whom?
A song of streamer flying has been sung, in this lake and mountains, Ruxue and I have not moved for a long time, the night wind may be very cold, but there are still each other to keep warm, isn't it?
But a dream, after all, is just a dream, if I still have a choice, just choose to take the initiative to end it, then maybe my heart won't hurt so much I originally planned to tell Ruxue, Dao Tongzi and Wei Chaoyu about it, because now it seems that Ruxue doesn't know but I didn't say it after all.
Some painful past, one person remembers, one knows that it is enough, why let Ruxue suffer because of this, even if Chen Chengyi disappears, she doesn't know that in my innate birthmark, in addition to the reason for the strong spiritual sense, there is also the fact that I came to this world with her imprint.
Thinking like this, I gently let go of Ruxue, stood up and pretended to be chic and said: "It's late, Ruxue I'm going back, thank you for the streamer flying, this dream is very beautiful, at least in the dream, except for the starlight, it's all you." The night breeze is cool, so don't stay here too long. ”
After saying this, I turned around and left, there are only three days left in my life, maybe I can be presumptuous, but my presumptuous does not mean that I have to give Ruxue a lifetime of pain, if she perceives something, it is most likely to find that the Taoist boy is not my person, it must be Ruxue.
Because the Taoist boy will not look at Ruxue and smile childishly like me.
But every time I took two steps, my sleeve was pulled back, and when I saw that it was Ruxue who pulled my sleeve, I didn't understand why Ruxue was like this, so I couldn't help asking: "Ruxue?" ”
But she didn't say a word, and suddenly she crashed into my arms and hugged me tightly.
I was a little stunned, and after a few seconds, I reacted, hugged her tightly, she didn't look up, just buried her head in my arms and said: "Chengyi, there is no time in the years in the Dragon Tomb, because the cold and dull I have not regretted it, but I still need support, and what supports me has always been your existence." I may be very stubborn to isolate us from each other, because in reality, even if I am not stubborn, we are already destined to enter the dragon tomb and abandon mortal dust, I am a person who has discarded mortal dust, how can I drag you down? ”
"Like snow." I didn't know what to say, I just hugged the person in my arms a little tighter.
"Chengyi, I don't dare to see you, but you can't do without! As I said earlier, you are supporting my existence, and I will feel full of courage to think that you are alive in a corner of the world. So, don't say that Chen Chengyi doesn't have it anymore. Ruxue's voice was soft, even if it was such a strong emotion, it was faint to her expression.
My heart is like a knife, how should I promise her? Fate seems to be irreversible, but Ruxue doesn't seem to need me to answer, as if my silence has already given her an answer.
She looked up at me, and suddenly touched my lips lightly, and I felt cold tears, and at this time, I couldn't help but hold her tightly, and kissed her back.
This has been the first time in many years, and this kind of thing is emotional, not that you and I will be able to suppress it
In the entanglement with Ruxue, I seemed to forget that time could have such a kiss, as if life had been completely completed in the end, Ruxue gently pushed me away, and then turned around and left without looking back, only one sentence drifted in the wind: "Tonight, it is also a dream of mine." ”
Between my lips and teeth, there seemed to be a residual smell of snow I looked at her back and did not stop her, I am grateful to her for expressing her feelings for me at the end of my life and giving me a fulfillment. It doesn't matter anymore, including why she appeared inexplicably twice, I don't want an answer.
I shouldn't have left her with pain, even if the Dragon Tomb was cold, she was alive and well, and it was not a comfort to me.
The wind blew away my sighs, and the night was deep.