Chapter 18: Forgetting is more painful than remembering
The light in the summer room is still so warm, but from tomorrow, the paper kite will never feel it again. Paper Kite, silently packed her luggage, "Maybe it's easier to forget if you don't see it." More than ten years of silent waiting, more than ten years of careful care in the bottom of the heart, the person who has been carefully cared for in the bottom of his heart, with his departure, will also walk out of his own world, he will never live for two people again, and he will become the lonely self again. This time, I must walk away from afar, not to see or listen, your happiness has nothing to do with me. ”
In the new room, Du Bin was busy helping the paper kite, his warm smile and kind words were like Xia Yang. At that moment, the paper kite seemed to feel that Xia Yang was still by his side. Paper Kite shook his head vigorously, sobered himself up, and tried to tell himself that the person in front of him was Du Bin, Xia Yang had left him, and he had to forget the past and learn to live again.
Du Bin accompanied the paper kite to the night market to buy some daily necessities, and specially gave the paper kite a pot of lavender grown by himself, saying that it added a warm atmosphere to the room.
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"Little kite, are these pictures yours? It's so cute! ”
Paper Kite-chant glanced back at Du Bin, who was holding the album that Tan Miao gave her, looking at it with relish.
"yes, yes." Paper Kite lowered her head and replied, but her eyes never left the album.
"It seems that this should be taken secretly, this person must have a good relationship with you, and he cares about you very much, is it your lover?"
"No, that's ......"
Paper Kite doesn't know what words to use to describe the relationship between herself and Tan Miao, is it a classmate? But that affection is far better than that of classmates. Is it a male girlfriend? But he and Tan Miao don't seem to talk about everything, and they don't even know him that well. Lovers? But he and Tan Miao never started at all, at most they held hands when they parted.
"He's just a guy who is important to me." After searching in his brain for a long time, in the end, the paper kite could only use these words to describe him.
"It feels like you're so blessed to have such a person who cares about you!"
The paper kite smiled, and his heart was sour.
On the first night of the new room, the paper kite felt the horror of being alone. Tightly wrapped in the quilt on her body, the paper kite, looking at the boundless night outside the window, quietly shed tears. Reaching out to take the album on the table, stroking a photo, the paper kite's heart became more and more uncomfortable, she missed Tan Miao so much, Tan Miao would definitely make her laugh, but where is this boy now?
Since parting, Tan Miao has not made a single phone call to Paper Kite, nor has she received a single email or message, and she has completely faded out of the world of Paper Kite.
"Maybe he has now found the girl he loves, and completely forgotten about himself, after all, there is no commitment between himself and him."
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When the paper kite, Du Bin's car was already waiting for him there. Du Bin waved at the paper kite, signaling the paper kite to get into the car.
Paper Kite works hard every day and does not give herself any free time to grieve secretly. Du Bin would drive to pick her up every time he commuted to work. The two also often go out to eat together and visit the night market. If there is any trouble at work, Paper Kite will confide in Du Bin, and Du Bin will also enlighten her. Time passed silently bit by bit, and soon two years passed, and the paper kite gradually calmed down in forgetting and self-healing.
During this year's Qixi Festival, the paper kite, still sitting in Du Bin's car as two years ago, looking out the window at the happy couple in a daze.
"Where would you like to eat today?"
"Everything."
There were many more people in the restaurant than before, almost all of them were couples, and there was a bouquet of flowers next to each girl, and the paper kite looked at them blankly.
"What's wrong?"
"Oh, nothing. , just feel like the whole restaurant is a couple, we are here, it seems to be very discordant! ”
"Wait a minute, it won't be embarrassing right away."
Du Bin got up and walked out, and after a while, he brought back a bunch of purple lavender from the outside and handed it to the paper kite, "Well, isn't this better?" ”
Paper Kite shook her head and smiled, "This is okay too?" ”
"It depends on what you think, if you think we're a couple, then it's in harmony with the whole environment, isn't it?"
"Du Bin!"
"What I want to know is do you think we're a couple?"
"Is this a confession in disguise?"
"If yes, would you agree?"
Du Bin looked at the paper kite with those wise eyes, and what the paper kite saw from those eyes was expectation and sincerity, which could not be refused, and did not want to refuse. The paper kite nodded slightly. Paper Kite didn't know why he agreed, maybe because Du Bin was too good to him, maybe because he was tired of being lonely, maybe because Du Bin appeared at the right time, maybe because ...... She didn't know...
Paper Kite and Du Bin started like this, there was no vigorous pursuit, commuting together, cooking together, planting lavender together, everything was so plain and logical.
A few weeks later, Paper Kite received an invitation from Xia Yang, and after two years, Paper Kite was still so sad when she saw the name of the bride and groom on the invitation.
"Buzz..."The mobile phone on the table vibrated slightly, and the paper kite-like thought that it might be Lu Xi's call, and the girl must be happy. Paper Kite walked over slowly, slowly picked up the phone, Shen Yiran's name on the screen was so dazzling, Paper Kite didn't know how to tell her about Xia Yang's marriage, maybe it was better not to tell her.
"Hey, Yiran!" The paper kite, holding the mobile phone carefully, for fear of accidentally falling to the ground.
"Little kite, I received an invitation from Xia Yang!"
"What, how did he know your address?!"
Paper Kite couldn't believe that Xia Yang would still care about Shen Yiran, and he didn't believe that he would invite Shen Yiran to his wedding.
"Oh, the last time he came to E City on a business trip, he happened to come to our company, we met, Lu Xi is really happy, Xia Yang is a person worth entrusting for a lifetime!"
"What about you? Will it come? Will Gu Lingchuan agree to you coming? ”
"I... We broke up..."
"Broke up, why? When? ”
"Not long ago, he had another girl he liked."
"What about you?"
"What can I do, break up, since he has already proposed it, I won't keep it. Little kite, I want to meet you, before Xia Yang's wedding, is it okay? ”
"Okay, you come and live with me, when the time comes, we will go to Xia Yang's wedding together, and I haven't slept in the same bed with you for a long time!"
"Well, I'll go over today, okay?"
"Okay, I'll pick you up at the station."
At the bustling exit of the station, the paper kite, she recognized Shen Yiran at a glance, her tall and slender figure, thin face, and a pair of fox eyes with affection, I saw pity, like a blooming white lotus, fresh and refined, noble and elegant, even in a city with a group of beauties, it looks different and highly recognizable.
Shen Yiran walked up to the paper kite, glanced at Du Bin beside the paper kite, and then looked at the paper kite, "Your boyfriend?" ”
"Hmm."
"Hello, my name is Du Bin." Du Bin smiled and took the lead in stretching out his hand, Shen Yiran smiled, and also elegantly stretched out his hand to shake Du Bin, "Hello, I'm Shen Yiran, and I'm the little kite." ”