Chapter 59: Can Love and Can't Love

"I often blamed myself for having given me such a good child, but for him to suffer such a mistake for his parents. So later, I chose to be negative, neither saying that I would forgive Shang Yuchen's father, nor filing for divorce. Yu Chen may think that I have taken care of everyone by doing this, but I am very wronged, so in the initial period, his attitude towards his father was quite cold. And his father tried his best to save his son's feelings for him, so he was careful in everything, and it can even be said that he was currying favor with his son in a low voice. So, after a while, the relationship between Yuchen and his father began to be harmonious again. However, there is no going back between me and Yuchen's father. ”

His mother's expression slowly became indifferent: "Broken mirror reunion? What is round will only be form. Once an intimate relationship is broken, it is impossible to repair it again, because the wound of the human heart can never be stitched up. In the years that followed, Shang Yuchen's father and I have drifted apart and can never go back to the past. ”

"After experiencing emotional betrayal, I slowly learned to live stronger and more freely. Yu Chen also realized the separation between me and his father, although he never said anything, but I knew that he was very eager in his heart for our family to go back to the old days, how happy and happy he was at that time! ”

"But in the end, I still handed Yu Chen over to someone to take care of, and this person is Shang Jiacheng, the good friend I told you. After all, Mr. Shang Yuchen has always taken care of him in his childhood, and he can also give him a better life. ”

His mother's demeanor had regained her composure. Inside the large floor-to-ceiling glass windows, sunlight softly shone in and spread all over the floor.

Only then did Shen Linxi know that Shang Yuchen was not Uncle Shang's biological son.

She turned her gaze to Shen Linxi's face, and when she saw Linxi's face moved, she smiled lightly. She said: "Linxi, this past incident is almost dusty. When you see me now, you can't guess that I have had such a painful experience, right? ”

Shen Linxi shook her head: "Auntie, you are intellectual, elegant, funny, and full of charm. I don't think anyone would have thought that you would have such a sad past. But, Auntie, I'm sorry, because I'm here, and I've aroused your sadness. ”

Shang Yuchen's mother said gently: "Linxi, you don't need to feel sorry, because today, I was going to talk to you about this matter." ”

"Huh?" Shen Linxi was stunned, why did Shang Yuchen's mother tell her about the privacy of her pain?

"Linxi, the man we saw on Saturday is Yuchen's biological father. I think you should have guessed it, but my heart was full of doubts, why was Shang Yuchen so angry, while I was relatively calmer? Now, you should get the idea, right?

Yu Chen's illusion of longing for family harmony was shattered again, so it was difficult for him to accept it, but I was able to face it calmly, perhaps because there was no love. However, there is a more important reason why I told you about this past, and it was because of Shang Yuchen. ”

Shen Linxi looked at her puzzled, while she said with a smile: "Actually, after that incident, I was worried for a long time that the matter between me and Shang Yuchen's father would have a negative impact on my son, making him distrust his marriage, and even resist.

However, what makes me very happy is that Yu Chen has always loved life very much, he has lived his life very well, and he does not reject girls. ”

"As for whether he's ever dated a girl before, I don't know, because he hasn't talked to me about it. And you're the first girl he mentioned to me.

He said that when he met you for the first time at Mr. Shang's house, even though he was resistant to your identity at that time, he had a special feeling in his heart, and he also said that you organized disaster relief performances and charity sales, and that you went to Lijiang to shoot brochures. He is now applying to go to school in the United States, and he is going to marry you as soon as he graduates, and then, he is going to take you to the United States to study. ”

After Shang Yuchen's mother finished speaking in one breath, her eyebrows and eyes were smiling: "My son, who has a very high vision, is so anxious to get married, which makes me very surprised and curious." Some time ago, I really wanted to see you, but at that time, there was something in the group, and I couldn't spare time. ”

As soon as Shen Linxi heard her say this, she said embarrassedly: "Auntie, Shang Yuchen is joking, don't take it seriously." ”

Shang Yuchen's mother shook her head slowly: "Linxi, Yuchen usually likes to joke, but I think he is very serious about this matter, you won't laugh it off, right?" ”

Lin Xi listened to her words quite intriguing, so she couldn't help pursing her lips and looked at her with inquiring eyes.

Shang Yuchen's mother smiled and said, "Don't be careful, I'm just worried that Yuchen is sometimes too serious and will scare you." ”

Shen Linxi asked puzzledly, "Auntie, I don't quite understand what you mean." It doesn't matter, whatever you want to say, just say it, there is no need to have any scruples. ”

So, she nodded and said calmly: "Linxi, Yuchen came over last night, and he talked to me for a long night with a heavy heart. It seems that the matter between me and his father still left a shadow in his heart. What I didn't expect, though, was that he had focused all his resentment on the female lawyer.

He thought it was the woman who had ruined my parents' relationship, almost lost me, and almost divorced my father. ”

Shen Linxi couldn't help frowning slightly. When Shang Yuchen's mother saw her like this, she immediately said: "Linxi, Yuchen also said yesterday that some time ago, when he heard that you were going to choose a lawyer as your future career, he remembered the painful past many years ago, so he said that his mood at that time was extremely complicated and uncomfortable, and you also had a lot of conflicts because of this. ”

"But Yu Chen also told me that for your sake, he will definitely defeat the knot of the past. Linxi, please understand him, he was still a child of more than ten years old back then, and that experience would inevitably leave some shadows in his heart.

And what hit him again was that the day before yesterday he witnessed his father with other women. His father, whom he admired and loved very much since he was a child, once again disappointed him so much. Therefore, the day before yesterday, Yuchen was very sad and angry. ”

"After you left, I persuaded him for a long time, telling him that in fact, the love between parents has disappeared, but I estimate that Yu Chen still can't let go of it for a while. Yesterday afternoon, he went to look for you with such mixed feelings, only to see you with a man who had given you a valuable gift, so he inevitably had bad associations. ”

Speaking of this, Shang Yuchen's mother stopped and looked at Shen Linxi expectantly.

But Shen Linxi's heart swelled with a complicated emotion. She can somehow understand some of Shang Yuchen's mental journey from childhood to adulthood, the depth of love, the depth of hate, the extreme disappointment, the depth of resentment, and the number of pains, all kinds of things, this may be what Shang Yuchen told her that day, the root of a tightly closed window in his heart, and Shang Yuchen must have borne much heavier than she could imagine.

But will his inner trauma keep him from looking at her profession objectively, and will he be suspicious and lack trust in her at every turn? Will her relationship with Shang Yuchen be full of ups and downs because of this? A series of questions jumped into Shen Linxi's mind. However, she still needs to explain her relationship with He Tianling.

So, Shen Linxi looked at Shang Yuchen's mother with clear eyes and said, "Auntie, thank you for telling me so much. I have to explain to you about yesterday. The client was a friend of the director of my law firm, and now the director has asked me to temporarily follow up on his firm's legal business.

That customer, his family was poor when he was young, so he didn't go to university, he went to Shenzhen to work at the age of eighteen, and later started a business, and now he is coming to Guangzhou to expand his business. Because he has always had a strong college complex, he asked me to accompany him on a tour of my school. ”

"As for the gifts he gave me, I don't want to speculate on his intentions, but I would rather think that he can make his career bigger, and he must not be a stingy person, and these gifts are just an expression of gratitude to him.

The profession I plan to engage in in the future is also decided, and I will definitely meet a lot of rich customers, but I can't speculate about the intentions of customers just because they have money and give me gifts, otherwise I may not even be able to carry out my normal work. Moreover, I also told Shang Yuchen yesterday that I would return the gift to that customer. ”

Shang Yuchen's mother listened to Shen Linxi's sincere and frank words, and the look on her face was obviously much more relaxed. She nodded and said, "Yuchen misunderstood you, you're angry, right?" However, Linxi is really concerned about chaos, and Yuchen has never been so distressed because of emotional problems.

He told me that because he cares about you too much, sometimes he is very irrational, impulsive and emotional. However, I believe that when he has more life experience in the future, he will slowly mature. ”

However, Shen Linxi's mood was not easy, and she asked Shang Yuchen's mother with some confusion: "Auntie, I have a question, but it may be difficult for you to answer." His mother shook her head with a smile and motioned for Shen Linxi to continue.

Linxi pondered for a moment and asked, "You and your uncle must have loved each other very much back then, so you chose to stay in Guangzhou and be with him." But why did it ...... end" Shen Linxi was embarrassed to continue, and at the same time she looked at Shang Yuchen's mother apologetically.

She was not surprised by this question, she looked out the window, was silent for a while, and then said with a slightly nostalgic tone: "Yes, the world is unpredictable, and the heart and heart were once stronger than gold, but they have come to the current water and are strange.

I resented Yuchen's father's infidelity and betrayal of love and marriage many times, but after that, I also began to think about whether there was a reason for my own failure in marriage. After thinking about it for a long time, in the end, I have to admit that in fact, the initiator of this unhappy marriage is more likely to be me than Shang Yuchen's father. ”

His mother looked at Shen Linxi's slightly raised brows, with a somewhat confused expression, and she couldn't help sighing: "Many things seem to be only known where they are wrong if they pay a painful price." Love is actually very fragile, if you don't nurture it carefully, it will inevitably slowly deteriorate in your ordinary life, and finally lose its original appearance.

Therefore, both husband and wife need to use wisdom to manage love and marriage, but such wisdom requires a lot of life experience and personal natural endowment to have. ”

"A lot of people can love, but they can't. Just like me, in marriage, I didn't take my responsibilities, I only thought about doing my job well, and when I returned home, I did more housework, but I didn't enter the world of father and son spiritually, so I gradually became emotionally estranged. There has been a gap in the relationship, and I don't know how to make up for it, so it's no wonder that someone will take advantage of the loophole. ”

Shen Linxi looked at Shang Yuchen's mother noncommittally and said, "You may not have done a good job in maintaining your relationship and managing your marriage, but this doesn't mean that your uncle has the right to betray your marriage and family?" ”

Shang Yuchen's mother sighed: "People's feelings are inherently complicated, and love is even more so. Sometimes it's hard to tell who's right and who's wrong, but in short, I'm too negligent and don't put enough emotion and effort into this family. Linxi, in fact, I have always been ashamed of Yuchen in my heart, other children can always be happy with their parents, but these are extravagant hopes for him. He must have wished that his parents would be with him often, but I ignored that. ”

"When I realized this, Shang Yuchen had grown up, and of course, we still couldn't give him a loving home for his parents. Therefore, he must be very eager for him, his wife, and children to love each other and be happy in his future family. I think this is what Shang Yuchen wants to give you, and I also want you to give him. ”

When Shen Linxi heard this, he felt that his heart was sour, and there was an indescribable feeling. One afternoon, she was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of information she received.