Lin Xiaohua's voice has changed, before her voice was crisp and with a hint of charm, but now it is low and hoarse, with a trace of vicissitudes and tiredness that cannot be hidden.

Could it be that Lin Xiaohua is also slowly getting old at the moment? I'm starting to feel sorry for this girl, but what else can I do?

"You should have guessed that Lin Furui and I are both from the same village, and we were both born in that not very glorious village - the village of thieves" Lin Xiaohua began to slowly tell an entangled past, probably because time was running out, so she spoke very concisely.

But I also sorted out this entangled story from her telling.

That has to start when Lin Furui was taken by God, once Lin Jianguo and I talked about it, since his son came up, he went to live in other people's homes, and this family happened to be Lin Xiaohua's home.

"Most of the people who rob the village are surnamed Lin, just like many ordinary villages, often there is always a big surname in a village. I am not related to Lin Furui, but he enjoys the highest treatment in our family because my parents are fanatical believers in God. All hope is pinned on that God, do you know why? ”

"Because of me, I'm their only daughter. And I have not been in good health since I was a child, I can't walk at a young age, and it is even more serious when I am older, most of the time I can only lie in bed and be taken care of by others, but I don't know the condition. My dad loves my mom very much, and my mom can't raise her anymore because of her health, so who doesn't want her daughter to be healthy? The god who didn't care about it became their only hope, so they became fanatical believers as a matter of course. ”

"Maybe it's because of this, or maybe it's because the situation in our family is simpler than other families, and there are no relatives, just me, my parents. God chose our home when He chose the place to 'grow up.' This is the beginning of the entanglement. ”

From Lin Xiaohua's account, I can imagine what kind of condescending treatment God received in their family.

But the truth is far more exaggerated than I imagined, the people who rob the village are rich, and they must be unimaginable in life in this land of China, even in troubled times, they also live a stable and prosperous life, not to mention the rest, just say that food and clothing are the same, even if they are not silk and satin, but they are also exquisite, and the food is not delicacies from the mountains and seas, but it is also big fish and meat.

But for God, how dare Lin Xiaohua's parents let him live the same life as everyone else in the village? It's always a lot higher.

Therefore, since God came, the life of Lin Xiaohua's family has changed, the best food was given to Lin Xiaohua before, and God gave it to God when he came, and even many of them were never seen and eaten by Lin Xiaohua before.

Whatever garments are made, they are always given to God first, and they are the best.

"I was just a little girl who used to lie in bed at that time, and like other children, my world was very simple, there was nothing godless, and I didn't understand the difference in status. Unlike other children, my world is also very lonely, there are no friends, no siblings, all I have is my mom and dad. A child's thoughts are always simple, I don't understand anything, I just feel that my parents love him and don't love me. You know, the god at that time was just a child. Lin Xiaohua's voice was very lonely, as if she had returned to that time, the loneliness of lying in bed at a young age.

I can imagine her sadness at that time, but she didn't dare to cry too much with her parents, so she could only silently endure all these doubts.

Children who are born with defects, if they are not extreme, they are afraid of sensitivity and precociousness, obviously Lin Xiaohua belongs to the latter, she is uneasy that she has a brother who seems healthy to snatch her love, but compared to this uneasiness, the greater is fear, fear of being abandoned by her parents.

At that time, I always didn't understand the love given by my parents, and I didn't know that the fundamental reason why they were so kind to God was because of me. Unfortunately, they left too early, and I understood too late. Lin Xiaohua's voice revealed a trace of sadness and irreparable remorse, but compared to Lin Furui, this woman is much more free and easy, after this silence, she chuckled lightly, and said lightly: "However, there is always reincarnation in this heavenly way, I owe them, and sooner or later I will pay it back, I'm not in a hurry, I just want to pay it back." ”

I don't know what to say about this woman, but her state of mind is really worth looking up to in a way.

But I wondered, why did Lin Xiaohua's parents leave early? Thinking of this, I couldn't help but ask.

Lin Xiaohua played with the ends of her hair unhurriedly, and said to me: "I always have to talk about it, you idiot, what are you anxious about?" ”

I never turned my head to look at Lin Xiaohua, but out of the corner of my eye, I accidentally saw the tips of Lin Xiaohua's hair, shocking gray, I didn't have any other feelings, the only feeling I had was just distress, what could be more cruel than this, watching this woman wither in front of me, but I couldn't do anything.

Lin Furui's side has fallen silent, he hugged Lin Jianguo, whether he has gone or is still alive, I don't know if the wind blew through their bodies snuggling up to each other, bringing up the ends of their clothes and hair, as if they were also telling that they had grievances before they were alive, and the deceased had passed away, sending a farewell to me.

But Lin Xiaohua never looked at it, there was a kind of heart death that was terrible, although she was still telling his and her story.

The little girl who didn't cry or make trouble, just silently restless, her flattering parents, and the god who had always been indifferent and high up, got along under such a roof, until one day two months later, things changed a little bit.

It was a small detail at a dinner table, and it was a normal day, and there was still a special dish prepared on the dinner table, which was for God.

It is a rare thing in the northwest, always due to the blur of memory, Lin Xiaohua doesn't remember it, but she remembers the strong desire to eat at that time, but how dare she make trouble? She was afraid to see the blaming eyes of her father and mother, and to see the indifference of God, and to ignore her contempt at all.

However, that day, God turned his head, his eyes were very gentle for the first time, and he also looked at Lin Xiaohua, who was held in the arms of Lin Xiaohua's mother and fed, with a little curiosity, and said very softly: "Do you want to eat this?" ”

Lin Xiaohua remembered that sentence for a long, long time, because God had never said a word to her when he arrived at her house, and his eyes were indifferent and high.

She had no idea that this boy could look at her with such soft eyes, and when he spoke, he was also gentle and gentle.

"Maybe it's because you've been lonely for too long? Except for my parents, I haven't seen anyone else be gentle to me? Or maybe it's because he's always been so high, he suddenly lowered his shelf and asked me like this, and I was flattered by the 'cheap' one, in short, that look, that question, I suddenly felt that he was so kind and good-looking, and I could never forget it. When Lin Xiaohua talked about this time, there was a smile in her voice, very small and beautiful, a seed that was put into her heart from a young age.

In the face of such a gentle inquiry, Lin Xiaohua's world was like a ray of sunshine, which gave her courage, she was stunned 'um', completely forgetting what she had warned herself, to be sensible, to be more well-behaved, what can't you fight with your little brother?

Lin Xiaohua's voice made Lin Xiaohua's mother panic, she subconsciously patted Lin Xiaohua, it was not heavy, but in a hurry, she said in a loud voice: "Why are you so ignorant?" He smiled apologetically at God.

Is it an apologetic flattering laugh? Lin Xiaohua was just her own guess, but she was really frightened, looking at her father's blaming eyes, she felt that she was going to be abandoned in the next second.

But when her mother raised her hand again, she was grabbed by God, and he simply said, "Don't hit her, she's very well-behaved." Then, let go of Lin Xiaohua's mother's hand.

Then, he reached out and grabbed several chopsticks Lin Xiaohua wanted to eat, and then smiled at her gently and said, "Let's eat together." ”

"This is a picture that I will never forget in my life, and it is also the first time I met Lin Furui. As you should guess, in the past two months, I have always seen God, because when Lin Furui was sober, he always had to go back to his home, and he did not go back that day, and one of my encounters with him was after these two months. I still remember how I felt, in despair, a pair of hands pulled you out and gently fulfilled your little wish. In that moment, he was God, and God was never God. The smile in Lin Xiaohua's voice became heavier, if I could look at her at this moment, her eyes would be open.

Will it be revealed, that is, the affection that cannot be dissolved? But the pitiful thing is that he is so good in his memory, but he is no longer there in reality, so what kind of pain is it?

The wind is blowing, the figure of Lin Furui and Lin Jianguo snuggling, is that the last him in Lin Xiaohua's eyes?