Chapter 63: Hesitant Love
Weng Guimi confessed his identity to Liu Ye, considering the current situation, Liu Ye did not embarrass him, he still treated him as Kuster, the two had almost no intersection, like two parallel lines, they didn't care about each other.
The changes in the disaster area can be described as one day at a time, and the people's admiration for the princess is better than day by day, regardless of men, women and children are praising this princess from the Han Dynasty, with a bodhisattva heart. Regardless of race and region, he loves the people as his own children, and his noble character is admirable.
Things developed better than Liu Ye expected, and the people's reaction was much better than she thought, and seeing that three months were about to pass, Liu Ye began to worry about whether King Qiuzi would be able to fulfill his promise happily. King Qiuci seems to be a very trustworthy person, and he is benevolent and moral when he opens and closes, as if he is the most devout believer in Qiuci country.
People who believe in gods don't lie, but since ancient times, the heart of kings is unpredictable, and Liu Ye doesn't know much about the king. The good news in the disaster area was frequent, and the replies from the imperial court were all the same expressions of condolences, and there was no reaction to see any reaction.
The king's attitude was unpredictable, and in the first two months of Liu Ye's visit to the disaster area, he did not provide any help, and even the local officials were only responsible for providing accommodation for Liu Ye and the others, neither caring about what they were doing or asking if they should help. If it weren't for Liu Ye's request, the local officials would still be like they don't care about themselves.
But recently, this situation has suddenly reversed, and the local officials, who were originally half-dead, came to see Liu Ye twice in three days, and every time they came, they were polite, prepared good food and wine, and flattered her. Attentive for no reason, I'm afraid that nothing good will happen, Liu Ye caters to it on the surface, but in fact, he wants to see what the other party is doing.
However, the task of the official seems to be to curry favor with Liu Ye, and I am afraid that this is the only thing he is good at. However, he repeatedly mentioned one thing, which aroused Liu Ye's suspicions.
"Your Royal Highness Princess, when you go back, you must let the lower official escort you, the lower official will lead the way, and you will return to the palace soon." Usually he said that, but once he got drunk, and then added, "The lower officials have to send you on the road no matter what, if you refuse to go on the road, then I will be unlucky!" ”
There are usually two interpretations of the word on the road, one is to go far away, the other is to go down to the Yellow Spring, modern people do not shy away from the old saying, when they go out, they often say that they are on the road, but in the Western Han Dynasty more than 2,000 years ago, the ancients were very taboo about this statement. If anyone talks about going on the road, it means going down to the Yellow Spring, and if someone talks behind someone's back that someone should go on the road, it is obviously a vicious curse.
This is true not only in the Western Han Dynasty, but also in the Western Regions, where the Chinese language is different from the Western Regions, but the meaning is the same. The things that the Han people are taboo are also taboo for many people in the Western Regions, not to mention the remote and backward nomadic tribes, and a quite developed place like Qiuci must understand this truth.
Compared with the completely different attitudes of the officials, Liu Ye has reason to believe that he has bad intentions, especially the sentence he said when he was drunk. As the saying goes, after drinking, spit out the truth, some people rely on the strength of alcohol to say things that they dare not say on weekdays, and some people are lax and accidentally tell vital secrets. It doesn't matter if it's a secret or something you don't dare to say, but one thing is certain, he is telling the truth.
He sent them on their way? Is it possible for him? I guess he's a little self-aware! Besides, a mere local official, where did he have the courage to offend the princess of the Han Dynasty, is he tired of being crooked!
No, absolutely not! At best, he was just a layman who carried out orders, so it would not be difficult to figure out the facts as long as he found the person who ordered him.
Who is behind the scenes? You don't have to think about it to know! Liu Ye picked up his wine glass and looked at the drunken little official lying on the opposite side, he beat his chest in pain and shouted, "Why am I so unlucky, so unlucky......".
You're not the only one who is unlucky, there's another unlucky guy waiting to be cleaned up! Liu Ye got up and walked out, gently closing the door, and letting him vent in his dreams.
Weng Guimi waited not far away, quietly watching all this happening, he drugged the wine and gave Liu Ye the antidote in advance, the purpose was to find out what the officials were saying.
"You're right, they're really playing tricks behind their backs!" Weng Guimi reminded Liu Ye to guard against officials who had nothing to do and were attentive, Liu Ye heard the other party's despicable conspiracy with his own ears, and had to admire Weng Guimi's vision, and sighed helplessly, "Between people, in addition to intrigue, can't they be honest with each other?" ”
"After all this, do you still have such simple thoughts?" Weng Guimi asked rhetorically, looking at Liu Ye's slightly emaciated face, feeling guilty and sorry in his heart, his warm palm gently covered her slender shoulders, and comforted softly, "Ye'er, you have suffered." ”
Liu Ye's heart warmed, he raised his eyes to look at his handsome and well-defined face, and smiled with satisfaction: "This is the path I have chosen, no matter how hard it is, I will go on." ”
Weng Guimi nodded, how could he not understand her, she was always worried about the big man thousands of miles away, if anyone dared to go against the big man, she would definitely bear the brunt. I have long known that she is such a persistent person, and if you want to be with her, you have to accept everything from her. Weng Guimi has already realized that if she is happy, what does it matter if she hands over Wusun's future to her.
Without this kind of awareness, Weng Guimi would not appear in front of her again, but the future is bumpy, and there are countless tests waiting for him, maybe he can successfully ascend to the throne of Wusun Kunmo, maybe he will die on the way. He had hurt her, he couldn't let her down again, he didn't have the certainty of victory, he didn't make empty promises.
"What are you going to do next?" Weng Guimi asked tentatively, he was not sure if the Xiling Sect would become Liu Ye's enemy.
Weng Guimi is more mature than before, this is Liu Ye's feeling, she looked at him, her heart was rare calm and serene, and said with a slight smile: "Wait, wait for those people to come to me." ”
Weng Guimi's heartstrings trembled, could it be that Liu Ye had already felt the threat from the Xiling Sect? He didn't know whether to tell her his worries, he didn't want them to be in danger together, he just wanted to share happiness with her.
"Are you hiding something from me?" Liu Ye sensed his hesitation, they didn't have much time to be alone, she had to ask clearly, "I don't need you to protect, I'm prepared to deal with danger, I'm not afraid of how terrible the enemy I will face is, I'm just worried that I'm not fully prepared." ”
"Are you still blaming me?" Weng Guimi is a sensitive and delicate person, and Liu Ye's unintentional words can uncover the wounds in his heart.
Liu Ye looked at him in a daze, smiled reluctantly, and looked away: "No, you are too careful." ”
"You have, you have." Weng Guimi didn't know why he was so excited, Liu Ye's reluctant smile and helpless expression were like a sharp knife poking into his chest, his hot heart trembled coldly, followed by unbearable pain.
Weng Guimi thought that he could remain absolutely calm without looking at her and not wanting her, and he warned himself that he had no qualifications to love her before he succeeded, and he did not deserve her forgiveness. But at this moment, she was beside him, and his beloved was close at hand, and despite his efforts to restrain himself, he still had the urge to embrace her.
He is not worthy, he is not worthy......
He knew he wasn't worthy, but if that feeling came from her, and she decided he wasn't qualified, it would be hard for him to keep his composure. He endured because he believed that they could still be together, and he chose to regain his strength with this thought, if the person waiting for him at the peak of success was no longer her, then what was the meaning of his efforts, and what was the rarity of success.
Weng Guimi's chest rose and fell violently, Liu Ye was his life's pursuit, he loved her deeply, but hurt her deeply, he only begged her to give him a chance to atone for his sins.
Coldly, Weng Guimi's hands pressed on her shoulders, and he slowed down his tone with extreme restraint: "Ye'er, can you give me a word, do you still hate me?" ”
Facing Weng Guimi's questioning, Liu Ye was in turmoil, it was impossible for her to be as addicted to love as before, she didn't live for herself, but also to protect her companions and her country.
Liu Ye brushed his hand away and said softly, "I don't hate you, really." ”
"You don't hate me?" Weng Guimi was not relieved by this sentence, but was even more painful, "What does this mean?" Do you mean that you don't love me anymore, and if you don't have love, you don't hate? ”
"Does it make sense to say that now?" Liu Ye shook his head in confusion, "We used to love each other deeply, but we caused harm to each other, I admit, I thought about giving up on you, I really don't know if we can go on." Later, you disappeared, and whenever I think of you whose whereabouts are unknown, I feel sad, and I say to myself, even if we can't be together, I hope you can live well, and now, you're back, you're back safely, and I have nothing more to ask for. ”
"Ye'er, I never thought of giving up on you, I was willing to fall for myself during that time, I was angry with myself, I didn't blame you......" Weng Guimi grabbed her hand unwillingly, "It's okay for you to listen to my explanation, I pretended to be Kuster to approach you, not deliberately deceiving you, but afraid that the people of the Xiling Sect would target you." The Xiling Sect is huge, and the Bright Moon Saintess of the Holy Altar is extremely vicious, and almost no one who is targeted by her can escape. I have discovered that the Xiling Sect has ambitions for the entire Western Regions, and it is by no means as simple as developing followers......"
"Really?" Liu Ye interrupted him, she didn't care about becoming an enemy of the Xiling Sect, she had something in her heart that she didn't vomit and was unhappy, "Do you remember the Meili Canyon in Chigu City?" You were there that night, weren't you? ”
Weng Guimi was stunned, and slowly let go of her hand, it turned out that she knew, she knew that he was there that night, and she knew that he had hesitated thoughts. Yes, he did hesitate, hesitated whether he loved the wrong person, and whether he could tolerate her to continue to kill, but in the face of love, who has not hesitated?
But he couldn't explain it, his hesitation was a pain that Liu Ye couldn't let go, and no matter how he explained it, it was a hypocritical excuse. It is a fact that he hurt her, should she still be shown his hypocrisy?
"Yes, I was there that night." Weng Guimi admitted this fact with difficulty, no matter whether Liu Ye would forgive him or not, first of all, he had to be honest.
Liu Ye nodded with a smile, pretending to walk away calmly, and tears welled up in his eyes the moment he turned his back to him.