Listening to Huang Jiahe's strange emphasis when he called "Miss Lu", I guess he is still angry with me...... It was the first time I noticed him so awkward.

Huang Jiahe became more and more calm, and Cheng Wanli became more and more uncalm. Although Cheng Wanli brags loudly, it doesn't mean that he really dares to do anything. Huang Jiahe will rein in the blade by himself, but it doesn't mean that those anger does not exist.

The only thing Cheng Wanli is not sure about is that he doesn't know how far Huang Jiahe will do for me.

I don't know.

This is a corridor, and although it is a relatively remote corridor, there are still people who pass by and see it. Not many people know me, but there is almost no one who doesn't know Wong. It's blood and fragments, and it's not good for people to see. Cheng Wanli was so frightened that he didn't dare to speak, and Huang Jiahe no longer gave him a chance. Taking the car keys from Xiao Zhang's hand, Huang Jiahe pulled my arm and walked out.

The anger that burst out of Huang Jiahe's body made me panic, I didn't ask where I was going, my body just unconsciously followed his footsteps. Whenever I tried to speak, I felt deeply tired and powerless.

I didn't want Huang Jiahe to hear about my life in a mental hospital, but who would have thought that Cheng Wanli would clean it up. But fortunately, Cheng Wanli didn't know about my condition, and if it broke out, I really didn't know how to explain it to Huang Jiahe.

I came out in a hurry, and my coat was still with my aunt in the banquet hall. When Huang Jiahe and I walked to the gate of the manor, he naturally took off his coat and put it on me, and continued to pull me out. The cashmere coat is warm, and the smell of Huang Jiahe's body is so strong that I feel astringent.

Huang Jiahe's car seat is hard, and my butt hurts. I pulled down the mirror on the light shield and looked at it, my hair sticking to my face. With my eerie white face, I look like a female ghost running out of the underworld.

The car drove out of the manor and headed north. Passing through the bustling area of the city, from Nanshan to Beihai, from desolation to desolation again.

During the day, the sea is colorful and looks beautiful and dazzling, giving people countless romantic reverie. But at night, especially when there is no moon like now, the sea changes completely. From afar, there is an endless darkness spreading and overwhelming despair that derives from it. The sound of rumbling waves will not make you feel comfortable, some are just confused and panicked.

Huang Jiahe pulled me out of the car again, and the cold sea breeze was like a blade, and it was a sharp pain on my face. The height difference between me and Huang Jiahe is 20cm, and my legs are a lot shorter than his. Staggering after him, it was still a little difficult.

Walking to the beach, Huang Jiahe pushed me into the sea without hesitation. I was defenseless and took a big sip of salty, bitter seawater. The sea was so cold that I could even feel the tiny crushed ice ballast on the surface.

I sat in the sea shivering constantly, Huang Jiahe's coat was soaked, and it was very heavy on my body. The waves hit my lower back, and the thrust of the waves rushed me to shore.

Huang Jiahe didn't want to pull me up at all, he stood on the shore, his body was not stained, and said coldly: "If you don't want to live well, then why should I waste my energy to remind you over and over again that you are not dead." ”

My cold teeth chattered, and the bitter taste of the sea slid from my mouth to my heart.

"Look at what you've been doing every day since you were discharged from the hospital?" There was no pity in Huang Jiahe's eyes, and he didn't disdain pity: "Others watch you toss, others shout and cheer for your toss...... Is that what works for you? I'm really right, you really don't have a long memory at all. It's still the same as before, what you lack most is your heart, and the richest thing is time! ”

My whole body was hot with anger, and my former calmness was gone. I slapped the sea water and shouted, "Huang Jiahe! Why do you say that about me! ”

"You're a lawyer, you need to know more about injustices than I do!" I don't know whether it was sea water or tears on my face, the sea echoed, and the lonely night sky was particularly noisy: "What do you say I should do when fault cannot be punished by law and morality!" You don't know much about what I've been through, so who are you to blame me? ”

"Can't sinners be punished by law, so you have to fight violence with violence?" Huang Jiahe was not intimidated by my roar, he looked down at me with his arms crossed, and the strong sense of oppression made me breathless. Huang Jiahe hit the nail on the head and said: "Okay, let's not talk about this first." I've been to see you in the hospital so many times, and every time you don't tell me what happened to you. Since you want to punish evil and promote good, you fucking tell me! ”

Lacan said that human beings are intellectually paranoid. Nowhere is this more evident than in Wong, who has an almost hysterical obsession with knowledge. He likes things to be like the letter of the law, with rules and reasons to follow.

But we all know that there are many things that we can't win if we don't take them seriously, and if we take them too seriously, we often lose ourselves.

"You've already put me on the audience list, so don't ask me to be as compassionate as Guanyin." Huang Jiahe said harshly: "Lu Nuo, you go back and take a good look." If you still want to take revenge on Lu Sheng, there is a way out for you behind you...... Looking back, it was a living hell. But if you move forward, it will be the first step in your rebirth. ”

I asked him, "How did you know that I was going to seek revenge on Lu Sheng?" ”

Huang Jiahe didn't answer my question, his words were still mean, but they were not as blunt as they were at the beginning: "Lu Nuo, the road to revenge is too long and painful. You have to punish yourself, disguise yourself, torture yourself, and hate yourself...... I'm risking that much to keep you alive, I don't want to see you suffer. ”

Huang Jiahe ...... "I cried, I really cried: "My parents are dead, but Lu Sheng is still alive." I'll die, but Lu Sheng will continue to live. Everything started because of him, but how could he continue to live happily as if nothing had happened? I can't accept such thoughts! Huang Jiahe, such a thought is worse than pain, it simply makes my life worse than death. ”

Huang Jiahe groaned slightly, and he finally sighed: "Have you thought about it?" Even if you do get revenge, your life may not be much better, and you will despair of life. ”

"Despair?" I laughed and joked: "I have experienced the word despair most profoundly." The feeling that it is impossible to see the willows and flowers again is the real despair...... Huang Jiahe, for the past three years, I have lived in this feeling every day. ”

Huang Jiahe looked up at the sea, and the undercurrent in his eyes was an undercurrent that I couldn't explain. He roared at the sea, exhaling a long line of unobtrusive white gasps. I sat in the water and watched him shout, and my heart was indescribably happy. After sitting in the sea for a long time, I don't feel so cold. It's just that the shoes and socks are filled with sand and gravel, which is not very comfortable.

I was about to get up and pour the sand from my shoes when Huang Jiahe suddenly turned his head and asked me, "Lu Nuo, do you want to be with me?" ”