07 Lose your time

At around 3:30 p.m., as soon as I went out, I received a text message from Ye Zhenzhen: "Lu Li and I have arrived, you come quickly." ”

This stupid girl made an appointment to meet at the entrance of the playground at four o'clock, but she didn't expect to arrive so early.

I put my phone in my pocket and got on my bike and sped towards the playground.

Because the college entrance examination is over, there are obviously more people on the street, and every young face is full of joy.

In such an atmosphere, my mood is also cheerful.

The appearance of Ye Zhenzhen speaking to me seriously yesterday gradually appeared in my mind, "Lu Li, let's go to the playground after the exam, I have something to say to you." ”

As if I had some premonition, my heart was full of tenderness.

I want to see her soon, and listen to what we have missed.

Across the road was the playground, and the countdown seconds of the green light jumped rapidly, and I seized the last three seconds and slammed into the road.

Suddenly, there was a piercing whistle mixed with the screams of passers-by, and the next second there was a scarlet in front of him, and there was indescribable pain all over his body. I saw Ye Zhenzhen squatting next to me crying, she was talking about something, but I couldn't hear a word. I reached out to wipe away her tears, only to find that my hand was completely uncontrollable and unable to move. Then she gave me a wryful look and walked away without looking back.

......I woke up from my bed, my white hospital gown reminding me that everything that had just happened was a dream.

Ever since the car accident after the college entrance examination, I have often seen such horrific scenes in my dreams.

It's been more than a year since that crash, 560 days to be exact, but even after all this time, I can still vividly recall the scene from that day.

After the crash, I was in a coma for four days and woke up to be told that I had a moderate concussion, multiple fractures all over my body, and a nearly crippled right hand. I lay on the bed and let the doctor put all kinds of cold instruments on my body, and I caught a glimpse of my father standing on the side, he didn't know how many days he hadn't closed his eyes, his eyes were bloodshot, and the whole person seemed to be more than ten years old.

"Don't tell anyone about my car accident, especially the school." I stared at the ceiling as my dad sat next to me peeling apples.

My dad cut a small piece of the apple and handed it to my mouth, "The school called me yesterday and said that you were admitted to the Curtis Institute of Music, and asked me to go to the school to help you get the letter." ”

I was not used to his sudden kindness, so I put the apple in my mouth with my own hands, it was very sweet, and at that moment I thought of Ye Zhenzhen, the girl who loved to eat apples, no wonder her smile was always so sweet.

I suppressed the pain in my heart, "Help me get it, I'm ...... Let them think it's better if I went to the United States. ”

"Kitten, don't be discouraged." My dad sighed softly, "I'll fight for the best resources to help you heal." ”

Four months later, my dad took me to the best orthopedic hospital in Beijing for about half a year, and although my right hand was able to live a normal life, I could no longer play the piano. My dad contacted his friend in the United States and took me to the best orthopedic hospital in the United States for treatment.

"Hey, buddy, you're having that nightmare again?" The person who spoke was a patient in the same ward as me, his name was Don, and his Chinese name was Tang Hulu.

Don is a student at the University of Pennsylvania, and because his mother is Chinese, he is able to speak Chinese fluently. A month ago, he was admitted to the hospital with a broken ankle playing football, perhaps because he liked Chinese culture since he was a child, so he was particularly enthusiastic about me, a real Chinese.

I stopped remembering, raised my left hand to wipe the sweat from my forehead, and nodded in the darkness.

I didn't expect him to have the best eyesight and see me nodding. He sat up from the bed, tugged at the quilt, and made the gesture that he was going to talk to me all night.

"Who is the Vera you often call in your dreams? Boy or girl? What do you have to do with her? ”

I lay down with my back to Don, tucked the quilt over my ear, and coldly spat out four words, "It's not about you." ”

"What a Miser!" Every time he was speechless by me, he would burst out a sentence in English to express his displeasure.

I paid no attention to him, closed my eyes and couldn't sleep.

Ten days later came the New Year, the first New Year I spent in the United States.

Westerners revere Christmas, so New Year's Eve, after a week of partying, is particularly deserted.

I stood by the window, thinking about this time a few years ago, when Ye Zhenzhen and I were watching fireworks together.

"What are you looking at all night?" Don walked over on crutches and patted me on the shoulder, following my gaze to look out.

"Do you have fireworks here for New Year's Eve?" I asked.

"Are you waiting for the fireworks?" Don shook his head, "Philadelphia doesn't allow fireworks." ”

Is it because I was too greedy, so I made so many wishes for fireworks last year, but none of them came true?

Now, I don't want any of those wishes, I just hope that she will forget me in the time I have lost each other.

08 I owe you goodbye

After the counseling, I walked out of the counseling room.

When I didn't want to come, it was still a sunny sky, but now it's rainy. It reminds me that the weather in Dragon City is often so unpredictable.

I pulled out my phone and prepared to call Don and ask him to bring me an umbrella.

Before the phone could be connected, someone behind him handed me an umbrella.

"You use mine first." Anne smiled and shoved the umbrella into my hand.

During my time in the U.S., I have been receiving counseling, and Anne is an intern at the counseling room and a Chinese student at the medical school where I am currently studying.

"Thank you." I walked out into the rain with my umbrella.

"Lu Li," Anne called to me, "Don said let me go to your house for dinner tonight, and I'll go over after class." ”

I frowned, why does this guy Don always bring people to the house to eat and drink.

But I couldn't refuse directly, so I nodded, "Eat noodles tonight." ”

"No problem, I'll eat whatever you cook. Go back and prepare. Anne waved excitedly at me, turned and hummed back to the office.

Halfway through, I received a call from Don asking me to go to a nearby supermarket to buy ingredients.

Two big men pushing a cart carefully buy ingredients in the fresh food section of the supermarket, even in this open country, still attract the attention of passers-by.

I was a little annoyed by the look, so I handed the car to Don, "I'm going to buy something else and I'll meet at the cashier in ten minutes." ”

I walked to the snack area and familiarly found the White Rabbit toffee on the shelves. Although Ye Zhenzhen is no longer by my side, I can't get rid of the habit of going out with sugar.

Don saw me holding a packet of White Rabbit toffee, smiled and said, "I knew you were going to buy White Rabbit again." ”

I ignored him and pulled out my wallet to settle the bill.

"Who is this girl?" Don asked, pointing to the one-inch photo in my wallet.

I ignored him, picked up the bag and walked out of the supermarket.

On the way home, Don still pestered me about the photo.

"Isn't it the Zhen Zhen you often shout in your dreams? Do you have a crush on her? But this girl looks very average, there are a lot of hot girls in my department, how many will I introduce to you another day? ”

If he hadn't had something in his hands, I would have liked to have taped his mouth.

I glared at him, "If you want to eat at night, shut your mouth now." ”

Seeing that I was a little annoyed, he finally shut up.

But as soon as he entered the house, he couldn't help but say: "I know you have a past that you don't want to mention, but a person's life is so long, since that girl is no longer by your side, why do you have to keep thinking about it, living in her shadow and not wanting to come out?" ”

I didn't expect Don's Chinese level to be so good, and I couldn't find any language problems after saying a lot of words.

Although he said it well, I still disagreed, "You're wrong." She is not my shadow, she has always been my sunshine. ”

After dinner, Anne and Don consciously cleaned up the kitchen, and I sat on the couch to unpack the delivery.

After I joined the University of Pennsylvania as an auditor, my dad went back to China. He called me a while ago, and I casually mentioned that he asked him to find a time to help me fix the mobile phone I used in high school and send it over, but I didn't expect him to remember it in his busy schedule. During the years when I was sick, he gave up his job and stayed with me every step of the way, trying every means to cure me, perhaps to make up for the guilt he felt for me.

Just as I was in a trance, Don suddenly took the phone from my hand and studied it curiously for a while, "What age do you still use this old antique?" What are you doing? ”

"Curiosity can do more things than kill a cat!" I snatched my phone and expressed my displeasure in English.

Don was so angry that I jumped up in the living room and said to Anne, "This kid can curse in English too." Anne, teach me a few words of your Chinese curse, and I'm going to kill him. ”

Anne was amused by Don's last half of the sentence and patted him on the head, "The professors in our department can be so stunned by him that they have nothing to say, I look at you, let's practice for a few more years." ”

Don snorted and sat down on the other side of the couch to play a game.

Anne picked up a toffee from the table, "You're going to buy candy again?" It's so hot, you buy it and don't eat it, most of it is gone, what are you buying it for? ”

"Heal the sick and save people." I got up and prepared to go back to my room.

Anne stopped me, "My mentor said that your treatment is over as of today, you are recovering well, and I hope you can keep it up." ”

"I see."

"It's just that during today's treatment, you haven't answered the question that the professor asked you." Anne looked at me seriously, "What is the thing you have always kept in your heart and regretted the most?" ”

The mobile phone in my hand was clenched unconsciously by me, Ye Zhenzhen's smile appeared in my mind, and there was a clear dull pain in my chest.

At this moment, Don returned from the flea market and suddenly heard a familiar melody on the second-hand radio:

She's gone,

Out of my life. In my life，

There's just an empty space. All my dreams are lost.

(She's gone, far from my life.) In my life, there is only endless emptiness, and all dreams have been obliterated. ）

What I regret the most is that I always owe her a goodbye.