When I heard that she was leaving, I couldn't hold back anymore, I cried loudly, and woke up crying like this, my father asked me what was wrong, I told my father about my dream, and with the experience of the last time, my father didn't dare to be careless.

The next day, the whole family went to work in the fields, and locked me in the house, the children in the countryside were all wild children, and I couldn't stay alone in the house, and when I was eight years old, I climbed outside through the window, and after playing in the yard for a while, I climbed on the haystack and fell asleep.

Every family in the countryside in the north has firewood and haystacks, but when I slept in a cloudy cage, I obviously felt the tilt of the haystack, I woke up, but everything was late, I accidentally rolled to the edge of the haystack when I slept, when I woke up, I couldn't control my body anymore, my body began to slide down the haystack, under the haystack was a large tank full of water, plop, I fell into the water, I only felt that I drank a few sips of water and didn't know anything.

When I woke up, I was already lying on the pit, and it turned out that it was my neighbor's fifth uncle who saved me.

That day, the fifth uncle was very abnormal, rural people have the habit of getting up early, and that day the fifth uncle said that he couldn't get up in the morning, the family thought he was sick, so they put him at home and went to work.

The fifth uncle slept a lot, and when he got up and was about to go to work in the field, he saw me fall from the haystack, and the fifth uncle ran over and rescued me, maybe it was providence, maybe someone was secretly helping me, in short, I survived two water disasters.

From then on, until I graduated from college at the age of 22. I am just like a normal person, living a normal life and studying normally. Routine interpersonal interactions.

But when I was 23 years old, all kinds of strange things happened to me one after another, first of all, emotional instability, for a period of time, I just wanted to die, I felt that it was really meaningless to live, and I thought that if I died, it would be a relief, and this emotion was not a few days. I started to want to cry again, and I wanted to cry every day, so I wanted to cry quickly. After a few days of such emotions, I wanted to go out and go anywhere, but I couldn't sit still.

Afterward. When you're thinking about something. I always hear people talking, as if they were telling me something, as if they were discussing with me, and the doctor said it was an auditory hallucination, a schizophrenic precursor, but I knew very well in my heart that I was not mentally ill. What happened next changed my life forever.

Next up for me. A hunch arises, a strong premonition about something. It all started with a car accident I witnessed.

It was an early autumn, the weather was a little cool, I was walking on a bustling street in the provincial capital of Harbin, at this time, a small car speeding past me, at this time, I unconsciously said, how these people have no soul, after speaking, I was startled, how did I say such inexplicable words.

I thought at the time, maybe I haven't had a good rest these days, full of cranky thoughts, but what happened next made me stunned, the car quickly disappeared from my sight, but I seemed to see the car overturned, and as if I didn't see it, in order to confirm that I was guessing, I went in the direction of the car, there was really a car accident, the tragic situation really doesn't want to be described here, I stayed there, for a long, long time, I don't understand the reason, I think it may be a special coincidence.

Then, I began to be able to perceive all kinds of things, such as who is coming to my house today, who I will meet on the street, and so on, and so on, and so on, and every time it is so accurate, because I am withdrawn, so not many people know about it, otherwise I could even be called a god at that time, and I don't care about these things, and I don't pursue them, because at that time I was already in contact with the Dharma, and I understood that everything is a cause and effect, and I can't force it.

But then, I began to hear people talking to me, right in my ears, sometimes loud, saying everything, I felt very troublesome, but I still endured it silently, I suggested to myself, it was a kind of auditory hallucination, because I was too tired, the more I thought about it, the more mixed the sound in my ears became, sometimes even three or five people were fighting, and I began to suggest to myself again, I had supernatural powers, I could hear voices thousands of miles away, thinking like this, the sound was not very mixed.

Sometimes that voice wants to communicate with me, in fact, the voice in my ear at the beginning just wants to communicate with me, I never pay attention, I think, if I really talk to him, in the eyes of others, I am a typical psychopath, I don't say it, even if I really want to be mentally ill, I can control it.

After a long time, about half a year, because of my inattention, the sound in my ears may also be boring, and it disappears, and then I get sick, and at first I am dizzy, and I can't do anything.

I was working in a foreign company, with an income of more than 3,000 per month, but I had to give up and start to treat patients everywhere, my illness was very strange, I went to the hospital for examination, sometimes my blood sugar was high, sometimes my blood sugar was low, and sometimes I could see a lump in my body, but when I really had to operate, it was gone.

As a last resort, I began to find Ma Xian to see, but I found a lot of people, but they were not optimistic, and they said differently, some said that it was my ancestor's business, some said that it was my fate, and some said that it could help me suppress it, in short, I was very clear when I saw a doctor, and they couldn't see my business.

Time passed day by day, and my illness shifted again, not physical torture, because I was able to bear physical torture, and the secret of bearing it was that while reciting the Buddha's name, I thought, "I'm dissipating my karma, and my karma for many more lives will be eliminated in this way, and I'm more cost-effective."

The hint in my heart can really overcome the pain of the body, but my illness quickly turned to my heart, I feel pain every day, my heart is very annoying, I am annoyed to see everyone, I think if I die, I will be free, I want to jump off the building, I stand on the top of an eighteen-story building, a person, the wind is very strong above, the roof is gently swinging, my body moves to the side step by step, I think only by melting into the blue sky, I can really be free, but I can't make the determination to jump.

As I was wandering there, I saw a cloud in the distance, much like a Buddha statue, and my reason once again prevailed over impulse, and I thought that maybe there was a place that could save me.

I cried and said to my father and mother, I want to become a monk, my father and mother cried, and said to me, child, you have grown up, your own path, choose your own way, you can live well, we will be content. I thought about it for a long time, and I came to a famous temple in the province alone.

Luckily, I met a high monk there, I said I want to become a monk, he said that your heart can't really return, your fate can't really end how to become a monk, I said what fate, he said that all living beings have causes, I don't understand, I said I don't leave home, I have to die, he said, you can't die, so he started to teach me the Fa, he asked me to have time to talk to him, talk to him, my mood will be better, it turns out that he is also a possessed person, when he was young, he experienced a lot of ups and downs, three times as a monk, two times to return to the world. (To be continued......)