"I'm very happy, from childhood to adulthood, I have everything I should have, I have what others don't have, I have parents who love me, I have childhood sweethearts from childhood to adulthood, I have good friends who know my heart, I can sleep with a smile, I can sleep peacefully, dream, no one is happier than me, and no one should be happier than me...."Gu Qingyang looked into the distance, her long eyelashes lined with misty eyes, the fragrance of osmanthus carried the breeze to blow her hair, and squeezed out a smile, this is the tenth day after her mother's death, She could finally squeeze out a smile.

Gu Yuyang took her hand, and Gu Qingyang gently pushed it away: "So, I am also worse than anyone else, and now I am more miserable than anyone else, because I have everything from having nothing to now." ”

"You still have me!" Gu Yuyang took Gu Qingyang's hand again and put it on his heart, looking at Gu Yuyang's frowning brows and flattering eyes, that face was still so warm, and his face was full of love for Gu Qingyang...

Gu Qingyang looked at Gu Yuyang with pity in his eyes: "Yes, just because all I have left is you, how can it be you?" Just because it's you, but I'm such a me, how can I be willing to spend you? ”

"I'm not afraid, I'm willing!" Gu Yuyang was a little anxious.

Gu Qingyang stretched out his hand and slowly stroked Gu Yuyang's cheek, his eyes were reluctant, desperate, painful, and distressed, how could such a person be worthy of such a good you? You deserve a better future, a future without me.

"You are willing, I am not willing." Gu Qingyang spoke calmly.

Ten days ago, at that funeral, although the truth was restored and the grievances of my father were known, so what? The ending has become a foregone conclusion, the result has been caused, and it cannot be changed, Haining because she felt too guilty and sad in her heart, she actually ruthlessly left her daughter and died on the wall, with Gu Sheng went, that night, Gu Qingyang didn't shed a single tear, she couldn't cry, her heart hurt, she hurt, but she couldn't cry, she even envied her mother, she could go with a person like this, and she felt ignorant from now on, but she didn't want to, she wanted to live, even if it would be very difficult to live, she had to live, because the most painful thing was not death, but living, She has to remember her mother, she has to remember her father, she has to remember them, because she can't give up, when she dies, she has nothing left, she can't perceive, so she has to live, she has to remember all this, she remembers everything she has gained and what she has lost...

And Lin Shu, maybe he wants to die, the initiator, is really understandable, he wants to get close to Gu Qingyang, comfort her and apologize to her, but he found that he can't move, he can't move, he doesn't know what to say, because he knows that no matter what he says, it's useless, he doesn't dare to get close to her, he is afraid that if he gets closer to her, he will drive her crazy.

After the funeral, everything was cleaned up, and some others didn't dare to move, and Gu Qingyang decided to keep it or throw it away, although his grandparents and grandparents were also sad in their hearts, they couldn't show it, because the saddest thing should be this little granddaughter, Gu Qingyang looked at the empty room, looked at the family photo in the living room, and couldn't hold back his tears anymore, his mind was full of memories, all those shadows, obviously they were talking and laughing together a few days ago, but today they are all gone, not there, really gone, Never again. Gu Yuyang looked at her trembling back, and motioned to her parents who were waiting outside the door to let them go back first, and the parents sighed and nodded and left.

"Qingyang?" Gu Yuyang shouted softly.

Gu Qingyang suddenly turned around and pushed Gu Yuyang and his grandparents out: "Go, you all go, let's go!" ”

The group didn't know what was going on, so they were all pushed out.

Everyone didn't dare to resist, and they didn't dare to say anything, but they were also reluctantly pushed out of the door, and the aunt sighed and looked at the two pairs of old men who were also sad: "You guys go back first, I'm taking care of her like this, and you should also rest." Grandma shook her head: "No, no, no, I don't worry, let the child be like this alone, I won't go back, I'll wait here." Grandma and grandfather also nodded: "Yes, so are we." Only the grandfather looked at Gu Yuyang without saying a word, and then looked at the aunt, he didn't know what he was thinking, as if he had made a big decision: "Then I'll go back." Grandma was surprised: "What are you doing, old man, you don't have to worry that the child is here alone?" His mom and dad .... All... Both...."I couldn't hold back my tears as she spoke. Grandpa's face was calm: "What can we do if we are all here?" She doesn't need it, she doesn't need us old things, how long can we stay with her? Grandma's cry resounded throughout the courtyard, but the whole picture was quiet and sad.

Who took everything from you, was it providence, man-made, or predestined?

Gu Qingyang was still standing in the living room looking at everything here, her eyes were staring at the kitchen, she had a trace of impulse in her heart, she imagined, turn on the natural gas and light a match, what do you say it will look like, thinking of this, Gu Qingyang actually laughed unconsciously.... Laughter itself is such a beautiful and warm thing, but now... But it was so desolate, Gu Qingyang never knew that there was really a desolate smile, it turned out that it could really be desolate...

Gu Yuyang was always worried about Gu Qingyang who was staying in the house, he approached the window, looked at Gu Qingyang inside, stared at her back, and suddenly shouted: "Not good!" Then he rushed to the house like crazy, everyone present was startled, Gu Yuyang rushed in, grabbed Gu Qingyang, who was walking towards the kitchen, and snatched back the match in her hand: "What are you doing?" What are you doing with this? Gu Qingyang looked at him stunned, as if he understood his concern: "I just want to go to the kitchen and burn some unwanted things." The old people standing behind were also relieved, and Gu Yuyang took a deep breath.

"Don't worry, I won't die." Gu Qingyang opened her mouth lightly, not at all like the calm tone that she should say at her age, she will not die, if she dies, there will be no one to mourn her parents, no one will recall their memories, and no one will remember that the happy family that once lived here, only if she is alive, she can prove that this family really existed in this world... Those happiness are not dreams...

The aunt motioned to the old people to let them go first, but Qingyang stopped them: "While everyone is here, I want to say... I'm going to leave here and live abroad. ”

Kindness... Leave.

"Do you believe it, people, they will really grow up overnight~" Gu Qingyang stood next to Gu Yuyang and poked Gu Yuyang's ribs with his fingers, Gu Yuyang squinted at her: "Non-mainstream." Gu Qingyang glanced at Gu Yuyang and no longer paid attention to this unsentimental person. They all lived a stable life that year, and there was still time to stand innocently by the river and watch the lanterns.

Today, it reflects Gu Qingyang's words, the person standing in front of Gu Yuyang has grown up overnight. The fate of growing up from the accident as nourishment overnight.

The aunt was surprised and spoke first: "Go abroad? What are you doing abroad? And no one can take care of you? Grandma and Grandma also echoed: "Yes, yes, what can you do when you go abroad." ”

"There's no one to take care of me here." Gu Qingyang's voice was rational and clear: "Except for this house, all the remaining properties and other things have been sold, I have nothing here, where is not nothing?" Grandma said sternly: "No, we can still take care of you here, our old bones can last for a long time, you go abroad by yourself, you are not familiar with life, how can you do it?" ”

"Why can't it work? What am I afraid of now? Gu Qingyang's eyes were very indifferent, yes, what am I afraid of now, what else I haven't experienced, and the worst is nothing more than this: "I'm not discussing with you, I'm informing you, before... My mom also gave me some information about going abroad before, but now it's the same in advance. "At that time, I was talking about going abroad with Gu Yuyang.

Gu Yuyang turned his head to look at his grandmother and leaked out Gu's usual sunny smile: "I'll go back and tell my parents that I can accompany Qingyang to go abroad together, originally we..."

"I'm talking about myself." Gu Qingyang took the match in Gu Yuyang's hand and walked towards the kitchen.

Gu Yuyang looked surprised: "What did you say, didn't you say that you were going to go abroad together, although it is ahead of schedule now, I will go back and discuss with my parents that we can also go abroad together, at least someone will take care of you." ”

"No, I don't." Indifferent answer.

Yes, it was at this moment that Gu Yuyang realized that Gu Qingyang was leaving, his Gu Qingyang was really leaving, and he had a premonition of that stubborn aura, but he didn't want to admit it.

It's still this river, but there are no lanterns, no wishes, there is Gu Yuyang at that time, but there is no Gu Qingyang at that time.

"You are willing, but I am not willing." These eight words were like a knife, piercing deep into Gu Yuyang's heart, and his voice trembled: "Why? ”

Gu Qingyang took a deep breath: "No, I don't want to be pitied by you, I don't want your stable life to be implicated with me, and I don't want you to keep saying that you are willing to do this for me." "Gu Yuyang, why do I have to accept your love, why do you have to pay for me, no one owes anyone between you and me, we are companions but not demands, we are dependent on each other, but it should not be loss, Gu Yuyang, I can't accept your love now. I have nothing, but I hope that you just lost me, I have nothing, but I want to keep the only memory of you in this moment, stop, and don't continue to develop.

But in fact, Gu Qingyang didn't understand that everything about Gu Yuyang was just Gu Qingyang.

Fate is like a gambling board, you have to bet, but the result is uncontrollable, sometimes we complain about gaining or losing, we are angry with those who choose to flee, for example, everyone will think that Gu Qingyang's decision is simply too dramatic in idol dramas, why can't you be with Gu Yuyang, what's it? But this is Gu Qingyang's fate gamble, the results and rules must be followed, you have your rules, Gu Qingyang has Gu Qingyang's rules, the injured white swan can no longer stay in the circle of the white swan, the care and regret in your mouth are all sympathy and ridicule, Gu Qingyang doesn't need it.