When I was eighteen years old, a layer of fine hairs had just emerged on my lips that could not be fully called a beard, and I remember the fashion of denim that year, the kind of clothes that would turn into holy clothes without being washed for a week and not falling on the ground.

The head shape is popular, nine gross inches for ten men in high school, round in the middle of winter, and you have to leave some bangs that are quite two, this style looks very funny now, but I thought it was beautiful at the time, and in the end, it became a two-inch bareheaded photo, which was pasted on the school register.

I don't know why the two-inch photos in this world look so stupid, just like the photos on the ID card, even if the people who are usually handsome and beautiful are without exception, the ugly ones are like that, I heard that this is the effect that people want from the axe, real.

Sometimes I think that the ID card is like a demon mirror, even if you usually cover up the depths, the original shape will appear after being printed on the small card. So it can be seen that maybe everyone is ugly.

Every time I think about it, my heart will be a lot happier, those good-looking people bareheaded photos are ugly, and although I don't look good, bareheaded photos are not bad, it seems that everyone is not much different.

The ugly bareheaded photo was not only pasted on the school record, but also on the graduation certificate, I graduated from high school, and when I got this graduation certificate, I didn't know what it was like.

It stands to reason that in the past three years of high school, I haven't recognized all the more than 50 people in my class, and some of them haven't even said a word for three years, but seeing that this kind of life is coming to an end, I have a trace of reluctance in my heart, and a little panic and confusion about the future.

In the past, it was said that when you go to college, you will be free, but it may be that we don't understand that freedom is often the same as loneliness.

After the college entrance examination, not surprisingly, I was admitted to a third-rate university, and when I filled in the volunteers, I naively found that the original dream is not so easy to come true, for example, me, my dream at that time was to be a coaxing singer, that is, the kind of people who seem to be idle and lazy all day long to do what work is not done, but can squander a lot of money all day long, and when I am short of money, I will find a place to support a concert, I jumped and sang on it, and the little girls under the stage were crowded and shouted like crazy:" Yao Yuan, Yao Yuan, I love you!! Ahh!!h Yao Yuan: I'm going to give you a baby!! ”

But to become such a ruthless character, you need a lot of conditions, at that time the county Internet café was no longer a new thing, but there was no Baidu back then, so I Yahoo took a look, roughly summarized the following four points.

1. Long handsome, there is a chance to meet a talent scout, so he enters the industry.

2. Be handsome, have the opportunity to be reincarnated into a family of active celebrities, and enter the industry.

3. Chang Shuai, admitted to a famous music or famous film and television school, and entered the industry.

4. Refer to the above three points, as long as you meet two of them, even if you are not handsome, you will enter the industry.

Damn, when I learned about these necessary factors, the first one deflated me, and I didn't have any words at all, damn it

Bareheaded photo, I call him uncle.

No way, at that time, the talent show was not as bad as it is now, at that time, our brother's team had not yet opened, the first supergirl was called An Youqi, it was the 'Hello Hello Jay Chou~~~', and the second was called Zhang Hanyun, which was the beautiful Lori who liked the sweet and sour, but this was a women's show, although I was so old and didn't have an Adam's apple, but I was indeed a man who carried crime tools with me, so I was destined to miss it.

There is also a veteran Young Singer Grand Prix, I have no face to go, not for anything else, I don't know how high the professional contestants are singing on TV, and they are also talking and laughing with the judges and teachers, which makes me feel that I am a naive at all, so I still accept my fate and take the university entrance examination in a muffled voice.

But you can't rely on those famous universities to get into college, after all, the foundation is here, although you can order erhu and guitar, but after all, it's only at the urban and rural level, and I'm okay with the accompaniment to the opening of a hot pot restaurant for other clothing stores, but let me use this to fool those professional level at all.

Thinking about it, I still accepted my fate, thinking that it was casual, I couldn't be a singer anyway, so I could be a teacher, so when I filled in the volunteers, I chose a third-rate vocational school, art department music education.

In fact, although I was introverted, I was still a little cautious in my heart, I planned for myself, and when I graduated, I would return to my hometown, and find a middle school for me to meet my parents that year to spend some money to find some relationship as a music teacher, I know that now school music teachers and art teachers are the easiest careers, because from childhood to adulthood, music classes and art classes are occupied by math and Chinese classes, which is self-study and bragging, You can sing the national anthem and we are the successors of socialism, and the rest can be dried if you like, so the art teacher and the music teacher can be called his old moth in junior high and high school.

It's a kind of life not to be a singer, I thought so at the time, so, a few months later, I received an admission letter from this third-rate university, and what I didn't expect was that my grandmother would cry when she saw this letter.

I know that she is actually happy for me, after all, Lao Yao's family has a college seedling, but I also understand that she is most likely reluctant to me.

At that time, I was already sensible, and I didn't know how to comfort the old lady, so I had to sit next to her and say to her: "Oh, milk, what are you crying about, I am not going to go outside the province, I can come back several times a year." ”

Yes, I didn't go outside the province, not as ruthless as my parents, but when I thought of this, I actually became sad again, I left, wouldn't my grandmother be left with herself? She is so old, who will take care of her alone?

The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable it became, so my heart was sour, and I said to my grandmother, I won't go to college anymore, and I will stay at home with you.

But when my grandmother heard me say this, she got angry, and she said to me, what are you going to school for, I don't need you to accompany me, I am happy if you have your milk, you know?

Hearing her say this, my heart suddenly became more and more guilty, what I went to school for, in fact, I don't know, is it just to be a safe and stable moth after my dream is shattered by reality?

I also understand that it is impossible for me not to go to school, but I still feel uncomfortable in my heart, but I am powerless to resist, gradually, the day of school is near, after the casual meal, the high school is officially over, scattered and scattered, everyone set off for their own city.

Lu Quanyou also left, this grandson made full use of his unique capital, and was successfully admitted to a national university that I heard was good, when he was sent on the road, he happened to pass by our county mosque, only to see him pointing to the temple arrogantly, and then said to me: "Dude, I'll go first, and when I graduate, see it, that's mine." ”

At that time, I didn't have too much research on Hui and the people, so I knew that they didn't eat pork, and Lu Quanyou loved pork, so many years, I really didn't know that this grandson still had the lofty ambition to be a monk, although I didn't know if the mosque lived in the monk at that time.

In my opinion, Lu Quanyou set out with a lofty ideal of becoming a high-ranking monk.

It seems that going to college is like this, a new life, a lofty goal, I think it seems that only I would be so depraved, maybe because of my surname, and before I even went to college, I had already planned what kind of moth I wanted to be in the future.

A week later, I was leaving, my luggage had already been packed, my clothes and shoes were all new, I wore such expensive clothes for the first time, and I heard my grandmother say that this is a long way out, and it can't be too cold.

The day before leaving, I took Huqin'er to a trip to the back mountain, a year has passed, I have slowly become accustomed to the death of the old lame, no longer sad, but parting with some emotion, his grave is very simple, after a year of wind and rain, the stone tombstone has been washed away the ink is very light and difficult to identify, a long glance is like an ownerless lonely grave.

I burned some paper in front of his grave, and then sat down in front of the grave and played the huqin'er, the old huqin'er's tone still sounded a little desolate, and on the barren mountain, the breeze floated over the lonely grave, rolling up the burned paper ashes.

After a long time, I got up, then kowtowed three times to the grave, and said softly, "Grandpa, I'm leaving." ”

With that, he turned around and went down the mountain.

Strange to say, just before leaving, I had a strange dream, I dreamed that I was sitting alone in the yard in the middle of the night, and at the door of the barn in front of me sat a thing that 'seemed to be a person', after all, dreams are like this, it is not strange to be strange, but to say that ordinary dreams may be forgotten soon after getting up, but I can vaguely remember that dream.

Sitting in front of the barn seemed to be a woman, or a monster, it had the body of a man, but it was covered in red hair, with its legs crossed, and its hands on its knees, and the most outrageous thing was that it had a head like a dog, and its mouth was pointed, and its two round eyes were shining green in the night, and it looked at me as if it was quite fierce, but I was not afraid, as if it was a matter of course to touch it.

Its mouth opened and closed at me, and the intermittent sound came, but I couldn't remember what it said when I woke up, as if to say, 'Don't worry, sister-in-law...... I'll take care of it, and you'll pay attention to yourself, don't mess ......'

It seems like that's it.,When I opened my eyes the next day, I was a little puzzled.,How could I have such a low-level and interesting dream.,Even if I think about women, I won't dream of monsters.,Really.。

Luckily, it was just a dream, and I didn't take it to heart.

The train number I took was K7058, and I set off before dawn, and the arrival time was exactly noon, and my destination happened to be the capital of Heilongjiang Province, Harbin, the place where the dragon and the tiger were hidden in Wang Gang's commentary.

Speaking of which, this is the first time that I have gone out as a mountain cannon, and the moment I walked out of the house with my bags and erhu, I forced a smile to say goodbye to my grandmother, but after turning around, my heart was unusually sour, but I didn't dare to look back, because I knew that the old lady must be crying now.

After getting on the train, the mood was a little calmer, I didn't think that I really walked out of the small village, to a big city that can only be seen on TV, I don't know what it is like there, will it be as beautiful as I imagined, the train is driving, the scenery outside the window slowly moves backwards, some of the passengers around me have not woken up, some are rubbing their eyes and talking at the same time, the attendant walks quickly with a broom and says: "Lift your feet, come and lift your feet!" After a while, the broom in his hand was replaced by a small notebook, and then he shouted loudly: "Come to check the tickets, come and take out all the tickets to check the tickets!" ”

I suddenly realized that my life was like a dream, and before I knew it, I had grown up and left my hometown, and the taste of going to a distant place was mixed, like the sky outside the window, cloudy, even though the sky had begun to glow, but I still couldn't see the sun.

(The new chapter officially began,The big pit was officially excavated,The plot began to give energy.,Sorry today.,Resume two more tomorrow.,Ask for votes and recommendations, ask for collections, ask for genuine clicks,Thank you!! ）

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