People in the world often say that ten sheep and nine are not complete, and only one sits in front of the temple.

This phrase comes from the folk, which means that nine out of ten sheep people have a bad life, either a father or a young mother, or a widow and a childless, lonely and widowed, and only one of them can be rich and noble, sitting on the world, and enjoying continuous happiness.

The saying comes from the late Qing Dynasty, because Cixi is a sheep and holds great power, the people say that her genus is wrong for the country, so this extreme and completely unscientific basis came out -

'Sheep Fatalism'

Especially the sheep girl born in winter, because she has no grass to eat, but also has an empty mother's family, when she was young, after the eldest Kefu, 'alone in the empty house', it can be said that the fate is bitter, the future is bleak, the daughter of the sheep is destined to be clouded almost from the moment of birth.

And the origin of the story is that I belong to the sheep.

Wax Moon Female Sheep.

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My name is Zhu Jingwei, I was born in 1991 in Layue, and before I could learn to speak, my family sent me to live with my grandmother in a small town called Mohe.

Let's first introduce the eldest grandmother, who has no children and runs a wreath shroud paper shop in the town.

Everyone who understands knows that the paper shroud shop pays a lot of attention to it, the business of the dead, not everyone can do it, the shopkeeper usually fiddles with some yin and yang Taoism, and the same is true for the grandmother, her other identity is Mr., ugly point is called the goddess, black, white and red things, weddings and funerals, and the house is ......

There's nothing she can't figure out.

The people in the town are both respectful and afraid of the grandmother, and respect is naturally the grandmother's magical ability.

Afraid, it is mostly because of the appearance of the grandmother, she is thin and small, has a hooked nose, her eyes are sharp and abnormal, and the silver white hair is always meticulously tied behind her head, plus she is used to wearing a pure black Chinese-style cardigan, and it is inevitable that she will look too serious when she is not smiling, which makes people afraid.

In terms of blood relationship, my grandmother is just my grandmother's cousin, my father calls her aunt, and her blood relationship with me is even more minimal, but to me, she is as concerned as her own granddaughter.

She said to me, 'All dharmas arise from causes.'

Fate is such a thing, I can't see it, I can't touch it, I can't guess it, but it's predestined, since I can come to her, it's her dearest, her favorite.

If my father hadn't come to see me when I was eight years old, I would have always thought that I was my granddaughter.

It was also because of my father's unexpected visit that I learned that my family was afraid of being restrained by us before sending me out.

Of course, the most important thing is that I have more fingers, which are six fingers in the vernacular.

According to folk legends, the six fingers are hard, and my extra finger is born at the joint of the thumb, like a small branch, eye-catching expenditure, weird and dazzling.

Genus plus wax month plus six fingers plus gender -

The 'Sheep Destiny Theory' is so vaguely sitting on top of my head!

My grandmother said that I was too angry and couldn't stay with my parents in my childhood, otherwise I would make myself and my family suffer in vain, and my fate was eight.

After eight years, I can return home after twenty-eight, and I can return to my own home after I am sixteen years old and grow up safely.

I didn't want to go back, and my grandmother asked me why? I only said that I was reluctant to her, but this is only part of the reason, and more importantly, it is my strangeness to the home in Harbin City.

Over the years, I have only seen my father come to see my grandmother, and I know that I have a brother who is three years younger than me at home, including my mother, grandmother, and aunt...... I don't know if these people will accept me.

In Mohe, the eldest grandmother regarded me as the jewel in the palm of her hand, everyone knew that I was the Jingwei of the fairy woman's family, with her, no one dared to bully or snub me, but back to that strange home...... How do I know if they will love me and love me as much as my grandmother?

Too much unpredictability!

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At the age of sixteen, my grandmother said that Double Eight had passed, and asked me to pack up my things so that she could send me back to Harbin City to study, and said that it was a big city, with high-rise buildings, bustling and noisy, and my family even found a school for me.

I didn't agree, so I opened my mouth and listed a bunch of my father's nos, "Grandma, they don't want me to go back at all!" ”

"Nonsense!"

The eldest grandmother is rarely angry with me, "That's your father, can he miss you, and your mother, your milk, your ......"

"You just said that the fourth uncle and grandfather are coming, and I won't go back!"

I stomped my feet, grandma's paper shop is a two-story building, the first floor is used to meet customers as a store, my grandmother and I live on the second floor, the furniture of the house is a little creaky when it grows old, and the floor is fanned off by me so stepping on the wall!

"Best wishes! You don't raise the bar with me, where did you come from! ”

The eldest grandmother was angry enough with me, and in the end, she could only persuade me bitterly, "Jingwei, I know that you have grown up, then you should be more sensible, didn't your grandmother tell you, your mother wants to take her younger brother, your grandfather passed away early, and your grandmother is also old, so it is inconvenient to come to see you...... Besides, what's so good about our town, Harbin is a big city, where did you go......"

"Not uncommon!"

I scrambled my neck, raised my right hand and rushed to the grandmother, "Grandma, you say, I'm like this...... Will they accept me when they go back! ”

"What?"

The eldest grandmother was stunned, "Your father said he dislikes your hand?" ”

"He ......"

I lowered my eyes, "He didn't say, but that was the expression...... He didn't want to hold my hand when he came to see me......"

For hands, I have low self-esteem.

I started school late, and when I first started school, I was chased by a group of children who were a year or two younger than me and asked me why my right hand looked like a chicken claw or a crab claw......

Hearing this, I went home and cried, although my grandmother later went to the school to find a teacher, and my classmates didn't dare to talk about my hand anymore, but at school, I have always written with my left hand, and I would rather be left-handed than someone pay too much attention to my right hand.

"You kid, you think too much."

The grandmother sighed, "What did I tell you before?" Jingwei is a kind of bird, the sacred bird of reclamation, the reason why I named you Jingwei is because my little Jingwei is also a divine bird! As long as you have indomitable willpower, you will become a phoenix in the future!! ”

I didn't say a word, and listened sullenly as the eldest grandmother continued, "Jingwei! Your hand is proof, the extra fingers are very smart, and it is more than the average child has the proof of wisdom to know no! You are not only a phoenix, but also a Vermilion Bird Star Monarch who is even more noble than a phoenix! It's an immortal bird that will be reborn after Nirvana!! ”

"Grandma, I'm in the third year of junior high school in the fall, and I've learned all ......"

I muttered with a bitter face, "Jingwei and Suzaku are two different things...... Suzaku and Phoenix are still two different things...... Why do you keep mixing together, and now even the immortal birds of the West have come out...... Can really combine Chinese and Western......"

I've heard this rhetoric since I was a child!

When I was a child, I was brainwashed and fooled by my grandmother, and I really felt amazing, but now I listen to it a lot and I am numb.

Besides, except that I am more courageous than ordinary children, and my body is worse than ordinary children, I have not found anything outstanding at all!

At the age of sixteen, I understand what a white lie is, you can't become a superman by wearing your underwear outside!

Isn't the eldest grandmother making up a set of saying that she is a red bird and a phoenix, just because she is afraid that I will have inferiority on my six fingers, I know it!

"Although the Tao is different, they are all unified!"

The eldest grandmother was so frightened by me that she began to burst into me like a machine gun, "I said one yard is one yard!" On the night you were born, there were stars in your life, Jingjuku, the south gate of the sky, the head of the Suzaku bird! You're going to be a big deal in the future, you know! ”