He pointed to me and said, "I am you, you created me, and I am connected to your soul." ”

I was a little confused by his words, "What are you talking nonsense?" What the fuck soul connection, you're not me at all. ”

"I'm you, even if you don't admit it, it's useless, this is a fact, I know that you blame yourself very much, because of the death of your comrade-in-arms, you blame yourself very much, right?" I said in the mirror in a very pitiful tone.

But as soon as he said this, I was immediately stunned, "How do you know Lu Dao?" Who are you? Who the fuck are you? "I feel like I'm going crazy, I'm actually talking to myself in the mirror, can I really have schizophrenia?

"I said, I am you, I remember very clearly, that year you went together to carry out a special task, but there was a sudden change in the middle, things did not go according to the original plan, the leader asked you to go back, but you in order to be able to complete this task, in order to receive awards for meritorious service, you simply disobeyed the order, but not only did the task not be completed, you also indirectly killed your comrades-in-arms, if it weren't for your radical thinking, how could he have died, it was you who killed him, it was you who killed this young life." He stretched out his hand and pointed at me, and said with a vicious expression, the voice was exactly the same as mine, but I didn't dare to look at him directly, especially his eyes, which always made me feel frightened.

I shook my head slowly, took a few steps back, and said with a sad face, "No, I didn't kill him, it's not me, it's not me. I yelled at him at the last moment, and my heart was beating wildly, and the pain was surging like a tide, and the scars in my heart were once again revealed.

I had a picture in my mind, it was my last secret mission, if I succeeded, I would be promoted to an officer, everything was carried out according to the plan, but when we were on the mission, we suddenly received an order from our superiors, things changed, for the sake of safety, the superiors decided to cancel the operation plan, and prepare to act after the new plan.

When I learned the truth after the change of things, my first thought was to find a way to solve this problem by myself, I really didn't work hard, I didn't believe that I couldn't take this task, at that time, I can be said to be very confident and inflated, and it can even be said that I was very conceited, never put anything in my eyes, in my opinion, there is no task that I can't complete, which is also my biggest mistake at that time.

At that time, I was thinking, since everyone has come, I can't return in vain, it seems that the victory has overwhelmed my mind, and at the same time, in order to be promoted to an officer, I left everything behind, at that time my military quality, was at its peak, much stronger than now, now I can't imagine it at all, I didn't take the problem in front of me seriously at all.

In this way, I did not listen to the orders of my superiors, and privately took my comrades to carry out the operation, at that time, he was actually opposed, the soldier has always been obedient to orders as his duty, but he could not bear to see me go alone, for my safety, he agreed to go with me.

I rushed into the enemy's camp with him, I thought we could win a big victory, but I reacted later, we were actually plotted, dozens of people besieged us with guns, we became a trapped beast fight, there was no way to retreat, my comrades-in-arms were in order to protect me, and the last tragic death was in the enemy's camp.

I didn't even bring his body back, a person like a lost dog, hurriedly fled back to the army, because of this incident, I was also severely punished, the most was ordered to recover in advance, this has always been a pain in my heart, I have never told anyone, how many years, I have been pressing it in my heart, bearing this pain alone, many times I get drunk, I will cry, to vent the pain in my heart, this is the pain of my life, I can never make up for the mistake...

"It's you, it's you who killed your comrade-in-arms, don't you admit it? If you hadn't gone your own way, how would he have died? Have you forgotten? He was beaten like a sieve, and you watched him die in your arms," he glared at me with an evil look in his eyes as if he was about to kill me.

"That's right, it was you who killed him, you killed your comrades-in-arms, you are a sinner, you are a sinner through the ages." At this time, the image in the ice mirror on my left side was actually resurrected, and he also stretched out his hand to accuse me, still with that fierce expression, as if he wished I would die immediately.

"Oh my God, you... Who are you? ”

I was completely dumbfounded, even at a loss for what to do, the two selves in the ice mirror were actually attacking me at the same time, they knew everything about me, they could see through the fear in my heart, and even they knew what I was thinking, it was simply terrible.

"I'm you, too, hehe... Ha Lu Ha. "In the mirror on the left, I smiled evilly, and my eyes, which were originally normal, became like a wolf, emitting a green light.

"No, you're not me, you're not me, you're not me."

I stretched out my hand and pointed at them, my mind blank, what the hell was going on, why did it come to this, who were they? Could it really be me? But why am I talking to myself, am I already dead, or is it all my hallucination, I'm schizophrenic? Am I a madman? I don't know the way, I really don't know the way, I even forgot to be afraid, I forgot where I came from.

"We are all you, we are the world in your heart, we saw the situation at that time, you ran back alone in order to survive, but left your comrade-in-arms there alone, he died very unjustly, if it weren't for your selfishness, how could he die, and you, but you still live shamelessly in this world, you are a selfish, an ungrateful villain."

The two of them stretched out their hands to accuse me at the same time, the voice was like a spell into my heart, stimulating every nerve in me, I couldn't resist this powerful sense of oppression, the pain in my heart became more and more intense, I remembered the temporary death of my comrade-in-arms, his helpless eyes made me sad, if I hadn't been so impulsive back then, he wouldn't have died, in the final analysis, this is indeed my responsibility.

"No... No, I didn't mean it, I didn't mean it, I really didn't know that Lu Dao would be like this, I really didn't know Lu Dao, if I had known that Lu Dao would die, I would never have done that, I definitely wouldn't. ”

After I yelled, I knelt directly on the ground, I kept shaking my head and crying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I really don't want to kill him, I really don't want to, so many years have passed, I have been living in self-blame, I regret it, I really regret it." ”

I held the ground with my hands, tears flowed down, the grief that had been pressed in my heart began to burst out in full force, that feeling, no one can understand, I personally sent my comrade to the guillotine, if it weren't for me, he really wouldn't die, I killed him, I killed him with my own hands.

Every time I think back to what happened at that time, my heart is like a knife, he is my brother, we went from a recruit to a veteran, he was about to get married, but for me, for my useless vanity, he lost his precious life.

I cried bitterly, tears and snot, and kept saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, it's all my fault." ”

"What's the use of you apologizing, this person is already dead, can he be resurrected if he apologizes? If you are still a man, if you still have a little conscience, you should pay for everything you have done, and you should be punished as you deserve. "The self in front of me said coldly, it was obviously my own image, but why would I feel so strange and frightened, I was afraid of the image in the ice mirror, and I was even more afraid of his evil and sinister eyes.

"Yes, you deserve it... You deserve it... You deserve to be punished, to be punished..."

At this moment, I saw all the images in the ice mirror around me, all of them were accusing me, they were all my images, but they all pointed at me, and viciously said that I deserved it, that I should be punished, as if everyone hated me, and it could be seen from their disgusted expressions and contemptuous eyes that they hated me to the bone, as if we were enemies of the world.

"You're right, I deserve to be punished, what do you want me to do? What do you say? ”

I slowly raised my head, knelt on the ground and looked at my own images around me, they were all standing, looking at me condescendingly, that look in their eyes seemed to be full of hatred, for so many years, it turned out that I had been hating myself again, but I didn't dare to admit it, now it's okay, the knot in my heart can be untied.

"Only death can wash away your sins, kill yourself, this is the only way you can atone for your sins." The image in front of me was spoken word by word, and there was an imperceptible evil smile on the corner of his mouth.

"Yes, you kill yourself, if you die, you will be liberated, and if you die, you will be a hundred, and you will no longer have to bear this inner torment." The influence on the right side also said with a wicked smile, and at the same time put his hand across his neck, making a suicidal gesture.

"Suicide?" I said it in a humble way, and my heart was struggling with the worst of it, am I going to die like this? Is it only when I die that I can be washed away from this sin?

"Yes, kill yourself, do it, don't hesitate, as long as you die, your comrades-in-arms will definitely forgive you, and you can reunite below, what a beautiful thing this is, hahaha"

"You die, die quickly, you will be liberated when you die, and you will no longer have any troubles." All the images around me were laughing 'hehe', and the laughter echoed throughout the space as if it was mocking me again.