09 Half past ten in Philadelphia

Fortunately, I charged my phone bill for two years at one time, and the mobile phone number was not recycled by the operator.

As soon as the phone was turned on after charging, the SMS prompt sound on the mobile phone rang for five or six minutes like a convulsion before stopping.

I turned on my phone, and there were more than 100 missed calls and more than 400 text messages, most of which showed the same name - Ye Zhenzhen.

I pulled the unread text message to the earliest one, and looked at it carefully, word by word.

By the time I read all the text messages, it was late at night.

That girl has been looking for me stupidly for so many years. And this little mobile phone is full of sorrow that she has nowhere to put it.

I suddenly felt a dry mouth and a panicked chest, so I got up and went to the living room to pour water.

Don was still playing games on the couch, and when he saw me come out dejected, he put down his phone and asked with concern, "Brother, are you okay?" ”

I walked over and sat down across from him, squinted my eyes and asked, "Do you have any cigarettes?" Give me one. ”

In Don's eyes, I was a good gentleman who didn't smoke or drink, and I was startled by my sudden request at the moment, "You, you're not sleepwalking." ”

I gave him a blank look, "Do you think sleepwalkers will roll their eyes at you?" ”

Don kicked me lightly, "You're not sleepwalking, you're crazy, not to mention that I'll be finished if Anne finds out, just like you are a good student, will you smoke?" ”

But in the end, under my coercion and temptation, he reluctantly lit a cigarette for me, "This is the only time, and it is useless to threaten you to cook next time." ”

I've never smoked, but I know that smoking can relieve painful emotions in the human brain.

"She went on a blind date, she could finally forget about me and start a new life, I thought I would be happy, but ......" I took a hard puff on my cigarette and was in a trance for a moment.

"Is that the girl in your purse, your sunshine?" Don also lit a cigarette and accompanied me to swallow the clouds.

I nodded, and instead of making me feel better about the effects of nicotine, the past related to her became clearer in my mind.

"After all these years, I still can't forget her. When I was walking on the road, I always had the feeling that the girl with big round eyes and ponytail would suddenly appear next to me and smile sweetly at me. I'd love to go back and see her, even if it's just a peek at her from a corner. ”

"My God! I'll be able to hear you say this to me in my lifetime, am I going to see God?" It was the first time I had been so honest about the past, and the look of excitement on Don's face didn't match the scene at this time, and he realized this, so he pulled down his face and tried to look serious, "Why didn't you contact her all these years?" ”

I held out my right hand, which looked like it was okay, "She once said that she hoped that one day I could become a pianist, so that she would be extremely proud." But now I am no longer the Lu Li she worships in her heart, I live like a wasted person. It would have been nice if there hadn't been that car accident. ”

But who is to blame for all this?

Hate Ye Zhenzhen? No way.

Hate myself?

Or do you hate the fate of creation?

"After all, Tomorrow is another day." Don patted me on the shoulder, and it was rare that he didn't scold me in English this time.

I extinguished the cigarette I had only taken two puffs and threw it into the ashtray. Drinking for a moment is just a moment of comfort for yourself.

I stared at the clock hanging in the living room, I couldn't sleep all night, it was already half past ten in the morning, there was a 12-hour time difference between Philadelphia and Dragon City, it was already night, and I silently said "good night" in my heart.

Today is a new day, and I think I will gradually get used to tomorrow without Ye Zhenzhen.

010 Passing by a dragonfly

Because I completed all the credits ahead of schedule and successfully passed the oral defense, the medical school issued me a diploma on a special basis. As a result, I graduated with Anne, and Don, the poor fellow, was repeated by the school because he always skipped class.

Don came to see me and Anne off at the airport, and he sat next to me in a huff, as if he was still unhappy about the punishment the school had given him.

"I originally thought that after we graduated together, I could go to China with you to live for a while, who would have thought that the school was so inhumane, didn't I just skip class a few times, how many times have I won awards for playing football in the academy, there is an old saying in China, 'If you don't make a contribution, you work in vain?' ”

"There is no merit and hard work." Anne smiled, "You will study obediently this year, and come to China to play with us this time next year, and we will definitely accompany you to the end." ”

"Then you don't have to go underground with me, just play on the road." Don shook his head with joy, and the unpleasantness on his face disappeared.

Anne and I both laughed at him. Don was the first friend I met in the United States, and the only one who had been with me all these years, and I stretched out my right hand to hold him with a friend's salute, "There is a Chinese poem, 'Confidants in the sea, if the ends of the world are next to each other', I hope that we will still be friends when you come to China in the future." ”

Don clenched back, "Brother, I hope you can regain your sunshine." ”

Six years later, I stepped on the land of my motherland again, and I was inexplicably a little excited.

I looked up at the sky of Dragon City and took a deep breath.

It's nice to have her in this city.

It was late afternoon after I had settled Anne, and I went out alone to sail under the pretext that I was going to find a friend.

From the text message, I knew that she had fulfilled her dream and became a teacher who sailed the sails.

When I arrived at the school, I walked on the familiar school road, looking at the students walking towards me, and the memories of the past came flooding back to me.

Then downstairs in the high school teaching building, I met her after a long absence.

She still wears a high ponytail and a plain floral dress, always smiling when talking to her students, and the setting sun jumps in her hair, gorgeous and warm.

She is no longer the simple and young appearance of seven years ago, and now she is more dazzling and beautiful, so that I dare not approach it rashly. I looked down at my right hand, then at my own nothingness, and quietly left.

After that, I went to Longcheng to find my dad, and he was a little surprised to learn that I had returned to China early.

"A week ago, your high school classmate Vera Ye called me and asked for your contact information in the United States. Other girls are still looking for you for so many years, should you give her an explanation? My dad took out a red notebook from a drawer and handed it to me, "I don't want to worry about you young people. This is a bachelor apartment that your grandparents bought for you when they were alive, and you can move there if you don't want to live at home. I've already told Long University School of Medicine about your work, so you'll go there for an interview in the next few days. ”

A week before I returned home, I forwarded my phone number to a local freshman, and if I had received that call from her at that time, what would have happened now?

What do you hope for? I laughed at myself in my heart, I was a doctor who didn't even dare to hold a scalpel, what else could I expect.

But I didn't expect to see her again.

Working overtime in the medical school office to write my dissertation, a text message suddenly popped up on the keyphone I was carrying: "Lu Li, today is my lunar birthday, do you remember?" In previous years, my parents, my mother, and Gu Zijin would accompany me on my birthday, but today I sat alone on the bench, waiting for my father, who was undergoing surgery inside. Where are you? I wish you were by my side at this time, and maybe I wouldn't be so scared. ”

My heart tightened, and I hurriedly closed my computer and rushed out of the office. With the memory of high school, he found Chen Fei's house and asked him about Ye Zhenzhen's father's hospital.

The corridor of the hospital was quiet, and a petite body curled up on a bench at the end of the corridor.

I quietly walked to Ye Zhenzhen and sat down, she was already asleep, but there were still headphones in her ears, and she faintly heard the music of Mayday, so many years, she was still obsessed with what she once liked.

She seemed to be sleeping restlessly, her brow furrowed slightly, and there were tears in the corners of her eyes.

I paused the music on her phone, gently removed the headphones for her, and rested her head on my shoulder, perhaps in a more comfortable sleeping position, her brow softened, and the corners of her mouth raised slightly.

I raised my hand and stroked the face I had been so attached to.

Just think it's a dream, and I'm just a dragonfly that accidentally passes by in your dream.

011 When every star

After that night, I didn't expect to see her again.

Dr. Chen from Yangfan School Hospital asked me to help him take up his job for a while, and I agreed without even thinking about it.

The small school infirmary, which had become more crowded because of her sudden visit, wished that the school infirmary had been larger so that I wouldn't have to worry about her hearing my rapid heartbeat and unsteady breathing.

She looked at me in a daze, something twinkling in her eyes, "Don't you have anything to say to me?" ”

I didn't dare to look at her, afraid that I wouldn't be able to suppress the longing for her and the urge to hug her.

When I said "no", her eyes gradually dimmed, and my heart disappeared with her.

At this time, a tall boy walked in from outside the door, and she called him, "Pei Xuan." ”

I didn't know him, but my subconscious told me that he might be Ye Zhenzhen's blind date, the doctor who didn't eat coriander and green onion like me.

"Ye Zhenzhen's vision is not bad." Looking at the disappearing backs of Pei Xuan and Ye Zhenzhen, I smiled bitterly in my heart.

A few days later, Ye Zhenzhen invited me and Gu Zijin to have a meal with them on the phone, and I hesitated and agreed. Now that he's back, he still has to face it.

Halfway through the meal, Chen Yao and Pei Xuan suddenly came.

Pei Xuan enthusiastically served vegetables for Ye Zhenzhen, during which Gu Zijin also said something about the process of their acquaintance.

I pretended not to care, but the look of jealousy on my face betrayed me.

When the fire of my jealousy almost burned, Gu Zipei even rescued me.

He pinned me to the ground and swung his fist at me like crazy, I knew that he was fighting for Ye Zhenzhen, so I couldn't help it.

Everyone pulled us apart, and I was helped up by Anne.

Ye Zhenzhen took Pei Xuan's hand and walked up to me and apologized to me for Gu Zipei.

I stared at their intertwined hands, as if Gu Zipei had just hit me not in the face but in my heart, because it hurt like pins and needles.

"Congratulations." Other than that, I don't know what to say.

After leaving, Anne cautiously asked me, "Why didn't you fight back just now?" ”

I looked at the countdown of the jump at the intersection, and my eyes suddenly became blurry, "I owed her when I said goodbye back then." ”

The breakup between Ye Zhenzhen and Pei Xuan was told to me by Gu Zipei.

After reconciling with this kid, he often invited me to dinner and drink. From his mouth, I knew about Ye Zhenzhen's life over the years.

"Zhenzhen's love for you is so hidden that I didn't know until I graduated. Because you suddenly said goodbye, she locked herself in the house all summer long, calling and texting you, checking the phone number of your school's academic affairs office on the Internet, as long as she could find you a way, she did it. Gu Zipei took a big sip of wine, he was obviously a little drunk, and his speech became illogical, "Knowing that you left because of a car accident, she blames herself, anyway, she and Pei Xuan are together to anger you." Now that they've broken up, do you want to consider taking her in? ”

I took a sip of white water to hide my surprise, "They broke up?" ”

Gu Zipei hiccuped and continued: "Zhen Zhenna is a stupid girl, she has such a good score in the college entrance examination, but she changed her volunteer without telling everyone, and only applied to Haicheng Normal University, she said that you may go to Haicheng to find your father, she will wait for you there, she really seizes every opportunity to find you." ”

Gu Zipei suddenly grabbed my hand as he spoke, and looked at me very seriously, "Lu Li, I rarely ask others in my life. But Vera is my best friend in life, I hope you don't leave her crying silently anymore and stay by her side, okay? ”

I didn't answer, remembering what Ye Zhenzhen said to me when we rode the Ferris wheel together many years ago: "In the process of your desperate chase, these brilliant fireworks, the stars in the night sky, and the friends around you who never leave you are all happiness in your hands, and they will not leave you." ”

She never left me, and even in the face of me now with such low self-esteem, she had the courage to tell me again that she liked me.

On the contrary, I was too selfish and lost her again and again.

I clenched my fists under the table as if I had made up my mind, and this time, I wanted to get her back once and for all.

When every star is whimpering and crying, and every illusion is disillusioned, can you believe that you will appear?

That March bloomed vows, in April left a lie, and in May I was still nostalgic.

When every star is whimpering and crying, every illusion has been disillusioned, still believe that you will appear.

(Recently, I listened to a new Mayday song "When Every Star", the lyrics are so beautiful that I can't help but want to share it with you, so I used it at the end of Lu Li's chapter.) Lu Li's story ends here, looking forward to the next Gu Zijin. ）