Grandpa Zheng used to be the captain of the production team, after the reform and opening up, he naturally became our village head, he is over 60 years old, dark-skinned, very warm-hearted, usually who has a big affair to find him.

He had a good relationship with the old lame man, and he often drank together, and listened to the old lame man talk about his experience of traveling south and north when he was young, and now the old man who drank with him died, and he was also very sad, and when I arrived at his house, he was drinking alone, and he was not surprised to see me coming, but he took out a piece of paper from his pocket.

It was the old lame's suicide note.

This is a field grid for primary school students to write, I saw the old lame man's handwriting for the first time, it turned out that his words are so good-looking, unlike me, since I was a child, the writing is crooked like a cat scratching paper, and it is a traditional Chinese character, I can probably understand, this is a short description of why the old lame man committed suicide.

The old lame man wrote in the letter that he was old, had no children and no daughters, and was old, his health was not good, and he was worried that he would have to be served by someone if he continued like this, and in that case, he would have to cause trouble to the village, so he didn't want to suffer that crime, so he took advantage of his own understanding, as for his thatched house and a few acres of land, which were originally purchased with the help of the village, and now they are returned to the village.

I couldn't believe that this was written by the old lame, and after reading the letter, I was very surprised and asked Grandpa Zheng: "This is his suicide note?" ”

Grandpa Zheng sighed and nodded.

What bullshit reason is this! I couldn't accept it at once, how could the old lame man commit suicide for such an outrageous reason?

However, it was written in black and white, it was true, it was impossible to refute, I couldn't say a word, and Grandpa Zheng saw me like this, so he handed me a key, and he said to me: "Take it, Shao Cripple is proud of you in the village, and I heard that he also taught you to play the huqin, so you go and take a look, what is left of his house, you can take something to keep a souvenir." ”

What is left of his house? I asked Grandpa Zheng, and Grandpa Zheng told me that when it was almost dark yesterday, a car came to the city, and he happened to meet him, and three people came down after the car stopped, saying that they were looking for Shao Yongxing, so Grandpa Zheng told them that they were late, and Shao Cripple had committed suicide.

After hearing that Shao Cripple had committed suicide, one of the three old men immediately frowned, and then asked Grandpa Zheng how he died, are you sure he is dead?

Grandpa Zheng told them, why don't you be sure, the hanged one has just been buried, you have to look for it now, go up the mountain along the entrance of the village.

Then Grandpa Zheng asked them who they were, why they were looking for Shao Yongxing, the old man said that he was Shao Yongxing's friend, and he had just learned that he lived here, but he didn't even see his last face, and then said to Grandpa Zheng, can they go to Shao Yongxing's house to have a look.

As soon as Grandpa Zheng heard this, he agreed, because he also understood that the old lame man's pocket was usually cleaner than his face, and he didn't have any savings at all, and his little tatters were not worth stealing at all, so he said to the three of them that he was going to his house to help clean up, and if you want to go, come with me.

Those people did not follow directly, but drove up the mountain, and only went down the mountain after worshipping the old lame, they followed Grandpa Zheng to pack up the relics of the old lame, in fact, there are no relics at all, nothing more than a broken basin, a broken box, a few rotten cotton jackets, and a huqin and an erhu and the like.

After the three of them cleaned up carefully, they seemed to be a little disappointed, and finally Grandpa Zheng looked like they were very disappointed and took some things, so he asked me to go and see what was left.

I didn't think much after listening to Grandpa Zheng's words, I went to the old lame's house, after he died, this small grass house was deserted, I pushed open the door, my heart suddenly became sad again, sitting on the kang, I didn't know what to do at all, so I had to pick up the guqin on the side and pull it up.

The tone of the huqin sounded very desolate, and when I remembered the scene when the old lame man taught me to play this sad childhood, my tears did not stop and fell with a snap.

The relics of the old cripple are still there, except for the one-sided drum and the crown, which seem to have been taken away by the three strangers, but this is not what I care about, I don't like that thing very much, I just came here to find something to keep as a souvenir, and the rest has nothing to do with me.

I took out the black padded jacket from the box, the old cripple once told me, this is his shaman robe, no one else can wear it, I touched the padded jacket, my heart became more and more uncomfortable, but looking at it, I felt a little wrong, this black padded jacket seemed to be a little different from the one I usually saw.

I remember that there were three symbols on the left shoulder of the black cotton jacket before, but now it looks like there are only two left?

So I picked up this padded jacket and looked at it carefully, I found that this place was indeed missing a yellow thread embroidery symbol, I felt a little strange, so I turned this dress over, and let me find a few lines of traces sewn with yellow thread under the armpit inside the clothes, I wondered in my heart, this yellow thread looks like the same material as the embroidered pattern outside, but the stitching is rough, as if it was sewn on a patch on a hole in the clothes, I touched that place, I felt a little strange, and I was curious, He bit off the thread with his teeth, and sure enough, there was something in the clothes, and it was a neatly folded piece of paper.

This piece of paper is still Tianzi grid, I opened this paper and looked at it, and there were two words written on it, 'Kang Cave'.

I thought to myself that this must have been written by an old lame man, even the handwriting was the same, but what did he mean by writing this? Could it be that he is hiding something in the kang cave? I thought about it for a moment and got up to look for it.

The fire kang in the northeast is a place to sleep, and in winter, you have to burn a fire in the kang cave before going to the kang so that you don't feel cold.

I squatted down and went to see the old lame's kang hole, only to see that the kang hole was stuffed with bud rice poles, I reached out and pulled out the firewood, and then reached in, and sure enough, I touched something, it was a burden.

I took out the bag and opened it on the kang, and the contents were familiar to me, which was the missing one-sided eight-stringed donkey skin drum and another note.

When I saw this donkey skin drum, I wondered very much, why did you hide this broken drum as a baby, you said that the old lame man was dead? And it's wasted so much, one note after another on the left, it's like looking for a treasure, why is this?

With my IQ at the time, I was afraid that I couldn't think of a reason even if I wanted to break my head, so I didn't think about it and just picked up the piece of paper.

The words on that piece of paper made me even more confused, because there were only two lines of words on it, the first sentence was 'Xiaoga Bean, you have to study hard, I can't see the day when you are out, you will definitely be promising, remember that if you go to school in the future, Tiancang and Jiyin remember to be careful not to travel at night, and don't be always sad, learn to laugh, just beg you as a grandfather'.

This sentence seems to be written to me, I suddenly felt uncomfortable, it seems that this old guy has not forgotten me when he is dying, I know what he knows best, knowing that I am a wooden person, not good at communicating with strangers, so I wrote this sentence before I died, Tiancang and Ji Yin said I can understand a rough, these two words appeared in the story of the old cripple before, Tian Cang seems to be the name of the stars in the sky and a folk festival, and the extreme yin is about the most yin day of the year, Legend has it that the night of this day is the easiest to provoke ghosts, so it is not easy to travel at night.

Seeing this, I smiled bitterly, thinking to myself that this old feudal is still instilling this kind of thinking in me until he dies, where is there a ghost in this world? If there are ghosts, then why don't you old lame ghost appear? I'm so sad.

Thinking of this, my heart was sour again, so I didn't dare to think about it anymore, wiped my tears and continued to look down.

The second line is more simple and clear: "If you do too much injustice, you will kill yourself, Yonglin, you will always remember this sentence." ”

Yonglin? Who is Yonglin? I don't know and I don't know what it means, but it seems that this sentence should not be said to me, and I can't think of what this Yonglin is after thinking about it for a while, so I don't want to ask the surname Suo, after all, I know that the old cripple is dead, and it is impossible to ask him anything from the mouth of the dead man.

But I understand that this drum is left to me by the old lame, then I will put him away, I picked up the drum, looked at the circle shape pattern on it, my heart was full of sighs, it seems that the old cripple has calculated that I will cry after his death, but he does not want me to cry, this old lame man, even after death is this virtue..................

However, since the fight, I really haven't cried in front of people, although my heart is still uncomfortable, but slowly, it will return to normal, I took the old lame man's three musical instruments as a sémoir, and then the old lame man's land was confiscated, and the house was bought by another family to turn into a tiled house, the old lame man lived in this village for more than ten years, it seems that only a tomb was left, and there is no trace of other than that.

Time passed slowly, I came out of the shadow of this old guy's suicide, and when I grew up, I really learned to laugh, it turned out that laughing was quite simple, and this could be regarded as fulfilling my last agreement with him, I thought.

A year later, I was in my third year of high school, and my high school life was very boring, just like the stupid middle school uniform of the loser who killed that day, warm in summer and cool in winter, without any bright spots.

Of course, although high school life is extremely boring, and although my body is still weak, there is a good saying: no matter how barren the land is, it will be green because of the spring breeze.

I don't know which big brother said this, but I think it makes sense, maybe because of my age, I began to notice the different surnames around me, and I don't know why, in the summer, looking at the slightly bulging breasts in their school uniforms, I would feel dizzy.

Many years later, when I talked to my unobtrusive friend about this paragraph, he said a very reasonable quote with a hippie smile: It's normal, when you reach the level, you have to learn new skills and understand them.

Perhaps, as he said, I'm eighteen years old, and it seems like I'm already getting nervous in my heart, and it's time to learn the skill of a beginner crush.

It stands to reason that it should be very easy for students with artistic specialties to pick up girls in school, but if they are long, it will be invincible, just ask which school each of them is a 'piano prince' or something?

It's like the secret that can't be told in the later movie, I'm Xiaoyu, do you love me?

Do I love you, to say that it's the plot of the movie, it has nothing to do with reality, when I was in high school, my looks and strength belonged to the back row players, and I don't know why, girls don't like to talk to me, usually they only have a few words to me, which are 'class', 'donate how much do you donate', 'the teacher asked you to go', 'come and hand in your math homework'............

Lu Quanyou said to me, you are a special student in vain, why don't you invite a little girl to see you so much?

Where do I know where to go, I was also depressed because of this, and then I thought about it, maybe this is related to the project I learned, dry, what do you say I will do, erhu, huqiner, dancing gods, which one can be used to pick up girls?

Needless to say, Hu Qin'er, unless a girl who loves singing can find me, and there is no need to say that she dances the drums of Dashen'er, unless someone who loves to sing can find me, and after thinking about it, he will have an erhu left for his uncle.

But when you talk about erhu, this is also the most unpopular musical instrument for girls, except for playing "Horse Racing" on stage during the school anniversary performance, which can also get some applause symbolizing surnames!

Have you ever seen a girl who can listen to "Erquan Reflecting the Moon" with a budding spring heart and a surging heart? If you want to say that you can make her cry, I believe it.

But then again, if there is really a little girl who is wet by my song "Erquan Reflecting the Moon", you dare to ask for it.

This doesn't work, it seems that I have to change the project, for the erhu, I am familiar with it can no longer be familiar, I am confident that among the four people who learn erhu in the whole school, I dare to rank second, and it is estimated that no one dares to compete with me for this position, so I used my spare time to learn the guitar.

Learning this,It's purely because of the boring campus life,And the beautiful fantasy of that ignorant love,At that time, the love in my heart seemed to be quite sacred and quite vague.,I thought,If I meet someone I like in the future.,I'll hold the guitar and sing to her when the sun sets.,I'm damn.,It's really blushing when I think about it.。

And my high school years are coming to an end in this ignorant love fantasy, until the college entrance examination, the one in my heart did not appear, but I am not discouraged, after all, I have never eaten pork and never seen a pig run? What is not available now, there will be in college, well, it must be a very beautiful day.

Just like what I usually talked about when I bragged with Lu Quanyou and them in the dormitory, fantasizing about the future must be very exaggerated, especially for those of us who have not been irrigated by love in middle school, the girls in the university must be like flowers and jade, wolves, tigers, hungry and thirsty, and when the time comes, we will not be as strong as a bamboo, and it is inevitable that we will be evenly matched?

However, at that time, we didn't calculate anything, and there is still an idiom in this world that 'things are man-made'.

And I didn't know that the university life that awaited me was, in a way, a terrifying nightmare, so much so that even my worldview and future life had changed drastically.

To this day, when I occasionally wake up in the middle of the night, I still have palpitations, and I can't tell whether those things are real or fake..................

(The second watch is over, the story officially unfolds, because tomorrow is going out of the mail contract, so according to the usual practice, please bear with me, here to ask for a ticket to recommend a collection, thank you!!!!! ）

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