Ideal and reality, love and compromise, this is an eternal theme, but also a lasting battlefield, the winner wins, the loser loses.

I've always liked Che Guevara's phrase "Let's stay true to our ideals and let's face reality", leaving Huang Fei doesn't mean I have to give up. For many people, including me, Huang Fei's beauty is dazzling, she is a goddess, and it is a man's ultimate dream, since her heart already belongs to me, and we are already the most normal boyfriend and girlfriend, I want to give up for Mao?

However, the reality is that I can't give her a sense of security, and from time to time I will bring her trouble of one kind or another, and even put her life in danger.

So, I have to leave, take care of everything, make myself strong, and then, as Zixia Fairy expects in "Journey to the West", step on the colorful auspicious clouds, come to her, marry her - this is my purest thought.

I stayed at home honestly for nearly two months, so that even my mother disliked me, saying that such a young man, in his youth, stayed at home every day, and didn't do business, what kind of demon moth is this? In fact, she didn't know how important these two months were to me. This is a hungry absorption process, I have not had time to come down, and finally enjoy the treatment of retirement life, accompanied by me in addition to the Golden Silkworm Gu, Duo Duo and Little Demon Duo Duo, as well as my laptop that looks like an old antique today.

There is a very practical chapter in "The Twelve Methods of Suppressing the Mountains" called Fu Gong.

This chapter is the most informative section except for Gu cultivation, and it is full of pictures and texts, I had a lot of twists and turns before, I have no materials, and I have no mood, so I don't have time to study ghk. However, in the Yelang Sacrifice Hall, I heard that the third uncle of the miscellaneous hair said about the various benefits of the talisman, and when he was powerful, he was able to instantaneously spell, and his heart was itching, and he thought that there is such a section in my twelve methods, since there is a treasure mountain, why not dig it out and study the ghk one or two?

I bought cinnabar and smoke ink from the phoenix in Xiangxi, a wolf brush from Jiangxi, yellow rune paper, silk and my homemade smoked bamboo pieces from a spiritual sacrifice store in the city, and then set up an altar in the utility room in the backyard, and worship the southern Red Emperor and the black killing generals on the shrine (the altar can be set up with various faith gods, such as the Green Emperor, the Red Emperor, the White Emperor, the Black Emperor and the Vermilion Bird Xuanwu general, or the land, the mountain god and the city god, etc.; I inherit this lineage, respect the Red Emperor of the South and the black killing general, the Red Emperor is Shennong, the black killing general has different opinions, and the twelve methods believe that it is the ancestor of Jiuli who fought with the Yellow Emperor in Jiye, Chiyou. ）

Light incense and candles, place three plates of fresh fruits, three teas and three rice wines, bathe, change clothes, clean face and hands, and rinse your mouth.

After preparing a dry of tools for drawing talismans, clasping your hands together, wishing and praying, emptiness all distractions, concentrating on lifting the wolf pen in your hand, and starting to draw talismans. The whole process, sincerity, no distractions, immerse the heart in the field of "Qi", to imagine the arrogant existence of the gods believed, and the omnipresent power, will copy the pardon runes on the scanned map of the broken book nearly a thousand times, while describing, while blowing, the left hand that does not hold the pen also needs to be knotted with the Dharma seal (Sun Jun Jue, Moon Jun Jue, Tiangang Jue...... ）。

From the beginning to the end, it needs to be done overnight and in one wave. In this process, the slightest distraction, pause, or hesitation will be wasted, and a pile of useless garbage paper will be drawn.

In the process of pursuing this absolute peace of mind, it is actually a kind of cultivation and a kind of "Tao".

It was so difficult to draw that until mid-May, when my mother swept me away, I had only drawn five finished talismans, the kind of talismans that I could feel. These five talismans are two "Returning to the Past Life Spell" and three "Purifying Mind Spells", which are used to transcend the soul and calm the mind.

However, what hurts people is that the former can be solved by reciting a few mantras casually, and the latter ...... The effect is hundreds of times worse than a tube of tranquilizers.

I took these five lonely yellow talismans, looked at the thousands of pieces of waste paper in a room, and felt the urge to scold my mother.

The gap between investment and output is so wide.

It seems that my road to pretending to be a ghost and attaining mana is still a long way to go, and I can't find it up and down.

What's more, in addition to carrying runes on yellow paper, there are also peach wood, bamboo pieces, wood chips, silk silk, calligraphy on the tip of the tongue, and talismans drawn out of thin air...... All kinds of exquisiteness, the profundity of the study, exhausting a lifetime of hard work is difficult to study the GHK clearly. This thing takes time and life, and there are no shortcuts. What's more, I'm an unlucky kid without a master - extremely resentful! I thought of some of the singing voices in "The White-Haired Girl": "Other people's daughters have flowers to wear, and my family can't buy ...... with little money"

The circumstances of each family are different from each other.

In addition to drawing talismans, my main focus is on cultivating flowers.

Although he is still a little fool, after the accumulation of time, the diligent Duoduo is finally able to face the moonlight and stars, spit out the old and accept the new, eat the essence of the moonlight, swallow the charm of the stars, and stabilize the body. Even if I no longer "beat the spirit body every day with wicker branches and leaves dipped in rootless water, recite the mantra of purifying the mind for ten minutes, tie the seal inside, and recite the six vajra mantras of the Buddhist Guru Padmasambhava...... She can also survive these tedious tasks.

What is progress, this is progress.

At this moment, Duo Duo Mo said that the fruit knife is to pick up the kitchen knife and axe, and it is easy to look at the snail. Every time I would sit down and practice with her, she would practice "The True Explanation of the Ghost Path" and I would practice "The Twelve Methods of Suppressing the Mountains".

In the three chapters of the Forbidden Mantra, Worship to the Gods, and Solidity, there are methods for practicing qi. The qi training I am talking about here is not the imaginary supernatural power of "refining qi, building a foundation, forming a pill, forming a pill, being a primordial infant, and transforming a god" as the girl named Qin Wen on the train said, but a practice method that senses and allows oneself to coincide with the field of "Qi" that has always existed but is difficult to detect, and to complement each other. Scientifically speaking, this may be the harmonious resonance of the soul's waves in the particle, quantum state.

People have a way, and cats have a catway, let alone using the sound wave resonance of sound, communicating with the mind of a spatial god somewhere overhead, or letting this qi sense stimulate in the body, and temper the strength of tissue cells, are all practical methods. I felt bored at first, but when I really entered a kind of "mysterious, indescribable" door, I felt extremely happy.

How do you say and describe this feeling?

It's as if you're usually in a pigeon cage, seven or eight square meters of room that can only put a bed, wake up, wow! It took me ten minutes to walk from the bedroom to the kitchen - so spacious; For example, you are a homeless person who only has one steamed bun and one gruel a day, and suddenly puts you into a state banquet and eats as much as you want - so satisfied...... Well, forgive me for not being able to express this feeling in ordinary words, and then ignore it.

During that time, I had a very happy and fulfilling time, and the only headaches were two people, one was the little demon Duoduo, and the other was my mother.

The little demon Duoduo, this fox charmer, is not an idle guy when he comes to life, causing trouble all day long, yelling to eat human flesh, but until now, except for gnawing me in the hole, he has never been touched with meat, so he has been complaining, saying that one day he will go to mix with fat insects and eat human flesh first. She also picked, except for wanting to eat my meat, she was only willing to eat the little girl's meat, saying clean. So every time it was her turn, I had a headache, either seducing me or annoying me so much that I wanted to scold my mother. Finally, one day, she promised me not to cause trouble, not to make trouble, and not to eat human flesh, but to mix with fat insects to breathe, and I approved.

When she returned, the fat worm was triumphant, full of wine and food, and her face was pale.

I asked her what was going on, and she didn't say. I can't ask, so I won't ask, it is estimated that the food of the fat worm is really not acceptable to ordinary people, and even ghosts, which scares her. As a result, the next day, there were rumors of many good deeds in our town, and when they saw ghosts, they were convincing, and people were panicked for a while. Later, through the propaganda and introduction of the old man next door to me, the people who collided with evil spirits came to the door of my house one after another, begging me to be freed. My face was pale, but I complied.

Since then, I have never let this little fox out of the house.

Unexpectedly, my fame actually spread through the mouth of the countryside idler, and my reputation spread far and wide - this is undoubtedly very painful, and after a while, people came to my door one after another, seeking medical advice, worshipping Buddha, worshiping God, seeking incense, interpreting dreams, seeking marriage, and seeking heirs...... I was a little disliked at first, but I always thought about the villagers, and it was not a good thing to refuse with a black face, so I followed the recipe of the twelve methods, took it and practiced it, and tried while learning.

In the countryside, although most of them are scared of themselves, there are always some strange things, and I also take action to help solve them. There are some things in the middle that can actually be said, so let's not talk about it here, and then I will have the opportunity to complete it later.

After talking about the little demon Duoduo, he said my mother. In the past years, when I was wandering outside, she was both missing and nagging, and she wanted to tie me to the house, but when I really stayed at home, she had opinions again. Especially after Huang Fei didn't come to me again, she always nagged, saying how can young people always stay at home and get moldy? It's better to take advantage of your youth and go out more. Later, more and more people came to me to see the incense, and she had more opinions.

In her thoughts, engaging in these doorways of goddesses will not be on the stage after all.

At the beginning of May, Lan Xiaodong, a fellow villager of my fast-food restaurant and Shengtun, called me and said that he was going to set up a restaurant in Hongshan Xinpan, which was a bit big, and he couldn't do it alone, so he wanted to find me to partner to take over, and asked me if I had any intentions. I resolutely agreed, and then quickly packed my bags and prepared to head south. When you leave, the saddest thing may be the fat bugs. It refused to leave, refused to leave this small town with abundant food, and the life in the countryside made it fattened up a lot, and it was reluctant to leave, so it hid in the corner of my stove, and made it easy for me to find it for a while.

In its simple consciousness, leaving means that the journey of starvation is about to begin again.

But people always have to live, right?