Gu Bei looked at Heng Yan who was wrapped tightly in the rearview mirror, he didn't know how to comfort him, but Wen Han took the thermos cup on Gu Bei's car and handed it to Heng Yan and said, "Drink a little, warm up." ”

Hengyan looked at Wen Han, but after all, he didn't refuse, took the cup from his hand and held it in the palm of his hand.

Hengyan didn't need much comfort, and he didn't need the sympathy of others, he didn't know what to do with the mess in his heart now.

"Gu Bei, I think, I'll go to the train station now." Heng Yan turned his head sideways and looked at the pouring rain outside, and whispered.

Gu Bei was stunned when he heard Heng Yan's words, he only knew that Heng Yan was going back in a while, but he didn't know that this time was so hurried: "Now?" Will there be no more tickets? ”

"Gu Bei, you can send me over."

In this city, I don't want to stay any longer, as long as there is that person, Hengyan is uncomfortable and can't breathe.

I used to think that this city is fast-paced, and people come and go to give people a feeling that they want to realize their dreams here, but after staying for a long time, I found that in this city, the people at the top should be at the top.

Wen Han tugged at the corner of Gu Bei's clothes, and then glanced at him.

Gu Bei sighed and whispered, "Okay, I'll send you there." ”

At the beginning, Heng Yan told his parents that he was going to come here to break out of the world, brought a few changes of clothes and brought a person, and got off the red train like a stunned young man, at that time he smelled the breath of this strange city, and he smiled and said to it: "I'm here." ”

He came, stumbled for almost ten years, and now he was standing by the cold wind next to the railway platform with only one person and a poor coat, and he looked at the mobile phone with ten percent of the battery left, and only smiled bitterly. Ten years ago, if he had known that he had become what he is now, he should have stayed in that small county town and obediently did the stable job his parents found for him.

Not all of them have that much to mix with in the decade.

As the red-skinned train slowly stopped in front of him, he looked back at the crowd and whispered, "I'm gone." ”

The smell of instant noodles on the train, the crying of children, the sound of middle-aged women talking on the phone at the top of their throats, and the snoring of sleeping men, all of these things made Hengyan's nose sour.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry to let go."

Hengyan struggled to find his seat, then stepped over the fruit peel and sat down by the window.

He wondered if he would meet a person, two people who had a beautiful encounter, and then contacted each other, held hands, kissed, and finally walked into the palace of marriage, had a child, maybe raised a small animal, and then the two of them had gray hair and grew old together.

When he lived in Ji Mingyu's house, he thought about this, but he understood that he might really have such a day, but on such a day, the so-called protagonist could never be Ji Mingyu.

The old grandmother in the next seat looked at Heng Yan in a daze by the window, so she took out two oranges from her bag and handed them to Heng Yan and said, "Young man, are you in a bad mood?" You can take these two oranges and eat something, and it's fine. ”

"Thank you."

Hengyan took the two oranges, didn't peel them, and looked at them in a daze for a long time.

"You young people, you just like to make yourself uncomfortable." The old lady took an orange herself, peeled it off, and threw the orange peel into the plastic bag in the bag, "People live so long in total, why bother to live with a sad face every day?" ”

"Grandma, have you ever loved someone?" After Hengyan asked, he felt that he was a bit stupid to ask.

The old lady saw that Hengyan had come back to her senses a little, she smiled kindly and said, "I loved, why haven't I loved." At that time, he came to the township to teach, and I followed him, and I went wherever he went. ”

Hengyan looked at the old lady and looked at the happy expression on her face, and he asked softly, "You must love him very much." ”

"You young people don't understand the feelings of our generation, we at that time, a watch was broken, tinkered with many times, and it can still be used, but you people now, the watch is broken, it would be good to buy it again, the old watch was lost, and for you, the feelings were the same as this watch."

"People change, maybe it's really not necessarily better than the previous one, you will always think, if it's not suitable, then divide it, after dividing it, there is a better one in front, every time I feel that there is another person waiting in front of me, but I don't know where to go, it's a dead end."

The old lady's teeth were not very good, and eating an orange hurt her teeth, so she lowered her head and poured a cup of hot water and drank it slowly.

"Because of emotional matters, you frowned so deeply, right?"

Hengyan nodded embarrassedly and said "um".

"You guys, don't waste all this time arguing and getting angry, how long can the two of you stay in total, now the young man is saying at every turn that I want to live with you for the rest of my life, who knows how long this life is."

"There is this time, it is better to spend more time with each other, think back then, I took the green train for three days and three nights, from the south to the north, just to send my wife a big padded jacket made by himself, at that time was not as developed as now, the traffic was so developed, I took the train to get there, when I got off, the whole foot was almost numb and couldn't move."

Hengyan was just about to ask the old lady why her wife didn't come with her, when a middle-aged woman came over with a child and said, "Mom, why did you come here from the window again?" ”

"You are?" The old lady looked at the woman blankly, unable to remember who she was.

The woman looked at Hengyan and said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, my mother is a little senile, if I tell you anything nonsense, please don't take it to heart." ”

The old lady looked at Hengyan with a smile and said, "Don't be sad, young people have to be a little energetic." ”

"Mom, why did you come to sit by the window again?"

"I just want to see the places I've been here with my wife before, and bring that old man with me next time."

"It's all said, dad is gone, dad is gone......"

"Nonsense, yesterday he told me that he wanted to accompany me......"

Heng Yan watched the old lady's back disappear into this carriage, he looked down at the two oranges in his hand, then peeled one and put it in his mouth, and the sweetness of the orange spread in his mouth.

This orange is so sweet.

Hengyan took his mobile phone and sent a text message to his parents, and then leaned against the window and squinted.

The old lady's words made Hengyan's messy heart suddenly find a place to dock, and it shouldn't be useless to escape.

The crowd disturbed by the train doesn't seem to have anything to do with him, it's time to go back and confess, whether it's a blind date or a marriage, Hengyan can't because he wants to escape, so marrying someone he doesn't love delays someone else's life, no one is taken for granted to be tied to you for a lifetime.

So when Hengyan knelt in front of the old couple and said that he liked a man, the old couple sat on the sofa and were stunned for a long time without speaking.

Heng Yan said that his father really didn't think that he let his son study wholeheartedly and put off falling in love as long as he could, and the result would be such a result.

Hengyan lowered his head and whispered: "Dad, if you want to beat or scold you, I really can't go on a blind date, I really want to marry a girl home, isn't it harmful?" ”

Hengyan's father picked up the cup on the table and drank a few sips of water with trembling hands, and it took a long time to say: "When did it happen?" ”

"Just this year."

Hengyan his father never expected his son to come home for so long to tell him the news, since he was a child, he has been very strict with Hengyan's family education, take care of this and that, he thought that he controlled his son's fate in his hands, and could let his son follow the road he paved, but just now, he suddenly understood that for so many years, he knew so little about this son.

I don't know if he is doing well in the north, I don't know if he has someone he likes, I don't know if he is happy or sad, I don't know if he works hard or not.

He only knew that his son had a job in the north, earned a lot, would send a lot of money home every month, and would call him a few times every week to tell him about the small things in life, but every time he asked him if he was doing well, Hengyan said to him with a smile and "Dad, I'm fine, everything is fine."

"What do you like...... That ......"

Hengyan's mother looked at Hengyan on the ground and stepped forward to help Hengyan up, but Hengyan insisted on kneeling on the ground, he raised his head to look at the old father on the sofa, and said to him in a tired voice: "Dad, he has someone he likes, that person is not me, I like him unilaterally, I tell you because I don't want you to let me go on a blind date, it's too painful to be with someone I don't like." ”

Hengyan's old father was silent for a long time, he didn't know how to answer his son, he noticed his crying and swollen eyes when he picked up Hengyan back today.

"Tired, aren't you?"

Heng Yan, who thought he would be beaten by his father, when he saw his tired old father, the sour taste in his heart dissipated.

"Dad, I want to come back." Hengyan lowered his head and couldn't bear to look at his elderly father, "I really ...... Tired ......"

"Get up." Hengyan's father stood up and looked at his son who was kneeling on the ground and said slowly, "Drink two drinks with me, no one has been drinking with me since you left." ”

"Dad, you're not ......"

Heng Yan remembered that his father quit drinking, and at that time, it was because Heng Yan said that he should drink less alcohol, live a few more years, and take him to live a good life in the future, so he obediently quit drinking.

"It's okay to have a drink." It's okay for Hengyan to go home, the north is so far away, Hengyan is working hard outside, and he is not at ease, "We haven't talked together for a long time." ”