"I'm so envious."

The disgusting, but also his own voice sounded, and Zhou Chu, who had a dark side, walked towards him and began to circle around him.

"I mean, really, I was really envious, what a wonderful and delightful experience, when we were only seventeen years old, only seventeen years old, and we were locked up in this dark darkness for more than a month, except for the darkness and that little bit of light, there was nothing, nothing could be seen and heard, there was a huge, endless dead silence and darkness, you couldn't move, you couldn't walk, you didn't even talk to you, that state, for more than a month, a person would go crazy, but we weren't crazy, I really envy our perverted willpower. ”

Zhou Chu still didn't speak, and his dark side was still circling around him, and then suddenly stopped.

"But...... However, there is still a little bit of ...... left" Zhou Chu on the dark side, stretched out two fingers, and made a little gesture, "There is still a little bit of something left, no one knows the way, you went to see a psychiatrist later, only I know the way, because I am you, you are me, so I said, how can you not leave a little thing?" ”

Zhou Chu was still silent, because he knew that he was on the dark side of the Dao, and what he said was right, for a long time after that, he couldn't sleep at night, or rather, as soon as he closed his eyes, the long scene of being locked up in a dark room would appear in his mind, and once the night came, he began to fear, fear the darkness. And only stay in a place where there is light.

It was only when and where there was light that he could sleep, and in the long dark night, he frantically searched for all kinds of places, doing all kinds of things to pass himself, and he didn't even dare to let himself stop, as if he didn't do anything, if he stopped, if he was empty, the nightmare of that time. It's constantly invading and repeating.

All the way up to ...... When I met him, I saw Qin Jing.

"That's not all." The dark side of yourself. smiled evilly at Zhou Chu and shook his finger, "Mental illness is secondary, but you see." Brains as smart as we are. Don't we think about a lot of things in hindsight? Like what. Could Xia Xiao have given up everything at the beginning in exchange for your release? Or rather, you're really not as good as those stuff or something...... Know the way. During that time, you didn't relax at all, is it worth it? ”

The dark side of the human heart, speculation, doubt, distrust, speculation, and not being afraid to guess and judge others with the worst side, thus changing and influencing cognition.

So, yes, during that time, I also thought about it like this, assumed it, and was rescued only after I had done everything for more than a month, although I said to myself, Xia Xiao couldn't help himself, this is already a game for adults, but there is still another voice that keeps talking.

You really don't matter that much.

Therefore, I also thought that I was not so important, Xia Xiao could not give up and hand over the resources and others that those people needed because of herself, if Xia Xiao and the background behind her did not handle and deal with everything, the most reluctant, the most reluctant, the most reluctant, must lose the things that those people need, in order to be able to exchange for his own life, will Xia Xiao be willing? Or do you just let yourself die in that dark room?

He didn't have an answer.

Or rather, there has been no answer until now.

"But ......" Zhou Chu smiled again, "what does it matter?" ”

"Huh?" The dark side of the self was stunned for a moment.

"I mean, what does that have to do with me? Other people's choices are someone else's, your choice is yours, and your choice is subject to change because of other people's choices, so is your choice still your own? No matter what Xia Xiao thought at that time, it didn't matter, because no matter what she thought or did, I only knew that at that time, I would still not compromise and let go no matter what. ”

"Even if you're going to die?"

"Even if it's going to die. I only do what I feel is right, no matter what the consequences may be. ”

"What the hell!" The dark side of himself roared, "I hate your inexplicable self-righteousness and bullshit principles, or rather, this almost virgin-like personality really fucking makes me want to slap you......"

The dark side of himself was jumping and roaring angrily, and when a trace of pleasure finally rose in Zhou Chu's heart, he suddenly changed his appearance.

"Do you really think I'm mad?" The darker side of himself laughed, "No, no, no, no, I'm just toying with you, so, are you going to beat me up now, or do you want to continue?" ”

The corners of Zhou Chu's eyes jumped, suppressed his violent emotions, and said calmly, "Go on, see what else you can do?" ”

"I'll be watching to see how I perform." The dark side of the self said, and then dropped a sentence, "You said just now, I would only do that at that time, so I actually want to ask, what about you now?" ”

Who you are now?

Zhou Chu was silent for a moment, and then smiled.

"If it were someone else, then I wouldn't, but she's Xia Xiao."

"Holy."

But Zhou Chu just smiled and followed behind himself on the dark side.

After the tumultuous chaos, Nancheng ended with a series of major earthquakes such as the fall of several high-ranking officials and the imprisonment of several people, and Xia Xiao also left Nancheng at this time, chose to go abroad, and Zhou Chu, who concealed his psychological condition, also returned to the campus again, and was admitted to Nancheng University.

After that, in order to cure his crazy actions, he haunted the night scene, lingered in the flowers, played in the band, and constantly looked for everything that could be filled to fill the endless and unrelieved emptiness, and it was also at this time that Zhou Chu got acquainted with Ou Cheng, and in a drunken trouble, he rescued Ou Cheng, and since then the two have become inseparable friends.

Then it seemed that everything that could be tried had been tried, and it was all boring, and Zhou Chu began to calm down and started a normal life as a college student.

Then, he met Qin Jing.

Seeing the scene change to the campus that day, a warm smile appeared on the corner of Zhou Chu's mouth.

But when that young and beautiful figure appeared, Zhou Chu, who was on the dark side, snapped his fingers, and everything disappeared and turned into a gray patch.

"We don't need to look at the warm and warm pictures." The dark side of himself smiled, and then walked towards Zhou Chu.

"Darkness, Light, Guidance and Hope." Zhou Chu on the dark side said, staring at Zhou Chu.

"What did you say?"

"Ah~ don't pretend to be confused." Zhou Chu on the dark side looked at Zhou Chu dissatisfied, "We are one, so, don't be like this." ”

"It looks like we're back to normal, and that's it."

The dark side of the self stretched out two hands and stretched them out, as if in a metaphor.

"But we all know that darkness still exists, no, it should be said, it's everywhere, it's always there, in the deepest part of your heart, it's just no longer fearful, it's no longer maddening, but it's still there, but it exists, but it doesn't mean fear and fear, so what does it mean?"

The dark side of himself, the outstretched hand, the originally clenched fist, suddenly opened, and the gray piece turned into endless darkness.

"The reason why you are no longer afraid and no longer afraid is because the darkness has completely invaded all your hearts and all your worldly realms, and you have felt that you have been living in the daylight of the eternal night, there is no light, no warmth, everything is just endless darkness and cold, you are no longer afraid or afraid, but desperate."

"It's really, completely, desperate."

Dead silence, Zhou Chu didn't speak, and the dark side of himself didn't speak, the two of them just stood like this, standing in the endless darkness.

He began to perceive what the dark side of himself was trying to say.

"Hehehe." The dark side of the self laughed gloomily, "However, things in the world are often very wonderful, so wonderful that you think you are completely desperate, but fate does not let you despair, but let you see that light." ”

This light is Qin Jing.

Zhou Chu didn't know what to do, and he couldn't describe that feeling, but when he saw Qin Jing at first sight, after meeting her, there was a voice telling him that she was the faint light in the darkness, which could guide him, pull him, bring him out of the endless darkness and cold, and bring him back to the world and life of normal people.

So like a drowning man who was about to sink into the endless abyss, Zhou Chu instinctively subconsciously stretched out his hand, wanting to hold that hand and grab that beam of light.

And he did hold it, and he grasped it, life began to return more and more to calm and ordinary, those lost emotions, those joys, sorrows and sorrows are gradually recovered, he also learned to be silent, forbearance, quiet life and hard work, waiting for the day when he can finally live like a normal person, embracing the hustle and bustle and truth of this world, as well as the ordinary but long-term warmth and life.

She was his only guide and direction.

Therefore, this is also the reason why he has never left and given up, because he has never dared to face it, and he is not willing to think about it, which is also the core and frightening place.

To lose her, he will lose everything he has and experience, and he will fall back into the abyss of despair, never to see less, where there is nothing but darkness, and endless cold and despair.

Not anyone else, but her, not just feelings, but she has become the only possibility and existence that he sees as saving himself, since she appeared, and after being together, not just feelings, but his own life, his own meaning, and everything, he has put it on her without reservation.

Because she can't save herself, she can only wait to be redeemed, and the only person who can be redeemed is her. (To be continued.) )