Chapter 42: Questioning Each Other
Shang Yuchen couldn't help but shake his head and said, "You haven't experienced it yet, so it's too early to say anything." Some things may happen that you have no control over at all, and you may also encounter dangerous situations, such as threats and retaliation from the client's adversary, which worries me. ”
Shen Linxi frowned, thought for a while, and said, "Then when I choose a case, I won't accept potentially dangerous cases, can't it!" ”
Shang Yuchen saw that she was still so persistent, so he said with a hint of displeasure in his tone: "Moreover, lawyers with a lot of business often work overtime, or often travel to handle cases, so they can't take care of their families at all." If you are so busy that you don't come home often, or come home late, or even take your work home to do, will our home still feel like a home? ”
"If you think about it in the long term, when we have a child, if you are only busy with work, then you can't take care of her and educate her. Think about it, if the child can't see his mother all day long, and I can't see you all day long, do you think that can still be called home? ”
When Shen Linxi heard him ask such a question, she felt a little dazed. Starting a family is really far away for her, and she has not yet conceived of her future family life. However, now that Shang Yuchen has mentioned the relationship between family and career, she also wants to express her inner thoughts clearly.
So, Shen Linxi pondered for a moment before slowly saying, "Then I can't give up my ideals for the sake of my family." People always have to pursue, my pursuit is not firewood, rice, oil and salt, I hope that the value of my life can be fully reflected. Besides, we are still so young now, of course, we focus on our careers, and as for family, it is also a matter of the future, so it is too early to think about it now! ”
Shang Yuchen looked at her, a hint of darkness flashing in his eyes. He asked Shen Linxi with some hurt in his tone: "Linxi, don't you want to get married as soon as you graduate?" Shen Linxi was stammered when he asked.
Before, Shang Yuchen also said that as soon as they graduated, the two of them would get married, but Yi Shen Linxi never took it very seriously, and she didn't bother to discuss this serious topic with Qi Yang. After all, in her heart, getting married is a trivial matter, how can it be done in a hurry?
However, in such a solemn atmosphere now, when Shang Yuchen asked this question with a serious expression, this made Shen Linxi unable to smile hastily and passed the test in confusion. So as a last resort, she brushed the hair on her ears and said "um" softly, and at the same time her heart was beating a little apprehensively.
Shang Yuchen closed his eyes all of a sudden, he withdrew his arms from Shen Linxi's back, then crossed his hands on his chest, and was silent for a few seconds, and then he lay on the bed, turned sideways, turned his back to Shen Linxi, and stopped talking.
Shang Yuchen's posture made Shen Linxi feel that he was rejected by him all of a sudden. Originally, she still felt a little guilty in her heart, but Shang Yuchen's such a move made her feel a little annoyed. Why did he give her a look in the face again and again today? She didn't owe him anything, and he didn't have the right to do that to her!
So, Shen Linxi looked at Shang Yuchen's back and said very angrily: "Shang Yuchen, if you think what I want to do is not in line with the family life you envisioned, then you can reconsider your choice, I don't mind." After all, life is a long road, choose the right person for you to be together, live the family life you want, and your life can be truly happy.
In short, I will follow my own plan and this will never change. If you can't accept it, then we can part now. In the last few words, Shen Linxi spoke very slowly, but very firmly.
Suddenly, Shang Yuchen suddenly turned over and sat up. As soon as he grabbed Shen Linxi's arm, Shen Linxi felt a wave of anger rushing towards him. She subconsciously shrank a little, but immediately straightened her back proudly, and lowered her eyes slightly.
Looking at Shen Linxi, who was still so calm and calm, Shang Yuchen was obviously enraged. He stared at Shen Linxi and asked word by word, "Separate?" You even said to break up so easily? So what am I in your eyes, in your heart? ”
Shang Yuchen's hand unconsciously increased his strength, he clenched Shen Linxi's slender arm, and said excitedly: "Have you never taken me to heart?" Am I nothing more than a dispensable existence to you? I now understand why you don't want to introduce me to the people in your dorm.
I guess you must have never told Auntie that you and I are together, because you don't care about me at all, because it makes it easier for you to retreat at any time! ”
Shen Linxi's arm was grabbed by Shang Yuchen's powerful big hand, and now Shang Yuchen made her shudder, and his paranoia made her eyes widen in horror and nervously overwhelmed. Does she want to admit her mistake to Shang Yuchen?
However, Shen Linxi didn't feel that she was much wrong, maybe the sentence "We can separate now" stimulated Shang Yuchen, but what she said was also the truth!
If Shang Yuchen can't accept the fact that she wants to be a lawyer, then he can really choose again, so as not to be full of distress and misfortune in the long life ahead. Therefore, Shen Linxi stubbornly tightened her lips and didn't say a word.
In the face of her silence and not responding, Shang Yuchen was so angry that she raised her fist and slammed the bed hard, Shen Linxi's heart jumped violently, and then she was "pounding" and beating wildly, she subconsciously wanted to jump off the bed, wanting to run away quickly.
As soon as Shang Yuchen stretched out his hand, he grabbed her, and Shen Linxi struggled to break free in fear, and at the same time shouted vigorously: "Let go!" Let me go! ”
The two were in a stalemate for a moment, and suddenly, Shang Yuchen let go in a dejected manner, and Shen Linxi was defenseless and fell on the bed at once. As soon as she wanted to sit up, Shang Yuchen pressed up, he looked down at Shen Linxi's pale face, her big black and white eyes were full of fear.
Shang Yuchen suddenly felt distressed, he wanted to comfort her and let her not be afraid, he wanted to kiss her and restore her calm. However, Shen Linxi's decisive words just now made him angry.
He thought in his heart, and the girl he loved to the bone said so lightly that she and he could break up, but she didn't mind. Shen Linxi didn't care about their feelings at all, how could he be embarrassed?
Could it be that Shen Linxi doesn't miss the bits and pieces of the two of them together? Don't you care about his deep affection for her? Or, in fact, she didn't love him all along, and everything was just wishful thinking on his part?
As soon as Shang Yuchen thought of this, his heart was torn apart and painful, and it was very uncomfortable.
In fact, two years ago, he had been hiding one thing, and if it weren't for that incident, he might not have become like this.
He felt a tumbling anger within him burn him. However, Shang Yuchen was trying his best to restrain himself, he forced himself to be calm, he couldn't let his anger burn Shen Linxi.
So, Shang Yuchen took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. He reached out to tidy up the quilt that had become a mess, gently covered Shen Linxi on his body, then turned off the light, and then got out of bed.
The surroundings immediately fell into darkness, Shen Linxi's heart was already twitching with nervousness, and a thought kept flashing in her mind, "Domestic violence!" ”
Today, it was the first time that Shang Yuchen treated her so roughly, Shen Linxi's heart was already full of fear, she didn't know what kind of terrible scene she would face next.
However, Shang Yuchen got out of bed, which made her heart that was about to stagnate slowly resume beating again, but her heart then beat uncontrollably. She pressed her hands hard against her chest, trying to calm her heart.
The deathly silence around her kept her from moving. Shen Linxi was unwilling, and she couldn't recall the scene that made her tremble just now. When she was a child, when she saw someone fighting on the street, Zhou Qin would quickly take her away, because that scene would always remind her of the days when she was kidnapped by human traffickers, and the days when she smelled fishy.
Therefore, when she grows up, she will feel creepy when she occasionally sees violent behavior.
And just now, Shang Yuchen was angry with her, and he used so much strength to imprison her. The hard punch, although it was pounded on the bed, but Shen Linxi imagined that the next punch would hit her body, and she seemed to feel the pain of her skin and flesh.
I can't think about it anymore, Shen Linxi told myself that I can't think about it anymore. Stay up until dawn, and as soon as the morning dawns, you will leave here immediately.
Suddenly, she felt that countless grievances came to her heart. Her nose was sore, and tears were falling in strings, and she couldn't stop it.
She remembered every warm picture of her and Shang Yuchen here, every detail of Shang Yuchen's expression of his heart to her, and his careful pampering and care for her. His hot kisses, his warm hugs, his tender sweetness, his teasing banters......
Shen Linxi couldn't help but hug her shoulders, she curled up, her teeth clenched her lips, she desperately suppressed it, not letting herself cry.
She once tried so hard to live up to Shang Yuchen, and finally chose to live up to the person who paid the most for herself, is it wrong? Maybe God is punishing her!
Shang Yuchen walked to the living room and sat down on the sofa all of a sudden. He closed his eyes, and his heart was filled with bitterness.
Since getting along with Shen Linxi, he has long regarded her as the person he loves the most, and he feels that no matter how much he loves her, he can't seem to express his full love. Sometimes, he can't wait to let Shen Linxi enter his body and let her see his unreserved sincere heart for her.
However, just now, Shen Linxi said bastard words like "can be separated" so easily. He would never say such cruel words to Shen Linxi no matter what, because he couldn't imagine that if he was separated from her, how would he live alone?
However, Shen Linxi said, so does she love him or not? Two years ago, she had Yin Yichen in her heart, but after two years, he has been by her side and never abandoned, hasn't he still entered her heart?
If she loves, then why would she completely ignore his feelings? Perhaps, in fact, she can have this relationship or not, it doesn't matter if she has him or not?
Thinking of Shen Linxi despising the love between the two like this, Shang Yuchen felt a tingling in his heart. In the middle of the night, the chill grew heavier, and he didn't realize it.
After a long time, he stood up, and then he felt numb. Although his heart was still aching, he still couldn't rest assured that Shen Linxi could not be relieved. Leaving her alone in the bedroom, and wondering how she is now?
Shang Yuchen returned to the bedroom and gently turned on the bedside lamp. He saw that Shen Linxi on the bed was covered with a quilt, her body seemed to be shaking slightly, and he couldn't help but be startled.
He gently held the corner of the quilt and lifted the quilt little by little, and Shen Linxi's face was revealed little by little. After just one glance, Shang Yuchen's heart suddenly seemed to be pinched by a big hand, because he saw Shen Linxi curled up, his eyes closed, and his face was full of tears.
He touched her face with his hand, and it was wet and cold. He touched the thick printed pillow towel again, only to realize that it was already wet. In an instant, the complaints, sadness, and anger in Shang Yuchen's heart were thrown aside by pity, distress, and remorse.