"This is really ridiculous...... Zhou Chu Dalu on the dark side laughed, the laughter penetrated the endless darkness and pierced his eardrums, "The person who pins everything on himself, and can only be pinned on it like this, pinning all the meaning and hope on survival, all of it, all in the hands of that woman, speaking of which, she doesn't know how to say, she is so important to you, right?" ”

Zhou Chu could only be silent and closed his eyes.

After the piercing laughter, there was a faint sigh.

"It's really sad."

Zhou Chu opened his eyes.

"I know." He said, "I know what your greatest reliance is. ”

"Of course you know." Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, also put away his smile and said in a cold voice, "But even if you know the Dao, you can't do anything." ”

Yes, there is nothing that can be done.

So far, everything is so clear that you can directly see through it, the dark side of yourself, understand him, but in the same way, if you face yourself, you will find that the dark side of yourself, what you grasp is the only and most fatal weakness that even he is powerless and unbreakable.

Qin Jing.

Everything is a cover-up and a bluff, whether it is asking him if he hates it, or testing whether he will regret it, and about the past between him and Xia Xiao, it is just a dessert before an appetizer, whether it can be successful or not, it is just to further elicit those hidden negative emotions, whether he faces it or not, these negative emotions and dark sides. Yes, it will definitely exist.

Because he is only a person, not a non-person, he will also have a dark side of himself.

But these are not insurmountable, in fact, these things can be overcome and faced, whether it is for the bad students who made him forcibly turn his life around, or Xia Xiao who met him later, and the nightmare he experienced, all of these things, maybe sometimes assume some ifs. But more often than not. Just laugh and laugh and you can get by.

But what Zhou Chu has not been able to face and overcome so far comes from the fear of losing Qin Jing.

So, all the previous ones are just foreshadowing. Just to ignite his uneasy negative emotions. Let them be awakened. Then it spreads, and at the end of the day is the fatal blow.

And now, that blow has come.

"You're afraid of losing her."

The dark side of yourself. stared at Zhou Chu with a smile and said word by word.

Zhou Chu opened his mouth, but he couldn't say anything.

"You can't even face the possibility of losing her, you don't dare to imagine, if she is no longer your girlfriend, no longer with you, you lose her, she no longer appears in your life, she may even fall in love with someone else, she will be with someone else, she will have her own life, she will be happy, but all this has nothing to do with you......"

"Enough!"

Zhou Chu roared, and at the same time, his whole body was exploding, and his uncontrollable emotions made him directly enter the initial form, and roared, rushing towards his dark self.

But the dark side of himself just dodged lightly, and then floated in the air, the ghostly voice still continued to echo.

"You are afraid of losing her, you are afraid that without her, you will return to the abyss of despair again, you will be afraid that your world will lose all color and temperature again, and become endless eternal night and cold, you yourself don't even know the Dao, I don't know when the Dao has taken her as the support point for all the meanings and actions in life, and has regarded her as the ...... of everything."

Zhou Chu was still chasing after himself on the dark side, but every attack was dodged and missed, and the ghostly voice was still echoing, as if to dissect everything he had, clearly and nakedly.

"Everyone has their own world, a subjective, established world by themselves, in this world, there is a pillar, this pillar supports everything in this world, some people's spiritual pillar is power, some people's is material, some people are ideals, but everyone, need such a pillar, and your pillar is a woman, it is her."

Zhou Chu stopped, he knew that in this endless darkness, he would never be able to catch up with himself on the dark side, strong anger and hatred continued to pour into his heart, a pair of eyes that were more and more blood-red and shining with golden light, staring at the self floating in the air.

"So, what happens if the spiritual pillar of a person's subjective world realm is removed?" Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, laughed hehehe, "You know the Dao, I also know the Dao, if the only pillar in this world and the pillar that supports this world is removed, then the world world will collapse." ”

Zhou Chu finally tried to calm himself down, and hoarsely throated: "So what? ”

"So what? You ask me? Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, showed a sarcastic smile, "Don't pretend to be great, your fear is far greater than your feelings for her, so big that you don't even dare to let go of her." ”

"Not really." Zhou Chu lowered his voice.

"Isn't it?" Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, was still laughing, "Really? You and I don't have to deceive ourselves anymore, I know that you struggled countless times in your heart during the Cold War, you struggled to tell yourself, let go of her, she deserves better love and happiness, she deserves better people, because you love her, so because of this love, so you want to sacrifice yourself, as long as she is happy......"

"But you can't!" The voice was raised, and then it turned to a mocking, low tone, "But you forget, feelings are also selfish, there is no unselfish love, so its selfishness, with your fear, keeps grasping you, making you struggle, constantly struggling, but there is no way to face and solve all this......"

Zhou Chu raised his head and wanted to say something, but when he met those teasing eyes, he couldn't say anything.

"You want to say you're not like that? Isn't it? So if not, why don't you say break up straightforwardly? You must know that you are now an awakened one. Oh, the danger of the awakened and the possibility of dying at any time, we all know that if from an emotional point of view, you love her, and you only want her to be happy, then you should stay away from her, but you still haven't done it, you don't even dare to choose, you can only be passive. Give her the power to choose. Wait for her to say break up, wait for her to leave, or wait for her to be there for you all the time! Oh, what a ridiculous and selfish idea. You just don't dare to face your fears. I didn't dare to face the possibilities of losing her. ”

The dark side of Zhouchu. After sneering, he once again pierced the truth in Zhou Chu's heart.

Wounds will always bleed, and real wounds. The blood and pain that flows will never dry up and never stop.

So Zhou Chu was in pain, he could hear the huge and powerful beating sound of the heart, but he couldn't breathe, every beating seemed to be a prelude to suffocation, he was not injured, but he just had the feeling of pain, from the position of the heart, constantly transmitted to the whole body with every heartbeat, this pain, even more cold and painful than any wound, not violent, but enough to make people desperate.

Yes, he loves her, and after he doesn't even know what to say, he has regarded Qin Jing as the only spiritual pillar in his spiritual world, he relies on her, he needs her, and he puts all his life and hopes in the future, all his feelings and everything, in her. He also knew that Lu Dao was dangerous and extreme, but his original world was already a dark and abyss, and he couldn't find anything, so after Qin Jing became that light, he was desperate and put everything in her.

Like a moth to a fire, one pounce is pouring it all in.

But love is also like chasing the wind, and it is also the free will of two people, so he can't be sure, and he doesn't know her feelings, and because of such uncertainty, he knows that such a move is dangerous, and at the same time extreme and too absolute, but he has no choice but to pour everything.

This is an all-or-nothing bet, once lost, the re-established world will collapse again, and he will return to the endless darkness and abyss, to the cold of hopelessness and despair.

Because of this, he has been afraid, afraid of losing, afraid that her feelings will be transferred and will not be in him, but he also loves her, and subconsciously, he has regarded Qin Jing as everything, so he excludes such fears, and he also hopes that the woman he loves deeply can have a better life and happiness.

Cuteness is also selfish, so selfish that you can't just smile and let go. At least he couldn't do it, and because he couldn't do it like this, he kept silent, leaving everything he decided to Qin Jing and letting her decide.

And he can only love her, regard her as everything, and wait, not knowing what the end of the road lies ahead.

The fear of loss, the fear of not being able to lose, the selfishness of human nature, the desire to possess love, the sacrifice and fulfillment of love, and the contradictory struggle of hoping for the happiness of the person you love, all kinds of complex and indescribable emotions, which others cannot understand, and even he himself cannot fully understand, are mixed together.

The fear that you can't lose and can't lose, the selfishness that you want to let go but want to have, the hatred that you don't have the courage to face, the hatred that you can't let go, the selfishness that you don't want to let go, the hatred that you can't be better and make her happy, the hatred that you pretend to be a great sacrifice, the hatred that you are not cruel and cruel to yourself.

Fear, hatred, fear, hatred, self-blame, selfishness, possessiveness, wanting her to be better and happier, but unable to let go of herself, fear to return to the darkness, so hatred again, everything, constantly circulating, repeating, constantly condensing, became his biggest demon!

And now, this inner demon appeared, stood in front of him, triumphantly exposed everything, and ruthlessly gave himself a fatal blow.

He couldn't deny it, because everything was real, he couldn't face it, because the selfishness in human nature and the possessiveness in love made him unable to let himself be decisive and categorically said that as long as she was happy, then all the spiritual worlds with her as the pillar collapsed, and it didn't matter, he didn't care to return to the desperate, only endless darkness and cold ruins again.

So he could only stand, struggling, trying to face it but constantly evading, constantly denying and forcing himself to face it, he could only stand and listen to the harsh ridicule and laughter in his ears.

This time, maybe he lost.

He couldn't lose her, it was the truest and irresistible voice in his instincts.

Such thoughts have only just come to mind. It seemed that the whole space was shaking, huge and violently, and the surroundings began to turn a little dark red.

Dark red, rich black, these two colors, began to fill the entire space as far as the eye could see, and there was a visible black mist and red aura, constantly emerging from his body, appearing from all directions, entangled with each other. Then towards floating in mid-air. The dark side of the self is gone.

He knew that this was the negative emotions and energy that he had always condensed because of that greatest fear, the hatred of the self, the fear that could not be lost, the selfishness and possession, the despair and unwillingness, from the time he had his own consciousness and feelings, all the way to the present life. All ever. Small or large negative emotions. At this moment, it is infinitely magnified, and then it is induced and called out, towards the biggest demon.

The dark side of Zhouchu. His face began to become more and more evil and gloomy, the blood red in his eyes became more and more terrifying and deep, and the huge black-red mist continued to gather and condense around him, until the most solitary, in all the space, only he exuded it, which made people desperate and tremble, just touching it gave birth to the breath of endless fear and negative emotions.

Like a demon king.

Such a form, he had only seen in Gabriel outside of Silent Hill City that day, so he understood everything as well.

Everything is just a cover-up and a trick, what everyone has to face, is not those specious clues, nor those that seem to be able to always be associated with themselves, the memories of clues and the reasons for distortion, everyone will eventually face, not the dark side and distorted side of whom, nor the monster, not the ultimate boss.

Everyone has to face their own demons.

"Finally understood?" Surrounded by a huge, black-red aura, he made a low, hoarse, inhuman voice that could almost penetrate the soul.

"But it's over." 'He' said, "Even if you know the Tao and realize it, you still can't resist and fight against your demons, you can't fight against me, all your dark side and negative emotions have been induced, and now you ......."

"He" stretched out his hand towards Zhou Chu.

"Be devoured by me, be me."

He said that the black-red aura that occupied almost all the space, with the words of Zhou Chu on the dark side, suddenly turned into a huge hand, and came towards Zhou Chu with a slow, but unable to dodge and escape attitude.

Zhou Chu was still silent, he lowered his head, didn't say anything, didn't make any movements, but a voice came out of his mouth.

"Yes, I admit that because of fear and fear, because I am afraid that I will despair again, I can't face the possibility of losing her, and I can't make myself say, lose it, lose it, I will return to the hopeless and lifeless world again, I can't lose her, this will be my eternal demon, I can't eliminate or erase it, even if I face it, it still exists, even if I just want her to be happy, I still have to face all the collapse and despair after the loss, as well as the endless eternal night and pain, but ......"

He looked up and stretched out his demonic hand, but not at the dark side of himself.

"But...... Although I don't know if this theory is correct, all emotions, positive, negative, good and bad, including the suffocating pain and despair, and the fear of desperately trying to hold on to the fear of losing, all of them seem to come from something called the heart. ”

"What do you want to say?" Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, seemed to notice something, and the huge black and red giant hand accelerated the speed of moving towards Zhou Chu.

"I want to say, although I don't know if the road is like this, and I don't know if the road is useful, but, this is probably the most effective way, since you are also me, then you should know the way, I hate this kind of powerless, I can't do anything, I am extremely disgusted, so, I want to try, even if there is no hope, I just want to try......"

Zhou Chu raised his head and smiled at the one who was like a demon king, floating in the air, with a dark side.

An even stronger, bad premonition rose in Zhou Chu's heart on the dark side, so the giant hand with black and red breath, after Zhou Chu showed a smile, suddenly sped up, and almost instantly came to him, engulfing Zhou Chu in an instant.

He could feel the strength of the substance, tightly restraining himself, and where he was touched by the black and red breath, huge and strong negative emotions were rapidly eroding his emotions, and more and countless negative emotions were constantly induced, and almost all souls were full of hatred because of these strong negative emotions.

Hatred is so strong that you can't see anything, you don't have any superfluous emotions, only a huge and intense hatred, you want to destroy everything, you want to destroy everything you can see, everything you can see, everything you can see, you want to turn the whole world into a hell on earth full of resentment, fear, hatred.

Pure, naked and unconcealed hatred, if swallowed, will only become only evil and endless resentment and hatred, like a monster.

Zhou Chu's eyes were already bleeding tears, the corners of his mouth were oozing blood, his eardrums seemed to have burst, he had bitten a mouthful of teeth, and his bones and internal organs were cracking and shattering, but he still maintained his last trace of sanity, endured this violent and almost lost hatred, forcibly continued to raise his demonic hand, and showed a trace of wonder at the corner of his mouth whether he was mocking himself on the dark side or mocking his own ridicule, and made a vague sound.

"Since all the emotions ...... All the feelings...... It all stems from the thing called the 'heart'...... Moreover...... Because of its existence...... I can't resist and reject these instinctive ...... The truest emotions...... So ......"

The demon's hand was raised high and then fell suddenly!

"So...... I don't want this heart! (To be continued.) )

PS: The fourth update, I'm finally done, I feel like I'm exhausted, about this kind of thing, let's have their opinions, it's just that Zhou Chu made his choice, and it's a different choice from everyone else, that's enough. Next, the second volume will soon come to an end. Take a long breath, rub your face, and ask for all kinds of rewards and support.