How many days? Is he finally willing to talk to himself?

At first, the heartbeat of the unproductive was a few beats faster, and then, I poured cold water on myself and thought-maybe...... Is he going to tell himself that he never liked me, but just treated me as a sister?

Tangled, entangled, I didn't hear a word of what the teacher said before, and these four classes this morning were in vain...... What's the difference between this and not listening to classes in my previous life? Sure enough, even if I was reborn, I was still myself......

Sitting behind his car and returning home, after a hurried dinner, Lin Xiaoxiao flashed back to the room, and then waited and waited, and waited, and waited......

A familiar voice came from the balcony, Lin Xiaoxiao sat up, and then scolded himself secretly, and quickly lowered his eyes, but he didn't know that at this time, her whole person was trembling slightly.

Walking into the room, seeing that the girl was hanging her eyes, but her body couldn't help shaking, Su Qingyu stopped, then took a deep breath, and walked over, lest he want to hug her out of shape......

"Laugh."

Since when did he start smiling at himself? Seem...... I didn't call myself that when I first met, did I......

"I ...... Ask you, if ......" took a deep breath, Su Qingyu said his words in one breath, "If I tell you, I was lying to you from the beginning...... From the beginning I knew there was no way for the two of us...... There is no way to be together...... But it has to be resilient to appear by your side......"

Unable to say any more, Lin Xiaoxiao raised his head in surprise, looked at him puzzled, the nervousness just now was completely gone, and the rest was just doubt.

"You say...... Fooled me? ”

Su Qingyu lowered his eyes and nodded affirmatively.

"Whether it's a lie or not, it's not up to you to decide." Lin Xiaoxiao regained her usual composure, looking at his face, his long eyelashes, and his transparent skin, "The same thing, if the deceived person is willing, she won't feel that she has been deceived." So, whether you lied to me or not is up to me to judge. ”

Su Qingyu was stunned for a moment and raised his head in surprise.

"You just said ...... You know there's no way to ...... with me Together? Lin Xiaoxiao's face couldn't help but turn red, what is this? At last...... Confession?

"Hmm."

"Reason." If it was because of the bloody plot that Su Xing had already betrothed him to kiss, Lin Xiaoxiao would definitely rush out and kill the screenwriter or author who directed this play, Miss Lin's love does not need to be set by others!

“…… What if I told me that I wouldn't live past the age of thirty? ”

"Huh?!" Lin Xiaoxiao raised his head in surprise, and was surprised to find that Su Qingyu's smile at this time had a trace of tiredness and a trace of ...... Sad.

"At first, I just thought of you as a ...... Friends of the same age...... As you know, my father and I run around the world every day and don't have friends of the same age. I just know some people, but because I'm a precocious person, I can't talk at all. The older people, because they thought I was too young, would not communicate with me at all – except, of course, my father. Su Qingyu's words gently came into his ears, and Lin Xiaoxiao sat silently and listened, listening.

"When I realize that I like your feelings...... It's late, I'm ...... I don't want to leave anymore, and I can't leave you......" Lowering his head, Su Qingyu sighed, "I'm sorry, I should have told you earlier, it's just ...... I always thought you were too young to understand what liking was...... What is the feeling of wanting to live a lifetime, so ...... However, it seems that I am no different from those who always feel that I am too small. You should have understood it a long time ago, right? ”

After speaking, Su Qingyu raised his head and took out a pink diary inlaid with gold trim from his waist: "You...... Let's read this first, and after reading it, you will understand. ”

Lying quietly on the bed, Lin Xiaoxiao took a deep breath.

No matter what was recorded in this diary in her hand, she at least already knew that he liked herself, and the silence of the past few days was just hesitating, hesitating to tell her the reason.

That's fine, no matter what kind of future you're facing, as long as that's it!

resolutely picked up the notebook in his hand and quietly opened the first page-

If you can choose

I'd rather die at birth

As

The way they want it to be......

Baby, do you feel the same way? Hopefully, never.

From the first day I was born, I had memories. It was an ordeal that the cursed had to go through, so I remember fondly the feeling of my father when he put his hands around my neck, and the tears that fell from his pale skin.

I know he loves me.

I know he wants me dead.

I also know that I shouldn't be alive so that at least, I won't hurt those who truly love me again.

Hearing is nurturing, and never forgetting.

It doesn't matter who said it, what matters is that it's true.

We are born with two diametrically opposed attributes – being unforgettable and intelligent, and dying young.

In the record, none of us who are cursed by ice will live past the age of thirty, so I know that I will die. I also know that it is possible for you to ...... within thirty years of birth Also die.

No one can be more than thirty years old, and the one who lived the longest was only twenty-nine years old and departed.

Our death is different from ordinary people. They may be sick, old and dead, or have accidents. We, on the other hand, spread the cold from our fingertips and toes to the rest of our bodies, little by little, until we freeze our hearts, our brains, and then we die.

No one can heal, no one wants to heal. Neither ancient medical techniques nor modern technology can cure us.

But when he woke up the fool, he patted his chest and said with a bright smile: For my sake, I must visit the famous doctors all over the world. For my sake, I must make all the money in the world. For my sake, I'd rather destroy the world and never recover......

Just to find an answer, an answer that doesn't have to let our bloodline bear this heavy curse again.

Before I met your father, I never believed in what my mother said about love. In other words, although I believe that she loves my father deeply, I don't want to believe that there are people in this world who love me and are willing to protect me like a mother protects my father.

The people in our family, because they have memory, brainpower, and hearing that are different from ordinary people, we are much more precocious than ordinary people.

So, when I was ten years old, I fell in love with a man, a white kid from a neighbor's house.

However, the child, who had been friendly to me, screamed at the coldness of my fingertips, and screamed about the devil, the vampire, and the dead...... Then, no one bothered to pay attention to me anymore.

After my mother died, I gave up everything and wandered around the world. No friends, no loved ones, just myself. I just want to see the world before I die, even though I don't love it.

All that fills my soul is "death, death, death".

Until that day, at his former residence in Hong Kong, I met that person...... The man with a big smile on his face - wake up.

He said that the first time he saw me, he fell in love with me.

I rejected him, insulted him, and ran away from him.

But he was like a fool who never tired of it, and ran with me to England, France, and Germany...... Wherever I went, I would definitely see him in a few days.

So, I shook his hand, trying to make him understand that I was not like normal people, and that I was the daughter of death.

But he, after being stunned for a moment, said to me with a bright smile: Your hands, like your people, are like the goddess of ice and snow.

You know? Baby.

There are always some people in this world who are self-righteous and fall in love with others, self-righteous like others, self-righteous care about others, and then, self-righteous to protect others...... Until, exhausted their own lives.

I knew, I knew, but I couldn't stop him, because ...... I also love him more than my life.

I understand that he will die, just after I die.

I understand that if I give birth to you, you will also die, and maybe you will hate me all the time before you die, hating why I gave birth to you, just like I had for my mother.

But if it were not for you, your father, he would have gone with me, and I would have left him with a hope, even if it could never be realized.

Someone said that we are a combination of angels and demons.

A beautiful face, a brilliant mind, and a constitution that is bound to die early.

But I'd rather give up my intelligence and looks in exchange for time with you.

Don't resent the world, baby, for I, your grandfathers, and your great-grandfathers have spat and resent it countless times.

Baby, Mom only wants you to have a father who loves you, know that there is a mother who loves you, and maybe in the future, meet a girl who loves you - although you don't necessarily expect her to fall in love with you.

Live well, live as long as you can, even if your life is short, let your life be full of sunshine and not sadness.