It was the drizzly Qingming season again, I held an umbrella in one hand, a small leaf in the other, and a bag containing flowers and paper, walked on the muddy path, and came early to my aunt's grave in front of a small hillside on the outskirts of G County.

Seeing the small grave covered with all kinds of weeds, I couldn't help but feel sad in my heart.

My aunt is my dearest and dearest person in the world.

When I was five years old, my parents died, and I felt so young that I couldn't remember them at all. For as long as I can remember, I've lived with my aunt.

My aunt has always loved me, never scolded me, never hit me, and let me eat and use all the good things in the house, as long as I put forward a request, she always satisfied.

For me, my aunt is my parents, she supported me in a small world alone, and gave me all the fatherly and maternal love alone, so that my heart never felt lonely and sad.

This was the case until my aunt died of a serious illness, and I was seventeen years old.

I slowly set the leaves aside and let her stand with an umbrella on her own, and then carefully arranged the bunch of gardenias in the bag in front of the grave.

I slowly squatted down, reached out and gently stroked the photo of my aunt engraved on the tombstone, the appearance of my aunt in the photo is exactly the same as when she was alive, the only difference is that she always has a shallow smile in the photo, and my impression of my aunt is rare to have a smiling face.

Yes, today is Qingming, and my aunt naturally wants to be happy. Every year, there are only a few days when my aunt has a rare smile on her face, and Qingming is one of them.

I forced a smile to answer my aunt's smile: "Auntie, do you think this flower is fragrant?" This is your favorite gardenia, and it's rare to have one this season. ”

Indeed, although gardenia leaves are evergreen in all seasons, the flowering period of gardenias is only from May to July every year, and there are relatively few people in flower shops who buy gardenias, especially when they are out of season.

But the people in this world are so smart, as long as you want, as long as you have money, no matter how difficult things are, they can always find a way to get them for you. Since the year my aunt died, I have signed a long-term contract with a flower planting base, and they will provide me with a bouquet of blooming gardenias at a high price every year on Qingming Festival, the 13th day of the seventh lunar month and the winter solstice.

It's good to be rich!

I sighed as I burned the paper.

There are too many people in this world who take money too seriously, and the so-called people die for money, and birds die for food, which seems to be people's eternal pursuit.

It had been raining for several days, but now it had completely stopped, and the sun in the sky was completely light, and I was pleasantly surprised.

I turned around and beckoned to Xiao Yezi, who was standing not far away: "Xiao Yezi, put down the umbrella, come and burn some paper money for your aunt, she will bless you with healthy growth." ”

Xiao Yezi listened to me very much, immediately put down the umbrella, slowly walked to my side and squatted, and then took a stack of paper money from my hand, followed my example, and burned them one by one.

It's just that although her movements are not slow, she still hasn't said a word during the whole process, and there is no expression on her face.

But I'm already very happy for her to see her like this, at least she will do what I say she will do right away, no more than when I met her in the orphanage a year ago, she would only be completely immersed in her own world.

"Auntie, Ye Zi and Xiao Ye Zi came to burn paper money for you together, are you doing well over there?"

At that point, my nose was sour.

How can my aunt live well alone in that cold world?

She still has worries, worries, and unwillingness, how can she live well?

If my aunt could speak, even if she answered with a "yes", I knew she was just comforting me.

I sniffed and continued to chatter: "Auntie, I'm doing well, don't worry." Xiao Ai is also doing well, I saw her a few days ago, but she didn't see me, no, she should have seen me too, but she just didn't know me. She's still so beautiful, but she's a little willful, but it's normal for a rich lady to have a little temper, so my aunt doesn't have to worry. ”

I know that Xiao Ai is my aunt's biggest concern in this world, in order to know more about Xiao Ai, so as to tell my aunt that I have thought of many ways to get close to her, but her life circle is too different from mine, I really can't squeeze in, so I have to pick a time every once in a while to go to the place where she often appears to touch her, and also find a way to pay more attention to some things about her.

"Auntie, you must bless Xiao Ai with a good life." Speaking of which, I smiled wryly.

If there is really a so-called "spirit in the sky", my aunt and uncle will not be so miserable for half a lifetime, as long as they go to the graves of their ancestors to burn more paper money, and knock a few more times?

If I could, I would also kowtow to my grandparents a few more times, so that they could help me keep Brother Song, so that he would not have the idea of flying out of G County, and just accompany me quietly and plainly to the end of my life in G County.

Songge ......

I don't know how he's doing now, I don't know if he has realized his so-called willingness to be an upper-class society, and I don't know if he still has a little place for me in his heart, will he occasionally turn me out of his heart and read it?

Or maybe he has already left me behind, and has met a woman he loves, and has created a warm home for this woman, and maybe a lovely child, and a family of three is enjoying family fun.

It's not impossible, you must know that he has been away from G County for so many years, and with his intelligence and drive, he will definitely be able to work hard to create his own career.

Alas......

I couldn't help but sigh again, looking at Xiao Yezi, who was squatting on the side and burning paper money seriously, still not saying a word, I felt indescribable sadness in my heart.

The reason why I took her in was because I felt that she was as pitiful as I was when I was a child, without a father or mother, but I still had my aunt's love, but Xiao Yezi couldn't get anyone's love, so I named her Xiao Yezi and took her with me.

Of course, there is another reason, I was pregnant once in my junior year, but because I was young and didn't know how to regulate, I miscarried when the child was four months old.

That child, of course, is Tao Baisong's, he is the only man I have ever loved in my life, the only man I have given my body and mind, and the only man who has made me unforgettable.

After all these years, I still remember the first time I spoke to him.

At that time, I was in the second year of junior high school, and he was in the third year of junior high school.

In order to squeeze out more time to study, since the second year of junior high school, I didn't go home to eat at noon, and I just had a meal in the school cafeteria.

In fact, my aunt still gives me a lot of pocket money every day, especially for Chinese food, my aunt always said to let me go out to fry a dish to eat, but I always think that it is a little far away from the school, and I don't want to waste this time, I am not a picky eater, so although the food in the canteen is not very delicious, I can accept it.

There are a lot of people who eat in the cafeteria at noon, and I will come a little later every time, and when my classmates have eaten almost enough, I will come again, so that I will not have to queue up to get food. Then I would sit in the far corner, and sometimes I would take a book with me to eat and read.

At that time, I noticed a tall, thin boy who, like me, liked to come late and like to sit in this corner for dinner.

The reason why I am curious about him is that he eats three hard steamed buns with pickles every time, and every time he eats them quickly, with a relishful look, which makes me a little incomprehensible, because I always feel that bland steamed buns are the most unpalatable things in the world.

Later, he seemed to find out that I always looked at him, and he became shy, and he no longer gobbled up steamed buns like that.

Then one day, I suddenly found that his lunch had changed from three steamed buns to two steamed buns!

So I quietly inquired about his situation, only to find out that his family conditions were very bad, his parents died early, and he lived with his uncle, who had many children in his family, if it weren't for his good grades and many home visits from teachers, his uncle would have dropped him out of school a long time ago.

It is said that his tuition school is all free, but there is no way to live in the school, his uncle only gives him a small amount of living expenses, and occasionally the teacher will help him a little, and he himself will go out to do some small work, but for him who is growing up, what is it to eat a few steamed buns at a meal? But I can't even eat steamed buns.

At that time, when I inquired about these situations, I didn't know why, and I felt very distressed.

At noon that day, I went to the same place where I usually sat after class, and I didn't go to cook, but just sat and waited for him to arrive.

When there were more than half of the students in the cafeteria, I saw Tao Baisong, who was wearing a yellowed undershirt, walking quickly to the window of the cafeteria, buying two steamed buns that had been sold in the morning from the cafeteria, and then sitting down not far from me, and taking out a glass jar from a small cloth bag, which I knew was the pickles he had brought from home.

Seeing that he was about to eat, I gently shouted at him, "Hey! ”

Although I knew his name was Tao Baisong, and I had practiced calling his name many times in my mind, I still couldn't call his name when I saw him.

He seemed to be a little surprised, looked left and right, and there was indeed no one on the left and right, and then looked at me suspiciously, pointed to himself and asked unconvincedly, "Call me?" ”

"Hmm." I nodded hurriedly, pointed to my pretending uncomfortable leg, and asked him in a low voice, "Classmate, can you buy me two meals?" I had a leg problem, and the doctor told me to walk less. ”

It's rare for me to lie, the first time I lied to a boy, and when I said it, my face was already red to my neck.