Zhou Meng continued to narrate: "When I got home, before I entered the door, I heard my dad say to my mother, 'You gave Xiaomeng this month's medicine money to buy a dress, why didn't you say hello to me?' My mother sighed and said, 'Girls, you have to have one or two beautiful clothes.' My dad also sighed and said, "But you can't stop taking medicine, so let's take some money from the money I saved for Xiaoyu to go to college...... Alas, I also have no skills, and I can't make a lot of money. ”

When Zhou Meng said this, a trace of sadness appeared in her eyes. Shen Linxi's eyes suddenly moistened, and she remembered that Zhou Meng's father had passed away. At this time, she must have felt very sad in her heart.

She didn't shed tears, she just said quietly, "You don't know, when I heard what they said outside the door, I clung to the skirt on my body, and I wanted to tear it apart."

Why am I so unproductive that I have to have this dress? It's not like I can't live without it. It's not that I don't know the situation at home, why do I have to make such a big trouble for my parents, so that my mother doesn't even have the money to buy medicine. You've never been short of money, have you? So, you won't understand the shame in my heart at that moment.

I secretly swore that I would never embarrass my parents again, that I would be admitted to the best university, and that after graduation, I would earn a lot of money and spend it on my parents. A resolute expression appeared on Zhou Meng's thin cheeks, as if he was still secretly making up his mind for the oath of the day.

Shen Linxi heard the sentence "You have never been short of money", her heart tightened suddenly, when she was eight years old, they went to the north, they were not familiar with the place, and her identity changed from a rich lady to a poor orphan girl overnight, and the days of counting the fees the night before school lasted for a long time.

Zhou Meng continued: "Since then, I have hardly bought a new dress. I used all my money to buy all kinds of study materials, and I studied hard. Perhaps only in studying can I get real happiness, because only after every test result comes out, can I get inner satisfaction, and I can face the beautiful clothes on other girls, and all kinds of snacks in their hands without inexplicable shame.

When I got my college acceptance letter, my heart was about to pop out, and my parents nodded excitedly, and all that was left was crying. This letter of acceptance seemed to wash away all the poverty at once, and my parents became the objects of envy and envy of the neighbors.

But in the evening, they were still holding a few passbooks and using a calculator to calculate my tuition fees, taking into account all the money they might save in the next few months. But you must not have bothered about your tuition. ”

Hearing her last words, Shen Linxi lowered her head and shook her head slightly, but Zhou Meng didn't notice it.

"I don't know how my parents managed to pay for my tuition. When I registered, I came alone because I didn't want them to spend any more money on train tickets and accommodation in Beijing. When I stepped through the doors of this prestigious school, I was determined that I would be the best student I could be, no matter how hard I put in!

However, wishes are always good, but the reality has forced me to wake up. In a small county, I may be the best, but in this university, a university that gathers the country's elites, there are so many excellent people that people are overwhelmed.

Actually, in all fairness, I met you very well, everyone helped each other, got along harmoniously, and had a good relationship. But, you know what? Your presence is there to strike at others. I've found that no matter how hard I try, I can't surpass you.

You are always envied and jealous, but you are always so concerned about people, and it is difficult for people to be dissatisfied with you. However, I slowly accepted this reality, after all, everyone has his own reason for being. Zhou Meng quietly looked at the ceiling of the ward and said expressionlessly, as if what she was talking about had nothing to do with her.

Suddenly, she pursed her lips, as if she was restraining the undulating waves in her heart. She closed her eyes, and after a moment, they opened them again, misty and with extremely mixed emotions.

She said depressedly: "However, you are always like this, going around to show your charm and make boys like you and chase you." It's not enough, you have to provoke him. What a good man he is, and the people around him admire him and love him, but I hurt him, and it's all because of you. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have hurt him!

I have done such a great wrong thing to him, how can he forgive me? But how selfless and merciful you are, and you help me to intercede with him, so that he can see how great and good you are, and how hateful and despicable I am. You are an angel of love, and I am a criminal who stabbed him with a knife! ”

Zhou Meng's mood began to fluctuate, and her lips trembled.

Shen Linxi was a little uneasy, she didn't expect Zhou Meng to have such a deep prejudice against her, and she was still accusing her of provoking He Tianling. Even, she helped Zhou Meng to intercede with He Tianling, but it became a mistake.

Shen Linxi almost stood up angrily and turned to leave, because she couldn't bear this kind of arbitrary accusation. However, when she saw Zhou Meng's increasingly painful expression, her heart softened again.

She suppressed the anger in her heart and said as calmly as possible: "There is nothing between Mr. He and me. I don't know why you hurt him, and he didn't tell me that. As I told you earlier, I just went to visit him, and I didn't ask him for anything, he asked me to tell you not to worry. That's what he intended, and it's not something I can control. ”

Tears rolled in Zhou Meng's eyes, and she said in a hoarse voice, "I can't go see him anymore." I can't even see what happened to him now, and I probably won't see him again. Growing up, I had a lot of dreams, and that's because they couldn't be fulfilled in reality.

But, I told myself, 'Don't be sad, it's not your destiny to be poor and humble, and that's going to change.'" To this end, I worked hard, struggled, and hoped. However, when I finally got through to the prestigious school, I was still the same version of myself, still humble, shabby, small, and incompetent, until I met him.

His family was poor and did not go to college, but he created a kingdom of his own with his own hands. He was a light that illuminated my direction and ignited my faith. ”

Zhou Meng's tearful eyes burst out with a ray of hope, and her appearance returned to the radiant state she had some time ago. Her hands clasped tightly together, her fingers rubbing against each other, slow, delicate, and soft, as if she was reminiscing about a past that she cherished so much.

Suddenly, her hand stopped, her eyes fixed on her own, and suddenly, her eyes lit up with hatred. She pounded her right hand with her left hand, crying, "But why did I hurt him, why? Just because of jealousy, because of narrow-mindedness, do you want to ruin his love? How could I be so cruel, so horrible? ”

Shen Linxi couldn't help but be shocked as she watched Zhou Meng frantically hit her hand. She jumped up from the chair, separated Zhou Meng's two hands with her hands, and dissuaded: "Xiaomeng, don't be like this, stop quickly!" ”

Although Zhou Meng's hand was grabbed, she still cried and said: "I have always flaunted myself as kind and strong, thinking that although I don't have a beautiful appearance, outstanding talent, or a rich family, I have a noble personality and a beautiful heart." However, I now realize that I am so narrow-minded, selfish, and ugly. ”

"Xiao Si talks about love all day long, I feel contempt in my heart, you are a well-known figure in the school, and I am not comfortable, but I still stubbornly think that only I am the most thoughtful and connotative.

Although I was also moved, when my dad had surgery, it was you who comforted me, encouraged me, and gave me back money, but I was still blinded by jealousy, I couldn't bear that the person he liked was you, and I felt that I had been deceived and betrayed. I pointed the knife at him and wounded him. ”

"But, I really didn't want to hurt him, I just didn't want him to like you. I hate that the person he liked was you, so he was desperate to destroy everything. He's such a good man, but I'm so vicious, so mean. How I wish it had never happened, so that at least I could see him and continue to be by his side.

If I could turn back time, I would never hurt him even if I stabbed myself a few times. However, he forgave me, I was so uncomfortable that I really wanted to die, I was so bad, I didn't have the face to see him anymore. ”

Zhou Meng had tears in her eyes, and her expression was sad and painful. Her voice became erect, sometimes rapid, sometimes slow. Her eyes glazed over the ceiling, her mouth as if she were talking to herself. Slowly, she stopped whispering, and gradually, her eyelids closed softly, and her face was pale, solemn and cold......

Shen Linxi held Zhou Meng's hand and couldn't help but let go. She was in a trance and didn't know what happened to Zhou Meng. Suddenly, she remembered that Shang Yuchen's mother had told her about her suicide by drinking medicine, and Shen Linxi jumped up suddenly. She looked at Zhou Meng's motionless body, and a terrible thought flashed in her mind, wouldn't she also look for a short time?

This thought made Shen Linxi panic all of a sudden, and she hurriedly ran out to find the doctor. After the doctor came, he checked Zhou Meng and said that it was not in the way, she was just too tired and sleepy, so she fell into a deep sleep.

After hearing this, she was relieved, and then sat down gently. Looking at Zhou Meng on the hospital bed, the initial anger in her heart had slowly subsided. Who can not have the weakness of human nature? It's just a difference between more and less, light and heavy.

However, Zhou Meng's words just now made Shen Linxi wonder if her existence was really a mistake? If it weren't for her appearance, Yin Yichen might not have experienced so many terrible things, maybe he wouldn't have lost his best brother, maybe he could have gotten the inheritance earlier, maybe he could ...... I won't go far away, and this trip may really be ten years!