Chapter 19: Many Losses Are Unrecoverable
Once again, Paper Kite and Shen Yiran slept in the same bed, still unable to sleep as before, but neither of them spoke, and they didn't know where to start.
"Did you really break up with Gu Lingchuan? But can you break off your relationship for so many years? ”
"To be exact, we're divorced."
"Divorce!" Paper Kite's heart shook violently, and she couldn't believe her ears, "Are you married?" When? ”
"We registered to get married when we were about to graduate from our senior year."
"Why didn't you notify us, did you not want us to know?"
"Not only you, but my parents still don't know."
"What the hell do you think!" Paper Kite couldn't understand why Shen Yiran, who had always been sensible, was so impulsive emotionally.
"I don't know, I just know that I love him very much and just want to keep him!"
"Then why did you agree to divorce him?"
"The heart is no longer there, and it is useless to force it to stay around. He was originally a person who followed his inner feelings and did not want to be bound. Not long ago, he met a girl he liked more, and he confided in me his love for that girl, you know that I am a person who does not pray, love to stay, if you don't love, separate, since he is leaving, then go. ”
"Aren't you really sad?"
"It's not sad, how can it be. How cruel it was to me that the person I loved so much back then fell in love with another girl. Speaking of which, what he liked was actually just my appearance, and once there was a girl who was more suitable for him, I would be replaced, but I didn't understand it at the time! Shen Yiran covered her face with her hands and cried bitterly, "Soon after separating from Gu Lingchuan, I met Xia Yang and told him about Gu Lingchuan forcing him to drop out of school, and wanted to ask for his forgiveness, but I didn't expect Xia Yang to just smile faintly and say that he had forgotten." That's when I realized that I had hurt someone who used to love me the most, and I missed someone I should love the most! ”
"Then have you thought about saving Xia Yang?"
"Do you think it's still possible? At that time, he also had Lu Xi by his side, even if there was no Lu Xi, we couldn't go back. From the moment I chose Gu Lingchuan, it was destined that Xia Yang and I would have no more results, at least he would be happy, wouldn't he? Lu Xi is more suitable for him than any of us. ”
Shen Yiran turned sideways to face the wall, looking at the photo on the mobile phone screen in a daze, and a little girl about two years old tilted her head and nibbled on a cooked corn, smiling sweetly.
"What a pretty little girl, who is she?"
"My daughter." Shen Yiran's voice trembled terribly.
"Your daughter !!" Paper Kite was stunned again, "You already have a daughter?!" ”
"Hmm. That's more than three years old! ”
"Where is she now?"
"I don't know." Shen Yiran's voice trembled more and more, her lips were biting tightly, and her face was pale and terrifying, "During the Spring Festival last year, I took her to play on the street, but she got lost. ”
"Lost !!" The paper kite felt the air around her condense.
"I've been looking for her for more than a year, calling the police, posting a search notice, and I've thought of everything, but there's no news at all. I don't know where she is now, how she's doing, or even if she's still alive! Shen Yiran's voice collapsed a little, and the paper kite hugged her tightly, crying silently.
On the day of the wedding, the paper kite, looking at Lu Xi's happy smiling face, watched Xia Yang slowly take Lu Xi's hand, and put on a wedding ring symbolizing their love to Lu Xi in the blessings of everyone, and kissed each other, this is the scene that has appeared in the paper kite's dream countless times, it is exactly the same, the only difference is that the bride next to Xia Yang is not himself. Paper Kite thought that he could forget the two years, but he still felt a faint pain in his heart.
After the wedding, Paper Kite left in a hurry, and she wanted to find a place to be quiet. In the huge square, the paper kite sat alone on a bench by the lake, surrounded by so many people walking. The paper kite looked at them quietly, as if she saw herself and her friends at the beginning, but now it has long been different.
The paper kite, feeling that someone was quietly approaching him, getting closer and closer, looking up and seeing a smiling face with a joke, I don't know whether to be happy or surprised, seeing this face again, the paper kite, was so excited that he couldn't speak, and looked at him blankly.
"What? It's been so long since you've forgotten me? ”
"Tan Miao......"
Paper Kite's heart has a thousand words in her heart, and she wants to tell Tan Miao, but she doesn't know where to start when the words come to her mouth. Paper Kite looked at Tan Miao blankly, tears burst out of her eyes, leaning on his shoulder and crying wantonly, all the grievances and depression in the past three years turned into tears and soaked Tan Miao's shoulders.
Tan Miao was obviously taken aback by the paper kite's sudden move, was stunned for a while, and gently patted the paper kite's back with her hand to comfort her. When the paper kite's crying was finished, Tan Miao wiped her tears with her cuffs.
"Finished crying?"
"Hmm" The paper kite felt a little embarrassed, and silently lowered her head and fiddled with the corners of her clothes.
"I'm finally done crying, or I'll be soaked in your tears!"
"Nasty!" Paper Kite smiled and gave Tan Miao a punch. Tan Miao always has such a ability, which makes the paper kite burst into tears and laugh in an instant.
"Why are you here?"
"Of course I'm here for my sister's wedding."
"Then why didn't I see you?"
"Who else can you see in your eyes besides Xia Yang?"
Silence for each other again......
"Why haven't you called me or sent me a message in the past three years?"
"Do you need it?"
"What are you talking about?"
"I thought you didn't need me anymore with Xia Yang, and I also needed time to forget about you, and not contacting you might be the best way. Just when I thought I had forgotten about it, Lu Xi told me that she and Xia Yang were getting married, and asked me to attend their wedding. At the time I thought you must be very sad, maybe I should come back to see you. I kept watching you at the wedding, watching your every move, but you didn't know that I existed, only looked at Xia Yang. I've been following you here since the wedding. ”
"Tan Miao, I ......"
"Maybe you still need time to forget Xia Yang, it's okay, we still have time!"
"Buzz" Paper Kite's phone rang, Paper Kite's bag opened, took out his mobile phone, and Du Bin's name was beating on it. Paper Kite-chant glanced at Tan Miao and picked up the phone.
"Hey, Du Bin, what's wrong?"
"Little kite, isn't the wedding over? Why haven't you come back yet? I'm waiting for you to come back for dinner! ”
"Oh, I saw an old friend and came out to catch up together, I guess I have to go back later, you and Yiran eat first, and take her out to play after eating." It's the first time she's coming to City A, don't slow her down! ”
"Okay, don't worry, come back early!"